all of these stars will guide us home

[lucasxturner]

You’re painting this like I’m some sort of hero, a good person would have taken her in regardless of how they felt. Told her what? My feelings? Ha! Don’t make me laugh, of course I haven’t. You are right, I totally understand why you want to not be a hypocrite and you are probably right in the aspect where it’d end up just hurting the both of you again. Maybe nothing romantic, but what about just friends? There’s no harm in that… Unless you realize you do love her and then you’re stuck in the friend zone. A zone that is really painful.

[noahxasher]

I know they would have.. or at least I’d hope so; Sometimes you just don’t know the motives of other people so it’s nice she has someone to go to. Why haven’t you though? I mean you two grew up together and despite the fact that you guys grew apart, how do you know she doesn’t feel the same and she’s just scared to admit it? I think I’d like to start off with her as just friends once more and then see where it goes. To be honest, I can’t say I remember a whole lot about love, or being in love, but maybe it’ll be a fresh start and we could just see where things go. I just know I don’t want to hurt her again because I guess I hurt her bad.

[rosaliexbrooks]

Glaring at Noah’s impromptu nickname Rosalie shook her head. “Uh huh no way I refuse that one. Am I allowed to refuse the nicknames? Cause I think in this ridiculous case I should.” A frown formed on her face as he began to explain a different situation to her about nicknames. “You’re right… Though if I remember correctly you did have your own nickname it just wasn’t that mocking.” Thinking back to the old days Rose picked her mind of the small nicknames that revolved around her ex boyfriend. “Great! So to Carly’s we go?” She asked grabbing her jacket and a bag of clothes. “Do you think we could take your truck? I don’t want to go searching for Dad’s keys and wake him up.”

[noahxasher]

“Nope, the refusal of nicknames is not allowed in any type of situation, no matter how ridiculous, Ridiculous Rosalie,” he teased the female before him. His facial expression matched hers as he explained why he felt so bad for Carly and the fact that their peers would mock the poor girl. He racked his brain for the so-called nickname, though came up short. “I can’t say I recall which nickname you’re referring to...” he trailed off. A part of him was teasing her due to their conversation they were having but he really did not remember what she was talking about due to his condition. “To Carly’s we go!” the male shot up from his seat with a chuckle to follow. “Of course,” he nodded as he grabbed the keys out of his pocket and led the way to his vehicle.

[rosaliexbrooks]

“Oh please! I was intimidated by seeing you when you write you just looked so at peace and content until you got hit with a block or something. Uh huh you keep flattering yourself Mr. Asher.” Rosalie laughed rolling her eyes at his teasing. This is what their relationship should have been like after their break up, despite the underlying tension she chose to ignore, Rose felt content with how they were being. She felt almost home. “God, I’d hate that so I’m glad I never got one of those crazy nicknames. Oh really?” Pursing her lips in thought and cocking her head to the side. “Why?” She asked though she had a general idea as to the answer. “Well then I promise I will do my absolute best to protect you good sir though only if you return the gesture if she comes after mine.”

[noahxasher]

“Intimidated? I won’t ever be able to understand why. It’s just something you have to put your mind to and once you’re in that state of mind, it comes easy,” he shrugged his shoulders. “It’s true!” he exclaimed with a grin on his face. It was almost as if the two never grew apart. “That you know of,” he added in. “There’s always still time.. like Ridiculous Rosalie?” Noah questioned, though he was just joking around with her. “Just because everyone would make fun of her and stuff like that. I couldn’t imagine having a nickname like that and people mocking me all the time,” he explained, he really did feel bad for the girl but Carly knew that anytime he said it, it wasn’t to be mean to her; The two were almost like brother and sister in an odd sort of way. “You’ve got a deal!” 

[lucasxturner]

I’m glad that I’m not the only one that thinks so. Yeah, I mean I’m sure she does and I guess that means I’m a good friend but I love her you know? So what else could I have done? We can only wish for no awkward moments in our lives man. I get what you mean, I wouldn’t want her getting close if I was in your shoes either, but I mean could it hurt if you gave into the fantasy for just a lil bit?

[noahxasher]

I’m sure you’re not alone in thinking it. I think anyone in their right mind would be appreciative of the situation - not many people would do what you’re doing in that scenario rather they love them in that way or not. Have you told her that? Yeah, definitely wishful thinking. I just don’t want to hurt her or myself again, y’know. I was the one who told her to leave in the first place, it would make me a hypocrite and probably wouldn’t go over very well.

[lucasxturner]

Yeah she’s living with me… That’s weird right? Like no one else would just let someone that walked out of their life come live with them in a matter of months. Maybe I’m insane… I’m sorry dude, it’s expected though at least you can laugh and try to be yourself though. Do you want my advice? Act natural, I mean no doubt there’s going to be tension between the two of you, but it’ll be worse if you both just act like nothing happened and try to be two different things or at least that’s what I’m learning.

[noahxasher]

It’s very weird - the type of weird that my mind can’t wrap around - I just don’t understand it. They really wouldn’t though man but it shows how good of a friend you are and I’m sure she appreciates it a lot. Or you could be insane too, that’s the only other explanation. I don’t know, maybe I thought everything would be different and there’d be no awkwardness but I suppose that’s how life doesn’t work. Yeah I’m trying to act natural it’s just hard - and I don’t want her to get close to me y’know?

[lucasxturner]

In all honesty I don’t even know man… It all seems like I’m walking on eggs when I’m around her even though I try to get over it you know? We haven’t talked in months which is what makes this so hard… Oh damn… How’s that going?

[noahxasher]

I can understand that I mean hell you two didn’t talk for months and now all of a sudden you say she’s staying with you.. I wouldn’t expect anything less. It’s been.. weird, and hard. I don’t know how to act or what to say around her. I’ve been trying to just laugh around her and stuff but I don’t know if that makes things worse or not.

[rosaliexbrooks]

Laughter bursting from the tight seam of her lips Rose covered her mouth as she watched his imitation. “I really hope I didn’t look like that while I was writing those.” She spoke behind her hands shaking her head from secondhand embarrassment. These moments certainly sent her mentally and emotionally reeling with the famous what if’s and while she knew it was a dangerous road she wasn’t saying no to the ideas. Eyes widening at his burst, Rose bit down on her bottom lip to contain more of her laughter. “Yes crazy blonde Carly! I didn’t think anyone would still call her that though.” Muttering under her breath the dark headed girl felt bad for the blonde even if she did deserve the nickname. “I’m sure she’s more composed than she was back then, but I mean could you blame her? Your hair really was super soft” Rose spoke softly herself with a small shrug of her shoulder. Standing up she wiped her sweaty hands on her jeans. “So if I promise to protect you against Crazy Carly and her hair fetish you’ll come?”

[noahxasher]

He laughed along with her, “Well considering you never let me see you write I’m unsure as to if you really looked like that when writing about me or not. I’m betting on yes though,” Noah lightly teased with her. It felt great to be able to joke around with her still but he was hoping he wasn’t making anything awkward. After Rose had left for college Noah was down in the dumps but was eventually brought out of it by her father and since then Noah has learned to let loose and laugh a bit, despite his sad feelings inside. He shrugged his shoulder, “Of course they do. Anytime someone runs into her at the store or something they always go on about her and her nickname. I actually feel for the poor girl,” he sided. Even though Noah called Carly Crazy Carly on multiple occasions, him and the girl had actually been good friends and she even had a nickname for him so it worked well. “We can only hope so,” he chuckled. “Only if you protect me from her hair fetish then yes.”

[lucasxturner]

{ @noahxasher }

Blake is staying with me… I bet you thought I wouldn’t be saying those words again. How are you doing man? I’ve been so busy with work that I haven’t had the time to actually talk to anyone unless it being Blake.

[noahxasher]

I wasn’t expecting you to say that again. How’d that even happen? I thought you two hadn’t talked for months. Yeah, I’ve been doing good, keeping myself busy as well with work and stuff. Rose is back in town too.

[carriediariesedits]

[rosaliexbrooks]

“It’s what you get for teasing me.” She laughed softly pushing the pillow into his lap softly as she shook her head. Widening her eyes Rose swirled around to face him with very preserved look her lips pursed in thought. “I suppose you really wouldn’t live that down… I think I would probably hold that above you forever you’re quite right.” She agreed quietly placing the diary back into the drawer she had found it in all the while trying to keep her emotions at bay. Thinking through her mental check list of things she had planned to do for the day, stopping to cross each off mentally as she hummed quietly to  herself. “If you don’t mind you could help me take it down to Carly’s she said she had some people that could use the stuff that I certainly don’t need i.e the clothes.” Rose offered and for a moment she actually believed she would have came up some ridiculous task just so she could continue being around him. While heartbreaking it was revealing also, Noah was her best friend growing up before they had crossed the line to become more.

[noahxasher]

“That’s not very fair. I saw one thing and I get attacked by a pillow. I’m beginning to think it’s every man for himself,” he laughed along with her, still teasing on the subject. “Suppose it’s a good thing I never did quite as such. Could you really imagining me doing that though?” and with that question he gave her the impersonation of a teenage girl and for an instance it was as if they were still the loving couple they were those couple years ago, madly in love and always laughing with each other. He waited for her response patiently, not really minding the wait as truthfully he didn’t want to leave yet. “Carly? As in crazy blonde Carly?” He questioned, a slight smile in his tone. “Okay but only if she doesn’t gush about how soft my hair is and how much she wants to shampoo it for herself,” he mentioned, one thing he had remembered. 

[skrivcrs-archive]

[ muse inspo: the heartbreak ]

“i’m flooded with all this pain knowing that i’ll never hold her like i did before the storm.” - Jonas

[rosaliexbrooks]

Rolling her eyes as Rose hit him with her pillow gently. “Hey now, not all of us write boy’s names with hearts around it– Just the lucky ones.” She tested blushing profusely. She liked his attempt at getting rid of the suffocating atmosphere that was their history never in their lifetime did she ever imagine something like this to happen to the two of them. Sucking on her bottom lip Rose looked from the diary in her hand that suddenly felt too heavy for the strongest man in the world. “Yeah… they were my favorite.” She murmured quietly staring at their initials on the cover before clearing her throat. “So! What do you think we should do now?” She asked looking around her now cramped room of history.

[noahxasher]

“Hey!” Noah exclaimed at the object hitting him. “That wasn’t very nice,” he teased, rubbing his arm as if he were actually hurt by the gentle hit of the pillow. He knew where she was going with the lucky ones. “I’d like to say I did the same but that probably would’ve been something I’d never live down,” he mentioned with a shake of his head. “Mine too,” he quietly agreed with her. “Hmm, we’ve eaten and have been through your things.. is there anything else you need help getting done?” he questioned politely.

[shilohfernandezdaily]

[noahxasher]

rosaliexbrooks:

With a hesitant nod Rosalie looked up at him. “Yeah, I was that cliche girl that wrote everything down…” Of course at the time when she was writing in the diaries about Noah she had imagined their white picket fence dream life together. Flipping through the pages randomly a small smile on her lips. “I must have a ton of them or at least five of these…” Sucking in a deep breath Rose read over her words describing just how much she was in love with the boy sitting next to her. Tears springing up in her eyes as she read over the page. “I was infatuated with you, documented every date or get together…” Almost every one, Rose very much knew that she didn’t document their breakup because she wanted to stubbornly think it wasn’t real. Setting the book beside her she met Noah’s eyes her own rapidly blinking to get rid of the slight tears. “I don’t want to bore you with all of that though.” 

“So girls writing in their diaries on those chick flicks is something that’s true?” He teased lightly, trying to lighten the once awkward atmosphere. In that instant, Noah was quite interested to read what the books contained though was frightened to at the same time – scared of what would happen if he went all the way back to memory lane. The male smiled kindly towards her, a loss of words at her confession. All he could come up with was “Those days were amazing” in hopes that that sentence wasn’t weird, especially since there were several he couldn’t really remember. He shrugged his shoulders, “ I don’t think it’s boring.”

[shilohfernandezdaily]

I think writing is such a great talent, and if I was better, I would love to be a writer.

[noahxasher]

rosaliexbrooks:

While Rose wasn’t expecting Noah to be thrilled with helping her clean out her childhood bedroom she couldn’t help, but be disappointed at the flatness in his tone. Did he even remember the things she did? Could he stare at her window and think of the countless times she had snuck him in in the middle of the night? What about her bed where she had given herself to him fully? Did he remember these things and did they make his heart clench like hers? Carefully sitting down on the old comforter Rose choked back a sob, and from the corner of her eye she could see the items he sat down. Each one bringing a certain memory back. With a deep breath Ro dug through her desk drawers, a laugh falling from her lips as she found her old diary. “Oh god…” She murmured out while her fingers traced the familiar R+N=<3. “I’m pretty sure every single page in this is about you.” She squeaked out nervously producing a toy necklace he had gotten her on their first date. 

Noah was on the last box in her closet, each one he carefully placed in case any of them had something that was able to break. A part of him was eager to see what could be in the boxes, if any of them consisted of things from their past but another part of him was terrified to go down memory lane. He knew how the two ended, he was the one who pushed her away and if memories came flooding back with feelings, he’d be a hypocrite. A beautiful laugh brought him out of his thoughts and he turned to see Rose holding onto something that looked like a journal. Though his mood was sort of off at the moment, he couldn’t help but smile a little. “Really?” he questioned, slowly walking towards her.

[noahxasher]

rosaliexbrooks:

Biting her bottom lip Rose gave him a short nod before rubbing the back of her neck. “Well then to the time capsule we go.” She teased lightly taking the initiative step towards her room. Her hands were sweating, Rose hadn’t been in her childhood bedroom since the day she left for college and that was only because she had to pack clothes and pictures. She was scared to say the least especially know they had made it upstairs and she was now faced with a dark oak door. Freezing with her hand around its knob she took a deep breath turning her head over her shoulder to look at Noah once more before she stepped into the room. All at once she was bombarded with memories some good and some bad as she looked at the bedside table next to the full bed a picture of the two of them still in it’s frame. 

Swallowing the lump in her throat Rose blinked quickly turning to look at something else, but all she could think about was him and them and their memories and it was suffocating. “Where to start.” She murmured softly throwing her hair up into a pony tail before grabbing a tote. “I’m going to start with the desk if you want to grab the stuff from on top of the closest we could just put it all in piles?”  

Noah cleared his throat a bit as she mentioned the words 'time capsule'. He wasn’t expecting her to say something as such. Though his memory was a little foggy and sometimes he couldn't quite remember some of their days together as high school sweethearts, he was almost scared to help her with her room; Nervous that something could possibly bring back some of those memories and he'd be heartbroken all over again. He watched intently as she froze at the door and took a step in after she had. His gaze followed hers to a picture frame on her bedside stand – it was a picture of the two of them.

He bit his lip and quickly looked away from the photo as she did, almost pretending he had't seen it. I think that's a good start,"; he replied, a little more flat than he meant it to sound. He headed over towards the closet and took a deep breath before opening it. He began reaching for things and pulling them down, followed by laying them in the closest corner out of their way.