"brother, the day you realize your own sexiness and use it against me is gonna be the death of me," jack said with a shake of his head early in his and robby's relationship, during the days when robby acted like a blushing, bashful deer every time jack would compliment him, go crazy over his date night outfits, tell robby how stunning his body was, yes, even without a six pack, jesus, robby, you really don't know...
at the time, robby would just blush and scoff at the idea of such a thing, at the thought of a world where he did have that confidence.
a handful of years later, when they've settled into things, when they're married and committed for life, when they're as comfortable around each other as can be--that day comes. and it is indeed the death of jack.
it comes in many forms. robby stocking up on those tight tshirts he knows jack loves to see him in, the ones robby would once avoid wearing when jack stayed over because he thought they were too tight, too unflattering. jack trained him to see things otherwise.
robby wears those tshirts under every scrub top now, to bed when it's cold, in the morning when he's making them coffee, and jack gets so hard it's dizzying.
same goes for the shorts that ride up robby's thighs, the thighs jack will leave covered in hickeys and handprints, the thighs he loves to nuzzle into on his way up for a blowjob. same goes for the way robby does up his cufflinks when they're going to a charity gala, the veins in his wrist, the way he puts on his watch so effortlessly, shrugging into his jacket, opening the door for jack--all a recipe for jack needing to press him against the wall and kiss him until he looks claimed enough to be seen in public.
robby does it on purpose there, too.
he's doing it on purpose when jack is at work and robby sends him videos of himself jerking off, or a half nude from the bathroom, or pulling down his sweatpants a bit to show some hair before he goes to bed, or even just a thought about you tonight in bed at 10pm text which can only mean one thing. all of the above contribute to jack's early grave.
fucking christ, handsome, jack will reply, don't be such a tease. but he knows robby does it for this reaction, so jack has really fucked himself.
and then there's the way robby will fish for it, whispering bashful questions about what jack thought of his new cologne or that nude from earlier in the week, if jack liked it, if he got off to it, if his clothes smell like robby's cologne, if he doesn't mind that robby stole his shorts for a jog. he usually asks these things during pillow talk, or right when they wake up, both times that aren't great for jack's concentration.
"hitting me with my guard down, man, that's just..." jack will say, before he gets distracted by whatever filthy image of his body robby is putting into his head, and has to kiss him about it. "wanna get you naked." and robby goes along with that a lot easier than he once did. jack drags out the mirror to face the bed and robby no longer throws a fit. he lets jack give him a reacharound and whisper in his ear about how it looks. he lets him.
and there's that gorgeous, impish, blushing grin on robby's face when he gets the reaction he was hoping for, as if seeing it over and over is an affirmation that jack really does love and want him that much. jack is happy to affirm him, sad it took this long for robby to believe he's attractive, but fucking hell. the handover kisses, the teasing, the pictures, the early morning filth, the way robby singsongs i love you at 6am, the clothes he wears when they've had an argument and he wants jack to give in and apologize. he knows the power he has over jack, and he damn well uses it.
the smile alone will do him in. he wants to get drunk on robby's smiles, the real ones, the genuine spur of the moment ones when jack makes him so happy it bursts out. and he gets this happy from his husband affirming that he's attracted to him? he's really too much to handle.
"death of me," jack has taken to muttering under his breath whenever robby is pulling one of these moves. robby just chuckles into his mouth, giving him access to whatever part of his body he wants, because he's sort of, somewhat, finally accepted that jack loves and wants it all. jack is living the fucking dream.
ok, one of the things I love about the pitt is the ambiguity of characters. we get the bits of information but there are still so much we don't know and we have to connect the dots and speculate but we really don't know. and I think it gives a sense of realism but also helps to make all characters incredibly interesting. I want to know about each and every one of them but I'm not allowed. I want to know all their personal turbulences and traumas, their happy places, their love lives and break ups but the show very clearly separates the personal life from ER and forces this idea. also, extra points for absence of closure and ambiguously ended storylines. it kinda creates this feeling of 'taking a peek' into characters' lives and works great within limited time period we are witnessing on the show.
Robby doesn’t like to be touched, except he reaches out for Jack every time. Robby is walking around that ER getting his last affairs in order and no one bats an eye, but Jack takes one look at him and says ‘make sure you come back’. Jack finds comfort in the darkness, but knows that Robby doesn’t, so he asks to give him a call if it gets too dark. Robby has no trouble deflecting and joking every time someone questions his sabbatical, except when it’s Jack, who truly sees him, sees right through him, and suddenly Robby is shifty, and uncomfortable, and can’t hold eye contact. There’s truly no one else in the world who knows them better than they know each other.
genuinely i've always been an old-man shipper -- as evidenced by the fact that my celebrity crushes are like willem dafoe and jared harris -- but Robby & Jack have an INSANE connection. part of it is obviously the sheer chemistry that noah and shawn have, but it's also just this like... INTENSITY that jack has when he's looking at robby that is unbelievable to witness. so much of what makes their relationship so deep and meaningful for me is the non-verbal stuff. if jack is in the background of a scene, he is looking at robby. if he's in the front of a scene and robby is in the room, he's looking at robby. if he's talking to robby, he is trying to force robby to make eye contact with him because he knows that if he can look in robby's eyes he can see it right away.
he clocks robby's suicidal ideations before duke does, but he is scared of pushing him over the edge and he tiptoes around it until he literally can't do it anymore. jack knows robby. that's why he muscles in on robby's conversation with noelle, why he is actively watching him throughout all of season 2, and why he's such an effective part of pulling robby back from the edge.
additional evidence... the way jack pushes his head against robby's when they hug at the end of season 2 to maximize body contact and to force robby to acknowledge that he is loved. it's exceptional, and it's striking that the two moments of prolonged physical contact for robby are with heather (romantic past) and jack (dare i say... romantic present?)
Jack's subjected to watching Robby roll through fling after fiery fling, knowing none of these men or women will last, knowing exactly why they're not right for Robby, but keeping his mouth shut beyond an occasional eyeroll or lighthearted jab--nothing that will give Jack away beyond being the smartass friend Robby's always known Jack to be.
None of these bedwarmers really know Robby, though; not like Jack does. None of them has been with Robby through loss. Through pain. Through the triumph of an impossible, miraculous save.
Robby hasn't helped any of them through the agony of a missing limb that thinks it's still on fire, or devastating graveside visits, and none of them know that Robby's favorite sandwich from Primanti's is pastrami on rye with swiss and coleslaw, because it tastes like Sundays with his grandmother. None of them can see when Robby's self-recrimination has become self-loathing, and only Jack is willing to walk straight into Robby's wrath if it means Robby will still be here tomorrow.
Jack doesn't say anything when Robby cancels plans because the new plastics attending is free for drinks, or when he bows out of the Pens game because his Grindr app pinged. Jack knows what he and Robby have, and it's more than anyone else will get in their 7-week run.
Until everything Jack feels bubbles over. Until he can't bear the thought of another "someone else."
Robby is standing in Jack's kitchen, talking about some hook-up he's planning to see again, and Jack's not even thinking beyond an immediate, insistent, "No," when he bullies Robby against the fridge, a magnet clattering to the ground. He's got his body pressed against Robby's, using surprise and his upper-body strength to hold Robby in place. His thigh is already slotted between Robby's legs, right where it belongs, and Jack rasps, "He's not what you fucking need," just before he presses his lips to Robby's. Jack bypasses chaste or questioning or gentle, taking the kiss he's always wanted, making a needy, shocked sound into Robby's mouth when Robby's hand lands on Jack's lower back with a growl, pulling him even closer. Kissing back like maybe Robby already knew it should be Jack.
Wondering what the reason is for Jack being marked down as Robby's emergency contact.
Did he do that after Adamson's death, having almost lost Robby to grief?
Was it something they did for one another when they both had no one else left in their life years prior?
Or maybe something as easy as Robby being involved in an accident, wheeled in as a patient with no contact noted down. So naturally, Jack put himself down as his emergency contact without really thinking about it?
You think it happened with Jack cursing at Robby's bedside? Scared about almost having lost him and the reality of how he wouldn't even have been informed about it.
You think Robby had woken up to Jack glaring at him? Or Jack having given up trying to stay awake long enough for him to come to?
You think Robby would have shed a tear about seeing Jack by his side even if he'd been sure he would never see his face ever again?
The shame of having no one left to care for him mixed with the shame of forcing himself on Jack by having been found out. The shame of being a burden.
"I'm not good at - at relationships or talking about stupid feelings, and - and you are, so maybe you could teach me or something, you know? Tell me what I did wrong."
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but what was the point to make all these references and parallels to the previous seasons though? why to make so many and so obvious? am I going crazy or what? is it a setup for s10 because if not then what... if the dynamic shift in buddie and buck+diaz family wasn't on purpose to change it for something else then... what's the point of ruining a working unit on the show?
WHO WILL TELL TIM AND THE WRITERS THAT A DRAMA SHOW WILL HAVE SO MUCH FUCKING DRAMA IF BUDDIE WERE CANON????
like imagine any life-threatening or dangerous or reckless moment this season but make it 'buddie is canon pov' and it's a masterpiece, I'm crying, screaming, throwing up !!
buck crying over bleeding out eddie in the elevator trying to save him? yes please!
buck and eddie have a domestic fight over reckless on call behaviour after the bridge jump? give me two!
buck joins diaz boys after abuela passed away and learning traditions and culture? I'm here!
eddie waits with buck for news about theo and they have a talk of a possible adoption? oh please
buck deep searches for any possible solutions for immigration situation?
if you really want, eddie experiences crisis in his religious journey because it was complicated before but now he's dating a man and he's confused and shit but they talk about it and apparently buck is ready to go to the church for services of eddie wants and he is ready to listen to his uncomfortable thoughts and worries and they navigate this thing together and it doesn't matter now to what conclusion they come
eddie and buck going through withdrawal? and the consequences of it? and eddie is scared to death he's losing him and buck just hates himself because eddie deserves better and he's weak and useless?
the entire 'mother's boy' episode?? but imagine the level of terror and emergency and drama and the entire buck's sacrifice speech would be more dramatic and emotional
nashville mess?? but like to make them a power couple gossiping about literally everyone's business and ranking other houses drama?
they take ravi out to find him a girlfriend and have a fun night out + doing a stupid competition who can get more numbers because they're idiots and they're competitive and ravi has the time of his life
eddie buying buck at the auction? IMAGINE
you can create the entire arc from the buckley parents divorce. my option: buckley parents drop the divorce news at the restaurant, buck says "oh nice, well I have a boyfriend and a kid, if we just share things out of the blue now" or whatever. I can feel the silence at the table and a whole episode of 118 conversations and jokes.
them being distant in the finale because eddie is still learning to trust being vulnerable and buck is still learning that he's not too much. and eddie goes to "grab a coffee" and it takes three seconds before buck goes with him and finds him in the chapel. and he just sits with him silently and he listens when eddie prays out loud because he knows eddie is searching and he's here to support no matter what he finds?
excuse me? do you see the picture? I can literally think of every moment in the season and make it double dramatic by adding ONE ELEMENT. these are just ones I can think of without rewatching the season.
anyway, I'm upset about the finale, it was kinda underwhelming and literally 90% of the set-up didn't pay off.. I think I was expecting a more emotional and heartbreaking episode with many epiphanies and realisations and characters being highly affected by the situation.
okaaay s10, I still, somehow, 7 years later, have a hope
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