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love

love, something we all respect

when it’s time to return the favor, it’s something we never get

we either rush into things, or move too slow and end up hurt

and reminisce, bout the scent left on their shirt

being wrapped up in their arms or in between their legs

or how y’all fell off, and it’s something that you regret

if it’s real and you think it is

you’ll try stubbing your toe, no matter the rocks you kick

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we started talking again, so i guess i made progress

getting out how i felt about you in the right words was a process

i was sitting behind my screen, pondering

wondering how i could magically say the right thing, conjuring

but eventually it poured out

i spoke my with my heart and the words filtered through my mouth

so now i feel way better bout

where i stand with you, and letting our love run it’s route

told myself i wouldn’t text you for a week

but it’s only been 2 days, i’m feeling really weak

look i got a proposition for us both, hear me out, i’m serious, this isnt a joke

you said that we should just be friends, that don’t mean we gotta be sad, and mope around and spend our days in our heads

friends check up on each other and hangout when they can

we ain’t gotta do the latter if it’s too intimate, i understand

all i’m saying is check up on me and i’ll check up on you

i’ll crack a few jokes and ask if we’re cool

prolly ask to hangout and get turned down like a fool

as long as i can make laugh, i know cooking with fuel

i know that you’re scared and don’t wanna be hurt

your last nigga was pretty shitty and did you nothing but dirt

plus you were in the hospital with tubes up under your shirt

you got me praying to God cause i don’t know what will work...

i’m trying and i refuse to give up

i’d erase my chastity for you cause i give a fuck

feelings hurt and my stomach is queasy had wine with dinner but it all went down easy so why do i wanna throw up, i got a text message that registered with my gut talking bout, “i’m not ready” “gotta focus on me” “my mental & emotional health isn’t where i want it to be” i understand you were in the hospital and almost died i texted you and asked to visit, i was by your side but you decide to blindside and pull one over my eyes..... we talked every day, every night, every morning you missed sleep to pick up my call and stop your snoring even your parents know about me, what’re you gonna tell em once they notice you stop talking about me ? or did you even think that far ahead for an intelligent girl you make dumb decisions in your head but liking me was probably a dumb decision you won’t hear from me for a long time, division 

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