Just a disclaimer, we’re going to be very personal here. And, the language i’m using is rude.
I am currently a senior in high school and my mind is all over the place. Actually, i should be a little bit relaxed because high school will be over in less than two months. Which is great. Sorry not sorry, i am not complaining here but it’s just facts and this is what truly happened. My first one and a half month in 2018 is completely shitty, i might say. I have problems in every, literally every aspects of my life. In family, friends, relationship (which making me crazier day by day), and everythingggggg. So right now, as i’m sitting on my bed while crying, i decided to just write on tumblr because it seems like no one actually understands me.
Problems came day by day, and the most recent and hurtful one is that my family couldn’t afford courses for sbmptn (it’s like test to get into state universities in my country). While you’re reading this, you might question: “Um, why don’t you study by yourself?” Well, here is the answer:
I’m not underestimating myself whatsoever, but i just feel like if i got courses, i would feel a little more motivated because basically i have friends in the same courses that will motivate me. And, i don’t know why, but i feel like i can’t schedule my life. This brings me into a conclusion that i have to risk everything that are surrounding me if i didn’t get any courses for sbmptn (?)
I have to risk my relationship, my time, my privileges of being a lazy person, youtube, hanging out with friends, and yadda yadda yadda. However, i’m not scared to risk all of those things for my dream uni. I know it sounds cheesy, but let’s get real here. The problem is, i would get very stressed if i risk all of those things and now i am very sad and have the urge to do stupid things right now.
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