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[ninanoobee]

WHO WILL TELL TIM AND THE WRITERS THAT A DRAMA SHOW WILL HAVE SO MUCH FUCKING DRAMA IF BUDDIE WERE CANON????

like imagine any life-threatening or dangerous or reckless moment this season but make it 'buddie is canon pov' and it's a masterpiece, I'm crying, screaming, throwing up !!

buck crying over bleeding out eddie in the elevator trying to save him? yes please!

buck and eddie have a domestic fight over reckless on call behaviour after the bridge jump? give me two!

buck joins diaz boys after abuela passed away and learning traditions and culture? I'm here!

eddie waits with buck for news about theo and they have a talk of a possible adoption? oh please

buck deep searches for any possible solutions for immigration situation?

if you really want, eddie experiences crisis in his religious journey because it was complicated before but now he's dating a man and he's confused and shit but they talk about it and apparently buck is ready to go to the church for services of eddie wants and he is ready to listen to his uncomfortable thoughts and worries and they navigate this thing together and it doesn't matter now to what conclusion they come

eddie and buck going through withdrawal? and the consequences of it? and eddie is scared to death he's losing him and buck just hates himself because eddie deserves better and he's weak and useless?

the entire 'mother's boy' episode?? but imagine the level of terror and emergency and drama and the entire buck's sacrifice speech would be more dramatic and emotional

nashville mess?? but like to make them a power couple gossiping about literally everyone's business and ranking other houses drama?

they take ravi out to find him a girlfriend and have a fun night out + doing a stupid competition who can get more numbers because they're idiots and they're competitive and ravi has the time of his life

eddie buying buck at the auction? IMAGINE

you can create the entire arc from the buckley parents divorce. my option: buckley parents drop the divorce news at the restaurant, buck says "oh nice, well I have a boyfriend and a kid, if we just share things out of the blue now" or whatever. I can feel the silence at the table and a whole episode of 118 conversations and jokes.

them being distant in the finale because eddie is still learning to trust being vulnerable and buck is still learning that he's not too much. and eddie goes to "grab a coffee" and it takes three seconds before buck goes with him and finds him in the chapel. and he just sits with him silently and he listens when eddie prays out loud because he knows eddie is searching and he's here to support no matter what he finds?

excuse me? do you see the picture? I can literally think of every moment in the season and make it double dramatic by adding ONE ELEMENT. these are just ones I can think of without rewatching the season.

anyway, I'm upset about the finale, it was kinda underwhelming and literally 90% of the set-up didn't pay off.. I think I was expecting a more emotional and heartbreaking episode with many epiphanies and realisations and characters being highly affected by the situation.

okaaay s10, I still, somehow, 7 years later, have a hope

[sulietsexual]

"I'm not good at - at relationships or talking about stupid feelings, and - and you are, so maybe you could teach me or something, you know? Tell me what I did wrong."

Alex & Izzie [Grey's Anatomy 2005 -] Requested by Anonymous

[elainiisms]

that's MY emotional support female character from a shitty early 2000's drama!!!

[tswizzlesfan]

happy pride month to mr. be gay do crime and mr. be crime do gay 🌈

(ft andreil by @dshr-art aka actual perfection)

[911onabcbts]

The core four with Gavin on Saturday.

[ninanoobee]

they're so freaking adorable !! 😭

[ninanoobee]

but what was the point to make all these references and parallels to the previous seasons though? why to make so many and so obvious? am I going crazy or what? is it a setup for s10 because if not then what... if the dynamic shift in buddie and buck+diaz family wasn't on purpose to change it for something else then... what's the point of ruining a working unit on the show?

[ninanoobee]

something something after this shooting buck stays at diaz's just to help eddie around. he's taking the couch as usual but every night (only after 2am) comes to eddie's room and naps on the floor by the bed because he needs to check he's alive every time he wakes up (and he wakes up a lot). and maybe in a week or so eddie wakes him up and asks to get in bed already because, of course, he noticed, just didn't want to push or scare him away, needed to make sure buck comes to him first. but he doesn't and eddie can't stand watching him on the cold floor so he takes a first step. and maybe buck finally sleeps just a bit longer than half an hour at a time because eddie's hand is warm and his pulse is stable and strong under his touch.

[ninanoobee]

as a person with adhd, I feel so good just knowing that adhd buck is canon finally !! I have watched 911 for many years and I always saw myself in him, even before I got my diagnosis and it makes me very happy and joyful just to see it discussed !!

[ninanoobee]

I am so freaking excited and grateful and happy and crazy for all the parallels and references to the previous seasons, THAT'S SO DELICIOUS

the shooting next episode?? I am here for the drama, for the grotesque huge ending, give me suffering, give me bloody teary confessions and powerful acting and emotions, give me the insane power of love of these characters, I am so ready to cry

[ninanoobee]

when buddie are finally together, at first it's a neverending buck's anxiety called AM I ENOUGH? vs eddie's anxiety called I DON'T DESERVE IT

after all these years of waiting, wanting, hoping am I doing enough? am i good enough for him? is it what he wanted? does he regret it? he'd be better off with someone else

vs

after all these years I don't do enough, I'm too much or not enough, I don't deserve this, he deserves better. does he regret it? am I worth it? I'm not allowed to have something so good

and I bet they'll be spiraling and never talk about it

until one day they have a little domestic banter and they are tired and the shift was too long and maybe they get a bit too emotional over nothing. and maybe buck suddenly stops and says something like "I'm fucking it up again" and there is a silence for a few moments before eddie realises what he meant. and he doesn't know what to say because he never thought like that about buck. because in his eyes it's the other way around, he is the bad guy who can't enjoy this wonderful thing he got, he always messes shit up, he's always the one who doesn't say the right words, doesn't do the right things. and in his eyes buck is just a perfect partner, in every way possible, but especially as his first boyfriend. because buck is understanding and caring, he never pushes him, never forces him, gives him time and space (even if it means dating secretly for almost 4 months because he was just not ready to come out).

so eddie stands here and doesn't know what to say.

while buck goes through seven circles of hell because yeah, look, I do really mess up. he doesn't even know what to tell me. so his hands nervously shake and he scratches his thumbs, skin red and sensitive. because he is waiting for the inevitable, for the break up, for I-don't-think-we-work speech because he read online (one night, it was bad) that relationships coming from long-term friendships rarely work well and he is here waiting for the ticket out of eddie's life.

and they are just here, in their kitchen, late at night, dishes half done, chris long asleep, tv humming in the living room. and eddie looks at him and for the first time in 6 months sees him as his, his boyfriend, not just family, friend and partner but a lover. and it makes him so damn happy and comfortable that he smiles, feeling enormous weight lifting when he watches him here in their place.

buck is watching him smiling and can't help but look back confused, until eddie reaches his hand out and he takes it.

"you are absolutely the best thing ever happened to me, let's go to bed"

yes things are still a bit messy and it takes many long talks to quiet these anxious thoughts down and opening up is scary and so awkward to let someone so dear to you to the darkest parts of your insecurities. and over time they learn to trust one another's feelings enough to stop thoughts from growing into something big and terrifying.

[snowflake194]

911 really had an episode where they made it a point that eddie chose the water over the juice because he didn't feel worthy of joy only to later that same season have an episode titled don't drink the water where eddie could have taken the easy way out and left and gone back to texas that morning but instead he made the harder choice of flying his kid to la and apologizing and choosing buck and their family because the thing is when it actually came down to it it wasn't hard at all for him to choose joy

[yourlocalchronicdaydreamer]

An incomplete list of some of the actual storylines that have been given to the heterosexual character Eddie Diaz:

Feeling pressured into dating someone of the opposite gender to fulfil traditional family structures only to realise that he felt severe panic at the idea of a future with her and only ever thought the idea of them would work

His first relationship going south because he’d internalised all these ideas about what it meant to be a tough man

Directly linking his Catholic guilt to his inability to let himself feel joy and his unwillingness to have sex with a woman, respectively

Being constantly pressured into dating someone of the opposite gender despite being extremely unwilling to because it “feels like he has to perform”

Being a romantic rival in a relationship between two men

Being homophobically hate crimed

[ninanoobee]

"I think he's found a form of peace. Which is perfect to be honest because I think that's what you need before finding any kind of like love interest. You want to find that that peaceful moment and then love yourself and then move forward. And I think that could be the next step for him"

"And then as we move into season 10, I'm intrigued to see how Buck's life reshapes after the events of the finale. And you know, he's going to find himself in some new situations"

I'm freaking shaking, I can't stop thinking about these two bits of the interview... what will happen in the finale, that's so annoying I NEED TO KNOW NOW. these answers are so vague but the actors genuinely seem excited and pleased??? there are a lot of great plot possibilities that will drastically change the characters' lives and I hope some of the fans theories are going to be true (people here are super smart and always theorise the most heartbreaking and wonderful shit). keeping my hopes up (for buddie canon and just a good finale) ★

also the way ryan talks about eddie is very beautiful !! eddie's emotional journey is incredibly important and dear to me and to see him finally finding peace makes me happy. this man deserves all the good, seeing him healing and opening up gives me so much hope !!

[castiemrys]

so if there's a leak that buck will welcome a kid into his home

and we have some Shady Cop Guy along with this human trafficking storyline

could that mean that maybe. just maybe. that kid that buck takes in is actually chris? like if eddie gets detained, either presumed to be a part of the group of migrants or targeted by Shady Cop Guy?

extra potential for drama if we have a buddie almost-get-together just before eddie gets taken away

even more potential for drama if eddie's parents catch wind of it and want custody of chris and The Will gets revisited and the nature of their relationship gets questioned

(and then eddie gets back home ofc)

is this. is this anything

[ninanoobee]

I think a really cool idea for the final season of 911 would be a big LA fires crossover episode with lone star and nashville. not necessarily a final episode but somewhere in the middle just to highlight the major ideas of the show: comradery, support and loyalty. it would be really interesting to see the dynamics of the characters and you know to see firefighters fighting fires for ones.

and to be honest, I have no idea how the hell it's season 9 and we still didn't have LA fires... isn't it like a big well-known annual disaster in the area?

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

[poughkeepsiesjr]

thinking about evan buckley. evan buckley who fought to protect the dignity of the man who catfished and humiliated him. evan buckley who extended grace to the intruder who secretly lived in his attic and made a mockery of his grief. evan buckley who did everything in his power to not hurt the woman who tortured and abducted him and chose to empathize with her pain instead. who chose to donate his sperm even though it broke his heart to come face to face with a child that was biologically his but still gave him away to his parents with a smile on his face. who found out his parents hid a secret dead brother from him and the very first thing he told them was condolences for their loss. who carried his sister with him through every new state he crossed for three years without a response back. who spends hours talking to his baby nephew and coloring with his niece. who took harry under his wing in the absence of bobby. who his best friend knew he wouldn't have to ask permission to become legal guardian of his son because he could never doubt how much he loves christopher. who was willing to die or live a life in captivity if it meant eddie and chris would be safe and together. evan buckley who loves baking for his loved ones and knitting with old ladies and wearing clothes with hearts on them. My Good Friend Evan Buckley.