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Noah, He/Him They/Them, gay, 24 (I think? Sometimes I forget how old I am) Mostly just talking about BuckTommy. Posts are very much streams of thought, long, grammatically incorrect, and run on sentences.

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Saw a really good post summarizing the problems with 911 season 9 except it went on a tangent about B*ddie and said this

Hey what happened the last time the show added a gay character? Quickly.

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The “I would kill [gay character] with a gun” fandom when the show is suddenly skittish about adding gay characters.

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Here's the next part, not much Tommy but he's there at the end. Kind of ended up replacing the Buck and Eddie conversation from 6x12 with him talking to Hen. But yeah still not completely done with the things from 6x12 but I'm almost there. After I get done with this episode I think working through the others will take a little less time. But who knows I’m wordy and terrible at grammar so we’ll see.

Part 4

Buck didn’t know what he expected to come home to after his most recent therapy session, but it wasn’t this. Therapy had been productive he felt like he finally made some progress with how stuck he felt. He had started making a list in his head of things he wanted to work on and potential new hobbies to look into. He really did have to thank Tommy the next time he saw him. After making that list on the way home he decided he should probably take a nap because of how drained he felt. But that went out the window when he got back to his apartment and saw Connor standing in front of his door.

“Are you good?” Connor asked from behind him. Buck realized he was standing in front of the open fridge. He quickly grabbed a drink and closed the fridge.

“I’m fine, just got a lot on my mind.” Buck sat down at his island with Connor.

“I get that. Kameron getting pregnant still feels like it’s a dream I’ll wake up from any day now. She’s got more energy now than she ever has. With no morning sickness it’s been going great. Only like I said it doesn’t feel real”

Buck wasn’t sure if Connor was actually excited for the baby to come, something in Connor’s tone made him pause. He chose to not ask about it and instead said, “It’s going to feel real soon.”

“Yeah, I know. It’s been a minute since we caught up. You kinda dropped off the face of the earth there for a bit. I know I just asked, but more broadly how are you doing? Knowing you all this time to yourself probably is driving you crazy.”

Before Buck could answer there was a knock at the door. “Yeah, time to myself,” He muttered more to himself than a response to Connor. “Give me a minute.”

“No, no. I wasn’t planning on sticking around long. I just wanted to stop in to see how you were doing and catch you up on what’s going on.” Connor stood up and grabbed his things and walked with him to the door.

“It was nice seeing you Connor, let me know if there’s anything I can help with. Have a good one,” Buck opened the door to Hen standing there ready to knock again. Connor waved and left Buck’s apartment. “Hey Hen, come on in I guess.”

He turned away from the door and heard her follow him in after she closed the door.

“What was that about?” She questioned him as she leaned against his counter.

“He was at my door when I got back, we talked for a bit before you knocked. I don’t really know what he wanted since we didn’t get that far before you showed up,” Buck knew he was getting snippy with Hen and he didn’t mean to. He just felt so tired after therapy, then Connor showed up unannounced. “I’m sorry. It has been a long day, and I haven’t had time to decompress yet. I don’t want to be rude, but can we make this quick?”

Hen just stared at him for a second, “Yeah, okay it can be. I was just stopping by because we haven’t talked much since you left the hospital. How’re you doing?”

“What’s there to say Hen? I died, was in a coma, and now I’m back. And I know that it all was very traumatic for all of you,” Buck paused for a second, but he couldn’t stop the words that slipped out, “Was this a scheduled visit in whatever group chat I’m not a part of? If I’m being honest at this point the visits feel more like a way to keep tabs on me more than actually wanting to talk.”

Buck knew he was pacing and ranting. He forced himself to stop moving and look to where Hen was still standing, eyes wide at what Buck just said. He sighed and paused to let her respond.

“Ah so you caught on. Sorta, I swapped with Josh. I wanted to see you since we hadn’t talked,” Hen told Buck as he sat down on a stool next to her. “I know it was stupid to ask you about how you are. Eddie mentioned you had plans with other people, so we all wanted to see what’s up with that.”

“Yeah, it was a dumb question,” Buck let out a chuckle as he let the silence between them settle, “Yes, I did have plans with some new friends. You don’t need to worry about me wallowing here and blowing you guys off.”

“That’s good. We weren’t worried that that’s what you were doing. Well, most of us. I’m glad you’ve got something new going on. Whenever I’m on medical leave I know I drive my family insane when you guys are on shift,” Hen smiled softly at him. “Anything you want to talk about this new friend group?”

“I met one of them at one of the group therapy sessions I go to sometimes. He gave me an open invitation to join him to get out of the house. And turns out I needed it, so I went to a pickup basketball game with him and some of his coworkers,” He could see that Hen was about to interject a comment about him and basketball.

“Yes I am well aware of my past comments about me and basketball. I still hate it. I just needed to get out of the house and away from you guys. Nothing against you but I need a break from people who know about what happened,” He quickly said before Hen could start.

Hen laughed, “Good to know you haven’t changed at your core Buck. We’ve missed you at work. Bobby’s gotten mopey whenever he as to cook a meal he usually cooks with you. But lately he’s seemed preoccupied with something else going on. Athena seems to know what it is but hasn’t said what it is when we meet up for our nights in.”

“I’ll have to ask him the next time we talk,” Buck added another thing to the mental list he was forming.

“Well, I think I’m going to head out now. Like I said I just wanted to check in on you,” Hen said as she stood up and grabbed her things, “I don’t want to take up too much of your busy time.” Buck rolled his eyes at the comment about his free time; Hen laughed at him as they walked to the door.

“I know we are all a bit overbearing right now, but I do think you should talk to Maddie about her schedule. Set the boundary you need to help yourself find level ground again if what we’re doing isn’t helping,” Hen patted his shoulder as she turned to walk down the hall.

Buck closed the door and leaned his head on the closed door with a sigh. He knew what Hen said was right. He had to talk to Maddie about the schedule for check-ins because it wasn’t helping him relax. He felt his phone vibrate in his pocket.

Tommy: Hope your day is going better than mine and the chaos that was work today. We’ve set up a date for our next trivia night, and I wanted to see if you were available for it. It’s not until next week so if you don’t know yet that’s alright.

Buck smiled as he typed out his response.

Buck: My day has been fine. Tiring but pretty good. What happened at work?

Buck saw Tommy was bubbling him as soon as his text was delivered.

Tommy: Just the usual from Ray. He somehow got an error on a piece of equipment that none of us have seen before. Speaking of work. Have you heard anything about when exactly you’ll go back.

Buck: Nice transition. I have an appointment set up with the doctor so hopefully I’ll know when I’ll be back tomorrow.

Tommy: That’s good to hear. I’m going to crash now so talk to you whenever. And let me know about Trivia night, I know Sarah is hoping you’ll be there so she can beat you in trivia.

Buck: I thought we’d be on the same team but knowing what little I do about here she’ll make even that into a competition. Goodnight.

Buck set his phone down after texting Maddie to set up a time after his appointment to meet. He hoped he’d know when he was going back to work before then. But even if he didn’t, he wanted to talk with Maddie about the schedule she made of people to check on him. He felt himself drifting off shortly after that as the fatigue from the day hit him.

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I know I’m like two seasons away from the episode/plot but I’m having thoughts for my fic. It was in masks where we first noticed the truck that the show decided to make Buck’s. I’m having somethings about making the switch from the jeep to the truck being a part of the “curse” or like a precursor to it. Like there’s an accident where it randomly gets totaled that sorta thing.

And I think I could work into the story of how I’m wanting around then for Buck to feel like he’s outgrown his apartment and is ready for change but doesn’t full realize it at that moment. So like there are thoughts happening for down the line some.

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That podcast and the people celebrating Tim watching them and listening to their opinions and forcing Buddie when it’s clearly not happening should be careful. Sooner or later they will become his scapegoat for how terrible of a showrunner he is. He’ll blame anyone but himself for why anything goes wrong. Like he’ll say what he did was a bad idea but still won’t take the blame/credit for the idea.

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Tim: never plans ahead, doesn’t want characters to grow, doesn’t know what to do with any of the characters

Also Tim: *throws hands in air* I don’t know why everything is so hard to do! I don’t know why nothing works out or why no one is ever happy.

Everything is his idea if it is well accepted anything else it can’t possibly be his fault nothing works out. Some people are just punchable, every time he opens his mouth he proves he’s one of these people.

Because yes Tim everything you’re saying is proving it is in fact your fault everything is going to shit. Maybe if you actually planned you wouldn’t have a problem getting people to be available. Maybe if you actually had a plan you would know what to do with your characters and you wouldn’t have to constantly rely on them to come up with ideas for what to do. The fact he has the gall and audacity to act oblivious to what’s causing all the problems.

I just every time I see what he says it’s clear why the show is struggling so badly this past season. One word three letters, Tim.

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Would it be pushing it too far to say that Tim has turned 911 into something someone can watch solely on TikTok and still understand it? That he’s essentially turning it into a form of brainrot?

The tiny storylines that are solely contained in one episode. Putting more emphasize on flashy surface level things while gutting any significant meanings. Heavily relying on big disasters and time skips to remove the quieter moments that give the characters time to breathe. A complete lack of natural progression that used to exist in past seasons, especially before he took back over.

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a showrunner of a show with an ensemble cast doesn't know how to incorporate a main character. and he still has a job!!!!!!

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CORINNE NOTICED SHE DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO AND SHE CAME UP WITH THE IDEA FOR HER CHARACTER!! WTF.

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I don’t get the people that are still so happy about Theo and how they wonder why don’t people like Theo. Like giving Buck a kid sure that’s new that’s kinda cute.

But no we cannot separate how Buck got Theo from this. Tim killed his parents for no reason other than for Buck to get him, and they had to force that dumb message about “needing a kid” with that last montage which still pisses me off because of how stupid and terrible it was. Like no giving Buck a kid did not solve shit for him. It’s just a halfassed terribly executed scape goat so Tim didn’t have to grow a damn spine.

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I never really got mad about this show until Tim came back. Like before sure there would be some stuff that irritated me. But full on mad that’s all on Tim. And a lot of that is because he doesn’t bother to tell a story, I know this is just a dumb tv show so like there’s limitations on how good the story could be. But man did he tank how much I enjoy the actual show. We were better off without him.

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Jesus Christ

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God I hate Tim. Like his whole attitude about this show just pisses me off. “Oh I can’t make everyone happy” so here’s my solution since we’ve already “sorta dealt with his sexuality” now Theo is bucks “love interest” and then explains his halfassed reasoning as not every love interest has to be romantic. Genuinely shut the fuck up, you bailed on Tommy because a fucking insignificant amount of people said they hate him, that he’s cockblocking Eddie. Like what a pathetic excuse of a person, if he can’t stand by anything he makes he should just quit. If he can’t do his job he shouldn’t have it.

“I just can’t tell you how lucky we were in casting those twins”…. Fuck you tim. You didn’t need the twins dipshit. Like he acts like he’s some genius, killing Connor and Kameron off so Buck gets the kid was the stupidest thing he could have done. Sometimes I think he says intentionally dumb things to piss people off so the next time he gets legitimately criticized he can go “look this is why I can’t do anything good”. It’s fucking pathetic.

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Another funny thought, i know there’s AUs of it. But imagine if Tommy was brought in during season 2 as a recurring or main character instead of Eddie (this part is just how my brain formed this thought but Eddie’s presence doesn’t really impact much) and god I can just imagine how feral Buck would be about him. Just it’d be so hot and I think both of them would have been feral as fuck for each other. It’d be messy as hell but they’d work through it.

Like I said I know there’s AUs of it but thinking about actually in the show if it happened… which is an AU soooooo yeah. Kinda a redundant thing to say and idea. I’m tired so this is a lot less coherent than I meant it to be.

But anyways, it would have been crazy had we gotten bi Buck when he was still a menace. Like season 1 Buck sure was something. And the size difference mmmmm yeah.

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Writing the next part and it’s seeming like this will be an almost Tommyless part since I’m hitting some of the conversations that happen in 6x12. There might be some texting with Tommy but so far I’ve written the conversation with Connor (yeah I think that part will happen similarly with the baby later, might have Buck check in every now and again but not much changed after in season 7 just definitely no killing them off if I ever hit season 9), I’m getting to a different version of a conversation with Hen, and planning on the conversation with Eddie still. Because both of those were just good. And I’d like to have more dynamics outside of just the ship, makes the world seem bigger and it’s just nice to see the season 6 dynamics after losing them.

Watching these scenes makes me so sad about season 7 onwards. Because it shows how much Tim has changed these characters. Eddie might have been flawed before but it was acknowledged and there was movement to him working on himself. And the scene with maddie and Chim where he tells her something along the lines of “I might like to make fun of your brother. But he’s not an idiot. He knows how to take care of himself” just makes me mad at what Chim and Buck’s dynamic has become this last season.

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Watching some of season 6 for some quotes to use or take inspiration from. And this is completely unrelated, whenever they have food they just piss me off.

Like the Buck Hen scene in recovery, she put the plate with the cloth napkin in the sink and then set the next plate on top. Without removing any of the food off of either. It’s so stupid but it annoys me so much.

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Part 3

Wrote some more. I'm not exactly satisfied with how this part ended so I might change that in the future. I'm almost done with what I'm saying is taking place during 6x12 Recovery. I think there's a scene or two left until I move on to the next episode or two. So yeah, here's the next part.

“So how about another game?” Sarah called out as she walked to where Buck was lying on the ground.

“Haha… no” Buck responded as he sat up, “Definitely safe to say I still hate basketball, and I fear for my ankles if we go again.”

“I told you not to get in her way,” Tommy offered a hand to Buck and helped him stand up. He was smiling at Buck. “I know you said you still don’t like basketball, but I hope that they didn’t give too bad of a first impression.”

“No, no they were fine. With all the weird calls we get at work and the many people I met on my travels before I ended up here. These guys aren’t even in the top ten of the strangest people I’ve met,” Buck answered as Tommy handed him his bottle.

“Awwww that just means we’ll have to try harder next time,” Ray called over from where he was talking with Sarah.

“That wasn’t permission to intentionally start anything,” Alec slapped him on the back of the head. Buck could see that Ray had the sense to look a little ashamed but not much.

“They beat me to it. But would you be up to joining our little group in the future?” Buck’s attention went back to Tommy as he asked the question. “I know you don’t like bask-”

“Yes, I’d like that,” Buck didn’t let Tommy finish the second part of what he was saying. He didn’t mean to jump at the opportunity but today had been fun. It was something new, his friends were essentially his family at this point. So, the new that Tommy brought into his life felt like a breath of fresh air.

Tommy smiled and Buck felt himself losing his breath. The way that Tommy’s face scrunched with such a genuine smile was something Buck couldn’t explain how it made him feel. A voice in the back of his head was saying something about taking a picture, it would last long. Buck chose to force that voice away and smile back at Tommy.

“Great” Tommy continued to smile. Buck still couldn’t look away. Tommy’s hair had become disheveled from the roughhousing that Sarah and Ray had caused during their game. His face still scrunched.

“Hate to break up whatever this is,” Lily broke whatever moment was between them, “We’re all packed up and ready to leave. Just wanted to let you two know before we just disappeared on you since you clearly were in your own little world there.” She gave Tommy a knowing smile and Buck a wave as she and the others left.

“Oh right, yeah, it is getting a bit late. Let me walk you back to your car” Tommy spun on his heel as he walked to where his and Buck’s stuff was. He carried their stuff as they walked to where their car and truck were parked.

“This was really nice, thank you for inviting me,” Buck said as they stood by their vehicles. “I really did need this.”

“Thanks for taking up my offer Buck, I was worried you wouldn’t take it,” Tommy said shyly. “I don’t know what landed you in that therapy group, but I’m kinda glad it did I needed something new just as much as you did apparently.” His own words seemed to take a second to sink in “…. Wow that was a dumb thing to say. Sorry.”

Buck couldn’t help but laugh, “I know I barely know you and before I’d say you’re some cool dude. But now, I’m getting a glimpse at the person behind the cool dude front. It’s alright, I know we barely know each other, but this all has been a nice change of pace. I meant what I said when I’d like to join in whatever crazy thing you guys are doing next. After dying and all its nice to just feel normal for even a little bit.”

Tommy didn’t say anything for moment, Buck turned to look and saw Tommy’s face scrunched in a different way than before. Concern. “Wait, what do you mean died?”

“Ah, yeah. Forgot you didn’t know,” Buck looked away before continuing, “Yeah, I died for a few minutes. That’s what landed me at the group sessions, doc thought it might be a good idea to listen to others. Dying is a bit more than what happened to most of the others. But yeahhh, my family is taking care of me right now. It’s hard to feel even a little normal when they’re all looking at me like I’m going to drop at any second.”

“I bet,” Tommy continued to stare at him. “I’d say I can relate, but I really can’t. I just got injured in a minor crash.”

“I figured it was something like that. Something normal and mundane. We can get more into it later if you want, once I’ve really processed it,” Buck kept his eyes on the horizon as the sun began to set.

“Okay, I’m okay with that. But you don’t need to worry about ever telling me if you don’t want to. I would never push you to tell me,” Tommy’s voice was still filled with concern. “The next thing our group has planned is a movie night with a potluck. You’re obviously invited. I think the others would kick my ass if I didn’t.”

Buck was thankful for the change in topic, “That sounds fun, it’s funny how after only one outing it making me realize how small my friend group is. They’re basically family. But it’s still small. Anyway, I better get going. Who knows how many texts I’ll have when I look at my phone or if there’s anyone waiting for me to get back.”

“I’ll see you next time Buck,” Tommy waved as he got in his truck and drove off. Buck took a minute still watching the sunset before getting in his car and driving home. He made a note to schedule his next therapy session when he got home. This outing had given him a lot to think about. He wanted to be ready to face what he was trying to avoid when it came to his grief about the lightning strike.