Just a quick rant on how I feel with my current relationship to the Octonauts Fandom-
I no longer feel happy w/ my association with Octonauts
Several familiar faces had talk about it on their end. I've been needing to talk about it for honestly almost half a year.
THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH DISCORD FRIENDS. THEY HAVE TAUGHT ME EVERYTHING AND MADE ME LEARN TO STAY SOCIAL. THIS IS JUST HOW I FEEL BEING ASSOCIATED WITH OCTONAUTS DUE TO WHERE ALL THIS TOOK PLACE-
With that in mind i'm going to be emo LOL
I get degusted at myself whenever I look back. Been in the "fandom" for like what summer of 2023? it's now spring of 2026- all i could think about how much of a slob I was. Both with being lazy- never being able to get artworks done- and how I acted. Like how in 2020 everyone was super cringe like that ig.
I think about how many people** i was "friends" (A collection of people**) with that turned out to just bait me, used me as their scapegoat, and just were awful and destroyed my capability of me to feel vulnerable comfort.
Seeing it trending out of no where on tiktok is kinda funny- it's like seeing an ex. You try to be open and give it another chance- it doesn't work.
Truthfully I wasn't even actively posting for it after like 2 months- i blame myself for trying to stay in bc all my friends were there even though I knew i wasn't into it and nothing was holding me to stay.
I co host a server- I never in my life thought I would fell victim to manipulation and possibly worse (I'm still questioning if I was apart of worse tactics) I thought I could handle it but new fans were insufferable to work with. I never thought I would have to make boundaries for minor common sense-
I then got made into another mod from a mutual friend (who was also met from octonauts) and I had to mod for grown adults who keep arguing-
it's not even related to octonauts at all but I literally can no longer see octonauts the same and I cannot see myself actually looking at octonauys bc everytime i think about octonauts i think about the amount of events that happened how i could've handled it but was too dumb to do so-
DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON CURRENT OCTONAUT TUMBLR- If it isn't obvious I've stop using tumblr 24/7. I've switched to the other Ts. Twitter and Tiktok- I feel happier with my new communities (no diss to my actual octo friends from discord this is me talking shit about ex mutuals btw) that guy who reuploaded a chinese exclusive movie for ppl to watch- got jumped on and talked shit for not providing english dubs, for putting a watermark, etc
then i can't believe the new community saying how open the community is with spreading about MATING headcanons- Did gacha heat videos not warn us hello-I LEFT THAT I NO LONGER WANNA BE ASSOICATED WITH THAT BYE....
Anyway I'm now active on tiktok ngl- never thought i would say that- yeah i think the show is great- i love my friends that i made- unfortunely if your gonna ask me like oh so you used to like octonauts?- i think i would end up sobbing like that roblox character with all those spiders on it. Deadass i don't know how to discribe it bc i think the word trigger isn't correct for me to use- my brain just flashes to every negative event and i no longer can handle it.
one thing i miss tho is that all my friends shared the same timezone as me. maybe it was a downgrade or upgrade compared to my new fandom but omg my new moots timezone are wayyy different-
ladz out or something (i've already stopped using tumblr lowkey i only use it when i need to find shipart)