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[zhaf]

a medstud pov: human’s studying human <3

[ti-andhersolace]

[21.05.2019]

This morning i finally did the last exam of my (finger crossed) college year. It feels surreal. I cant believe that my four year journey in college has come to an end. From now on, i need to focused myself on finishing my thesis that is due next month (!!!). It’s stressing me out but hopefully i’ll pass this well😊

Pic from my last trip to Zurich. I miss it already😭 really hope that i would get a chance go come back there soon!!!!

[stationeryaddictstudies]

(11.12.17) First day and my second day of my final week.

[nnakedpoetry]

My mind is everywhere

Just a disclaimer, we’re going to be very personal here. And, the language i’m using is rude.

I am currently a senior in high school and my mind is all over the place. Actually, i should be a little bit relaxed because high school will be over in less than two months. Which is great. Sorry not sorry, i am not complaining here but it’s just facts and this is what truly happened. My first one and a half month in 2018 is completely shitty, i might say. I have problems in every, literally every aspects of my life. In family, friends, relationship (which making me crazier day by day), and everythingggggg. So right now, as i’m sitting on my bed while crying, i decided to just write on tumblr because it seems like no one actually understands me. 

Problems came day by day, and the most recent and hurtful one is that my family couldn’t afford courses for sbmptn (it’s like test to get into state universities in my country). While you’re reading this, you might question: “Um, why don’t you study by yourself?” Well, here is the answer:

I’m not underestimating myself whatsoever, but i just feel like if i got courses, i would feel a little more motivated because basically i have friends in the same courses that will motivate me. And, i don’t know why, but i feel like i can’t schedule my life. This brings me into a conclusion that i have to risk everything that are surrounding me if i didn’t get any courses for sbmptn (?)

I have to risk my relationship, my time, my privileges of being a lazy person, youtube, hanging out with friends, and yadda yadda yadda. However, i’m not scared to risk all of those things for my dream uni. I know it sounds cheesy, but let’s get real here. The problem is, i would get very stressed if i risk all of those things and now i am very sad and have the urge to do stupid things right now.

[ti-andhersolace]

[10.06.2019]

Pic from yesterday’s study/thesis writing session in a café in a district near my home. Deadline for the thesis is due in a mere days and I haven’t finished the last two chapter of the thesis🤪

[ti-andhersolace]

[24/04/2019]

After having a rough day today (falling /funnily/ in the trotoar near starbucks; getting scars on my knees /it hurts/; getting on the wrong minibus /gotta use another mode of transportation to get into my bus stop/) — i just found out that my thesis got funded by the faculty!! (Well, practically it was my professor’s research that was being funded that i’m working on for my thesis).

This is literally the biggest responsibility i’ve ever had in my life. Praying that this research would later be useful for the advancement of plastic waste management in indonesia😊🙏🏻

[ti-andhersolace]

[13. 04. 19]

The last assignment from my three months long internship at the company. How time flies so fast😢

The past three months brings so much joy. I finally got to work with all the wonderful people doing journalism!!! Knowing that i won’t work in this field after graduating college makes this internship even more special. This is surely one of the highlights of my 2019☺️

Also pic from my trip to eu two weeks ago. It was so wonderful, i miss it already😢 hopefully i’ll comeback again to that place (with a lot more time to spend there!)

[ti-andhersolace]

[14/02/2019]

I’m on the verge of tears right now. Doing my thesis and i just realized that i dont understand my topic.

Not that i dont understand, as in, not at all. I know what i have to put in each section and most importantly i know how important it is and why this topic need to be discussed. But the hardest part was trying to put the problem from a legal perspective. (Ps: i’m talking about managing the plastic waste by making a policy controlling the production of plastic, instead of the consumer based policy we are familiar with)

It just that my topic is what Pak Kiki Ganie (one of my lecturer, a prominent lawyer) said: solving a non legal problem with a legal answer. An advance level of studying law. And tbh i’m not a freaking gifted student. I’m a proud lazy ass student.🙃🙃🙃🙃