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Day 501.

in learning to heal myself, i broke free of your chains. of the wounds your lies bore into my soul, of the illusions you wove into my eyes.

you dragged me through hell and beyond and for what? I’ve a love still burning in my heart born despite the misery you left plaguing it’s roots.

promise, i will never be as broken as you.

#healed #finally #self love

7.18.18

#ow #poetry #personal #mine

my heart is a void working to quiet the torrential absence you left. I miss you. I miss it all.

#i want the pain to stop

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#mood

Day 6.

questions. it seems the universe wants me to learn to claw out through this pain, loving myself a little more. and i wish it were that simple.

#heartbreak

Day 5.

a shower would make it real. to wash the last of your fingerprints off my skin. to succumb to the screaming of my bleeding heart.

#depression #this hurts

you’re everywhere and nowhere at all. the bed isn’t safe. Our home isn’t safe. I walk the streets and hand pick a memory on every block. we were a garden of beautiful moments and I can’t take this pain.

#ow #this hurts #so much

you left and the world is darker. how do I go from everything to nothing? what am I supposed to do when the world is too loud and your arms are too far away to fall into? I miss you too much to bear.

#my love #my heart #my everything

Day 4.

ghosts. I walk the spaces we walked together [alone]. if I close my eyes I’m one manifestation away from feeling the warmth of your body again.

#pain #depression #heartbreak

Day 3.

torture. your betrayal slithers it’s way around my heart. a cold fist, unrelenting.

#depression #heartbreak

Day 2.

agony.

#heartbreak

Day 1.

tremors. you’ll feel them all the way in California.