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Starving hurts but not as much as the guilt of eating

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It's not just about being skinny. I no longer want to feel. I want to wake up with my biggest concern being hunger, not existentialism. When I don't eat, everything becomes so simple. You only have one priority. One voice that calls to you. Nothing else. When you feel yourself getting lightheaded, there's nothing more freeing. You brought yourself to that point. Everything is up to you.

I just want to be able to breathe again.

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It's getting warmer. It's getting colder.

I'm growing more fond of cigarettes.

I miss my days by the sea.

So cold. So many stars.

Hunger. Lack of. It's all the same.

Nothing will free us.

[nocturnalparadise]

The less I eat the less I feel. I need to be emotionally numb to get through this. I can't handle feeling this way. I need the silence or else I can't live.

[nocturnalparadise]

Music hits different once you've mastered the art of starvation