niko romanov

18+ hey, I'm Niko, and this is my forest. analog photography, shibari, playing kalimba, art etc. pantheist, bastard, freak, tramp. medical student. lover of nature and aesthetics. dream that one day I'll become a spirit. come to my forest, I'll treat you mysteries and tales

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some fishnet and butt and knife stuff // me by self

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after so many years still like to get naked in the woods

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so what was I supposed to do go back to the nudes from toilet

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I just show up here once a year, throw a post in the void and run away

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pretty old sacrifice // me by self

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film from September'22 - unnamed

Nikon F-301, Zoom-Nikkor 35~70   Isopan А160/24

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A lot of different things have happened during this time - I graduated from medical university (and entered the next stage of study), my lover has problems with electricity and we don't get in touch too often, I continue to take pictures on film, shitty laws are being passed in the country, the new year is coming soon.

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is the tumblr coming back??

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Sorry about the radiosilence. Well... in February, after passing the exams, I went home for the holidays. It was great, even though I was haunted by a strange feeling, a mourning feeling and a distortion in the perception of time. Then I went back to study, a new semester began. And then the war started. My beloved lives in Ukraine, and I live in Russia. Probably, this spring was the most fearful and absolute terrible period in my life. I'm very sensitive, especially to someone else's pain, and sometimes it is almost unbearable. Everything is fine now (as much as it is possible in such situation). I passed the exams, there are a couple more ahead of me. I'm waiting for the end of summer to go home. I don't know when my beloved and I will be able to meet. I can't plan my life further than a couple of months ahead. I really want to go back to shibari, it helped me once. Hope everything will be fine in the future

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ok I passed the exams and got the photo films for November and December!

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Half of the exams are over, it's funny to feel how much I'm breaking away from myself in this fuss. Again these days when you never look out the window

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ok, this year started with at least some shooting. I realized what kind of aesthetics I strive for in photography, but this doesn't prevent me from making small  gifs for my loved ones

[Niko] by self

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Autumn equinox, Mabon. I found a candle twisted from a sheet of wax with wormwood. The last week has been difficult, the onset of the dark half of the year is felt. Another cycle

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love this

nothing romantic, it's a bruise after my attempt to climb into the tiny window, which was high, since the door was locked and the keys were left inside

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film from August'21 - Be careful

Nikon F-301, Zoom-Nikkor 35~70 Helios-44M-7 Fujifilm Fujicolor C200/36

Crimea, the West coast, Sasyk-Sivash

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Bloody red from May

[me] by Mira

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practice after a break of six months

me by Whelp

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Tatiana Nikonova gone yesterday. She is a feminist activist, a sex blogger, one of the first in my country. She made so huge, invaluable contribution to the development of the femme movement and sexual education here. We didn't know each other personally, but she played a big role in my life and the lives of many of folks around me. Her death was too early and sudden, and it's very difficult for me to understand and accept this. I feel strange and broken and somehow wrong. I didn't think her leaving would affect me so much. We have lost a lot with her passing. I hope she will remain in our memory for a long time. I want to leave this note here, because I am unbearably sad and she deserves it.

And I really hope that her dachshund Lucas will be fine.