You shall not clip my wings

Greetings. My name is Castiel. I am an Angel of the Lord. Please be sure to show me some respect. ((This is a single verse blog. Everything that happens will be connected to everything else. CURRENTLY Castiel is dead and this blog is on hiatus until further notice))  Souls watching a fallen Angel

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I may need all the luck I can get!

What are you being for Halloween this year? :D

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Being? I am being Castiel. As I am every year of every day of every hour. I have no desire to be anyone else… or anything else. Except perhaps a better Castiel… but that will not happen overnight. Perhaps I can be a better Castiel next year… 

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Oh, no, no, that’s not really what I meant. But that’s very admirable, I like that a lot. Maybe next year when you’re being a better Castiel, I can be a better Kadaj too.

Halloween is about dressing up in goofy costumes and getting candy and being silly. You can dress up as anything, even sexy watermelon, apparently! It’s like when I wear the princess dresses except everyone does it. Well…mostly everyone. And it’s also my birthday which makes it a lot of fun too!

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Is there something wrong with the Kadaj of now? I rather enjoy the one I have before me... But there is nothing wrong with trying to be better? Perhaps I'll like Better Kadaj even more than Regular Kadaj...  Ah yes. I am aware... It's not really a holiday I am comfortable celebrating... As an Angel I have a feeling we're not supposed to. But since it's your birthday I suppose I could make an exception. What would you advise I dress up as? Perhaps. A spoon. Since you are soup.  

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I may need all the luck I can get!

What are you being for Halloween this year? :D

[notquitefallen]

Being? I am being Castiel. As I am every year of every day of every hour. I have no desire to be anyone else... or anything else. Except perhaps a better Castiel... but that will not happen overnight. Perhaps I can be a better Castiel next year... 

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I was just made aware that I could be sexy watermelon for Halloween.

yes.

[notquitefallen]

 I…  Well… If you’re continuing to be liquids and solids… and food. You should go as a… well. ‘sexy’ can of soup…  or a bowl… I won’t discriminate your choice.

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Oh my…

Cas.

You are a genius.

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 Really? Well. Thank you. I wish you luck in your soup endeavors.   

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I was just made aware that I could be sexy watermelon for Halloween.

yes.

[notquitefallen]

 I...  Well... If you're continuing to be liquids and solids... and food. You should go as a... well. 'sexy' can of soup...  or a bowl... I won't discriminate your choice.

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OOC HOW YOU DARE TO THINK I FORGOT ABOUT YOU???!!! U r mah Cas <(;~;<). I would have replied, a bit late, but I would!

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(( ;A; I don't know. I'm sorry! <3 ))  

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#bitch please

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bitchslap

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(( :o I’ve been on my personal. And I rp Jareth from the Labyrinth now…  Oh. There has been school too. B|  This account kind of broke and I didn’t know what to do. Still don’t know what to do. But I’m derping on her because Cas muse felt like coming out for a bit. He’ll fly back into the darkness soon enough. D; <3 <(ovo<) take this heart as an act of solidarity! ))  

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OOC SWEEEEEEEEEEETIE. I’m in a semi-hiatus so I can’t RP properly, I know how it is.

oasjdlkjaslkdjalskjdlak You’ll be forever my first Cas ;-; I miss chu.

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(( ;~; Awww. I missed you too. I followed you on my Jareth blog, but I never said anything cause I was like... 8U How? And I felt bad and assumed you had forgot about me and it was silly to bring my self up O;.  <3 <(;~;<) ))  

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“Ah, that’s true, I certainly can’t argue with that logic. Although, my lifespan is…complicated.” He shook his head. Maybe it wasn’t. Maybe he’d live a normal lifespan. Maybe he’d drop dead tomorrow. Hopefully not.

He couldn’t help the slight smile that tugged at his lips. “I think perhaps I said that the wrong way. It was kind of a figure of speech. It certainly hasn’t been that long, but it feels like its been…how long has it been?”

He realized just then that he still had the violin tucked under his chin, the bow still fixed on the strings. Carefully he set it down, followed by the wooden instrument before he went over to the coffeemaker, practically on autopilot.

The silver was, of course, listening intently. Eighty years. He’d be happy to live for another thirty. Though…it was entirely possible he’d still be around for a hundred and thirty. It kind of really depended. He sighed, though it wasn’t out of stress more just…affirmation. He couldn’t help another smile; Cas always seemed to be able to put things like this into perspective. “I guess you’re right. Maybe I’m just…I don’t know. Maybe I’m not doing enough for myself. Maybe I need to go out and see—see the world? Something like that. Or maybe I’m just going batty from spending too much time here.”

He relaxed a bit more. Cas always felt easy to be around. “That sounds amazing, I’m glad to hear it. I’d love to do that. To just…watch everything. Watch the world go by. See everything. How is Heaven? Oh, silly me, would you like some coffee?”

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The Angel's attention was on the wooden instrument for a moment before his azure gaze was back on the silver. Without hesitation he followed after the other as he spoke, that faint hint of that interesting drink became apparent. "What is stopping you?" he asked curiously, waving off the offer for a drink.  Of course, it was much easier for mortal beings to fly where they chose. Only recently had he been given such a life... and while it was lonely... it was free. Probably like what Gabriel experienced everyday... but his brother wasn't alone anymore... Gabriel shared his freedom with someone else these days...  Snapping out of that train of thought, he didn't deserve to think of his dear brother after all, he continued to speak. "We made a promise... after all. We were going on a..." what was it? What had they said they were going to do? A trip...? "a vacation. You picked out outfits for it. Should there ever be a need... we can leave at any time. I can take you to places I have seen easily." And share the wonders of the great world with someone else for once. He wasn't wasting away like he had been before. To get them from one place to another would be as simple as snapping his fingers. "Even though you do not have wings you can still fly... mortals are not tethered to one spot unless they choose to be. Only you impede yourself. Only you can make your life stagnant  You mortals all have your own kinds of wings that some Angels would trade a great deal for. Some have. If you wish to fly. Then do so, in your own sense of the word. The remnants of your mortal existence will be here when you return...  should you wish to. If you wish to watch the world go by... then watch it. Fly wherever you please... and only tether yourself when you truly wish to be tethered."  His expression darkened for a moment. "And of course be careful.... there are sorts of silver snakes and foul tricks... that would have you abandoned all you know with grand promises... so don't stop for anyone. Make the them stop for you." 

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(( :o I've been on my personal. And I rp Jareth from the Labyrinth now...  Oh. There has been school too. B|  This account kind of broke and I didn't know what to do. Still don't know what to do. But I'm derping on her because Cas muse felt like coming out for a bit. He'll fly back into the darkness soon enough. D; <3 <(ovo<) take this heart as an act of solidarity! ))  

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((It's the only stick doodle I have. I don't normally keep them. XD )) 

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The other had silenced for now, like usual. It did not like being spoken to authoritatively. Much like…

No, he would not think about her now.

He played on, humming along to some vague tune. Perhaps it was Lady Gaga. Maybe it was just himself.

Himself. Hah. Was he even sure…who that was anymore? Kadaj. What did that name mean to him? Was he shedding the skin of a past life or were his eyes simply being opened?

Half of him was still here. Half could still function. The rest—gods only know where he was and how he got there. Maybe grief drove him insane. Maybe it was just that time of year. Maybe.

He nearly jumped at Cas’ voice, turning around and almost bursting into tears like the last time they had met. Cas…sweet Cas. The angel didn’t deserve to see him like this. He deserved more and Kadaj mentally kicked himself for that. He knew he could only hide his crazy for so long.

Initially he didn’t answer, but when Cas repeated the question, he nodded. “I just…” How could he sound un-crazed? I was talking to an imaginary friend, the voices in my head began asking things…

“It’s nothing,” he said softly, “just…having a moment, is all. It’s been one of those days. Er. One of those…weeks.” Kadaj shook his head. Cas always made things relatively quiet. At the very least, the strange entity seemed a bit calmer, which in turn calmed his nerves, “How are you? I feel like its been forever…”

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"Not to speak ill of your lifespan. But. Had forever really passed, I doubt we would be speaking on this plane of existence." he answered the question, his brow furrowing just slightly. Forever...? That would be an unnatural amount of time to pass. Not to mention concerning. Because Forever... well. It just keeps on going... "In fact... Forever doesn't imply any ending point. Despite not even being on this plane... there is no set ending point for us to even speak. So. Had forever really passed, I do not believe we would be having this conversation..." He nodded some at his own words, happy to have drawn a conclusion to that.  "I certainly am not the best Guardian. But I don't leave my wards forever." Save for dying... and even that was never forever it seemed... But. To the matter at hand. A bad week? Such a small amount of time, and much more reasonable. "Bad week. Since I mentioned your lifespan once, I shall mention it again as it is "on topic"." he made the quotes with his fingers. "Strictly speaking. If you average a normal human lifespan. I shall be generous and say eighty years...  And every year you live is fifty two weeks. And if you live out all those years you will have lived through four thousand one hundred and sixty weeks. Having one bad day in all those weeks is nothing to be concerned about. So long as they don't accumulate to much. After all. Four thousand weeks is not a terribly long time to live, at least to me. I would make the most out of them and have as few bad ones as possible."  He nodded again, assuming he had eased the others mind some about this topic. "Ah. But you asked me a question. I am well enough. I go here and there. See the splendors of the mortal worlds... and mind my own business on the heavenly plane, and the mortal one. Only watching over those I have promised... save one or two..."