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On the receiving end of condolences, I wanted as many as I could get.

Unlike almost everything else that we eventually come to know and understand, we don’t know death by living it. We get to know it obliquely—through the emotional consequences of losing people we love. It is a burden of being alive, and everyone must manage it.

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and some years are uneventful; inconsequential; and some years I don't show up at all.

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i was once a quiet boy, cleaning out my wounds, but i never could keep my mouth shut when i needed to. i could try to pry it loose, but the stone won't move and i want to try to rip it out, but I've grown to love this thing too much. have i become the man that i hated once, or have my thoughts become clouded by things i used to fear the most? is my heart full of the ashes i heard about? have i become the missing person I've been trying to get you all to forget? buried alive now, cover your eyes now. we breathe so desperately. as if its the only thing we need. we don't care if its not breathing honestly. we are burning our lungs with it and we don't care at all. when you breathe the air it tastes like medicine. overwhelming days of nothing that i can't hide. when you walk alone you think such foolish things. so disappointed we are with no one around to love. buried alive now. cover your eyes now.