Quarantine life
My social life, travel plans, healthy eating habits, normal body clock, motivation, and will to live has suddenly disappeared because of the imposed quarantine. Maybe it escaped the country together with the P275 billion emergency fund for COVID-19? If that’s the case, then I’m really jealous! I also want to leave this country badly and finally get my life back! Sadly, almost five thousand Filipinos won’t be able to live their life anymore. It’s really terrible that this corona virus has indeed stolen a lot of things from us. I hope it rots in jail! Or should the president take its place? Just kidding (but not really).
So enough of the subtle satire, my life has already become a huge joke nowadays. But, I can also actually go on and humor my way through my despair and misery because I bet that it could be added to my coping mechanisms. Ha-ha! Im probably already in a state wherein I would do anything that will help improve my mental health. However, it’s such a shame that I wasn’t able to go to Manila Bay and see the amazing white sand, I bet that would fix my mental health problems instantly!
On a serious note, this 6 months-long quarantine has surely affected me negatively in a whole lot of ways. I get sad just by imagining the poor people who suffers a lot due to the incompetence of our government. Sadness with a mix of rage is not really a good combination, and I kind of got stressed about it almost all the time. And even though I would preoccupy myself with tons of Korean dramas, YouTube vlogs, and Netflix series, I can still feel the sadness and anxiety at the back of my mind.
I also had a hard time reaching out to my friends through online communication. I know it’s kind of ironic because social media sites/apps are supposed to be there to make us more connected to other people, but I feel more distant somehow. I also just realized that I often have a tendency to shut people out of my life whenever I feel down and I know that it’s not good. Instead of asking for help and seek comfort from the people I can trust, I still choose to struggle all on my own.
I may seem to be talking very pessimistically, so I would like to apologize for the negativity. I just really can’t force myself to think positive nowadays because I know that a lot of people are really struggling right now and many people even died. In addition to that, the future still seems so uncertain and things still aren’t really getting any better. So, I think that my motto in life right now became something like “think of the worst case scenario so that you won’t be disappointed to the things that are about to happen.” So that’s it for my blog about my quarantine life, im just glad that im still alive right now! I hope everyone would be able to stay safe, sane, and healthy!










