where the hell am I now

Violet × trauma diary × BPD , anxiety , depression × 18

[seraphimrot]

the fucking mood

[nothingbutaghostsposts]

I wish it was all a dream.

I wish what you did to me wasn't real.

I wish I didn't always feel like this.

because I don't feel real.

but what you did to me,

feels more real than ever.

I can feel your fist in my hair

I can feel you here

yet I cannot feel sad

I cannot cry

and you'll never know that this is what you did to me.

the separation of mind and body.

I wish I could feel something.

but all I am left with is flashbacks in this empty body I take up space in.

I am not real.

[nothingbutaghostsposts]

[r0ttendxll-deactivated20231126]

if i could be a different person i promise you i would

[bitingtrauma]

[ethrelustful]

Reblog if your pro recovery. Whether you’re in it or not

[whereismyc0rpse-deactivated2021]

[weltenwellen]

Susan Sontag, Reborn

[soo-deactivated20220919]

[axestasyy]

[disturbedlolita]

[nothingbutaghostsposts]

[nothingbutaghostsposts]

I wish I wasn't so good at dissapearing from life but god does it feel so good

[nothingbutaghostsposts]

I can't say it but God I would die to have you hold a knife to my throat and watch me squirm

[nothingbutaghostsposts]

I hate this feeling. sitting, so weak, no motivation to do anything about it.

[nothingbutaghostsposts]

got a text from my ex saying she's going to send me my stuff back and God it hurts. I left her but I miss her sm

[jennifersbod]

#my last two brain cells