“No mushrooms,” she quickly corrected, her priorities very much in place even after taking on that whiskey one on one. Toe to toe. It was only after that she realised it really was Noah. Beautiful, perfect Noah and she honestly could have started crying again if he hadn’t said the word ’sexy’ outloud. Jasmin’s eyes stayed closed as he spoke, his voice as comforting as ever. Noah had always been the most stable thing in her life. He was her lighthouse on the stormiest of seas, an anchor that would never let her become truly lost.
But she was drunk and on the floor so instead of voicing anything close to that, she simply reached up to pet his face. “Your face is prickly,” she grinned, letting out a laugh before finally opening her eyes again. “Of course I’m ordering pizza, you monster. There’s never not…never a bad— There’s always time for pizza!” With great effort (truly, truly great) Jasmin managed to sit herself up just enough that she could kind of see his blurry outline. There he was.
“You’re asking a lot of questions, babe.” Another pause, then another giggle she couldn’t stop. “You think I’m sexy.” What a dummy. Jasmin let out a sigh, her fingers reaching out again for the bottle before deciding to leave it be this time. She wouldn’t wanna ruin her pizza. Noah was her best friend. Did he know that? Did he know how hard it was for her to not tell him everything? She felt her face fall, her lips settling back into a pout but she managed to keep her stupid tears at bay this time. Might as well just…rip off the bandaid.
“I was on a date. With Val,” a pause. Woman up, please. “I- I was going to… I don’t know. Say something, I guess? Like, maybe she… Maybe we could have been like, something…something. Real. Or- Or just Facebook official even ‘cause I was stupid and thought I had all these stupid feelings and maybe just for once, I could have said something. And it could have worked out and I wouldn’t ruin it like I ruin everything. Because I’m a sabo- a sabow… A sabotage,” she threw her hands up for extra emphasis, doubtful any of that had made sense and she hadn’t even gotten to the point. “But Val didn’t. Doesn’t. She wanted to stop it, quit. Break up, I guess? 'Cause it’s getting too serious and complicated and we work together and it’s just…stupid and over and I’m being stupid.”
Jas pressed her lips together, wishing she could take back everything that had just come spilling out of her. “I guess… I guess I’m just gonna die alone, okay? It’s okay. It’s fine. I am unlovable and it is fine.” She blinked at him then, as if realising that he was, again, here. “Uh, what are you doing here?”
He had to admit, at least drunk emotionally wrecked Val had some sort of hold on her pizza priorities. Also, it meant he could now have some of her pizza and not have to think about pulling off mushrooms. Trash mushrooms. Noah wasn’t exactly sure what to do. It wasn’t that he hadn’t seen her in such a state, it was Jas after all and she had a tendency with relationships. He really hoped she would learn but at this point he shouldn’t be surprised. She’d be okay after tonight, they just needed to get through the initial recovery. Like always, they’d make it through.
Noah smiled, shaking his head lightly as he cupped the hand of hers on his face. “It’s the stubble, I figured I’d let my beard grow a little this time. I’ll probably shave it within a week though.” He shrugged. “There’s my girl” he grinned, wiping her face with his thumb when she reopened her eyes. “Mhmm” he hummed, trying not to burst out laughing in her face. He was glad he was here, of course being there for her, but mostly the entertainment from watching Jas try and string together a sentence. “You’re right, pizza is basically the staple and foundation of our relationship.” He paused, narrowing his eyes, “I hope you know now I’m here that we’re sharing this pizza.”
He reached out his hand to stable her, in case she fell. Realizing she was good... for now he withdrew them. “I always do, hun.” he smiled. Noah slid his tongue against his teeth, pursing his lips. A small smile fought at the corner of his lips, “I think you’re a lot of things, but sure if you think you heard that, then go ahead.” Of course he had said that, but even he wouldn’t let drunk Jasmin to get a big ego. Not on his watch. That also just wasn’t the point of their night. She did look really good in her dress, even drunk and fighting her feelings.
His tongue poked the inside of his cheek, nodding with every sentence she said. He reached his hand to brush hair out of her face. His hand hesitated before pulling away from her. “I don’t think you’re stupid of being stupid. It’s her loss Jas, okay. You have every right to be upset with her, and I mean I don’t know work romances are complicated.” Relationships in general were complicated, they both knew that. He cupped her face in his hands, looking at her seriously “You didn’t ruin it, babe. I gotta admit, sometimes you do sabotage relationships but I saw how it was with Val. You really liked her and you tried hard to make this work out, you even wanted to make it official. Jas, trust me and listen to me okay. You are not stupid. You aren’t.... always sabotaging your relationships. You aren’t gonna die alone. You’re gorgeous, funny, smart, creative, talented. Any one would be lucky to have you to themselves. Trust me Jas, if you die alone there’s no hope for me.”
“And you are definitely not unlovable, okay Jasmin? He grinned, dropping his hands once more. “Well as you’ve said many times before, my life is so boring I have nothing else to do.” He shrugged. “I was also just checking around the office and preparing for the party tomorrow. Also, uhm why is our floor so damn uncomfortable.”
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