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11 more lbs to lose and I get a belly button piercing ahh

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I want to recover, a part of me really does. I feel ill 24/7 and it’s annoyed to have to give my eyes a minute to catch up with the world when I stand up. But I know I’m reality I don’t. I am not “sick enough” I am not at my goals and never have been close. So I’ll sit here with my counted calories and and empty stomach to say, I will recover. I don’t care what my old self has to say I’m done being upset all the time over something so small. I’m still a CHILD! Today maybe isn’t the day to start recovery, maybe today is a shit start to a recovery. But I will get there and recover from my whole ed.

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I bought myself some peanut m&ms that are 250cal, I’ve already eaten 260 and I don’t need them because I will binge and I am saving them for my trip I will not eat them I will not eat them I will not eat them

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Me and my friend are spiritual and I’m relapsing into my ed and she was putting her songs on shuffle and oh ana wouldn’t stop coming up until she played it… she literally said “why is this coming up for what reason do we need to hear this”