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Snowfall from @jld71 for @samanddean76
Summary: With Jared’s help, Jensen remembers how to feel young again.
Rating: Mature
Pairing: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki
Word Count: 1,546
By My Side from @masoena to @jld71
Summary: Jensen hates office parties they are too busy and too overwhelming despite or perhaps because he is deaf. However, he loves Secret Santa and this year's draw is special because unlike last year, he drew Jared Padalecki; Director of Legal and Commercial Risk at Family Business Corp.
Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Pairing: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki
Word Count: 2,472
Santa's Delights from @chevroletdean to @bethmints
Summary: Dean is on a quest to introduce Castiel to the wonders of Christmas. When things don’t turn out according to plan, they just have to improvise.
Rating: General Audience
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Castiel
Word Count: 4,000
Fire In The Veins from @samanddean76 to @flanneledfae
Summary: Sam and Castiel have already exchanged their traditional gifts on Christmas Eve in the Bunker. But Castiel still wants to give Sam one last precious gift.
Rating: Mature
Pairing: Castiel/Sam Winchester
Word Count: 3,665
Give In from @flanneledfae to @morganadw
Summary: Jared helps Jensen relax as they prepare for Christmas dinner.
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki
Word Count:1,189
Poetic Justice from @bethmints to @hiighlighterr
Summary: Adam's gonna do it. He's gonna do what his brothers wouldn't. He's gonna kill Chuck Shurley. (A post-15x19 fix-it for Adam and Michael, with a murder husbands twist.)
Summary: Dean never imagined in a million years that he would ever be able to get pregnant– since he’s a man– but that’s what happens a year into his relationship with Castiel. His new husband dotes on him and lets him know how much he enjoys having him carry his child. Dean is nervous to tell his family, though, when they visit for Christmas, and isn’t sure how they will take the news. At least he has Castiel by his side if things go wrong.
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester
Word Count: 11,382
Oh Christmas Tree from @spnbabe67 for @sbwifey
Summary: At Ben's urging, you decide to agree to his suggestion of a getaway to one of his family's cabins for the Christmas season and Ben indulges in your love of decorating, including hauling a huge tree inside for you to hang ornaments on.
Rating: Mature
Pairing: Soldier Boy x F!Reader
Word Count: 2.4k
Frostbite from @sbwifey to @littlebunnybigheartfics
Summary: While on a hunt, you and Dean get locked in an abandoned building during a cold, winter night. You have to figure something out to stay warm in this harsh cold.
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Dean Winchester x Female Reader
Word Count: 1,263
Snow… And snow… And then more snow from @rien6769 for @chevroletdean
Summary: Team free will want to go to the Christmas market, but the weather has other plans.
Rating: General Audiences
Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester
Word Count: 2,838
(We're a) Couple of Misfits from @nightxcreature for @nekkiotine
Summary: It's the end of time and Chuck wants to decorate a tree for Christmas. With Croats breathing down their necks at every turn and Sam having been taken over by Lucifer, Dean just really isn't interested. Can anyone change his mind?
Rating: Not Rated
Pairing: Gen
Word Count: 2,034
Heaven Sent from @morganadw for @masoena
Summary: Sam Winchester knows he's in a bad place emotionally since losing Dean seven months ago. He took the sudden werewolf case in Helena, Montana, on his way to Christmas in Sioux Falls because he couldn't stand the thought of empty holiday rituals without his brother. He thought he had it under control—until he didn't.
Sheriff Beau Arlen doesn't believe in monsters. When coordinates are mysteriously texted to him, sending him into snowy woods overnight, he quickly learns not everything is as it seems after finding an actual monster and an injured man.
Sam hadn't expected to survive the werewolf or the freezing woods, nor to wake in a stranger's bed, looking into eyes hauntingly like his brother's.
Chance brings together two strangers whose sudden needs, combined with loss, mixed with mysterious texts, bring them together in a surprising way.
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Beau Arlen/Sam Winchester
Word Count: 11,431
For Just The Right Price from @hectatess for @avonlady42
Summary: Christmas time in the office means Dean wants to sneak out, but Charlie drags him back for Secret Santa. Dean just wants to pull Castiel’s name from the hat, because the man’s face when he is happy… that can fuel Dean's fire for ages.
Castiel doesn’t like Secret Santa. He always gives his all in a thoughtful gift, and receives stupidly practical gifts in return. If only he could make sure his giftee was Dean Winchester, the coding specialist that Castiel has been crushing on ever since they met.
Rating: Teen and Up
Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Charlie Bradbury/Meg, Garth Fitzgerald/Benny Lafitte, Gabriel/Rowena MacLeod
Word Count: 4,837
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Winter Bird from @hiighlighterr for @rien6769
Summary: The cold wind bit at his cheeks the moment they left the Bunker—not so much because it was cold, but rather because he hadn’t expected the gusts once they stepped out of the still air of the Bunker. Winter wasn’t something he was as familiar with, at least, on a physical level.
“I’ve seen snow, I’ve just never had what you call a ‘snow day’.”
Dean just stared at him.
Rating: General Audiences
Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester
Word Count: 2,059
Turn Me On from @littlebunnybigheartfics for @nightxcreature
Summary: Dean Winchester x reader, where reader unknowingly finds a cursed object. The effects? Causing everyone around her into having spontaneous orgasms when it's touched.
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Reader
Word Count: 6,574
_____ from @nekkinoia for @spnbabe67
Summary: You and Dean are celebrating the holidays by baking cookies, but you think you'd rather take a bite out of him instead.
Rating: Teen And Up
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Reader
Word Count: 1.104
Sorry, But I'm Gonna Have to Steal Your Boyfriend. from MulletBro for @sabriel4evah
Summary: When Castiel brings home his boyfriend for Christmas, Gabriel is instantly smitten. This tall drink of water is just his type. A little mean, huge, and has a great head of hair. But it'll be fine- Dean's not gonna hit on him anyways.
But when "Dean" seems just as into him. Well, Gabriel's gonna have a problem.
this is my Fanfic Writers of the SPN Fandom secret santa gift for @nightxcreature , I hope I did your prompt justice and I'm sorry it ended up being posted the last minute, I kept being way too critical of myself. I hope you like it <33 merry (late) Christmas and a happy new year!! x
Dean Winchester x reader, where reader unknowingly finds a cursed object. The effects? Causing everyone around her into having spontaneous orgasms when it's touched.
a couple uses of Y/N (im sorry im old school), misunderstandings and miscommunication, reader is a winter hater, cheating mentioned but not done, nicknames (sweetheart, baby, good girl, sweet girl), controlled orgasms technically, head (female receiving), unprotected p in v (not encouraged!), unofficial marriage, one non-sexual mentioning of feet, garter biting.
divider credits: @strangergraphics-archive
Life for you and your little found family was going good. Suspiciously, a little too good.
After settling down for a while by taking temporary residence at Bobby’s house, you were finally able to live a relatively normal life. Or as normal as life can be for a family of hunters. Dean had proposed to you on your four-year anniversary, and you’d said yes in a teary-eyed heartbeat. Sam was to be his best man, Bobby offered to walk you down the aisle seeing as your blood relatives were out of the picture, and Castiel was to officiate. It was going to be a wedding on the smaller side. But you were going to be surrounded by everybody you loved the most and for that, you couldn’t wait until your big day.
You quickly decided on a Christmas Day wedding. The reason being that the merry season had seemingly never been on your side. Between a lack of familial connections and seasonal depression, this time of year was normally dreadful and anything but holly jolly. Having to face how lonely this lifestyle seemed to be at every turn with the constant reminders that we should be gathering with loved ones. Not to mention, even the average side of it sucked—itchy skin, flaky hair, the sun peeking through the curtain cracks far too early for your liking, the Impala’s leather seats being freezing cold, and having to wear so many layers of clothing and brave an icy tundra just to go out anywhere. So you thought instead, why not make new memories and reclaim the time of year that has previously given you so many years of anguish at worst and annoyance at best.
With the big day right around the corner, that’s how you and Bobby found yourselves at a small thrift store, hunting for antiques that could work as wedding décor. You were taking your time, carefully nosing your way through the electronics section while Bobby was walking to and from the ceramics section, bringing you various trinkets and doodads, to which you kept scrunching your nose and shaking your head no.
Finally, after scouring through tattered desk lamps that had seen better days and floral lamp bases with crudely mismatched shades scattered about, you came across an ornate candelabra that had five twisted arms for candles. It reminded you of the kind that the wide-eyed and flowy-haired female protagonists would carry around the halls of gothic castles in the cheesy romantic monster movies you loved to watch on motel TVs during rainy nights. And the second you touched it, you just knew you had to have it. You could already picture it making the perfect centerpiece. You picked it up and briefly examined it for wear and tear, noticing a little card tied to it with a piece of crème colored ribbon. You opened the card, and it read “Turn me on.” with an illustration of lit candles and a strange symbol you'd never seen before. You brushed it off, figuring it must be the brand manufacturing logo. Before you had any time to deeply think it over, Bobby approached you with a sense of urgency in his step.
“We should, uh, get goin’.”
“But we haven't even gotten to-”
“Girl, ‘m not playing.” His voice was low, like he was supposed to be whispering a secret to you, and stern in the way that you knew it was best to just go along than to keep objecting. He shoved a few weathered twenty-dollar bills into your hands before heading out to wait in the car, grumbling some barely legible excuse about going to get the windshield defrosted.
You shrugged it off as you knew his knees acted up during the cooler months, and the fact that he was probably tired of waiting on you for hours. However, suspicions began to arise when the ride back to his house was uncharacteristically silent. You tried starting conversations, asking him questions about his latest hunt, asking him how he thought Sam and Dean were holding up while getting fitted for their tuxedos. Nothing got much of a reaction out of him, only a few mumbled words strung along by awkward pauses. Eventually, you just accepted defeat and turned the radio’s volume up a little louder to fill the open space.
When you got back to his house, Bobby went straight to his room. You went to the kitchen to look for his late wife’s old cookbooks that you knew he still kept in the cupboard collecting dust. You made yourself hot chocolate in your favorite mug and carried the pile of old 80’s cookbooks back to the table to begin scouring them for wedding foods.
It was hardly dusk when you heard that familiar sound of the Impala pull up to the lot and the quick succession of the boys’ talking amongst themselves gradually grew louder. The door opened and closed quietly, and their conversation shifted to strained whispers. Unbeknownst to them, it wasn’t out of your earshot like they’d intended. You briefly looked up from your book, expecting at least one of them to come barreling in through the kitchen doors any minute now to get a beer from the fridge. But when neither of them did, you turned your attention back to the colorful pictures of fruitcakes and minced meat pies.
“Dude, I swear it—just like that.” Sam said, his voice a mixture of confused and in disbelief, “Out of nowhere.”
“Yeah, same here.” Dean sounded annoyed, if anything.
“Well, it's safe to say, we’re definitely not welcome back to that tuxedo rental.” Sam let out a low whistle.
“You’re telling me. Tailor Diane has probably filed a restraining order against us.” Dean chuckled in that sarcastic, dry way before his tone became serious again.
“But this needs to stay between us, got it? What (Y/N) doesn't know won't kill her.”
Where you’d previously been tuned out of their conversation, trying to focus on what ingredients were needed for a cinnamon bundt cake, your ears suddenly perked up, your attention shifting at the mention of your name and that suspicious sentence spilling from your fiancé’s mouth.
“Got it, understood.” Sam replied in his meek golden retriever tone.
Then, you could hear their footsteps disperse, and you promptly shift to pretending to look super engrossed in an artichoke casserole recipe, as if it were the most fascinating thing you’d ever laid eyes on.
“Hey, honey.” You greeted Dean, not needing to look up from the pages to know that it was him. You knew the pattern of those footsteps from a mile away.
“How was the tailors?”
“Good. Not bad. I mean, it was fine.” He cleared his throat while taking a beer from the fridge, just like you'd predicted. “How’d thrifting with Bobby go?”
“Well… I don’t know.” Now, you sat down the book and fully turned in your chair to face him. Dean took your mug from the table and put it in the microwave to reheat as he popped the cap from his beer and leaned against the counter.
“I thought all was well. But suddenly, out of nowhere, he just started acting… weird. Quiet. I mean, I know Bobby’s not usually a man of many words, but he’s never been so awkward around me before. Not even the very first day we met.”
When the microwave beeped, Dean sat your mug back down in front of you and sat across from you, kicking his feet up onto the dining chair and taking a swig of his drink.
“Strange day for everyone, then.” He said, partially under his breath.
You raised an eyebrow, silently prompting him to continue with his suspiciously brief comment. After a moment, he picked up on your cue and jumped up from his chair like something had bitten him on the ass.
“I’m gonna go, uh- take a shower. Long day, you know.”
“Need some company?” You shut the book in front of you with a smack but he was already out of the kitchen.
“Sorry, babe, not today!” He hollered from down the hall as he scurried away.
The next day started off strong, and it seemed that everything was back to its normal routine. Bobby was scouring some ancient texts, looking for answers to his current hunt, Castiel was appearing here and there out of thin air to ask you random questions about your preferences on wedding arrangements, and you’d given your blessing for Sam and Dean to have a bachelor’s night at the strip club. You trusted Dean and, if anything, having him not looming over your shoulder every two seconds allowed you a chance to focus on baking the cakes and cookies without him trying to swipe tastes of frosting or eating the ingredients you needed. Trying to bake sweets with Dean in the vicinity was just a recipe for getting absolutely nothing done.
“Is there any assistance you require, (Y/N)?” Cas tilted his head ever so slightly as he watched you fold some flour and sugar in a large mixing bowl.
“No, thank you, Cas.” You didn’t even peel your eyes away from the bowl as you made sure to thoroughly mix the batter. When you heard the angel swoosh away, that’s when you finally picked your head up and called him back.
“You called?”
“I'm so sorry. I just remembered- do you think you could get me five gold- no, red- candles? Pretty please?” You tried to cartoonishly bat your lashes at him like you were so instinctually used to doing when asking favors of Dean, but Cas had already left and come back in the time it took you to do that. You thanked him and wiped your hands off on your apron before taking the candles from his hands and strutting excitedly over to the candelabra you’d bought yesterday.
“Look at how pretty this is.” You picked it up to show him as you placed the candles snugly in the allotted spaces. “$5.99. Pretty good deal, I say.”
He immediately furrowed his eyebrows, “Strange. There’s something off about it.” He approached you and looked down at the object in your hands with fierce concentration, like as if he stared at it hard enough it would give him all the secrets of the universe.
“Hm? Well, antiques tend to smell off, but that’s just part of the thrift store charm.” You shrugged him off and sat it back down on the shelf before continuing with your baking.
Later that evening, once all the cakes were done and set aside on their cooling racks, you were curled up on the couch with the fireplace blazing a comfortable warmth. You'd decided on occupying your attention with a book since Bobby had declined your offer to have your annual Christmas movie marathon together. When the boys walked through the front door much earlier than you had anticipated, you picked your head up in surprise but once again they stayed in the hallway and spoke in hushed whispers.
“Great, now you’ve gotten us banned from the only titty bar within a hundred mile radius.”
“Me? I didn’t- I’m not the only-” Sam stumbled over gasps of disbelief at his brother’s accusation, “It’s your fault. You were the one making it way too obvious, dude.”
“Hey, it caught me off guard, alright? One minute, Ginger’s shaking her ass in my face, and then before I know it… one thing after another happens.”
That’s when you appeared in the entryway of the living room, looking at them with a mustered expression of faux naivety like you weren't just eavesdropping ten seconds prior. They just about jumped out of their skin when you appeared, as if you were the scariest thing they'd ever encountered.
“You boys came home earlier than expected.”
“I think a lot of things came earlier than expected.” Sam said, still staring at Dean with that tongue-in-cheek sarcasm in his tone. Dean just shot him a warning glance, not seeing the humor in whatever inside joke was being played out right now.
“Yeah, just tired tonight. This winter weather is really making me,” Dean force yawned, stretching his arms out like a cat, “Really tired. So, I’m gonna go hit the hay early.” He punctuated his sentence by giving you a chaste kiss on the cheek so brief that if you blinked you would have missed it.
That really set the scene for the week that followed. Each day, you hardly had a full conversation with Dean. You never thought you'd miss his stupid jokes, his badly singing along to songs in the car, or trying to talk with his mouthful. At this point, you'd take anything you could get if it just meant he'd look you in the eye again. You'd been looking forward to nothing more than cuddling up by the fire with him, anticipating the new chapter you two were about to embark on.
You tried to brush off all the worry to the best of your abilities. Your wedding day, of all days, should be the one day where you’re free from concerning yourself with any of the bullshit within your day-to-day life. However, life had a silly little way of seemingly always working against you. Suddenly, Bobby didn’t want to help you pin up your hair or secure your veil, Sam was conveniently too busy doing nothing important to be able to help you zip up your dress, Dean was absolutely nowhere to be found, and even Castiel hadn't been answering your calls since that day in the kitchen.
This holiday season was somehow even lonelier than the ones you had spent alone, because now the boys were constantly declining your invites to do anything. They wouldn’t even sit down at the kitchen table to have dinner with you. Bobby didn’t want to bake sugar cookies with you because he was too busy occupying himself with old books, Sam always had some weak excuse like exercising for why he couldn’t help you go shopping or wrap presents, and then there was Dean.
Dean. The worst of them all.
Your own fiance hadn’t given you so much as a kiss on the lips, much less a long look of acknowledgement. Even when you walked out of the bathroom wearing your new lacy nightgown, which you’d originally intended to save for the honeymoon but decided it might be best to bring out the big guns in such a dire situation, and all he did was tell you goodnight and promptly turn the lamp off.
This whole mess was wearing you so thin that as you looked at yourself in your partially zipped wedding dress and your hair half up and half down in a bird’s nest, you couldn’t help but break down into a fit of tears. The one day that everybody is supposed to be helping the bride and making sure her day was most special, and so far, it’s been spent avoiding you like you were sick with a plague.
Suddenly, Castiel appeared behind you, but you couldn’t see his reflection in the mirror through the blotches of mascara and eyelash glue that were clouding your vision.
“(Y/N), you seem to be in a state of distress.”
“That's putting it lightly.” You peeled off a fake eyelash that was falling off and Castiel looked at it with fearful concern, unsure of what magic you just enacted to be able to remove your eyelashes like that.
“I’ll get Dean.”
Before you could protest, he was already gone. You groaned in frustration, your heart feeling like it was twisting and contorting within your rib cage and your whole body was covered in goosebumps. You picked up the candelabra from your makeup table and threw it across the room, where it fell onto the bed with a dull thud. The object was supposed to be a beautiful reminder of the most exciting day of your life, but now just seemed to be mocking you by showing your disastrous state within its untarnished reflection. You turned back around and began trying to wipe away the smears of messy black makeup running down your face.
No more than three minutes later, Bobby, Sam, and Dean were gathered in your room, dressed in their tuxedos, slicked back hair, and clean-shaven faces.
“I thought it was bad luck to see the bride before the ceremony, but Cas said you were upset?” Dean sounded out of breath, like he’d just ran a marathon, and his face was flushed to match.
“Bad luck?," You scoffed, "As if these past few weeks haven’t been bad enough already?” You laughed sarcastically at how nonchalant and unconcerned Dean sounded by this whole thing as you threw your snotty tissue down in disbelief.
“You know what? No wonder I hate this time of year.” You stood up and collected your train in your hands, angrily bunching up the delicate fabric between your fingers until your knuckles turned red, a stark contrast against the white lace. “This whole holiday season, you know, the time of year where families are supposed to spend time with one another, you guys have been avoiding me and keeping secrets behind my back. You think I can’t hear you goons whispering in the hallway about God knows what? And Dean, don’t even get me started with you. I can’t even remember the last time we had-”
“Okay, okay! (Y/N) deserves the truth.” Sam stepped forward and started speaking, prompting Dean to grab his shoulder, shaking his head and mouthing ‘no’ while Bobby just looked at him with an expression that read equal parts embarrassment and deer caught in headlights.
“Dude.” Dean warned, his voice low but shaking with uncertainty.
“No, Dean. This has blown up and become ridiculous. I mean, she’s your fiancé, she deserves to know the truth.” Sam looked over his shoulder at his older brother, “And you know she’s proven herself to be accepting of all our bullshit over the years, why wouldn’t she be just as understanding about this, too?”
A thick, heavy silence fell over the room as the boys shuffled awkwardly on their feet while you just crossed your arms, readying yourself to receive whatever gut-wrenching truth bomb they were about to pull the pin on. When nobody spoke up soon enough for your liking, you decided to take the plunge yourself and ask the question that had been brewing in your mind since the guys had started having these secret, late night meetings to discuss something that was quickly hushed the second they suspected you were listening.
“Dean, be honest with me.” You lifted your eyes from the chestnut wood floorboards to find his dark emerald eyes that were clouded with some indistinguishable emotion, “Did you… cheat on me? With the tailor or- or one of the strippers?”
“Absolutely fucking not.” Now it was Dean’s turn to step forward, pulling your crossed arms out from their position in order to hold your hands within his. “Honey, there is nobody else in this whole entire, fucked up world who I would rather spend the rest of my life with than you. And I have been looking forward to this since the day I proposed. Hell, I’ve been looking forward to this day since the day we started dating. But to me, you’re mine whether or not it’s official in the eyes of the law or- or in the eyes of God or angels or any of that other bullshit. I don’t need a piece of paper or any holy entities blessing to make it known that I want to be with you, and only you. I would never even think of spending a night, or even a second, cheating on you.”
Now it was your turn to forget how to speak, as weeks' worth of pent-up emotion welled in your eyes, tears of relief replacing the ones of frustration. “So, then what’s with all the secrecy?”
That’s when, like a light switch, Dean shifted back to his blushing schoolboy act, forgetting how to speak and instead just fidgeting with your gloved hands within his.
“The truth is,” Sam started, prompting everybody in the room to turn to him.
“Recently, we- Dean, Bobby, and I- have been having some… man issues, you could say. Basically, uhm, every few days, very randomly, we all have these… well…” He made a particular motion with his hands and you raised an eyebrow in utter disbelief at the absurdity of what he was implying.
“You guys get boners?” You asked in confusion, “What’s exactly new here?”
“It’s not just that.” Dean coughed out, looking at the ceiling before whistling like a firework noise and using his hands to mimic explosions.
“You all came in your pants? Like teen boys?” You began to laugh lightly, the tears that had previously threatened to fall now rolled down your rounded cheeks, “And here I was thinking something really, really bad happened, like maybe you fucked a stripper. But instead, it was just in your panties.”
“Hey, watch it. It’s embarrassing!” Dean rolled his eyes at you, his face still flushed with embarrassment, “And worst part is, we never know when it’s going to happen.”
“What I don’t understand is why it happens at the same time for all of us. Even regardless of where we are.” Bobby finally spoke up, bringing the real questions to the forefront, “I mean, it don’t matter where it is. On a hunt, at a thrift store, the tailors, strip club, there’s not a lick of rhyme or reason to it.”
“And I’ve noted that the times of day are all across the board.” Sam added, “It makes no sense.”
“The candelabra.” Castiel suddenly appeared in the room, or at least finally made his ever-looming presence known. He was stood beside the bed, his gaze focused right where you’d thrown the candelabra just minutes prior.
“After I sensed a strange energy coming from it, I looked into it. It has been cursed with an ancient fertility spell. Whenever one touches it, it, well… curses… all of that persons loved ones into experiencing unstoppable pleasure.”
“A curse? So, how are we supposed to stop it?” Dean crossed his arms, more than ready for this spontaneous nightmare to be over.
Now, it was Castiel’s turn to look embarrassed, something that rarely ever happened. He adverted his gaze from you and up to the ceiling as if silently asking for forgiveness, a blush dusting his cheeks.
“The owner of the item must… well, they must follow the instructions. Light the candles and then perform a ceremony to appease the fertility Gods within the eye of its candle light.”
By this point, you’d looked over to Dean and noticed in your peripheral vision that Sam, Bobby, and Cas had already taken that as their cue to skedaddle elsewhere.
“Guess that leaves just us.” Dean rubbed his hands together absentmindedly, adverting his eyes to nowhere in particular as he got lost deep in a sea of his thought.
You sat on the foot of the bed, smoothing your dress out to the best of your abilities as your mind raced with finding the right words to say.
“I’m sorry I-”
“I should have-”
You giggled softly, a sound that felt like hearing his old favorite song after an eternity of silence. Dean couldn’t help but smile upon hearing it, the crinkles around his eyes forming in the way that never failed to ignite a fiery fondness within your heart.
“You go first.” You said, invitingly patting the bed beside you. But instead, he kneeled down on his knee at your feet like the day he proposed, placing his hands atop the expanse of your thighs.
“I should have just told you to begin with. It’s stupid, really. It was just so embarrassing, and I thought it would just go away on its own but... apparently it didn’t.” He studied as he spoke, the pearls and lace details that adorned your curves, “And now I’ve just gone and ruined your special day with all my bullshit lack of communication and not wanting to appear... Inadequate, you could say. I’m really sorry, darling.”
You smiled down at him and reached your hands out to gently brush your fingertips through his tresses, “Hey, it’s kind of my fault for picking out this cursed object in the first place. That's what I get for not being suspicious of mysterious symbols and cryptic notes. And I guess every time I touched it, it was kind of torture for you guys, huh?” You crinkled your nose in a sympathetic, second-hand cringe.
“Well, now, I wouldn’t say torture.” Dean held his hands up in mock surrender as you nudged him playfully in the stomach with your foot, “However, it would have been a much more pleasant experience with you around. The 75-year-old tailor and my friggin' brother weren’t exactly my ideal audience.”
You began peeling off your white silk, elbow length gloves, tossing them aside somewhere without breaking eye contact as you continued to giggle at the strange situation you’d found yourselves in.
“And let's just say, Miss Diane didn’t find the humor in it like you apparently do.” He tried his best to sound peeved, especially since he knew you’d never let him live this one down and would relentlessly tease him about this for the rest of your lives. But on the inside, he was just relieved to see you giddy and playful instead of stressed and tear stained.
“Well, I’m sorry I accused you of cheating. I really, truly trust that you would never do that. But I- I didn’t know what else to think when you guys started acting so weird.” You explained with slouched shoulders as you fidgeted with your engagement ring, “I mean, I would have never come to this conclusion.”
“Nobody would have.” Dean chuckled, “Let’s just break this curse once and for all, alright?”
You nodded and stood up, stepping carefully around the room to fetch a lighter from one of the bedside drawers. Unbeknownst to you, Dean had become mesmerized in watching the way you walked around. The way your train followed after your every graceful step, the way your gown was perfectly contorted and complimentary to your form. Even with your smudged makeup, it didn’t matter. Dean Winchester swore in that moment that he must have saved an entire country in his past life to be deserving of someone as breath takingly beautiful, patient, and kind as you are. He was so focused on the carefully calculated way you moved around the room that he hadn’t acknowledged your warning, your words sounding muffled and dreamy to his absentminded daze.
That’s when it hit him. The overwhelming, full body feeling that he’d been experiencing time after time again lately. He screwed his eyes shut, seeing blinding white dots as his fists clutched the duvet for dear life and his knees weakened against the wooden floorboards beneath him. Those beautiful grunts and groans you normally only got to hear when the rest of the house was empty were suddenly replacing the silence in the room. This seemed to go on for an entire minute, beads of sweat rolling down his forehead, before he finally steadied his breath and came back to some form of consciousness for his surroundings. That's when he heard your cheeky tone pipe up.
“This show is what you've been keeping from me?” You said with a particularly wicked glint in your tone, “On the second thought, I’m not so sure I want to get rid of all this power I can wield.” You hummed playfully as he felt the bed dip near where his sweaty palms were still steadying himself against the mattress. He shot you a stern side-eye, clearly not as amused as you were.
“Yeah, laugh it up. Just think, every time you touch that cursed thing it’s effected Sam and Bobby, too.” He rose back to his feet, kicking off his dress shoes and loosening his tie.
“Eww, shut up! La la la-!” You covered your ears as you lied back down among all the pillows and fluffy winter blankets adorning the bed.
That’s when Dean finally realized that during his distracted state, you’d lit the candles, shed your dress in a heap on the floor, and left yourself in only your special wedding lingerie. A strapless white bra that laced up in the front, matching crotchless panties, and an ornate, blue silk garter fit around your left upper thigh.
As much as Dean wanted to stand there admiring you til the end of time, there were other urgent matters he wanted to get to as he climbed onto the bed and made his way on top of you. His knees caged you in on either side of your hips and one of his hands found yours while the other roamed down your silhouette as he leaned down and captured your lips in a kiss. It had been so long without his attention that just a kiss alone was enough to drive you crazy, and you instantly regretted teasing him so much about his little predicament when you felt like you could very well come undone already.
You sighed into the kiss, letting go of all the worries, loneliness, and stresses of not only the past few weeks but of the past few years. None of it mattered, this unpredictable lifestyle, the daily uncertainty, the fear, danger, depression, and chaos that came with this line of work. None of it mattered because it all ultimately led you to this moment. Here. Now. With your husband - the only person in this whole world that could cure everything that ailed you.
When Dean reluctantly pulled away, he spoke softly, “Isn’t this a little unorthodox?” He chuckled but his mind was beginning to drift elsewhere as his eyes roamed over you, “Isn’t it tradition to wait until the honeymoon to do this sort of thing.”
“I think so… but,” You wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him closer, leaving ample space left between your bodies, “When have we ever done anything the orthodox way, Winchester.”
That brought another smile to Dean's face as he kissed you once more, harder and with more purpose this time. This time, there was less gentleness and more need. There were weeks of words unsaid and neglected affection, and this kiss was the unspoken apology. The proof that he truly didn't crave anybody else anywhere close to the way he did for you.
Dean's lips trailed down your jaw, making their way to bite the spot on your neck that he knew by heart. You threw your head back further into the pillows, arching your body into his. He took it as an opportunity to run his hands around to the arch of your back and pull your body flush against his, letting you feel the effect you had on him.
"Is that for the candles or me this time?" You huffed out breathlessly as he sucked on the delicate skin over your pulse.
"All you, baby. All you." Dean said each word between bites and kisses that trailed down to your chest, stopping just above where your bra started. His hands snaked their way up your shoulder blades until they reached your bra clasps and expertly unhooked them, releasing your breasts from the underwire digging into your ribs.
"God, I missed this. Missed you." He rambled like a man drunk on love in between bites to the swell of your breasts, hands snaking to the forefront of your torso in order to flick his thumbs over your already hardened nipples.
Your hands flew up to entangle in his hair, urging his mouth a little lower as he got the hint and replaced one of his hands with his lips. One of your legs wrapped around his thighs, trying desperately to pull him closer as you grinded up into his clothed hips. He followed your lead, sensing where you needed him the most and squeezed his hand in between your bodies to press his fingertips against your clit. You jolted and grabbed onto his shoulders, rolling your hips into his palm.
"You're doing so good for me." Dean whispered to you as he looked down to admire the way your body reacted so sensitively to even his slightest touches. "I'm so sorry I've been neglecting you, baby."
"Then shut up and make it up to me." You dared him with a bite of your lip, taking the chance to begin unbuttoning his button up shirt and dress pants with shaky hands. When he grew impatient, he sat up and tried to shed his clothing as quickly as possible, popping a few buttons in the process. You took the opportunity to discard your bra over the side of the bed, leaving you in only your crotchless underwear and garter.
"What's all this about?" He pulled at the little band of silk, watching as it snapped against your thigh and created a rippling effect across your skin.
"I dunno, I heard somewhere that it was a wedding superstition." You reached your arms up to find the bars of the bedframe, "But between you and me, I just wore it so I could watch you could take it off with your teeth."
That's when he smirked and wasted no time, propping your left leg onto his shoulder and running his warm palms up the smooth skin, daring to go so close to where you needed him the most. He ducked his head down, nipping the silk between his teeth and pulling it down your leg.
"Technically, you're supposed to do this in front of everybody." You giggle, reaching down to run your hands down his toned torso.
"Fuck that." Dean shook his head playfully, tossing the flimsy fabric over his shoulder before lying down on his stomach with your leg still hook over his shoulder. "Right now, I wanna be selfish. I want you all to myself."
You didn't have time to even think of a witty comeback when he immediately licked a stripe over your slit, your hands finding their way back into his hair as you whined. His lips began sucking on your most delicate muscle, igniting a heavenly lightening throughout your legs. All you could think to do was tug on his hair, coaxing him on to not only move his tongue faster but to add two muscular fingers into you. After weeks of nothing, your body was pushed over the edge the second he pushed them in to his first knuckles. Your legs wrapped around his shoulders and his free hand pressed down on your hips to keep you from squirming away as you came undone on his tongue.
"That's it, baby. Good girl." He chimed against your skin, his voice vibrating against you. "God, I missed your taste." He lapped up everything you had to give like a man starved.
Your chest heaved as you caught your breath as you pulled on his hair, ushering him to move up. And of course, your loverboy, with ever-the-need to please, complied and moved to hover above you once more. When he kissed you deeply, you tasted yourself against his lips and it caused you to whine.
Dean deepened the kiss as his hands moved to massage your hips, feeling your muscles unwind underneath his palms. When he could tell you were distracted and relaxed enough, he took the opportunity to slowly slide into you. The feeling had you gasping a sigh of relief. Finally, just what you'd been needing for far too long.
Meanwhile, Dean already looked strained, the little vein in his forehead becoming prominent as he panted. "If you need time to adjust-"
"No, no, please-" You began frantically pleading, grasping at his shoulders for dear life, "I just need more."
Without needing anymore encouragement, he bottomed out with one hard thrust, causing you both to moan in sync. From there, there was no more holding back. Every thrust was equal parts erratic and calculated as the bedframe began to hit the wall each time. Your nails dug into the firm contours of his back, creating red crescent moons and leaving white pressure lines in their wake, but the stinging pain only made him hiss with pleasure and fasten his pase. Your nails were most definitely digging into his skin hard enough to draw blood, but he couldn't care in the slightest when he got to watch you lose all inhibition and let your mind get lost in the euphoria.
"Dean, I- I don't know how much longer." You managed to choke out before he leaned down to kiss you.
"I gotcha. Come for me, sweet girl." He panted against your sweaty skin, pushing you over the edge as you thrashed underneath him and screamed his name with nothing to hold you back. When he felt you clamp down around him, he let himself chase his high at the same time, emptying himself into you and filling you with a comfortable warmth.
Neither of you were sure for how long you laid there like that, sweat combining and limbs intertwined as you weren't ready for him to pull out just yet. A comfortable silence fell between you two and you began to think that he might have even fallen asleep. That is until you felt his thumb begin to softly trace absentminded patterns against the skin underneath your breast, right over your anti possession tattoo.
"You are anything but inadequate, Dean Winchester." You let out a breathy laugh, referencing his word choice from earlier. "Holy shit."
You felt him silently laugh, a huff of warm air fanning across your collarbone before he spoke groggily, “I’m sorry today didn’t go as planned, sweetheart.” He leaned up to kiss you on your temple, his arms wrapped protectively around your midsection.
“It’s alright. I'm here with you now, and that's more than good enough for me.” You glanced up at him, catching the sparkle in his eyes as he stared past you at something out beyond the window ceil. Your eyes followed his to see snow falling in steady flurries against a gradient of moody nightfall blues that couldn’t ruin your mood no matter how early in the evening it was.
You felt a warm kiss to your neck. You shut your eyes and lulled your head to the side, reveling in the serenity of this moment. No matter how cold it was outside, it was warm right here with the one you love the most, and you knew in that moment that the cold could never tear you down again.
After a moment you opened your eyes and were face to face with that all too familiar iron object sat on your nightstand, the flame had gone out, leaving that candles melting semi-dried wax all down the base and onto the glass tabletop. With his eyes closed and his breath steady against the back of your neck, you crept your hand out from under the covers with careful precision. Your fingers stretched out, wanting to just test the waters and see if the curse had been lifted. But even with his eyes closed, Dean could read you like the back of his hand.
Oh my god! This was the perfect mix of hilarious and hot! I’m so glad you picked this prompt. You did a phenomenal job with it and aced the character voices/reactions. 🤣 Thank you for this! I love it! ❤️
Congratulations on 5000 followers! A huge accomplishment and you definitely deserve it. 🥳 I want to join in on the fun and write something for your dicey celebration. Can I do 3 characters, 1 genre, and 2 tropes? And throw in some wild magic if you’re feeling it. 😏
(You can also have a spicy celebration with me later if you’re feeling that, too. 👉🏼👈🏼)
Thank you, sweets! <33 Excited to have you join the party.
If you want a spicy celebration, you have to roll for charisma... oh, wait, you broke the scale, that would be a natural 20, hehe
Your Wild Magic is a 72: Chevroletdean will draw a random tarot card. It or its meaning must be incorporated in the fic. I drew Temperance, the meaning of which can include “balance, peace, tranquility, harmony, patience.” This card often advises one to avoid extremity and suggests setting clear goals for what you want to achieve. In reverse, it could serve as a warning for upcoming turbulence or stand for “all or nothing.”
Your three characters are: Jody Mills (1), Dean Winchester (18), and Jessica Moore (13). Remember that OCs/Reader Insert Characters can always be included, and that it’s up to you whether the characters you got appear in your fic or are only mentioned.
For genre, I rolled Fluff (2)
Your tropes are: Soul Mates (4) and Kisses (14)
You have 1-2 re-rolls! If you’re unhappy with any of the above, let me know and I’ll throw the dice again.
FanFic Writers of the SPN Fandom - an end of year review.
Sal and I formed FFW with a dream: create a new space where SPN authors from all corners of fandom could come together and encourage one another's passion for writing. And yes, we know there are other amazing spaces like this in the fandom, some of which have even helped me grow personally. But we wanted something special for ourselves to call our own, and we just hoped others would want to tag along for the ride.
And boy, did you guys show up!
Not long after the first members of the Discord server started rolling in, we met Liane after stumbling across the Supernatural Writers tumblr community. Sal and I saw all the amazing work she was doing over there and asked her to be on the FFW mod team! And between the three of us, we came up with monthly writing challenges, prompts, fictober, kinktober, and more fun events that involved getting writers active and inspired. As our little server grew past 100 members, we decided we needed some extra help at the end of September. It was then that veteran/OG server members Annie and Betsy joined the FFW Mod team, and they've been kicking ass with us ever since! This group of moderators is literally my dream team. They're the heart and soul of the server that keeps our community alive! And I can't thank them enough.
What we've created in just a year's time.
As stated above, the original idea and inspiration for FFW was to create a Supernatural fandom space where ALL authors felt welcome, and I feel we've done exactly that. We have Destiel fanatics, reader insert authors, proshippers, original character writers, and everyone in between. We have authors from all tropes, ships, and experience levels from all over the world. We have artists, bloggers, and bang moderators - even teens who are just now discovering Fandom. All of this is YOU, all of this is US; our FFW family!
And what we have done this year has far surpassed our expectations. Together, we have contributed at least 226 new stories to the SPN fandom! And that's AMAZING! This number includes 27 monthly writing challenge fics, 13 one hundred member celebration challenge fics, 17 Fictober fics, 158 Kinktober fics, and 11 Secret Santa fics (and counting! Secret Santa gifts are still posting until December 31st!)
That's almost half a MILLION words! And that's an absolutely amazing accomplishment! Thank you all for participating in our challenges and helping us reach above and beyond what we could've ever expected for our first year on Discord!
What's next…
We have all sorts of fun coming your way in 2026: more prompts in our Monthly Writing Challenge, new writing events and challenges, a revamped version of our WIP Wednesday, bingo, and MORE! Your mod team will continue to collaborate and come up with new, fresh ideas to keep FFW a fun, inclusive, and encouraging writing community for both members old, and ones to come.
Thank you for being a part of our family! From your server staff,
Want in on some of this awesomeness? Join our Discord server here! We are open to writers aged 15 and older with minor-safe channels, as well as separate, hidden channels for the adults! There's something for everyone! With self assigning roles, easy to navigate channels, and constant writing activities, you will never be bored in the FFW server! We are a welcoming group and always ready to lend a helping hand!
I’m so thankful for @justwhisperingfantasies inviting me to this server and introducing me to some of the most wonderful people I’ve ever met. 🫶🏼 I can’t wait to see what everyone puts out next year and to watch the server grow even more!
Summary: It's the end of time and Chuck wants to decorate a tree for Christmas. With Croats breathing down their necks at every turn and Sam having been taken over by Lucifer, Dean just really isn't interested. Can anyone change his mind?
Characters: Endverse!Dean, Endverse!Castiel, Endverse!Bobby, Endverse!Chuck Shurley, mentions of various other characters
Pairing: None
Warnings: Mentions of grief, cursing, brief mentions of child neglect, John Winchesters A+ parenting
Authors Note: This is my FFWotSPNF Secret Santa gift for @nekkiotine and I'm so excited to finally post it! I used a few of the prompts you asked for from @castielscaplan and I hope you enjoy them. (Decorating a tree in an apocalypse, "I don't want to hear it. I don't.", "You can only lose so many people before you start questioning why you're still here."
Life has a funny way of kicking you when you’re down, doesn’t it? For Dean Winchester life doesn’t seem to ever want him to get up. First, his mom dies sending his dad into a decades long quest for vengeance with what seemed like little to no thought of the well-being of his two young sons. Beanie Weenies out of the can aren’t a homecooked meal and cable TV teaches a lot of things that the pre-pubescent mind would be far better to leave alone at times, but he’d survived. Then came the angels and the demons and the apocalypse along with all the self-righteous, power of the divine bullshit that they all spew. Had it been up to Dean, he would’ve ganked them all years ago and called it a day. But, like I said, life has a funny way of kicking you when you’re down.
It’s been several months since Sam was killed in Detroit. Or at least that’s what Dean’s been told; he wasn’t there to see it for himself. But word is that Lucifer took Sam over and the battle between the archangels took his baby brother down in turn. A heavy sigh leaves Dean’s lips at the thought and he shakes his head as if to rid it of the reminder. If he could get his hands on a good bottle of whiskey, he’d be three sheets to the wind by now. Sadly, with Heaven’s bounty on his head and Camp Chitaqua’s version of booze tasting like it was made out of Bobby’s left boot (it probably was), he’s shit out of luck.
Glancing out of the smudged window of his little cabin he catches a glimpse of movement down the path from the surrounding woods. He squints as he slips his pistol from the holster clinging to his thigh but pauses when a pair of familiar heads of dark hair round the corner toward his cabin. Chuck and Castiel are both hunched over, one lazily holding the crown of a scraggly excuse for a tree and the other juggling the trunk as he tries not to trip over the path below him. Dean watches for a second longer until Chuck finally trips, hitting the ground with a thud and taking several branches that the tree couldn't afford to lose with him. Dean’s heavy steps thud across the creaky floor of his cabin as he reaches for the door and swings it open.
“What the hell are you two doing?”
The sudden sound of Dean’s gruff voice pulls Chuck’s head from the dirt. His blue eyes lock onto Dean sheepishly as he scratches the back of his neck. “Uh, it’s Christmas?” He mutters as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world.
“What?” Comes Dean’s short reply. His brows furrow in confusion as he leans against the doorframe and crosses his arms. He hadn’t thought about Christmas in years. He couldn’t even remember the last time he knew what day of the week it was, let alone if it were a holiday. Shaking his head he adds, “Who cares?”
Cas’ eyes slowly lift from Chucks frame still sprawled across the dirt. Lifting the thin branch he’s still barely holding onto, he meets Dean’s gaze with a lazy smile and shrugs, “We thought we’d celebrate.”
Dean’s lip curls. He rolls his eyes as he stares down at the two below him. “Celebrate?” He spits the word as though it had personally offended him before continuing, “Celebrate what? We’re in the middle of the damn apocalypse!”
“Well, we haven’t had many morale boosters lately and Christmas just brings…” Chuck’s spill is cut off abruptly by Dean slamming the door to his cabin and stepping further out onto the porch. The toes of his boots stop just short of the first step as he towers above them.
“Morale boosters?!” He snaps as he flings a hand harshly out toward the smaller man, “You want a morale booster? Join one of Cas’s seminars with the ladies. Go for a damn walk. We’re not doing Christmas.”
“But…” Chuck starts again, pushing to sit up a little straighter.
Dean’s frown hardens. He points a single finger toward Chuck and shakes his head, “I don’t want to hear it. I don’t.”
Chucks face falls and he mumbles something incoherent toward the dirt. At the pitiful look on his face Dean almost feels bad for being so angry. Almost.
Leaning forward, Dean scowls again and spits, “What?”
“He said it’s his birthday.” Cas speaks up, shifting uneasily beside the scraggly tree.
“It’s his…” Dean stammers as he looks from Cas to Chuck and then to the sky. Running his palms along the rough fabric of his jeans, he throws up his hands and lets them fall roughly against his thighs, “What the hell…fine. Do Christmas.” He says quickly. He grimaces down at the limbs below them and adds roughly, “That’s a shit tree though.”
Chuck smiles suddenly, jumping up from the dirt and dusting off his pants before grabbing the trunk of the tree again. Sending a nod to Cas, he mumbles a quiet, “Thanks.” Cas nods once in return and lifts the other end of the tree to help carry it toward the middle of camp as Chuck’s voice fades slowly from Dean’s ears, “Man, it feels like years since I’ve celebrated my birthday…”
Another sigh leaves Dean as he watches them stumble down the narrow path. Resting his palms against the railing he closes his eyes. The familiar feeling of grief too often shoved down rears its ugly head and he has to fight the sting of tears threatening to spill.
Dean used to love Christmas. Sure, he never had a real Christmas, not one that he could remember anyway. But he’d tried his best to make things good for Sam as they’d gotten older. He’d stolen a few presents out of random homes when they were kids. Hell, he’d even snagged a Game Boy once from a kids backpack on the walk back to the motel during Christmas break. When Sam finally opened it, they’d holed up beside the creaky nightstand and played that thing until the batteries died. But, just like everything else in his life, it didn’t last long and was crushed under the foot of a Werewolf a few weeks later. Sam was devastated, but he pretended everything was okay. He always had.
Dean shakes his head and pulls himself back from the past and that heart wrenching feeling of missing Sam. He sinks down into one of the rickety old rocking chairs beside his window and watches as Chuck somehow coerces the others in the camp to help decorate his atrocity of a tree. Jane comes along with a handful of pinecones she’d snagged from the edge of the tree line. She tucks them in to fill the many open spaces, even supporting a few flimsy branches along the way. Stepping back she smiles at her handy work and pats Chuck on the back before turning away. Risa tosses a few mismatched shoestrings around it like garland, tying the ends together in tight knots when they fall through the gaps. Even Bobby carefully hangs a couple of rusty wrenches off of the few sturdy limbs he could find. He nods gruffly when they don’t immediately fall off. As Dean takes in the free entertainment the corners of his lips begin to twitch upward.
Heaving himself out of the chair, he shoves his hands in his pockets and begins to trudge slowly down the path. When he reaches the clearing, Bobby hasn’t moved. But, even with his back toward Dean, he speaks, “You here to help or bitch?”
Dean snorts and steps up to stand beside the old man. Shrugging, he replies, “Does it matter?”
It’s Bobby’s turn to scoff. His stern gaze settles onto Dean and practically cuts clean through when he snarls, “Yeah, it does.” He gestures around to the people still bringing random items to throw on the otherwise bare tree, “They need this. A little Christmas Cheer never hurt no body. You need this, Boy.”
The words are harsh coming from Bobby’s mouth and they strike true when Dean lets his eyes fall toward the tree trunk with a scowl. He knows he’s right, he knows he needs a little Christmas magic in his life just like his people do, but how is he supposed to celebrate when Sam’s gone? How is he supposed to be cheerful and happy when his little brother is no longer existent? How can anyone else?
His voice is quiet when he finally mutters, “It’s not fair.”
“Nothings fair, Boy!” Bobby’s sharp tone cuts in before Dean had even finished. As if he’d already known what he was going to say, “We’re stuck living in a world with Croat’s breathing down our necks any time we leave and Angels hunting us for sport even when we don’t! If you’re looking for fair it hit the road with the T.P.!”
Dean winces, opening his mouth to retort before Bobby cuts him off again, “You think I don’t know what this is about? You miss your brother. Everybody else may not see it, but I do. Hell, I miss him, too. But this is the hand we were dealt, Dean. This.” He gestures toward the scraggly tree in front of them now decorated with rocks, a few twisted bits of wire shaped like candy canes, and several torn up t-shirts tied up like bows.
A stunned look crosses Dean’s face and he shifts under Bobby’s stare. His quiet voice barely reaches the older man's ears when he finally speaks, “You can only lose so many people before you start questioning why you’re still here.”
“For them, Dean. You’re here for them.” Bobby replies as he shoves his hands into his pockets and looks around at the few stragglers coming up the path with their own decorations, “They need you. And, whether you like it or not, you need them.”
Dean lets himself take in the solidarity of the camp for a moment. The laughter and calm conversation that hasn’t rang in his ears here in years surrounds him now and slowly pulls the tension from his shoulders. He locks eyes across the small clearing with Castiel who nods toward the tree in question. Dean swallows at the unspoken suggestion and nods in return. He doesn’t have much, he never has, however, none of them do either. But where they lack in material things, they make up for in numbers. They do have each other. He drops his eyes to the worn boots on his feet and huffs. Bending down he begins to unlace one quickly and tug it from his foot. With a slow limp toward the scraggly little excuse for a fir he grabs the top and settles his upside-down boot snug onto the crown.
Cheers erupt from the surrounding camp members as he steps back and takes in the sight. A rawboned little tree with a few misfit decorations shouldn’t be this heartwarming, but damn if Dean didn’t find himself swallowing down tears again. Chuck sidles up beside him with a wide grin, practically vibrating with excitement and Dean has to bite the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing.
“I’m glad you decided to join us.” Chuck finally sputters out while nudging Dean lightly with his elbow, “It’s nice to know our fearless leader has a little holiday spirit left.”
Dean rolls his eyes, but slaps Chucks back firmly, “Don’t get used to it. I only did it because you said it was your birthday.”
“Yeah. Thanks.” Chuck whispers fondly, staring around at the beaming crowd around them and Dean can’t help but look around at them again, too. A band of outsiders brought together because of the downfall of heaven and earth may not be a cookie cutter traditional family, but right now it was good enough for all of them. With the sound of their laughter and offkey Christmas carols surrounding him, Dean couldn’t promise to be everything they needed, but he could promise to be enough. And somehow, he felt like enough was okay.
You found it so it’s meant for you, too! Thank you for reading! 💕 In the spirit of Christmas, I promise to keep all sharp objects (and stories) hidden away for at least a few more days. 😉
Summary: It's the end of time and Chuck wants to decorate a tree for Christmas. With Croats breathing down their necks at every turn and Sam having been taken over by Lucifer, Dean just really isn't interested. Can anyone change his mind?
Characters: Endverse!Dean, Endverse!Castiel, Endverse!Bobby, Endverse!Chuck Shurley, mentions of various other characters
Pairing: None
Warnings: Mentions of grief, cursing, brief mentions of child neglect, John Winchesters A+ parenting
Authors Note: This is my FFWotSPNF Secret Santa gift for @nekkiotine and I'm so excited to finally post it! I used a few of the prompts you asked for from @castielscaplan and I hope you enjoy them. (Decorating a tree in an apocalypse, "I don't want to hear it. I don't.", "You can only lose so many people before you start questioning why you're still here."
Life has a funny way of kicking you when you’re down, doesn’t it? For Dean Winchester life doesn’t seem to ever want him to get up. First, his mom dies sending his dad into a decades long quest for vengeance with what seemed like little to no thought of the well-being of his two young sons. Beanie Weenies out of the can aren’t a homecooked meal and cable TV teaches a lot of things that the pre-pubescent mind would be far better to leave alone at times, but he’d survived. Then came the angels and the demons and the apocalypse along with all the self-righteous, power of the divine bullshit that they all spew. Had it been up to Dean, he would’ve ganked them all years ago and called it a day. But, like I said, life has a funny way of kicking you when you’re down.
It’s been several months since Sam was killed in Detroit. Or at least that’s what Dean’s been told; he wasn’t there to see it for himself. But word is that Lucifer took Sam over and the battle between the archangels took his baby brother down in turn. A heavy sigh leaves Dean’s lips at the thought and he shakes his head as if to rid it of the reminder. If he could get his hands on a good bottle of whiskey, he’d be three sheets to the wind by now. Sadly, with Heaven’s bounty on his head and Camp Chitaqua’s version of booze tasting like it was made out of Bobby’s left boot (it probably was), he’s shit out of luck.
Glancing out of the smudged window of his little cabin he catches a glimpse of movement down the path from the surrounding woods. He squints as he slips his pistol from the holster clinging to his thigh but pauses when a pair of familiar heads of dark hair round the corner toward his cabin. Chuck and Castiel are both hunched over, one lazily holding the crown of a scraggly excuse for a tree and the other juggling the trunk as he tries not to trip over the path below him. Dean watches for a second longer until Chuck finally trips, hitting the ground with a thud and taking several branches that the tree couldn't afford to lose with him. Dean’s heavy steps thud across the creaky floor of his cabin as he reaches for the door and swings it open.
“What the hell are you two doing?”
The sudden sound of Dean’s gruff voice pulls Chuck’s head from the dirt. His blue eyes lock onto Dean sheepishly as he scratches the back of his neck. “Uh, it’s Christmas?” He mutters as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world.
“What?” Comes Dean’s short reply. His brows furrow in confusion as he leans against the doorframe and crosses his arms. He hadn’t thought about Christmas in years. He couldn’t even remember the last time he knew what day of the week it was, let alone if it were a holiday. Shaking his head he adds, “Who cares?”
Cas’ eyes slowly lift from Chucks frame still sprawled across the dirt. Lifting the thin branch he’s still barely holding onto, he meets Dean’s gaze with a lazy smile and shrugs, “We thought we’d celebrate.”
Dean’s lip curls. He rolls his eyes as he stares down at the two below him. “Celebrate?” He spits the word as though it had personally offended him before continuing, “Celebrate what? We’re in the middle of the damn apocalypse!”
“Well, we haven’t had many morale boosters lately and Christmas just brings…” Chuck’s spill is cut off abruptly by Dean slamming the door to his cabin and stepping further out onto the porch. The toes of his boots stop just short of the first step as he towers above them.
“Morale boosters?!” He snaps as he flings a hand harshly out toward the smaller man, “You want a morale booster? Join one of Cas’s seminars with the ladies. Go for a damn walk. We’re not doing Christmas.”
“But…” Chuck starts again, pushing to sit up a little straighter.
Dean’s frown hardens. He points a single finger toward Chuck and shakes his head, “I don’t want to hear it. I don’t.”
Chucks face falls and he mumbles something incoherent toward the dirt. At the pitiful look on his face Dean almost feels bad for being so angry. Almost.
Leaning forward, Dean scowls again and spits, “What?”
“He said it’s his birthday.” Cas speaks up, shifting uneasily beside the scraggly tree.
“It’s his…” Dean stammers as he looks from Cas to Chuck and then to the sky. Running his palms along the rough fabric of his jeans, he throws up his hands and lets them fall roughly against his thighs, “What the hell…fine. Do Christmas.” He says quickly. He grimaces down at the limbs below them and adds roughly, “That’s a shit tree though.”
Chuck smiles suddenly, jumping up from the dirt and dusting off his pants before grabbing the trunk of the tree again. Sending a nod to Cas, he mumbles a quiet, “Thanks.” Cas nods once in return and lifts the other end of the tree to help carry it toward the middle of camp as Chuck’s voice fades slowly from Dean’s ears, “Man, it feels like years since I’ve celebrated my birthday…”
Another sigh leaves Dean as he watches them stumble down the narrow path. Resting his palms against the railing he closes his eyes. The familiar feeling of grief too often shoved down rears its ugly head and he has to fight the sting of tears threatening to spill.
Dean used to love Christmas. Sure, he never had a real Christmas, not one that he could remember anyway. But he’d tried his best to make things good for Sam as they’d gotten older. He’d stolen a few presents out of random homes when they were kids. Hell, he’d even snagged a Game Boy once from a kids backpack on the walk back to the motel during Christmas break. When Sam finally opened it, they’d holed up beside the creaky nightstand and played that thing until the batteries died. But, just like everything else in his life, it didn’t last long and was crushed under the foot of a Werewolf a few weeks later. Sam was devastated, but he pretended everything was okay. He always had.
Dean shakes his head and pulls himself back from the past and that heart wrenching feeling of missing Sam. He sinks down into one of the rickety old rocking chairs beside his window and watches as Chuck somehow coerces the others in the camp to help decorate his atrocity of a tree. Jane comes along with a handful of pinecones she’d snagged from the edge of the tree line. She tucks them in to fill the many open spaces, even supporting a few flimsy branches along the way. Stepping back she smiles at her handy work and pats Chuck on the back before turning away. Risa tosses a few mismatched shoestrings around it like garland, tying the ends together in tight knots when they fall through the gaps. Even Bobby carefully hangs a couple of rusty wrenches off of the few sturdy limbs he could find. He nods gruffly when they don’t immediately fall off. As Dean takes in the free entertainment the corners of his lips begin to twitch upward.
Heaving himself out of the chair, he shoves his hands in his pockets and begins to trudge slowly down the path. When he reaches the clearing, Bobby hasn’t moved. But, even with his back toward Dean, he speaks, “You here to help or bitch?”
Dean snorts and steps up to stand beside the old man. Shrugging, he replies, “Does it matter?”
It’s Bobby’s turn to scoff. His stern gaze settles onto Dean and practically cuts clean through when he snarls, “Yeah, it does.” He gestures around to the people still bringing random items to throw on the otherwise bare tree, “They need this. A little Christmas Cheer never hurt no body. You need this, Boy.”
The words are harsh coming from Bobby’s mouth and they strike true when Dean lets his eyes fall toward the tree trunk with a scowl. He knows he’s right, he knows he needs a little Christmas magic in his life just like his people do, but how is he supposed to celebrate when Sam’s gone? How is he supposed to be cheerful and happy when his little brother is no longer existent? How can anyone else?
His voice is quiet when he finally mutters, “It’s not fair.”
“Nothings fair, Boy!” Bobby’s sharp tone cuts in before Dean had even finished. As if he’d already known what he was going to say, “We’re stuck living in a world with Croat’s breathing down our necks any time we leave and Angels hunting us for sport even when we don’t! If you’re looking for fair it hit the road with the T.P.!”
Dean winces, opening his mouth to retort before Bobby cuts him off again, “You think I don’t know what this is about? You miss your brother. Everybody else may not see it, but I do. Hell, I miss him, too. But this is the hand we were dealt, Dean. This.” He gestures toward the scraggly tree in front of them now decorated with rocks, a few twisted bits of wire shaped like candy canes, and several torn up t-shirts tied up like bows.
A stunned look crosses Dean’s face and he shifts under Bobby’s stare. His quiet voice barely reaches the older man's ears when he finally speaks, “You can only lose so many people before you start questioning why you’re still here.”
“For them, Dean. You’re here for them.” Bobby replies as he shoves his hands into his pockets and looks around at the few stragglers coming up the path with their own decorations, “They need you. And, whether you like it or not, you need them.”
Dean lets himself take in the solidarity of the camp for a moment. The laughter and calm conversation that hasn’t rang in his ears here in years surrounds him now and slowly pulls the tension from his shoulders. He locks eyes across the small clearing with Castiel who nods toward the tree in question. Dean swallows at the unspoken suggestion and nods in return. He doesn’t have much, he never has, however, none of them do either. But where they lack in material things, they make up for in numbers. They do have each other. He drops his eyes to the worn boots on his feet and huffs. Bending down he begins to unlace one quickly and tug it from his foot. With a slow limp toward the scraggly little excuse for a fir he grabs the top and settles his upside-down boot snug onto the crown.
Cheers erupt from the surrounding camp members as he steps back and takes in the sight. A rawboned little tree with a few misfit decorations shouldn’t be this heartwarming, but damn if Dean didn’t find himself swallowing down tears again. Chuck sidles up beside him with a wide grin, practically vibrating with excitement and Dean has to bite the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing.
“I’m glad you decided to join us.” Chuck finally sputters out while nudging Dean lightly with his elbow, “It’s nice to know our fearless leader has a little holiday spirit left.”
Dean rolls his eyes, but slaps Chucks back firmly, “Don’t get used to it. I only did it because you said it was your birthday.”
“Yeah. Thanks.” Chuck whispers fondly, staring around at the beaming crowd around them and Dean can’t help but look around at them again, too. A band of outsiders brought together because of the downfall of heaven and earth may not be a cookie cutter traditional family, but right now it was good enough for all of them. With the sound of their laughter and offkey Christmas carols surrounding him, Dean couldn’t promise to be everything they needed, but he could promise to be enough. And somehow, he felt like enough was okay.
Summary It's Christmas at the Roadhouse, and Dean's playing Santa. Let's see if you can make it off the naughty list, and onto the nice list.
CWs Established relationship. Dean being a goof. Dirty talk. Blow jobs.
1.3k words
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“Is that a wreath made out of beer cans?” you ask, squinting across the bar. Ellen turns from where she’s cleaning a glass, then chuckles.
“Sure is,” she says with her deep, scratchy voice. “Dean’s idea.” You chuckle, then turn around, look at Dean where he’s readjusting his beard after taking a drink from his bottle. His white, fake beard.
“He’s really going all in this year,” you mutter, more to yourself than to Ellen. Red suit, his own boots, pillow shoved under his jacket to give him a big pouch.
You don’t know the half of it yet.
He makes everyone sit on his lap. He thinks it’s hilarious. Sam rolls his eyes so hard you’re surprised they don’t get stuck there as he carefully balances on one of Dean’s knees, long legs tensed so he needs to touch his brother as little as possible.
“And what do you want, little boy?” Dean asks, making his voice deep and super fucking jolly. You chuckle into your beer, shake your head. Making an idiot of himself to entertain the people he loves. How very Dean.
“I’m gonna need therapy after this,” Sam says to you when he finally gets up and stands next to you. After Ash has a turn and Bobby threatens violence to anyone even suggesting he sit on Santa’s lap, it’s your turn.
“Well, little lady,” Dean says in that ridiculous voice, pretty features and green eyes sparkling under the hat and above the beard. “Have you been good this year?”
You wrap one arm around his shoulders, bring your hand up to your face and tap your finger against your chin. Someone is turning up the music and everyone seems to be going back to celebrating, so you don’t need to lower your voice too far.
“Let’s see,” you say, wiggling your leg. “Killed a bunch of monsters, check. Didn’t litter, check. Blew my boyfriend in his car, mmh, fifteen times?”
Dean’s eyes widen, then narrow. He runs one hand up your leg, settling on your hip.
“Ooh,” he says, fingers pressing against you. “Any chance Santa can get in on that?” It makes you chuckle.
“Long as you keep the sleigh steady,” you reply, fingers drawing circles on his shoulder. “Wouldn’t want to hit a speed bump just as you’re real deep, huh?”
Dean - Santa - shifts, and you have a hard time hiding your shit-eating grin. You drag yourself closer to him, breasts pressing against his chest and his arm around you tightens.
“To be fair, Santa,” you say, wistful now, “that boyfriend of mine? He’s been kinda naughty, too.” Dean’s eyes widen, glimmering. He pats your hip where his hand still rests.
“Has he now?” he asks and you nod, suck on your teeth like you’re saying, tough, right? “What does he do?” You give a theatrical sigh.
“Well,” you say, “he says there’s no sex allowed in his car, but sometimes when we’re driving in it, he’s all cuddly and kisses me and strokes the inside of my thigh. Hence the blowjobs.”
Santa just nods along.
“And once, on one of those hot nights this summer? He drove me out to that lake near where Bobby lives, and he made me get on the hood and spread my legs.”
Santa shifts, pulling you closer, rocking against you just a little.
“And then?” he says, sounding almost like your Dean now.
“And then he ate me out!” you say, eyebrows high. “Out there, where anyone could have driven by. And I came so, so hard, Santa. Made a big mess on poor Baby. Can you believe this guy?” Santa huffs. Swallows audibly.
“Sounds like trouble, your guy,” he says, and you nod.
“Big trouble,” you say, keeping his gaze. “Real big. Like, needs to really, really get me ready before I can take him.”
You wiggle your leg, but really it’s just for Dean’s sake. You can feel him press his hips towards you.
“So,” you say, dragging the word out. “What should I do about it?”
And that’s what pushes Dean over the edge.
He pushes you up, grabs your hand, drags you over to the small hallway that leads to the restrooms. You giggle, follow along, and the second you’re out of sight of the rest of the party, the turns you, presses your back against the wall next to the gents’.
“Santa!” you say, but you can’t hide the grin on your face now. “What are you doing?” Santa’s busy grabbing at your legs, and then he pushes his face into your neck, the way his beard tickles making you squeal.
“Something about my sack,” he says, voice muffled, breath hot on your skin and your eyes flutter closed at that. “Can’t think.” You bite your lip, then push your hand against his chest, getting him off you. His pretty, bearded face appears and he’s frowning, at least until you move, push him so that he takes two steps back, hits the wall on the opposite side.
“Wh–” he says, but you’re already lowering yourself to your knees.
“Well, if I’m gonna make it on the nice list,” you say, fingers going to his belt, his face just so visible past the pillow pouch. “I better get to work, right?”
You bite your lip as your fingers make swift work of the black leather. Dean’s fidgeting, but you don’t let that distract you.
When you finally have him outside of the confines of his suit, hardening quickly, you lean in, wrap plush, wet lips around him, and it’s not the only part of Dean that goes rigid.
“Ah, f–” he groans above you, before his hands fly to his front, pushing at the pillow you can see when you tilt your head up as far as you can, Dean’s tip still between your lips. It doesn’t budge, so you close your eyes. Focus on the task at hand.
“Can’t, can’t see,” Dean mumbles, voice rough, and he must unbutton the suit enough to drag out the pillow or his eagerness actually makes it disappear into thin air, because a minute later, his hands, gloved, land on your head, and on the next bob of your head his hips twitch forward.
“Fuckin’–” he grunts as you keep your rhythm, don’t let yourself get distracted by Dean’s franticness at getting his dick sucked with everyone he knows just a stone’s throw away. “Oh, shit, sweetheart, you’re so–”
You move off him, the hand you were using to knead his balls going to his length instead, stroking, same slow, thorough speed.
“What’s the matter, Santa?” you ask, voice cheeky, mouth in a one-sided grin. “Isn’t this better than cookies and milk?”
And that’s actually enough to make Dean sputter, grin down at you, and his thumb in the cheap synthetic glove brushes your cheek.
“There’s gonna be some milk, you’re not careful,” he says. You make a face, wrinkle your nose.
“That’s fucking gross,” you say, and Dean huffs, then reaches for your hand. He pulls you up, lets go to put himself away, and at your frown he grabs for your hands again, pulls them around himself and you chuckle when your nose bumps into his.
“How about that sleigh ride?” he asks, only panting a little. You grin, then move one of your hands from where he’s still holding it, and pull down his beard until it slips under his chin. Your favorite face in the world greets you.
“Does that mean I made it on the list?” you ask. Dean chuckles, back to his usual cockiness, and leans in, lips brushing over yours.
“Darlin’,” he says, “they ain’t invented a list for chicks like you yet.” You giggle, then kiss him, your eyes fluttering closed. After a moment, Dean separates from you, but only to look around before moving down the hall, dragging you after him.
And out in the parking lot, in Santa’s sleigh, he still in his costume and you again in his lap, the other way around this time, lips meeting his over and over while you ride him like you were born for it, you finally make it onto the nice list.
Thank you for reading! ♡
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Okay, we’re trying something new, kids. I was chatting to the homies (@bettystonewell & @jollyhunter), and through an innocent typo I suddenly had the idea for a dirty Santa fic. Like, dresses up as the jolly old dude for a party, reader gets to sit on his lap, see what’s in his big sack, etc. etc.
HOWEVER, then the question arose - who am I gonna write this for? So, as a treat to myself, I wrote it for, well, all of them.
This is the first time I’m doing something in this format (same prompt for different characters), and it was SO much fun, so let me know if I should do it again!
Some of these are just a little bit sexy, some of these are smutty. But all of the fics below contain one dirty, dirty Santa.
Tbf he has A LOT of death dates, so a girl is bound to forget one or two. 😄
And (re tags) I never really liked that 5 year thing before the last episode, do you? You're saying they beat God and then just... did everything exactly the same? We sure that's not just JarPad talking out of his sweet little tush?
I liked the comfort of thinking "Canonically Dean is still alive." With that literal deadline over now, well, not a fan LMAO 🤣😭
Your friendly reminder that Dean dying on November 19th 2020 means he spent more time in hell than on earth. Friendly reminder that Sam lived longer without Dean than with him. Friendly reminder that I'm in the corner crying. I mourn that man as if I'd known him irl.
Art post for "Bad Moon Rising" by @nightxcreature!
I've been so ready and so excited to post this art based on @nightxcreature's fic for @xpurdyglambertx's first @thebennybang!
Fun fact, this was the first bang I ever signed up for as an artist. I was nervous, and still figuring things out on Procreate, but have learned so much since then, and have gone onto post art for other bangs in the meantime!
Link to Fic | Link to Art post on Ao3
Art also under the cut here -- hidden for implied nudity in one piece.
For the banner, I wanted to play with a version of the hands from The Creation of Adam, but more Nosferatu-inspired with the Master's hand.
I was immediately taken by the imagery of Benny's "gift" in the gallery and could see it so clearly in my head.
And I liked playing around with reflections: the moon in the swamp, Benny looking into his maker's eyes after he fed.
Make sure to go read @nightxcreature's fic and give it all the kudos and comments it deserves!
Everybody look at this!!! My mind is blown at how amazing these pieces are. It’s like you climbed into my head and pulled the images right out, @entropic-saudade I’m so glad I got to work with you! 🫶🏼
Summary: Benny finds himself alone in Louisiana Bayou. He's beckoned by a strange voice to hunt and kill his prey before beginning a life with his newfound master, The Old Man. Follow Benny on his journey from the beginning of what should've been forever into his escape from Purgatory.
Warnings: Graphic depictions of violence, Vampirism, Manipulation, Purgatory, Angst
Pairing: Brief Andrea Kormos x Benny Lafitte
Word Count: 7,053
Authors Notes: Here it is! My post for @thebennybang Ahhhhh!!!! I've been working on this for MONTHS. I was so excited to sign up for this bang and I'm even more excited to be reading everyone else's work! This is hands down my favorite work I've ever put out, and I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I've enjoyed writing it! Thank you to @entropic-saudade for all the time and effort you put into the wonderful artwork for this piece. Found Here or Here. And thank you for being so kind and understanding when I had no idea how to do anything bang related. You're a phenomenal human and I'm glad we got the chance to work together!
Also, shout out to yubug for betaing this for me. I'll work on toning down my comma's more often. ;)
His heart was racing. It was, he was sure of it. But he was also sure it had stopped beating several hours earlier. Positive actually; The rush of The Old Man’s blood had flowed past his lips and stilled his beating heart while simultaneously throwing him into a life of unknowing servitude. Benny… Come to me… The voice surrounds him, coaxing Benny’s eyes to blink slowly open. His vision is hazy as he adjusts to the moonlight beaming brightly down on him in the desolate swamp land… too bright, too big, too much. Mud cakes his fingers, drying and cracking against his eyelids as he slams his palms there to block out the light. Too many noises, too loud… The chirping birds, water lapping against the trees, crickets singing, and…. someone crying?
His hands slowly fall from his face to hang loosely at his side as he frantically searches the surrounding tree line. Sharp eyes land on a rotten tree trunk where he finds a small woman cowering against the crumbling bark. She’s naked, her long brown hair wet and caked against her dirty skin. She places her hands tightly over her mouth as if to muffle her broken sobs in hopes that he hasn’t really seen her.
“Stop that.” Benny gruffly mutters, lifting his hands too quickly to cover his ears while the soft sound reaches them like a scream, “Stop it!” He shouts, lunging forward abruptly. His outstretched hands grasp at air, the woman still too far to be reached. Nonetheless, she shoves herself flat against the tree as if that could camouflage her small frame. Her head shakes as he stares panicked down at her.
, “Please…” she whimpers, “Don’t…” He steps closer, letting his eyes trail across her naked figure. His gaze halts on her chest, noticing a small piece of paper nailed harshly against the skin there. ‘A Gift.’ It reads in sprawling font.
For you, Benny… drink… Comes the voice again, caressing the inside of his mind like a gentle breeze; you must drink.
Confusion racks his features until finally he feels it. His throat cracked, dry, raw… he could almost swear someone had taken the Sahara and shoved it down his esophagus with the heat of a thousand suns. He lets out a strangled groan, fingers clawing at his throat to rip the thirst away, “I… .I need….”
He swallows as his dark eyes settle on the note again. On the trickles of deep red blood slowly seeping from the wounds there. He trails his eyes from her chest to the bend in her neck. Watching as the artery there pounds deliciously beneath her flesh. Saliva pools in his mouth as he stares and he feels the fangs beneath his gums protruding suddenly. He barely hears himself whisper over the pounding of her heartbeat in his ears, “You should probably run...” And the thrill that shoots through him is electric as she stumbles to her feet. He’s never felt more ecstatic in his life. More powerful, more strong, more hungry.
Yes, Boy… hunt her…
His feet are quiet against the forest floor as he stalks after her. The voice whispering praises in his mind leads him through the trees like a horse to water. You’re a predator, Benny. My newest creation… Benny allows her space, time to feel like she’s made leeway, but he’s always right there. Watching, waiting. Her chest is heaving as her breaths come in short gasps and he quietly chuckles watching her stumble through the dark. She moves like a new fawn, tripping and splashing through the swamp land, jerky movements making her already tired limbs even more uncoordinated. He comes to the obvious conclusion that she isn’t from The Bayou, that she doesn’t know these lands the way he does. Even without the darkness surrounding them, she would be running blindly through this place. That thrills the monster in him even more, and he almost wants to continue this chase until the morning just to bask in her struggle… but he can hear her heart pounding loudly, like a siren’s song to his ears, and Benny can’t keep himself contained any longer when she trips over a root and tears open the flesh of her arm.
He’s above her before she takes her next breath, letting his tongue run slowly along her new wound as he pulls her arm toward his mouth. His eyes roll, and Benny is almost certain he’s seen God himself when the metallic taste of her coats his tongue. He groans and tosses her arm to the forest floor before leaning forward and letting his hand tangle roughly in the hair at the base of her skull. Her scream dies slowly as he sinks his teeth into her neck and allows the beast to take over. Her heavy breathing turns to gurgled gasps as he drains her, the taste of her fear a prize on his tongue., “Ca c’est bon.” He groans, tugging her small body harshly against his. He lets himself savor her, the taste satiating the beast with ease. Slowly, he pulls away the now empty source, wiping his hand lazily across his mouth while moving to sit beside her. He tilts his head to the side to stare at her glassy eyes, noticing the tears still wet on her cheeks. He pulls the handkerchief from his pocket and soaks them up slowly, cleaning her face and then trailing it down to soak up the blood still drying on her neck. “Pauvre ti bete.” He whispers quietly. His face is a mask of indifference as he stares at her cooling body, the mixed feelings of guilt and relief a stark contrast as they settle within in him.
“You’ve done well.” A voice comes from around him, inside him, and he jumps in surprise. The same voice that drew him here in the first place surrounds him in the darkness, “I chose well.”
Benny lifts his curious gaze from the woman’s corpse to settle on a dark-haired young man leaning casually against one of the trees several yards away. The Old Man smiles at him, the expression raw and, if Benny were honest, slightly unsettling. His piercing blue eyes settle on the body below Benny while He stalks smoothly toward them, the smile still on his face., “Did you like her?”
Benny nods, the mask of indifference returning to disguise the trickle of disgust blooming within him as he allows himself to look back down at the woman. He watches as The Old Man bends at the waist to rip the note from her bare chest, crumpling it as quickly as Benny had the woman, and tossing it to the side as He mutters, “Joie de vivre.”
He lets himself gaze down at Benny for a moment before he smiles again, “I knew you’d like the chase. Thrilling, isn’t it?” The Old Man says, squatting down to run His fingers through the woman’s brown hair, “Knowing they think if they just have enough guts, they’ll get away from us.” He sighs, lifting his hand to poke the woman’s now chilled nose in mockery, “They try their hardest, the poor things. But we’re predators, Benny. Top of the food chain. They’ll never last against us.”
Benny nods again, his eyes wide in admiration as he listens to the voice of his master. Top of the food chain., Benny had never been so lucky as a human. But now? Now Benny was a god. He could take what he wanted, do what he wanted;, he was immortal. He chuckles softly, that thrill running through him again. The Old Man smiles and Benny’s gut clenches,. “That’s it, Boy. You’ve got the bug now, ain’t ya? You’ll never go hungry again, Benny, not while you’re with me.”
“You ready to really live, Boy?” The Old Man asks, His hand outstretched to pull Benny to his feet. He gazes down with darkened eyes and suddenly Benny feels as if he has no choice. He places his hand in The Old Man’s and allows Him to tug him to his feet. The Old Man wraps an arm around Benny’s shoulders and sends him that sickening smile again, “We’re going to rule the world, Benny. Joie de vivre, indeed…”
And Benny believes Him. Because of course he does. This is a fresh start, a new world. A world where Benny is at the top of the ladder. No one can hurt him when he’s under the wing of The Old Man, no one would dare. Not while Benny’s with Him.
The years had been short, but the days long. The Vampirates, Father’s name for his children, had taken hold of many ports along the gulf. Benny had risen in rank over the years and soon found himself as The Old Man’s second in command. His primary job had him orchestrating a team to track down yachts meant for long journeys and bring the voyagers back home to share with the others…or suck them dry and let them sink alongside the boat. Board, burn, and bury, a simple but effective task. He’s been damn good at it, too, sinking ships across The America’s over the last several decades. The Old Man hadn’t been lying when He’d offered Benny the opportunity to live. The things he had seen and done over the years were just pipedreams when he was a young man living in the Louisiana Bayou. That scrawny kid could never have known the life he was meant for. But Benny found himself wanting more, needing more, the moment his eyes landed on her.
Andrea Kormos was supposed to have been rotting at the bottom of the Mississippi alongside her family, but fate… or perhaps just Benny, had other plans. He’d boarded her yacht like a bat out of hell, ripping the throats from crew members with ease. The pity he’d felt for his first victim had been long forgotten over the years as he’d drained life after life on the open sea, but the moment his eyes had met Andrea’s, every fiber of his being screamed for her. Not for her blood, not for the chase, for her. The beast had died that day and with it went Benny’s loyalty to The Old Man.
Her brown hair shook as she trembled below him, large doe eyes staring deeply into his own blue as his whole world shifted. She cowered beneath the wheel in the ships cabin. Her hand clamped over her mouth tightly and muffled her pleas, “Please…” Her quiet words reached him louder than intended and his heart clenched., “Don’t…” And this time Benny didn’t.
He squatted down in front of her, a timid smile on his face as he extended a hand in solicitude, “You’re safe, Cher chère,” h.” He mutters softly, his blue eyes wide, the wonder in them as a blind man seeing the sun for the first time., “You’re safe.”
She shrinks back but lifts the hand from her mouth toward him, letting it shakily settle against his stubbled jaw. She doesn’t speak, not yet, only stares at him in wonder with large steady eyes. And suddenly, Benny feels it. The cracking of his steel heart. As if someone had taken a chisel to it,; beating it to hell until all he could see was this beautiful, beautiful woman.
“What are you?” Her soft voice finally murmurs, and there it is… the only sound he needs to hear for the rest of his life.
“A monster.” He replies honestly, holding her gaze with a steady one of his own and waiting with bated breath for her reaction, “You should probably run.”
But, to Benny’s utter bewilderment, she stays. Her head shakes and she lets out a quiet, “No.” as her thumb runs along his cheekbone., “I don’t think so.” The wonder in her gaze, the curiosity he can see building within her, makes him wonder in his own way. What kind of woman doesn’t run screaming after being in his mere presence?
“You don’t?” He asks, leaning toward her slowly and letting his gaze trail across her trembling figure, “Why not?”
And if Benny was bewildered before, he’s shocked to the core when she smiles at him. Bright and beautiful and warm; The sun finally shining on his life again, “I don’t know. I can just tell.”
For the first time in what feels like centuries, Benny laughs, full and loud, as she replies. His head shakes when he reaches his hand out to pull her to her feet., “You don’t know anythin’, Chère. Nothin’ at all.”
She lets him pull her up, still smiling up at him curiously and in that moment, Benny knew that there wasn’t anything he wouldn’t do to see that smile for the rest of his days. No one would hurt her, not while she was with Benny.
He doesn’t know how it happened, but they’d done it. He’d gotten away from The Old Man and settled once again in the Louisiana Bayou, this time with the woman of his dreams. Andrea had left with him several months ago, helping Benny sneak out of The Old Man’s mansion and move into a small home. They were content, happy even, with the new life they lived. Benny had given up drinking from the source, choosing instead to drink from blood bags that Andrea’s new job at the local hospital made easy to come by. The taste isn’t the same, but he’s surviving. His life was peaceful; a small home, a large garden, lots of land, and Andrea. He finds himself falling in love with life again, with providing and loving someone again. He’d never thought a normal life was an option for him after he’d become the monster. He’d left behind his family when Father had taken him. His wife and children believing him lost to the sea and his parents long dead, this familiar way of living was something he'd never dreamed of finding again.
Benny glances out the kitchen window as he stirs the large pot in front of him and watches as Andrea’s tanned skin glistens in the sun while she moves around the garden. The large basket on her arm is full of vegetables, fruit, and grain that she and Benny had planted and nurtured themselves. They’re a good team, the two of them taking care of the land and each other. Benny had come to terms with the fact that he’d never have another child of his own, but he'd always been good at taking care of things and the garden gave him the opportunity to provide again. Growing food for his woman that he could spend hours picking, chopping, simmering, and serving to keep her full and satisfied was something that he couldn’t deny finding some kind of pleasure in. He was good at it, taking care of her, and he had every intention to do it for the rest of his days.
He'd been so lost in thought that he hadn’t noticed her enter their home again until she sets the basket down on the kitchen table and wraps her arms around his solid frame, “That smells nice.”
“I’d hope so, Bebe. I’ve had a few years to perfect this craft.” He teases, as he lets a hand fall to rest on top of hers.
He can feel her smile against his back, her soft laugh shaking them both until his own bubbles out of him. He turns to face her, wrapping his own arms around her and placing a soft kiss to her forehead., “Joie De Vivre.” He murmurs against her skin before nodding toward the basket she’d placed on the table., “What’d ya bring in over there?”
She turns her head to follow his gaze and chuckles as she pulls away from him to grab a single folded piece of paper tucked beneath the squash, “I think some of the neighbor kids have been playing in our corn.” She hands him the paper and chuckles again, “Must be hide and seek.”
The quizzical look on his face soon falls into despair as he unfolds the paper and reads the note. Found You. It reads in that same sprawling font he’d recognize anywhere. If his heart wasn’t already dead, he’s sure it would’ve stopped right then., “We need to leave.” He murmurs, as panic settles in his bones.
Andrea stares at him in confusion, “Leave? I told you it’s probably just the neighbor kids.”
“And I’m tellin’ you it ain’t,” Benny snaps, crumpling the paper and cutting off the stove quickly, “We need to go, Andrea. Now.”
You can’t run, Benjamin. The voice from all those years ago finds its way into his brain once again, slithering and settling there like it belongs, and Benny slams a hand to his temple. I don’t lose.
“Andrea, please.” He gasps, opening his panicked eyes to glance around the room. His gaze lands on the window behind her head where a shadow passes by, large and fast. He barely has time to throw her away from the window when one of his lost brothers barrels through the door and locks eyes with him, “Run, Andrea!” He shouts, though he knows it’s a lost cause.
A gift? The voice taunts manically, for me? You shouldn’t have.
Benny jumps in front of his brother with pleading eyes as Andrea runs toward the front door. Her body moves much too slow, too clumsy, and Benny knows she’ll never make it. He watches as another body slams through that door, a wicked grin plastered on the faces of family he’d abandoned so many years before. The hands of his brothers wrap around Andrea’s arms, pinning them to her sides roughly as she’s spun to face him. As panicked as Benny is, he can’t help but appreciate the steadiness in her breathing and the way her stare doesn’t waver from his own.
But he can only appreciate that for a moment when that slow southern voice fills the air, “Boy, it’s been a while.”
And Benny’s world fades to black.
His heart was racing, there wasn’t a doubt in his mind this time, he was positive. He couldn’t see much other than the moonlight filtering through the thin bandana over his eyes as he blinked awake, but he knew where he was all the same. His face hit the mud roughly, mouth filling with mud and water, as someone kicked him down into the swamp. He grunted in surprise as his hands grasped for purchase against the wetness below him. The sound of birds chirping, frogs croaking, and crickets singing filled his ears once more… along with, once again, a woman crying. Only this time, it was Benny’s woman., “No.” He groaned, his voice low and fearful, “No.” Fifty years had come and gone in a blink, but Benny’s faithfulness never wavered, never ended, not until her.
A dark laugh echoes around him and Benny winces as someone tugs the bandana off his eyes. His mud caked hands reach up to wipe at them as they adjust to new light and he shivers when he’s met with the piercing blue of his Father’s gaze. “Hello, Boy. Thought we could use a family reunion.” The Old Man squats before him with what could be seen as a heartfelt smile if it weren’t for his cold eyes. His hands are clasped lazily in front of him as he gazes into Benny’s tear-filled eyes with what looks like a hint of disappointment, “Stop that cryin’. It’s been a long time, Benny.”
Benny shivers again. That undying need to fulfill his Master’s every want seems to fill his every pore as Father watches him. Benny’s head shakes, his voice cracking when he finally speaks., “Please…” he pleads, tears falling down his cheeks in desperation, “Don’t.”
The wicked grin that Benny is granted brings with it that familiar nauseousness settling in his gut. The Old Man laughs, the sound both mocking and haunting, before he places a hand softly to Benny’s cheek., “I bet you wish you could run,” He mutters quietly, “Don’t worry, Boy, you’ll be spending a lot of time running when I’m done with you today.”
Confusion wracks Benny’s brain as The Old Man moves to stand. He gestures toward two men hiding in the trees who move to his side, Andrea between them. Her body shakes as hot tears stream down her cheeks and Benny’s heart clenches, his hands longing to wipe them from her face. Father glances down at him, that wicked grin still plastered on his young face. “Did you like her, Benny?” He taunts, letting a single finger trail down Andrea’s jaw., “I know you did.”
His other hand lifts to beckon someone from behind Benny and Andrea screams out. The terror on her face tells Benny what’s coming before he even feels the metal against his throat. He closes his eyes, swallowing thickly as he waits for the blow… but it doesn’t come. Opening his eyes, he’s met with the sharp gaze of The Old Man again and terror shoots down his own spine., “I told you we’re predators, Benjamin. It seems you may have forgotten.” He pushes to his feet and stalks around Benny’s slumped frame. The metal digs into Benny’s neck, but he refuses to make a sound as The Old Man continues;, “Seems like you thought you’d have enough guts to get away from me, away from us.” He stretches his arms wide as he makes his way in front of Benny again and Benny watches as a crowd of his brothers and sisters slip from the trees in dramatic fashion while The Old Man’s voice raises;, “I promised you life, Boy! Freedom! And what did you do with it?”
He turns to Andrea, his face a mask of disregard. Even with tears streaming down her pink cheeks, she glares while Father stalks toward her., “You chose this.” He gestures toward her harshly before gripping her hair tightly in his hand;, “Trash. Pathetic, weak, abysmal human.”
“You’re wrong.” Benny’s voice is hoarse when he finally finds it, but it rings out loud enough to capture Father’s attention. The Old Man’s head snaps in his direction, eyes dancing at the thought of a potential fight, but Benny just shakes his head weakly. “She’s not weak. She’s everything you’re not. They all are.”
A high laugh erupts from Father’s lips and he pushes Andrea to her knees in front of Benny. Benny lets his gaze settle on her brown eyes, taking in every fleck of gold sparkling in them as the metal digs into his neck again. She trembles in front of him before whispering, “I don’t want to die, Ben.”
And The Old Man laughs again, “She’s food, Boy. We,” He gestures around himself again, “We are the top. Predators, monsters, gods.”
“You never should’ve left me, Boy.” He sends Benny that sickly sweet smile again and pulls Andrea’s head back to expose her neck. Benny cries out, his body lunging forward as he watches The Old Man’s fangs protrude and sink deeply into her flesh, blood dripping past his open mouth. And then the metal pulls away, a single whoosh reaches his ears, and then….nothing.
Who knows how long Benny had been fighting for his life in this place. Too long, that’s for sure. But he’d just caught word of his ticket out. A man by the name of Dean Winchester had somehow found his machete slingin’ way into the depths of purgatory. How he’d managed that Benny may never know, but what Benny did know was that he would be convincing this Dean to let him hitch a ride through the only portal outta here, and he’d be paying a visit to the man who had sent him here in the first place.
Even all this time later, Benny can’t help but hold a grudge toward The Old Man, his Father. Killing Benny was one thing; he could live with dying, but forcing him to watch the love of his life be drained dry before chopping his head off… that was unforgivable. The only peace Benny had found in all of it was knowing that Andrea didn’t end up here. He’d never given in and forced her into his curse of being a monster, so he could rest easily, or as easy as one can in this place, knowing that she was surely somewhere more peaceful.
A commotion to his left causes Benny’s thoughts to be interrupted., Always something around here… he thinks to himself as he follows the noises slowly through the forest. The sound of a rushed heartbeat reaches his ears, and he stops short of a small clearing in the trees to hone in on the fight before him. He watches with intense curiosity as a man in a short leather jacket overpowers a younger vampire, pinning him roughly against a tree as he holds a blade to his throat. Hello, Dean Winchester…
The younger vampire snarls, baring his teeth at the man, but Dean just shoves the blade further against his neck and taunts, “Take a breath. Calm down.”
The vampire, surprisingly, listens. His fangs retract as he lets out a long exhale, and Dean takes the opportunity to speak again, “Where’s the angel?”
Angel? Benny thinks as he holds back a scoff, Ain’t no such thing…
The vampire smiles smugly, and Benny can feel his eyes rolling in annoyance as the kid murmurs, “You’re him. The human.”
Dean slams him roughly against the tree again, his question harsher than before when he snaps, “Where’s the angel?!”
He’s ballsy, that’s for sure. Benny leans back against a tree, still hidden from the hunter’s sight as he watches on., If this is how he treats his enemies, better to approach this…friendly…
“I don’t know,” comes the vampire’s voice, effectively pulling Benny’s attention back to the fight before him.
Benny watches a smug smile cross the vampire’s face as he answers, but the uptick in Dean’s lips causes it to falter. Stabbing into the vamp’s arm, pinning him securely to the tree, Dean leans over and picks up another, stranger weapon before swinging it with ease and decapitating the monster. Impressive.
The appreciation is short lived when another vamp lunges through the trees and tackles Benny’s ride out of this place to the forest floor. He watches in anticipation, hoping to get another glimpse of the human in action. Dean grunts as the vampire growls above him, slamming him into the ground and just out of reach of his weapon. Benny watches Dean’s hand flail for the blade before he sighs and throws himself into the fight. Can’t get through a human only exit if there ain’t no human…
His body slams into the raging monster with a thud and he finds himself rolling across the dirt in a tangle of limbs and teeth, before he settles over them and swings a blade of his own through their neck. Blood splatters across his white shirt, but Benny couldn’t find it in him to care as he bares his teeth down at the body below him. Heavy breathing reaches his ears from his right and he tilts his head toward the hunter in an unspoken question.
Neither say a word as Benny pushes to his feet and dusts off his jacket, retracting his fangs in solicesolidarity. Dean’s weapon is still raised in defense, the adrenaline still pumping through his veins as he warily watches the strange vampire before him. Benny can’t help, but taunt as he turns to face him with a chuckle, “What? No thanks for saving your hide?”
“Sure. I won’t shove this up your ass.” Dean retorts as he lifts the weapon in his hand higher above his chest.
A sound of appreciation leaves Benny at the man’s spunk and a slow smile crawls across his face. He begins to circle the hunter, eyes never leaving Dean’s form as he moves around him. “Awful strange way to punch your meal ticket, Friend.” He takes note that the man’s own gaze doesn’t waver, he doesn’t seem to falter or cower in fear of the monster before him; instead, he follows Benny’s every move as if he’d been training his whole life to survive the hell that they’re currently in. Skill like that alone won’t get him out of here though, “I got something you need.”
“Yeah? What’s that?” Dean scoffs as he continues to track Benny’s movements.
“A way out.”
A dry chuckle leaves the lips of the strange man before him and Benny’s growing smirk falters for a split second as Dean replies, “Even a dental apocalypse like you knows there’s no such thing.”
“There is if you’re human.” Benny interrupts, his smirk growing again as he watches the hope rise within Dean’s eyes. He presses on, taking the opportunity to add a little more fuel to that fire, “God has made it so. At least that’s the rumor.”
“Bull.”
“Suit yourself. Maybe you’ve gone native. Maybe you like being man meat for every Tom, Dick, and Harry,” Benny taunts as he fights the urge to shake off the monologue beginning to spill out with the same ease as it always had for The Old Man.
Dean’s steady gaze finally wavers, allowing Benny to watch hesitation steel the hunter for a brief moment before that same mask of defiance is back in place,. “Prove it,” he replies, pointing his weapon at Benny once more.
Benny chuckles and finally gives in to one of his father’s many lessons. “Nah,” his head shakes as he sends a smug smile to the hunter, “you’re either in or you’re out.”
Dean hesitates again before asking in obvious disbelief., “So, you just want to guide me outta purgatory out of the kindness of your undead heart?”
“More or less.” Benny shrugs, grinning as the wheels begin to turn in the hunter’s mind. It’s always so much fun to watch them work…
“What’s in it for you?” The hunter asks as he finally catches on to the other side of this deal.
“I’m hoppin’ a ride.”
The reply obviously catches Dean off guard as he deadpans and mutters, “What?”
“It’s a human portal, Jackass.” Benny snaps, a look of disdain on his face as he watches the man slowly begin to understand, “Only humans can pass through. I show you the door, you hump my soul to the other side.”
A beat of silence passes between them before the man scoffs lightly and sarcastically asks, “So, you’re looking for a soul train?”
Benny shrugs, “Sure. If that’s what you’re into.”
He watches as Dean considers his offer, the hesitation giving way to survival instinct. “And how do I know this isn’t a set up? How do I know I ain’t gonna end up like your friend over here?”
Benny’s gaze falls to the body beside them and smiles, “He was my friend. Now you are.” he meets Dean’s gaze with another shrug, “First rule of purgatory, Kid, you can’t trust no body.”
“You just asked me to trust you!” Dean exclaims, his hard glare holding on Benny as the vampire nods.
“See? You’re getting it now,” he replies as his smile grows into a smug grin.
Dean hesitates again, but steps forward eventually with the blade outstretched., “First, we find the angel.”
Benny scoffs, glancing away with a frown., “Mhm, three’s a crowd, Chief.” He faces Dean again with a smug expression that the human doesn’t return.
Barely a beat passes before Dean shrugs, smirking as he meets Benny’s eyes., “Well, hey,” his rough voice replies, “either you’re in or you’re out.”
Ballsy… Benny thinks again, as a slow smile crosses his face, I can work with that.
Time in purgatory passes slowly. At this point Benny could’ve been searching for the angel with Dean for years for all he knew, and they’d found nothing yet. Zilch, nada, zero signs of angelic power. Benny had tried begging, pleading, threatening Dean to just move along without the side quest, but nothing had deterred the human yet. So, here he was, axe to the throat of a werewolf torturing for information while Dean stood watch. Benny had come to respect Dean’s perseverance, slowly coming to the realization that if Dean were good at anything, it was fighting; and, to Benny’s surprise, he’d decided that if anyone were to have his back in this god forsaken place, he was glad it was the human.
Shoving off the tree trunk he faces Dean again and sighs, “I don’t think he knows, Man.”
“Oh, he knows,” Dean squats down in front of the trembling werewolf, that sheer determination in his eyes as he stares seemingly into the monsters long lost soul., “Where’s the angel?”
Shoving his blade against the throat of the creature, Dean’s jaw locks as his glare turns icy, “You feel that?”
A panicked noise leaves the monster, and he hurriedly replies, “There’s a stream! It runs through a clearing not far from here. I’ll show you!”
Benny swallows thickly as he watches as a small, slow smirk crosses Dean’s face. That unsettling feeling finding its way into his gut once again. The hunter’s voice lowers as he stares down at the werewolf with cold eyes, “How bout you just tell me?”
Benny watches the two silently communicate for a moment, the sheer terror in the creatures eyes was a stark contradiction to the hard lines of Dean’s glare, and Benny couldn’t help for a moment but to be brought back to that night so many years ago. Was this how The Old Man felt? Frozen in awe as Benny tore through that poor girl…shocked in the best and worst ways as he watched Benny chase and devour her… no, The Old Man was delighted when Benny had ended that girl’s life. What Benny felt now wasn’t elation, it was… worry? Fear? Something… new.
Benny’s brought back to reality when the werewolf finally replies out of desperation, fear, hope… Benny isn’t sure, but he does give them more information than they’d had in weeks., “Three day’s journey. Follow the stream, there’s a clearing. You’ll find your angel there.”
Dean turns toward Benny with a smug expression, and the mask of indifference that Benny’s become so fond of doesn’t budge as he shrugs in return. Panic for the hunter rises in his gut to match the impatience already present when Dean grins at the wolf and replies in a taunting tone, “You know what, Mutt? I believe you,” before sinking the blade of his knife through the creature’s jaw.
Choked noises reach Benny’s ears, almost identical to those of his first victim, and he glances at the forest floor to give the creature a small bit of privacy on his journey to… wherever they go from here. A loud squelching sound follows as Dean jerks his blade from the corpse and Benny almost feels nauseous. Shake it off… you’re almost out of here…
Three days went by quickly enough in this hell and they soon found the angel sitting beside the river as the werewolf had told them. Though the reunion was anything but happy. It seemed as if the all-powerful shield of God himself had run away from the monsters hunting them when he and Dean had crash landed here. And Benny, having grown fond of the human between them over their journey, had decided then and there that he wasn’t particularly interested in divine intervention anymore. Dean had refused when he suggested leaving the angel behind, so now they were stuck hiking through the treacherous forest with something of a monster bat signal stuck to their shoe. Benny can’t say that he’s disappointed to have Castiel with them; that grace of his has gotten them out of more than one hairy situation, so Benny can’t exactly complain. Annoyed would be a better word. It appears the angel is a magnet for every monster on this plane. They’d fought more in the little time since they’d brought him along than Benny had the entire time he’d been here.
And here he stood, chest heaving, beside Dean as they watch Cas fry another creature. Impressed, Benny mutters, “Well, I gotta admit he’s got his strong points, Dean. But holy hell if he ain’t a magnet.”
“Well, before we found Cas you said it was my humanity that was drawing too much attention.” Dean spits, facing the vampire with disdain.
Benny nods, bluntly replying, “Yeah, that too.”
The angel takes that opportunity to stumble over, mumbling monotonously, “Well, I think we’re clear for the moment. It does present a curious curl in the metaphysics, doesn’t it?” Benny glances curiously up at the angel as he continues. “If you murder a monster in monster heaven, where does it go?”
They all glance down at the body below them except for Benny who scoffs as he continues to stare at the angel., “And this is the crazy aunt I want to take on the road?”
“I am not your aunt.” The angel snaps, stepping forward to invade Benny’s space.
“What? Really?” Benny taunts. Unable to resist the opportunity for a little antagonizing, a small smirk tilts his lips as he watches the angel curiously.
“I have no possible relationship to your sibling offspring.”
Benny laughs, pointing his blade in mock disbelief. “Now you’re kidding me!”
“Oh, you two are killing me!” Dean’s voice pulls Benny from his taunting just before the angel begins droning on about them ditching him. Half listening, Benny watches the two interact for a moment before butting in when Castiel mentions the door, “You see, you’re an intact living human being stuck in purgatory’s craw,” he starts, silently praying to whoever is listening to his damned soul that this aggravating human will listen., “This dimension wants to spit you out, which is exactly what’s gonna power our escape pod.” He gestures between the two of them before shrugging as a smug grin pulls at the corners of his lips., “Now, I’m pretty sure I can squeeze through, too, because, after all, you take away the fangs and the fun, well… I was born human, too. But…” He gives Cas a firm look and the angel nods.
“I don’t think it’ll work for me.”
Benny silently thanks the universe and adds, “You hear what he’s telling you, Dean? Your buddy is saying…”
“Listen to me, you undead blood junkie.,” Benny’s mouth snaps closed in surprise as Dean cuts him off gruffly., “I’m the one with the mojo and I’m the one with the plan. Cas,” he says sternly, facing the angel with a matching expression, “we’re gonna shove your ass back through the eye of that needle if it kills all three of us.”
Benny shakes his head., That’s not a part of the plan… “Obviously, I’m less than uncomfortable with that,” he pipes in, a solemn look on his face.
“Too bad,” the hunter replies, and with that, he turns on his heel and starts trekking back through the woods, the finality in his tone settling within Benny’s bones.
Benny’s heart is racing, well, sort of. It hasn’t really beat in too many years to count, but if it could, it would be. They’d been hunting the portal for what felt like months and Benny’s patience was starting to wear thin. Every passing day, the itch to find The Old Man rages against him, and the fear that someone may beat him to it strings him up tight. His hope is slowly dwindling again as Cas’ monotonous voice pulls him from his thoughts.
“Maybe you were lied to. Maybe there is no seam,” he says, huffing through the trees behind Benny.
Over the weeks, Benny had grown more appreciative for the angel, or at least understanding of him, but the more he doubts Benny’s knowledge the more frustrated Benny grows. He shakes his head, “I lie. I don’t get lied to,” he snaps, glancing around the silent forest., “Aren’t you guys all about faith?”
“Not particularly,” the angel replies with that same level tone.
The three men glance around nervously when a strong gust of wind sends a leaf flying through the air past them. Watching it float along through the trees, Benny lets his gaze fall toward a glowing blue portal in the sky. He's almost positive he’s looking at God himself when he realizes what they’re staring at. Finally… You can’t run Old Man. I don’t lose. A wide grin crosses Benny’s face and he turns to Dean as a thrill courses through him. This is it. Almost home free… “Oh, ye of friggin’ little faith,” he taunts, staring over at the blue light again.
“What the hell…” Comes Dean’s surprised murmur, but Benny can’t seem to tear his eyes from the door even as the angel adds, “There it is. It’s reacting to you.”
Finally, he feels Dean’s eyes on him and pulls his locked stare to the human as he pulls a blade from his leather jacket., “Alright, you ready? Just like we talked about.”
The hunter slices his arm, crimson blood pooling from the wound and bringing that familiar sting to Benny’s throat. It’s easier now than the first time to ignore that burning heat when Benny glances up and into Dean’s eyes with a wary expression., “I’m putting a lot of trust in you, Brother…”
The hunter pulls at Benny’s long dead heartstrings when he replies surely, “You’ve earned it.”
Benny scoffs in denial, but the surge of pride that fills him at those words is second to none. He lifts his arm and allows Dean to slice his wrist before they lock arms, and Benny takes a moment to take in the first friend he’s had in decades. Squeezing Dean’s forearm, he nods and smiles softly., “I’ll see you on the other side.”
Dean returns his nod with one of his own before beginning to recite a spell. A language Benny had never taken the time to learn leaves Dean’s lips and Benny feels his body lock up, eyes and body glowing a bright orange, and then he’s sucked into oblivion with one final thought…
Dazed and confused it so good!!!! Dazed and confused part 2?
Oh my gosh! Thank you so much! 🫶🏼 We’ll see where any ideas lead me, but I do like it as a stand alone. I like to leave things to the imagination. If inspiration hits I may come back around to the idea. It could be fun to play around with their dynamic again…👀 Thank you for reading and enjoying it! 🥲
Here's my submission for the @spnbangbang! I signed up for this bang to try and get a little more comfortable with writing smut and I’m so excited to finally have this out and available so I hope you all enjoy it! (I'm very sorry about the ending. I love you all and I love making you sad.)
Thank you to @ncdover1285 for her amazing artwork (which you can find here) and for being so willing to answer any and every question I've had about this whole process. Working with you on this has been so much fun and I hope to do it again soon!
Summary: Dean Winchester has a panty kink. Reader has a Dean Winchester kink. Both believing they're alone in the bunker leads to some interesting ways to test the boundaries of friendship.
Warnings: smut, angst, pining, potential unrequited love, Dean Winchester is bad at feelings, Heartbreak, Rejection, Briefly mentioned Alcoholism
Word Count: 5,106
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