I Can Do This

Noah Marlon : 17 : Lost & Found Welcome I'd like to begin with a self introductory. I'm Noah! I work at the lost and found for The Disney Circus and enjoy getting lost exploring, eating pie, and meeting new faces. I have a little bit of a limp but don't let that fool you. I'm just as rowdy and tough as the rest of them! Whoever them are. Not The Real Louis Tomlinson Belongs To The Disney Circus

[withbenson-deactivated20130125]

[noah-marlon]

My pretty friend Marie <3

[deputywoody-deactivated20140930]

Well,

[deputywoody-deactivated20140930]

A ball? 

[noah-marlon]

Yup, a ball! A huge ball. It's especially fun out by the lake where you can walk on the water. Well, fall on the water. Actually, I tend to crawl. It's insanely difficult to get back to shore though. 

[the-adorable-roo]

Tigger is still missing.

[the-adorable-roo]

"Yeah! Since yesterday" she told him while sighing. “I’m a good finder too, but Tigger hides really really good. He’s a good good good hider" Roo held her hand out to him while pouting again. “Are you gonna find him?"

[noah-marlon]

Noah can't help but smirk, "Since yesterday? Oh no. Well, maybe he's spending time with his girlfriend." Noah liked the idea of a challenge when she brought up how skillful Tigger was at hiding. "We wont rest until we find him. I promise you, we'll hunt him down." The older boy reached down and took her hand, swinging them back and forth playfully. "Why don't you tell me where your Tigger friend usually hangs out? We'll start there."

[deputywoody-deactivated20140930]

Well,

[deputywoody-deactivated20140930]

Ha, true. You are making my day a little bit more eventful. 

[noah-marlon]

A little? Just a little? *seems a bit disappointed* Well then, I'm just going to have to try harder. Have you ever been inside a ball before? 

[scotttramp-deactivated20130912]

Scott could tell that Noah was trying not to yell at him. He didn't want to argue with him either so he let his love calm himself and listened to him,"well it's what it feels like, Noah" he honestly believed Noah when he told him he wasn't being punished. It didn't stop Scott from thinking that was what it was though. The mind had a tricky way of playing games with people and his wasn't holding anything back. His chest tightened and his stomach fluttered when their eyes met. God he loved him so much and it killed him to not be able to reach out and touch him. The desperation in Noah's words brought him out of his day dream and he shook his head,"no.no Noah I'm not leaving the cirque. I thought maybe id try rehab. What happened with duke kind of....scared me and this will give you the time you need" he didn't push Noah's hand away,inside he clung to it tightly and laced their fingers together.

[noah-marlon]

"But... but I don't understand. I don't need time away from you. If anything I need more time with you and I just... why would I wanna run away from it? That's only going to make it worse, Scott. Don't let it get that way." He raked his teeth over his bottom lip as his mind raced for a solution. He would have said anything to keep the boy from pulling away from him.

Solutions would have to be put on pause right now because something far more important had been brought up. "Scott... are you-... did you have a slip? I don't understand why you'd need to go back. I mean, you're doing so well. U-unless... Have you been taking drugs again?" The last part was hushed of course, his eyes narrowing and his whole demeanor was becoming parental.

[deputywoody-deactivated20140930]

Well,

[deputywoody-deactivated20140930]

Thanks for the idea. Any suggestions?

[noah-marlon]

Well you could go to the lake, you can go bug your friends, you could go make NEW friends. There's a lot of stuff to do. Actually, you're already making it eventful. You're talking to me!

[scotttramp-deactivated20130912]

Scott let himself be manhandled, secretly turned on by Noah’s strength,"well I’m sorry if I don’t like to he told that the person I love and who I really do believe is my soul mate tell me that they hurt whenever I’m around them. I don’t want to hurt you Noah" he shrugs off his hands and steps back from him. “I don’t expect anything other than what I’m getting, which is punishment. You don’t get it Noah. " he shook his head and met his eyes,"who said I wasn’t waiting for you? Ill always wait for you Noah. I just can’t be around you knowing I cause you pain. We will talk when I get back." That was the whole point really of playing ball with the boy. Rehab was calling his name and this just pushed him towards making that decision of going or not.

[noah-marlon]

Noah could understand Scott's frustration. Here he was trying to make things better and fix what was broken and Noah was being stubborn. Not intentionally but stubborn none the less. "I'm not-" he cut himself off before his voice could raise to a level that wouldn't help the situation. He bowed his head and pinched the bridge of his nose to hold back an headache. "Ugh, I'm not trying to punish you..." Noah slowly lifted his head and as he did so their eyes met yet again, giving the older boy a bit of the flutters inside his stomach. "W-when you get back? I..." Noah was confused, and pushed further into desperation. "You're not going, are you? You're leaving the circus? Scott, please... if you think you hurt me by just being here I promise you it'll kill me inside to watch you go. Please... don't leave." The boy reached down without thinking, took a firm hold on Scott's hand and squeezed tight. He acted as if the touch would help change his mind.

[deputywoody-deactivated20140930]

Well,

It’s been an uneventful Tuesday… 

[noah-marlon]

Perhaps you should make it eventful.

[the-adorable-roo]

Tigger is still missing.

"This is not okay! It’s been like… Three hundred hours now! I went to sleep and woke up and he’s still missing." she huffed while looking around. “This is an emergency! Why is no one listening to me?!"

[noah-marlon]

Shuffles over to the distressed looking girl. "Three hundred hours? That's gotta be... a lot of days! Do you want me to help you find him? I'm a really good finder. The names Noah. I work at the Lost and Found booth so I know what I'm doing. I'm a professional."

[scotttramp-deactivated20130912]

He swallowed hard and looked away from Noah. He knew that he had deserved those words but they still hurt Scott. He had broken his soul mate and he wasn't sure that Noah would ever be able to forgive him for it. "Then maybe I should just make it easier for you" he said quietly, his shoulders slumping,"I won't bother you anymore, Noah" he turned and started to walk towards his apartment.

[noah-marlon]

Noah was left in shock. How could Scott thing that it was all that easy? The older boy began to hobble after the kid, putting a lot of pressure on his crippled limb in his frantic attempts to catch up. "Hey," he said sternly before grabbing a hold of the kid's arm and spinning him around so they were face to face. For being so slender looking Noah really did have some secretive muscles. "You think that's going to make it easy? You don't get it, do you? I want things to be the way that they were before. I'm trying, but you're expecting way to much of me way to soon. I am trying to make this better, Scott..." he placed his hands lightly on the boy's shoulder, head slightly bowed with his eyes peeking up at those big brown orbs of Scott's. I love you, you know? It's hard to feel so hurt by something you love so much but... it's gotten better, and it's going to keep getting better. Just... wait, okay? Wait for me. You know... I'd wait for you."

[noah-marlon]

Does Anybody Wanna Play?

[scotttramp-deactivated20130912]

He pulls his hands out of his picked and catches the ball. Scott rolls it between his hands and looks at Noah. Things were so awkward between them and he hated it,"so when are you going to stop being so awkward around me? If you don’t want to be with me again Noah just say it. " he bounces the ball back to him gently.

[noah-marlon]

Noah scrunched up his face, not to pleased with what Scott had to say. It wasn't like he enjoyed being awkward. Usually Noah was bubbly and outgoing but the way Scott made him feel left him rather hesitant on a lot of things. "It's not like that, Scott. I'm trying really hard... I just..." his words trailed off as he caught the ball and began to hug it close to his chest. "I want to be able to look at you, without feeling so hurt."

[noah-marlon]

Does Anybody Wanna Play?

[scotttramp-deactivated20130912]

"I’ll play" he smiled a little and stuffed his hands in his pockets self consciously.

[noah-marlon]

Smiles a bit awkwardly, seeing as how he doesn't know what to respond with. To avoid any awkward words he simply bounces the ball over to Scott as an invitation.

[noah-marlon]

Does Anybody Wanna Play?

"I found a ball, but I have nobody to play catch with." 

[noah-marlon]

[noah-marlon]

Feeling Less Social

[thedeathofme-rph]

Why does every one assume that *pouts*  ahh well i know how those can be sometimes. at least it does pass at some point. 

[noah-marlon]

Maybe it's your crazy hair. *perks up a bit and laughs* Oh, yeah... you are right. *sinks back down a bit disappointed* Everything is just temporary after all.

[noah-marlon]

Text: Mass (Aka Everyone that loves Duke)

Duke: i'm sorry. dont be mad, please?

Noah: ... I can't be mad at you. :[ I'm just... I don't know.

[noah-marlon]

Feeling Less Social

[thedeathofme-rph]

pain killers for my ribs and arm.  he took them when i told the bottle to fuck off when i read only one a day. Whats wrong if your in limbo something is wrong.

[noah-marlon]

Oh, for some reason i was expecting crazy pills. *snickers* Nothing is wrong... it's just... nothing is exactly right either. Hence me being in limbo.