fuck it.

i do not wish to be that

[nofacenoonenobody]

I think i am so useless and unwanted, so much so that I often spend whole days laying in bed fighting the idea of suicide. I enjoy life. I harbor hope still.

But then I think about how I feel in that moment, and how long ive felt that way, and why I do, and it starts to seem like, unbearable. Like I couldnt possibly spend another year or maybe even forever, feeling this way still. Maybe I should just opt out now.

[nofacenoonenobody]

My problem is that I am horribly bored

My age is grating

I am tired of the person I love most

Awful, I know

I crave more

I try to kill that part of myself

But doing so is killing me entirely

I cant function like others, maybe

Maybe not

I truly dont know anymore. I know who I am. But I dont know what they need from me.

[nofacenoonenobody]

The silence within love

Caught staring at myself in the mirror,

Felt it hit me

From the inside of

And from above

I figured it would end,

Waited for myself to win,

It all fell down around me

I begged to be pure

To start again

Asked for more,

Pushed at the sin

[boykeats]

from “what does love mean? see how 4-8 year-old kids describe love” by ladan lashkari

[”when someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. you just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” billy - age 4]

[nazzstalgia]

[rai-r]

@park.jeonny/Instagram

[webhex]

[destroymylife]

[heavenhillgirl]

[understands]

[tchaikovskaya]

sometimes its just like *street lights reflecting off the wet asphalt at night* maybe life isnt so ugly after all

[thoodleoo]

touching grass is not enough i need to see the night sky as it looked to an ancient greek

[schuylerpeck]

I don’t want to work a 9-5, I want to go hiking and be in love

[dathatgirl]

sending me cute messages out of the blue is the key to my heart, like yes let me know I’m on your mind.

[baebly]

[3poundsofwideawake]

“Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.”

— Alice Walker (Living By The Word)

[markmcevoy]