Destruction and Rebirth.

The name is Xaldyn. 21. Student. My blog is primarily Tokusatsu and toy related. If you like Japanese karate bugmen and their high detailed collectible figures, well you are in the right place. I understand that I can't stop you from taking or reposting...

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Smoking Man on Threadless

VOTE for my X-Files t-shirt design? :) I would greatly appreciate it!

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Stupid joke plus bonus Mako.

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I originally planned this to be like an Oprah/Ellen style show with Satsuki and Ryuko, but that didn’t pan out.

I don’t think these are my best work; lighting is a bit wonky and poses could be better.... I haven’t taken photos with my DSLR in a long time so I need time to get back into the groove of it.

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I can’t believe Ryoma retweeted this. (x)

“No doubt… This is the live-action version.”

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I did this doodle because it’s true ~

If you’re playing MGSV too you know that feeling :^D 

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! M A T O I R Y U K O !

Gosh, Satsuki. Do you have to be so loud?

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No, I'm telling you there's no sense in complaining. Just get in the next queue.

I did and fed on purpose. Down to 20lp. Bronze here I come.

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Regarding your complaining about LoL. No Johns sir, move on or get left behind.

Are you telling me to just quit playing and play something else?

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I keep playing because I like the game, but I am getting burnt out. It pisses me off so much that I put in so much effort and try my best but it’s never enough. One person cannot carry a game let alone a support. I don’t know what to do. Every time I play I get lower and lower.

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 I am getting so pissed off with LoL. I was in Gold but tilted, now I am in silver III :/

“but Dylan if you belong in gold you will get there-” HOW? oce.op.gg/summoner/userName=Xaldyn I get paired with fucking idiots who feed, pick Alistar jungle, go mid Garen with clairvoyance and clarity...

“don’t blame your teammates, you only have you to blame” I know I am not a great player, but how am I supposed to climb when I have no impact on the game???

The OCE server is the fucking worst.

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« New age of crime… meet new age of crimefighter » Batwoman by  - Aoshi Ame Photo by me 2015

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Batwoman in DC Bombshells #1

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I am in the middle of reading The Time Traveler’s Wife by Audrey Niffenegger and became inspired to try and draw this. I am no good at drawing or coloring so this was the best I could do.

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In the interest of trying to get into old habits of posting again, here is a photo I took last night.

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I don’t have the energy to get right into why I have been away for so long. If you want to message me about it I can go into detail there but for now here are just bullet points: 

health has been erratic. physical and mental. I am not okay.

I feel ashamed and think myself a burden. Didn’t want to worry friends here. It was (or is) easier for me to cut contact and wallow than to feel I have disappointed so many.

The longer I am away form tumblr, the stronger that feeling gets. The more regret and shame I feel for abandoning friends who I have relied on for so long. I don’t know how I am to face you.

I don’t know why I am suddenly posting this. it feels spontaneous. I am not better at all. At times I feel worse than ever. I guess right at this moment as I am writing this, I am in a slightly better frame of mind. I guess I felt it better to say something than to continue with nothing.

All that being said... I suppose the main reason I wanted to type this out was to apologise. I am sorry I have been gone with no explanation. I am sorry for inexplicably cutting contact with people I care about. You guys have done nothing to push me away or anything like that so don’t think that. I am at fault. I have no excuse.

I don’t know how to end this post. Tumblr seems really different. I need to type out words then highlight them to edit? I can search for .gif files to insert now? I am feeling overwhelmed.