Sad Journal

previously musingonnapkins

[notaforest]

i spent nine hours in a car driving to tampa and falling out of love and then i made myself think that i must not have cared that much anyway and then a year later i drove myself to tampa and i remembered it all and i’m still sorry and not sorry at all

[notaforest]

the last time i was in tampa i was painfully reminded of the time i spent 9 hours in a car w someone driving to tampa and falling out of love

[notaforest]

tampa is where dreams go to die

[notaforest]

REAL

[notaforest]

yeah, you know, i really like you and stuff, it’s just that i have this policy against dating anyone who actually likes me lol why would i want to have a stable healthy relationship when i could be with someone who’s emotionally unavailable and likely going to break up with me for no reason lol

[notaforest]

i can’t tell what’s read or not

[notaforest]

gonna have a hard couple of days and then feel better again

[notaforest]

its just that u give yourself something to live so, like, i’m going to live to see this and then i’m going to live to see this and then you do those things and

[notaforest]

i would forgive you for anything and that's what i'm afraid of

[notaforest]

i have such long stretches of feeling Bad™ i don't remember what it feels like to not feel Bad™

[notaforest]

nothing! makes! sense! 🤗🤗🤗

[notaforest]

merry christmas gender is weird

[notaforest]

trans, alive and confused af

[notaforest]

OH SHIT TOO REAL

[notaforest]

sext: YR NOT MY DAD

[notaforest]

i'm just in this place where like ... i'm still in luv w her and always have been ... and like ... we're trying to be friends ????? and like idk how to do that but like oh well it's chill

[notaforest]

just want to gay marry someone rly cute u kno