If It Weren't For This Girl...

My name is Eilonwy.. I know it's a mouthful. I'm from a very small island nation in the U.K. I love learning new things, and being independent. So sorry if I come off a little rash sometimes.

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

Merry Christmas,Eilonwy

A necklace with a pendent with the letter ‘D’.

A mug that Dash bought before coming to the school for Christmas but decided to give it anyway.

A light pink wallet that Mel convinced Dash to get because it was pretty. (and it matched with the necklace that Mel gave)

A plush made out of felt of a knight that Dash thought it resembled himself.

A white jewelry box

A bunch of red tulips because roses are overrated and tulips are just as pretty.

Another plush, but this one is a walrus because sometimes Mel compares him to one.

Note:

Princess, I hope you have a wonderful Christmas filled with love and joy, and lots of presents and a even better New Years. Forever your knight, Dash.

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

Merry Christmas, Eilonwy.

A necklace with a pink pendant

A mug with powdered chocolate, marshmallows and two candy canes. The essentials for a wonderful hot chocolate

Two notebooks.

And a little desktop garden kit. (A make your own garden thing)

Note:

Eilonwy, you were one of the best roommates that I ever had and even my pets agree with me on that. You are a wonderful girl and I couldn’t be happier to be able to call you my friend. I hope you are having a wonderful Christmas and I wish, from the bottom of my heart, that next year is going to be even better. Happy Holidays, Mel.

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

-on the couch with the bunny-

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

I wont freak out. Just tell me quickly, like ripping off a band-aid. -buries his face in his hands- Wait… What ?

[not-a-princess-anymore]

"You're going to be seeing some horrible rumors about me and Prince Harry. I wanted you to know that nothing happened with him. I haven't so much as looked at anyone else since you left. I just want you to know that nothing happened."

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

-on the couch with the bunny-

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

Oh no… I knew this was too good to be true. I knew this was going to happen someday…

[not-a-princess-anymore]

"Please, don't freak out. But...I am a princess. Princess Eilonwy Llyr of Prydain. Next in line for the throne."

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

-on the couch with the bunny-

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

I missed you too, Princess.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

"A-About that...Dash. I need to be honest with you..."

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

-on the couch with the bunny-

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

[not-a-princess-anymore]

"I missed you." 

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

-on the couch with the bunny-

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

[not-a-princess-anymore]

[im-the-princess-of-disaster]

-on the couch with the bunny-

No wonder Mel loves you so much.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

[not-a-princess-anymore]

M-Miss Trish...

[ohlook-youreheretoo-blog]

No offense, but I highly doubt you’ve done something horrible enough to get you kicked out of this school. This place is a haven for delinquents, you’d be right at home. Unless of course I’ve massively underestimated you. [shrugs] I’ve never had that happen no, but I’ve seen it happen to others.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

The school would not expel me, my father would no doubt pull me from here. When he finds out, he will insist I go home. I was caught in a lie. That turned into a nasty rumor. And now it is plastered all over. It is only a matter of time before he storms through those gates and drags me back across the pond. 

[ijust-love-takeoffs-blog]

H-holy wow. [sits down on a nearby bench] You’re my age. How in the world can you be expected to run a country if I can barely figure out my feelings about a boy I like? [shakes her head] Sorry, again. Focusing on the wrong parts. Will they really see it as a lie? I mean, not your parents but like the public? Then again, I’ve seen what some magazines get away with publishing even if it’s only barely the truth. Gosh, what will your d-oh my goodness, he’s an actual king. Has he ever had anyone beheaded? No that’s silly, that’s probably an ancient tradition…[raises an eyebrow curiously] or is it? You’d know, right? Oh, gosh. I shouldn’t be asking you all this. This is probably exactly what you’d want to avoid, right? [smiles] Alliteration does always pull in the reader. Something soothing about the repeated letters. Like evil Dr. Suess.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

I've been expected to run a country since the day I was born. I've been pruned and groomed by many teachers. A few that have some very choice words about my classroom behavior and excellent aim with a bow. The public may not know I lied to my parents, but the magazine is claiming my relationship with Harry is...well...sexual. He is a party boy and he loves women. I have heard so many stories from him, but I have never been one of his prospects. We've known each other far too long. -Giggles- Yes, my father is a king. No he doesn't behead anyone. We use lethal injection just like America, though there's only been one death sentence in Prydain since that technique was employed. You know what? I thought I would hate being asked about all this. But, I don't. You're not treating me any differently really. Perhaps my fear of showing my true self were in vain.

[just-a-fewmore-ruffles-deactiva]

Oh my GOD, Is this TRUE?

[just-a-fewmore-ruffles-deactiva]

Don’t you see that people finding you popular because you are royalty is finding you popular because of who you are? You were born into a line of royalty, of course that’s going to be a factor. People don’t just become princesses simply by wishing it were so, much to the disappointment of my six yearold self. That’s not something you can get for Christmas, it’s something that is given to you at birth and it’s something that you’ve probably had your entire life to come to terms with. Weight of a country and all. Besides, isn’t it better this way? People have gotten to know you as a human without the royal title, so now that it’s coming out – however slowly or quickly it does, depending on who here reads what, they’ve already had a chance to meet the “real” Eilonwy as you so wished. They know who you are and maybe that will hold sway to what they think. Princess with a heart or something. Clearly you aren’t the type to go flaunting yourself around, though I would do exactly that. It was merely a suggestion, don’t get your gilded panties into a bunch. [laughs] But that’s where you are wrong. You are different. You do have a pedestal. And the fact that you keep denying that fact is ridiculous.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

No, it is not who I am. It is what I am. I have no control over what I am, but I can define myself by the person I become. I do not want to be spoiled, revered, or feared. I want to be loved and respected and seen as an equal. I am no better than anyone else. I have flaws. I have insecurities. I am not someone on a pedestal. I am a human being walking the earth with you. Birthright be damned. I do not ask for my responsibility and yes, I have had my whole life to let it sink in how much my country depends on me. There is only a small council and all the decisions are made by the one on the throne. I could save my country or ruin it just with a simple yes or no. Do you understand how much that frightens me? Every day of my life, everyone is reminding me of how 'important' I am. I don't want to be important. I want to be me. I want to enjoy my life and have my chance if only for a moment, to not be a princess.

[ijust-love-takeoffs-blog]

What? You’re a prin-what? Oh my goodness. Wow, okay, I’m processing this hold on. Did you just say Pippa and Kate as in - oh MY GOSH. [stares for a moment before shaking her head] Sorry! I don’t mean to stare, I just. Wow. I don’t think I’ve ever been around anyone so…well, famous. Though I didn’t know you were but granted I don’t really pay attention to royalty outside of the big things like the wedding and the Queen at the olympics..NOT that you aren’t interesting. Oh goodness, was that rude to say? Was I just rude? [covers her mouth] Sorry, rambling. Of course I won’t say anything, I’ll keep your secret.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

I understand. It's a bit jarring. I am not like what people imagine a princess to be. Much to my parent's dismay. But I am still of royal blood, and when the time comes, I will step up to the throne. But my father has made it very clear that I am not to be fraternizing. But Harry and I have been longtime friends. He invited me, and I lied. Now my lie will blow up so large that the entire world will know. They weren't exactly kind in describing me as well. Though I must commend them for their clever alliteration. "Prudish Prydainian Princess Picnics With Party Prince." 

[not-a-princess-anymore]

M-Miss Trish...

[ohlook-youreheretoo-blog]

Sure, just please tell me it has nothing to do with what we talked about last time.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

No, it is far worse. Perhaps bad enough to remove me from this school. Have you...have you ever had a rumor come crashing down so hard you cannot pick up the pieces?

[enjooooy]

[not-a-princess-anymore]

M-Miss Trish...

Can I t-talk to you?

[not-a-princess-anymore]

Binks went around the campus with a basket full of knitted turkeys, ones she’d been working on for quite some time. She wanted to hand them out to all the people she was thankful for and was proud to have them in her life. Knocking on door after door, she left a turkey and a note before carrying on. “Thank you for being you and for being so wonderful. I hope this turkey brings you a bit of holiday cheer! Happy Thanksgiving!”

Eilonwy took the turkey from the girl, a smile pulling at her lips. It was such a small token, but the thought behind it made her whole hell melt away for a moment. "Thank you, Bianca. That means so much." She didn't celebrate the holiday, but she loved the idea behind it. "Happy Thanksgiving." 

[w3llb3fri3nds]

Hey, don’t worry about it. This place is like a fortress. Its old gothic architecture and big scary gate keeps people away. Not to mention the fact that its known as the school for delinquents and everyone seems to hate us. Er..I mean, I think you’re safe.

[not-a-princess-anymore]

I just wanted to be normal, Todd. I just wanted to have a normal life. I don't want this. I don't want the limelight. I want to go back to everyone thinking I'm weird and just a bit odd. I don't want everyone to find out. I just...I hate this. I hate this so much.