dianne

Idek anymore, just kinda existing I love space :-)

[notdianne]

Im applying for internships at Hopkins! Honestly idk what’s gonna happen but I’m hoping for the best ❤️

[notdianne]

I wanna put something here but idk what to say 🤧

I need to stop crashing tf out and lock in. It’s not even funny at this point like….well it was never funny but I just—what the scallop

BUT ON A BETTER NOTE THE HUZZ TEXTED ME ON SNAP 🫣 Shes so nice and pretty and AHHH I WISH SHE WENT TO MY SCHOOOOOL 😔

oh happy pride month!!! (I’m late as hell to this lmao)

[notdianne]

IM LITERALLY SO UNSURE ON WHAT TO DO NEXT YEAR UGH

College is coming closer and closer every day…😢

[notdianne]

I stopped spiralling. Took a deep breath. I’ll be okay. It’s..it’s gonna be okay.

…our last Astronomy Club of the year is tomorrow.

…

[notdianne]

my leg keeps going numb

it’s really annoying

[notdianne]

I found some cool star arm warmers at goodwill. Feels space related. I thought they were cool. It was nice to cover up, I guess..

Sorry if I’m posting a lot, haha—I guess it feels good to get stuff off my chest. I like writing.

[notdianne]

My leg isn’t numb anymore—but has a bruise forming where I kept hitting it 💔

owie

[notdianne]

Another friend group I was in ghosted me last week. Our one year anniversary would’ve been in May.

Apparently one of the guys girlfriends really didn’t like me even though we barely know eachother—started a whole plan for weeks for all of them to just leave the groupchat, some even blocked me. Now I’m just trying to pick the pieces back together, again.

I’m really, really tired. I’m trying my hardest to get all A’s, finals are coming up, of course, but I think the combined stress of home life, school life, friends—I don’t have the brain power to keep track of it all. I feel like I just—collapse under pressure, I’m irrational, I spiral, and I’m loosing the motivation to keep my head above water.

This isn’t school related so hopefully it’s fine to put this here.

[notdianne]

Remembered that people can still see my tumblr. I’ve been using my account as a place to rant and vent—kinda like a diary, that’s why I never tagged most of my posts—but forgot completely that tumblr is also…yknow..a social media site, and the page is public. Kinda just meant for my page to be a thing I could look back on and reflect, but it’s the internet, what can you do?

I’m sorry to anyone who read what I said. I’ve been figuring out how to make posts private or friends only—and finally learned how, so any school drama or stuff I think is too personal will probably be posted privately from now on. It wasn’t fair to anyone to have to read that.

[notdianne]

I’m loosing sleep again. AP testing in two days!

…

I met an amazing person named Willow a couple days ago. We’re only talking, but I genuinely think I’m falling for them…and they’re interested in me too. BUT NONE OF US ARE READY TO DATE YET! AUUUGH!

I’m totally fine with waiting, I want to respect their decisions, but they’re just genuinely so pretty and awesome and I’m new to all of this stuff so idk AHHHHH

😳

[yamchazone]

Volume Warning!!

idk if u guys have seen the image version of this floating around but I had to animate it lol I couldn't help myself

[notdianne]

Bro yamcha doing this is so peak

“I play the baseball 🥺”

HES SO AWESOME 😚👍

[notdianne]

Spring break is over…sorry for not posting, I crashed tf out

Today is earth day! As a avid space lover you know I couldn’t NOT post 🤭

HAPPY EARTH DAY!! 🌍🌎🌏

[notdianne]

Why does education have to be locked behind a number? I just want to learn about fun things.

School is structured in a way that we value grades more then we value learning. That’s why kids cheat on tests.

I’m so tired.

[notdianne]

Sometimes I wish my pet was the only thing bringing me down. Idk, I got some other stuff going on right now. Feeling very demotivated. School seems like an impossible task now.

I just want to cry.

[notdianne]

I’m loosing the motivation to do the things that make me happy.

Goodbye Hopkins; it was great knowing you! But we all know you’re just a dream I’m chasing, a ladder im climbing with no top to reach.

[notdianne]

Angry rant—don’t mean anything I say here I’m just upset over current events.

I love crying during the middle of lunch and the super supportive “friends” I have paying no attention and instead joking about gender reassignment surgery. Like HELLO? I sit right next to you?

It’s actually so unfunny how one of them even turns around to face the other (sitting right next to me) saying “are you okay? I know you’re not but you’re clearly not okay” while I’m fucking crying my eyes out right next to them. It’s like okay, yeah sure I’m bawling but go ask the person NEXT to me if they’re okay cause they’re clearly in need of more rn.

(Not saying this person didn’t need help, but it feels really fucking ironic that a single word was not spoken to me by these two the entire time)

I feel like I’m always there to let people have a shoulder to cry on, but when I start having a crisis nobody does jack shit.

High school is as shallow as a kiddie pool.

[little-gay-boy-45-deactivated20]

vegeta when he did that gay little dance

[notdianne]

BINGO DANCE IS PEAK!