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Hi, I still don't know a good description.

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LDR (Long distance relationship)

A long distance relationship is tricky. Missing your parent, if you have been together. When you meet that person, and chat everyday; you feel good, complete. But once you get closer, a love and hate feeling starts. Hating being so far, hating not being able to help, and not being able to touch. THE FUCKING PHYSICAL TOUCH. Touching can kill a relationship, even normal relationship, that might leave in the same neighborhood, breakup because the don’t touch enough or something like that. 

The loneliness a long distance relationship comes with is painful. I’m in one of this and I’m considering leaving it, but I don’t want to at the same time. Me and my partner have you gotten stuck, we haven’t done anything new to try to feel closer.

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Same month different year.

22/11/2021

I forgot, I had this app. Today, I was feeling like typing my feelings out and see what’s up with my account, how famous I had gotten since the last time. Although seems I haven’t yet. Doesn’t matter, I would hardly read all the shit someone else posts, less if I don’t know who they are. 

This year, I’m turning 16. I know pretty young. I don’t want a party this year, not even a cake. I’m just feeling super vulnerable to be handling family gatherings. I don’t know in ou guys family but mines is very imprudent. They just blurt stuff out, without minding hurting your feelings, making you feel low, and place themselves high. Not just that, you’ll be never be right with people in general, not just my family. You could have elaborate the biggest and most exclusive party, but they will always critizes every single detail. Maybe the ballons’ color was too light, the cake was cloying and so on. I rather, not doing anything then listening to their unhappy and meanful commentaries. 

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Same thing? or big?

I lit kinda forget that I had this app or that I was trying to get famous in it, im kidding. Im just bored as fuck but anyways trying to be famous is not bad at all. I think the famous life but be difficult like camaras, and stalkers that most be hard but when you like something theres no  problem from your side but anyways. Hi how being life?? Im my case Im in kinda of christmas vacations like 2 weeks already. I love every moment I had all this december. I had fun with my friend on my birthday that was on december 18, also the 24 we had a lot of fun with my cousins and family in general. But even tho I got very mad becasue my grandma daughters didnt visited her during this dates. They are so fucking mean and I hate that kind of people becasue when that special person is in danger or in it last moments of life they start appreciating them. 

That happen with my grandpa. They started caring about him when the doctor said he had the day counted. I miss my grandpa and my grandma does as well, but in her case hers is more than anyone that loved him. 

This 2020 was not the best year some can say but the fact I have life and health, I cant be more thank about that. We humans really need to learn to appreciate that small details that may seem careless but tommorrow they are going to be important as fuck. So lets love our love ones maybe you may not see them important now, but they do are now and ever, we just need realization to hit us hard. And dont think Im just saying you of course no, I have to also, but I know it seem so hard but life is fucking crazy and karma will hit someday. To us and to them.

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Why?? :(

I had always wonder... God I know we womens where the ones that brought the sins to the world but, why we have to suffer that much. I mean we have to pass by period pain, pregnancy, the world judgement, and more. Boy will never be able to life a day as girls. 

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Ma Birthday....

My birthday is in 5 hours. AHHHHHHHHHH. Im so nervous and happy.

My sister had being killing me with my birthday gift! She was it is beautiful and that I will love it. but idk

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Parents fights are fucked up.

Lately my parents are fighting way to much. My mom was the only one that talk about the problem so I was just having her perpective. Yesterday, I try to talk to my dad about it but he gave me his perpective and some details my mom was not giving me he did and viceversa. I have both point of view and I really dont know who is the one wrong. I cant go to any side, and that the bad part when your parents fight, you dont know what or how to react. If my parents separte sometimes I think I would be fine with it but at the same time I dont want my younger sister to suffer. I really dont know what to do or how I should be think.

Yesterday I cry, and cry to the point my face was so red and horrible in general. Even today in the morning my eyes look as I cry all night. I just have to say that the less you know about your parents fight the better. But if your parents tell you, you have to be strong.

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A day in the bathroom!

I still have this bellyache, my mom say it is gastritis but dont think so. They gave me something to be able to take all that food from my system, and literaly today I have being all day in the bathroom. When I go out it doesnt pass 30min when Im back in. But I really want by belly to go back into normal.

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Eating problems

I have a bellyache ahhh. Well, is not exactly a bellyache is more like I dont eat that much but today I eat so my stomach didn’t take it good. My mom say I’m getting gastritis which is bad but when you used to be fat and know not skinny but average kinda makes you happy or at least to me. I usually dont have breackfast becasue my stomach is hurting but I think is fine, Im not getting skinny or I really dont see a difference in me. I wish I could be skinny and that this quarentine make me gain weight. 

I know people say gaining weight is not the big deal it is not for some people but when people had make fun of you when you used to be fat and then they start saying compliments you cant get enough of them. I want to be able to go back in time and not eat at all. I feel by cousins where on eof the main reasons I gian weight they force me to eat making be eat and then eat more to the point of getting fat. I want to be skinny that’s all but still dont have the corage of stop eatting. Im kinda scare of having a very dangerous sickness cuz of that. 

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Lonely bitch

You made ask yourself why the fuck does this girl post when no one see her post? Then let me tell you why, becasue I’m a depresive person and here is how I express myself, wait that was before I saw my value. I post because I want and I can. I don’t judge the person that post because if their way or escaping or reality, but is not my case. Look I’m just fucking bored as fuck and I like posting that it. 

Soooooo, let me tell you about my day, well I’m day normla till now, im actually very bad of my stomach, lately so today I’m going to get a masage cuz it hurts as fuck. Also, theirs missing 5 day for my birthday, im turning -- yeah Im young, I know HAHAH. Anyways have a happy day my lazy no followers...

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Fuck Biology

I’m ending quarter next week so my teachers make me do some stuff to finish up. And becasue of quarentine, at my country they haven’t let the schools open so we are still online. The thing is that becasue of that we are not making like a quarter exam we are just making evaluations, some powerpoint presentions and essays. But my biology teacher she doesn’t like being as the rest of the teachers she like sbeing unique be different. SO what she did?? 

Well, let me tell you, she makes us made a portfolio from the chapters we learn during this quarter. They are just 2 chapters but each chapter has 3 lessons and every lesson needs to have a least 9 lines representing it. She really needs someone to fuck her up. And they not just summaries of the lesson, ohh nooo. She also want extra, like a total summary, what we would said to new biologist and I will lit tell them ‘RUN!! DON’T EVEN DARE TO COME BACK’ becasue it is horrible. 

Biology is not like a boring class but that fucking teacher makes it hell. It is bored as fuck, I think even fuck is better than this class. 

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New Account

Soooo... I had a account in this thing already and it was going well. BUT at this beautiful girl she forgot the password of her gmail. I had to make another one. I do enjoy using tumblr they are just blogs and talking and say how I feel or what my weird mind is thinking makes things way better. If you come form my another account of nothingtodoblog, then let me tell you I’m the same, but will another account HAHAH. I’m so stupid. Anyways that’s all. Have a good day and go back to your classroom.