No Ordinary Bitch

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[no-ordinary-bitch]

Vildt at jeg ikke engang kan huske hvem det her er slrevet om, fordi jeg har haft denne her oplevelse 1000000000 gange.

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[no-ordinary-bitch]

"Hvorfor skriver jeg ikke digte længere?"

der er intet at skrive om længere

tænker jeg når spørgsmålet kommer 

OPTURENE 

NEDTURENE

de var så vilde - så ude af kontrol

så nemme at male et billede af 

uden at jeg skulle overdrive noget som helst

de var der bare - kom altid uden nåde 

som regnvejr og torden, som stegende sol 

mine bedste venner og værste fjender

to følelses tilstande, men også to sider af mig

aldrig så meget yin og yan som man skulle tro

Jeg har altid vidst

hvordan jeg skulle beskrive dem

mine to føljesvende

men aldrig hvordan jeg skulle beskrive alt det

ja alt det der ligger inde midt imellem dem

Men -   n u   e r   j e g   i n d e   m i d t   p å

midt imellem mine to føljesvende

både rart og forfærdeligt

at skulle sige farvel til det bekendte

det BEDSTE, og det værste

bare at tænke på det giver mig lyst til

at smide min medicin ud af vinduet

bare så jeg kan være manisk igen

Men det kommer i vejen for at forklare

at det her stadig er det aller bedste

som der nogensinde er sket for mig

magien ved en stor blå diamantformet pille 

og en lille hvid pille

der begge indeholder samme heksebryg 

Ja, det MÅ ALTSÅ VÆRE HEKSEBRYG 

ellers forstår jeg ikke hvordan det kan gøre det

redde mit liv, gang på gang, hver eneste dag 

Jeg lever for første gang

som et helt normalt menneske

et menneske med oprigtige følelser

med oprigtig lykke

det er okay jeg ikke kan skrive,

for jeg kan kede mig

køre i bus

handle ind

komme ud af min seng

gå i skole hver dag

gøre alle de ting normale mennesker gør

og jeg har ikke haft én eneste selvmordstanke siden jeg fandt min elskede heksebryg

Så - det er okay at jeg ikke kan skrive mere

det er okay at der ikke er nogen smuk smerte som kan blive til smukke ord

for jeg lever.. jeg lever, jeg lever. 

J E G L E V E R !!!

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[no-ordinary-bitch]

From a museum I was at, don’t remember the artists name.

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Taken by me in Hamburg.

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Stolen from reddit, r/art.

[no-ordinary-bitch]

Question: “What is the longest manic state you’ve had?”

”Back when I was 17 and undiagnosed, I had just gotten my very first own apartment, and I had maybe something like 350 dollars each month after all payments (I live in Denmark), it's not a lot here. For the first 6 months I lived there, I partied ALL THE TIME, like, I would sleep about 3-4 hours, only eat noodles, toast, drink coca cola, and then use the rest of my money on alcohol, cigarettes, and stupid things. I think I dyed my hair a new color every third week at that time. I made so many new friends, had such a big friend group. I would be that girl that people challenged to do these fucked up things because I would always do it. And I had sex with soooooo many people, it was crazy, had a bunch of threesomes, tried so many wierd sex things, and then I ended up getting chlamydia twice.. :/ I became sooooo skinny because my diet was all alcohol mostly haha :D But when it ended.. Damn. It ended badly. I had the second worst meltdown I've ever had. Even did a Britney and cut all my hair off, that I had kept all my confidence in for so long.

When they first suggested that I might be bipolar instead of depressed, this was the first episode that I thought about. Crazy youth. But god damn I had fun, the best memories I have is from that time.”

[queeranne]

This blog supports anyone who is struggling with a mental illness

you are not alone.

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[itswhateverbraaaah]

Talking to other lesbians is so confusing it’s like are we gonna be strictly homies? Are you Tryna date me? Are you just trying to be a fuck buddy like what’s going on tell me what’s up

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