I Just Wanna Run

"I'll gather up the nerve I'm packing up my bag It's more than you deserve"

[rosaliexbrooks]

noahxasher:

“Nope, the refusal of nicknames is not allowed in any type of situation, no matter how ridiculous, Ridiculous Rosalie,” he teased the female before him. His facial expression matched hers as he explained why he felt so bad for Carly and the fact that their peers would mock the poor girl. He racked his brain for the so-called nickname, though came up short. “I can’t say I recall which nickname you’re referring to…” he trailed off. A part of him was teasing her due to their conversation they were having but he really did not remember what she was talking about due to his condition. “To Carly’s we go!” the male shot up from his seat with a chuckle to follow. “Of course,” he nodded as he grabbed the keys out of his pocket and led the way to his vehicle.

The nickname didn’t really upset her, but the memories that lingered with it did. They striked a match inside her that she wanted out the moment the name slipped from their lips, but she couldn’t tell Noah that. In fact she wouldn’t burden him with more memories of their past, not when she could barely face them on her own. “ Whatever you say Noah... “ She jested shaking her short hair. “ Actually maybe you didn’t have anything other than Asher...” She commented a nickname that other people called him coming up blank in her head. “ I used to call you a bunch of cheesy ones when we were together, but other than Asher I think that’s it.” Rose stated addressing their breakup for the first time, and she almost regretted it. Shaking the sadness from her face she replaced it with a smile while following behind him. “ I can’t believe you still have the truck... Do you ever think you’ll get rid of it ?” She asked throwing a bag of clothes in the bed before she hopped up into the cab of it, memories flooding her senses though she acted like they weren’t.

[yourdrunkenblondie]

[blossomfully]

Of course I wanted him. Of course I did. But he was leaving and that was the only piece of truth which resulted from this whole mess. He was leaving and I felt as though someone had punched me in the stomach. He was leaving and I spent all of my time wishing he wasn’t.

Sue Zhao   (via blossomfully)

[lovelysuggestion]

there’s a parallel universe in which you stayed

[darlingshane]

[namtan]

[blossomfully]

“I wanted to call him,“ she said, ” just to see how he was doing. But you can’t do that. You can’t talk to someone who held your heart in their palm and pretend it never happened. “I wanted to ask why it was so hard to get over him. I wanted to know if he felt pain like knives in his sides like I did. I wanted to know if he ever felt lonely when he listened to music, or if things reminded him of the memories we made. “I wanted to say that I couldn’t remember the sound of him saying my name anymore and sometimes that scared me but I knew it was important, and that our last kiss wasn’t anything like in the movies, that it was so brief the wind had swept it away before I’d had a chance to commit it to memory. I wanted to explain how now I’d forgotten everything apart from the way he made me feel, like I could do anything, like love wasn’t just for perfect people, like love could also be for me. “So my god I wanted to call him, but instead I sat on the floor and drank shots like they were tea. To be honest I don’t know if I still loved him, but then I suppose you have to love someone to miss them like that; like hell, like absolute-fucking hell.

S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #218 (via blossomfully)

[just-six]

Sad story: He almost loved me.

six word story // prince-osh (via just-six)

[rosaliexbrooks]

noahxasher:

“Intimidated? I won’t ever be able to understand why. It’s just something you have to put your mind to and once you’re in that state of mind, it comes easy,” he shrugged his shoulders. “It’s true!” he exclaimed with a grin on his face. It was almost as if the two never grew apart. “That you know of,” he added in. “There’s always still time.. like Ridiculous Rosalie?” Noah questioned, though he was just joking around with her. “Just because everyone would make fun of her and stuff like that. I couldn’t imagine having a nickname like that and people mocking me all the time,” he explained, he really did feel bad for the girl but Carly knew that anytime he said it, it wasn’t to be mean to her; The two were almost like brother and sister in an odd sort of way. “You’ve got a deal!” 

Glaring at Noah’s impromptu nickname Rosalie shook her head. “Uh huh no way I refuse that one. Am I allowed to refuse the nicknames? Cause I think in this ridiculous case I should.” A frown formed on her face as he began to explain a different situation to her about nicknames. “You’re right... Though if I remember correctly you did have your own nickname it just wasn’t that mocking.” Thinking back to the old days Rose picked her mind of the small nicknames that revolved around her ex boyfriend. “Great! So to Carly’s we go?” She asked grabbing her jacket and a bag of clothes. “Do you think we could take your truck? I don’t want to go searching for Dad’s keys and wake him up.”

[rosaliexbrooks]

maisiezwilson:

Why does have he have to be so damn smart? I suppose that’s where you get it from, huh? I know you can’t, I just miss you being here.. you seem to be the only one I can have serious talks with one minute and then be laughing on the floor the next; It’s refreshing. I hope not either but surely they’d hire someone who knows what he’s doing and will make you and the firm look good. Oh, she told me that she thinks she might be..  falling out of love with him but she’s not sure what he thinks. Should she break up with her boyfriend and get to know the one night stand or get to know him while she’s still in her relationship? She just doesn’t want to hurt her current boyfriend but she’s also intrigued by this other guy. Maybe he could be.

I miss you too, and trust me the feeling is mutual of course. I guess that is what best friends are for. I’m hoping they would, but you never know-- It isn’t like I was in charge of any of the multi-million cases... Falling out of love. That’s a hard thing to go through, but I think she should at first maybe try to talk it over with her current beau. Might as well be honest with him, and see how he feels. Could there be a chance that she’s just bored with the relationship? I think that’s all the matter of the person, cause I don’t know how I’d react in the situation if I was in her shoes

[rosaliexbrooks]

maisiezwilson:

I can understand that, things can get entirely overwhelming and it just sucks. If I can think of any different ways for him to take it, I’ll definitely let you in on them. Knowing your dad though he’ll catch on to it quick and you’ll be back to square one. I know you do and I wish I knew how to make it all shut off, dealing with that stuff is probably the worst thing about life, or on the list of worst things. Well you know I’m always here to listen, no matter what. And of course you know I’d be happy to help in the medical aspect of things as well. Perhaps I am surrounded by them, maybe you should come back! Okay so I have a friend, right? Well said friend has a boyfriend and said friend had a one night stand with this beautiful man and now she can’t stop thinking about the one night stand and wants to continue seeing him. What should she do?

You’re very right he’d catch onto me as soon as possible and I’d be back at step one all over again. I can’t just come back even if I wanted to. I’m praying that the guy they got to take over most of my cases isn’t just a total whack job out of school or I’ll be so angry with the firm. A friend yes.... Ahh a friend huh. Well how does she feel about her boyfriend? and are they in a serious part of the relationship? Cause if they’re not then I mean I’d say she should at least try to get to know the one night stand. Who knows maybe he could be her true love?

[rosaliexbrooks]

noahxasher:

He laughed along with her, “Well considering you never let me see you write I’m unsure as to if you really looked like that when writing about me or not. I’m betting on yes though,” Noah lightly teased with her. It felt great to be able to joke around with her still but he was hoping he wasn’t making anything awkward. After Rose had left for college Noah was down in the dumps but was eventually brought out of it by her father and since then Noah has learned to let loose and laugh a bit, despite his sad feelings inside. He shrugged his shoulder, “Of course they do. Anytime someone runs into her at the store or something they always go on about her and her nickname. I actually feel for the poor girl,” he sided. Even though Noah called Carly Crazy Carly on multiple occasions, him and the girl had actually been good friends and she even had a nickname for him so it worked well. “We can only hope so,” he chuckled. “Only if you protect me from her hair fetish then yes.”

“Oh please! I was intimidated by seeing you when you write you just looked so at peace and content until you got hit with a block or something. Uh huh you keep flattering yourself Mr. Asher.” Rosalie laughed rolling her eyes at his teasing. This is what their relationship should have been like after their break up, despite the underlying tension she chose to ignore, Rose felt content with how they were being. She felt almost home. “God, I’d hate that so I’m glad I never got one of those crazy nicknames. Oh really?” Pursing her lips in thought and cocking her head to the side. “Why?” She asked though she had a general idea as to the answer. “Well then I promise I will do my absolute best to protect you good sir though only if you return the gesture if she comes after mine.”

[rosaliexbrooks]

Crystal meme: ABALON, AQUAMARINE, CHAROITE, KYANITE, RUBY

a b a l o n e: what kind of situations compromise my muse emotionally?

Any situation that has to deal with her past or anything that reminds her of mothers as she lost hers.

a q u a m a r i n e: where my muse feels most calm/relaxed

Depends where she is at. If she’s back in Boston her little nook in her apartment, if she’s home than it’d have to be her dad’s study. 

c h a r o i t e: who my muse looks up to

She very much looks up to her dad. He’s the person who raised her and who taught her everything she needed that the schools couldn’t and was the guy who helped her through her heartaches. He is her hero. 

k y a n i t e: an anger headcanon

Whenever she was younger and her dad would let her win certain arguments so that she could get that “i told you so” in, but as she grew she figured out his secret so she’d always get bitter, but when he wouldn’t let her win she’d be such a sore loser and get angry.

r u b y: a happiness headcanon

When Rose won her first case and while it wasn’t anything super big, a very small insurance case, she couldn’t knock the grin off of her face and even called everyone in  her phone book to tell them about the news. 

[rosaliexbrooks]

Send me a symbol: ✎ ♥ ☯ ☠ ★ (Noah)

✎: For an unsent letter from my muse (May be AU if you want, just let me know what kind of AU you want).

Dear Noah,               I hate you. I hate how you make me feel even though we’re so far apart. You’re the best parts of me and I hate you for taking them away. I hate that you ended things and I hate how desperately in love with you I still am. It has been five months since the day you tore my heart out and it still hurts. Why? You didn’t even say goodbye! Who does that? Who does that Noah? I’m not over you and I hate it. I hate myself for loving you and I hate you for loving me back. How can you expect me to move on and be happy when you’re the only thing I want? Did you ever consider what I wanted? Did you ever stop and think that you were being selfish? I honestly don’t even know why I’m writing this– I’m not good with words and it just makes me want to tear it all up and cry; clutching onto a stupid photo of us, but what’s the use? I mean it’s not like you care anymore right?

♥: The favorites of my muse, you’re allowed to specify what you want.

Coffee Dates.Romantic Comedies.Noah Justice for Innocents(I wasn’t sure what to do for this one)

☯: Here, have a hug from my muse.

Jumping up and down at the great news about her father’s health Rosalie couldn’t contain herself. She was becoming to think for the worse when she got the phone call from his physician, but with news that the chemo was in fact working just fine she was through the roof even if it wasn’t guaranteed to stay working she was just glad her dad was getting better a little bit at a time. Turning quickly as she placed the phone on the hook to see the familiar statue of Noah she flung herself at him. Wrapping her arms around his waist she squeezed tightly, her face against his chest and she could smell him and he almost hadn’t changed. Her head was spinning from the familiar sense and good news that she didn’t realize how long she had been hugging him before she removed herself to tell him the news. 

☠: Your muse has died, this is how mine reacts.

Rosalie is dressed in a very old T-shirt that forever was stained by grease and smelled of gasoline with a hint of him. She hadn’t said his name in what felt like years, but could have been hours. The sprightly female was nowhere to be seen as she curled up in a bed that wasn’t her’s, but his breathing him in and she hadn’t left the room for days as she couldn’t find the strength to even bathe much less go out in public. Her diet was liquor and maybe some stale crackers, but she didn’t care how it could effect her own body all she wanted to was to be numb. To forget the past week to ignore the pity looks she had received at the funeral, the suffocating hugs. She wasn’t herself. She was a ghost that floated around a dark room clutching onto a pillow and sobbing, the always hanging question of why floating in the tension of the room as she passed out into a drunken slumber before waking up and repeating. 

★: The stars are shining beautifully and my muse wants you to see them.

“Come on Noah! You’re going to love it and I don’t care how cold it is.” Rosalie exaggerated her bottom lip jutting out in a pout as she gazed up at the older male tugging at his forearm. “Stars are pretty and I know they’re always there, but I’ve missed them just– Please? Just for like five minutes and then you can go back in they’re just so pretty tonight and you need to see them,” Even bringing her shoulders up to her ears in a shrug. “Who knows maybe you’ll get some inspiration for a novel.”

[rosaliexbrooks]

maisiezwilson:

Psh are you kidding?! I’d drop everything for ya, for real. You’re the closest friend I have here in the states. I suppose that’s something normal, I’ve heard stories like that from some of the ladies I intern for. But have you tried taking a different approach about it? Maybe he’ll do what he needs to do if you give it to him differently? I don’t doubt that wouldn’t, I mean considering what happened between you two. And all the feelings are bubbling to the surface again, I gotcha. I wish I could help you with it or something. If you’re sure? Are you two fighting? Are you saying I’m surrounded by good looking males or something? Which speaking of, I have a scenario to run by you.

I haven’t even thought of a different approach at this moment my mind seems to like going a mile per minute so I just feel so drained and exhausted. I’ll give it to him a different way or at least I’ll try to I mean there’s no shame in trying it out. I hate it Mase I hate it so much, like honestly I want to shut it all off it’s too much. You’re fine honestly listening to me go on about is enough for me. If I need help with the medical aspect of things you’ll be the first person I call, but I’m doing alright right now. I guess you could say we’re fighting a little bit. Maybe that’s what I’m saying. Oh yay! A scenario shoot.

[rosaliexbrooks]

maisiezwilson:

Hey don’t worry about it, I’ve been pretty busy anyways and it’s been hard to keep up with my phone. How is your dad doing by the way? Oh hun, did everything go okay in that department? Not that I know of, I haven’t checked a few of my voice mails though so I’ll check those and let you know if any of them are from him. I bet, I’m really sorry that he’s going through it.. you let me know if you need me. I’m glad to hear that though. Getting out and having fun? Of course I have when I’m not at uni or studying, I’m usually.. with friends.

As long as you have time to talk to your best friend that’s all that matters ha. He’s doing as good as he can, he’s still super stubborn though and argues with me when I try to get him to eat or take his medications. I swear if I’m this much of a hassle when I’m his age I give my kids permission to hit me. It’s different, but it’s okay. I guess it still hurts you know?  And that is the frustrating part cause it’s not like I ever stopped caring for him... Hell don’t even listen to them honestly he doesn’t have the right to bug my friends. Of course! Good, you can’t stay cooped up the whole time I’m away I need to live vicariously through you since the only good looking male I’m around is Noah and that’s a no go.

[rosaliexbrooks]

maisiezwilson:

I’m just glad to finally be hearing from you, it’s been a while Rose. I’ve been doing really great, been busy with school and..other things, it’s been good. What about you, how have you been since you went back home?

I know Mase I swore I was going to call you back, but then I just got distracted with my dad and ran into some old people even my ex. Hey Jacob hasn’t tried to contact you right? I didn’t tell him where I was going and I just don’t want him to bother you either. It’s difficult specifically seeing my dad like this... Noah’s been a great help though which is great. Enough about me what about you? You better be getting out and having fun.