Meg🌙

🖤

[notsatanic]

My heart aches for a future with you

[capturingmoonbeams]

September & sunflowers

[notsatanic]

“I have seen you. Most of you and I’m not afraid to see the rest”

[notsatanic]

Proud of myself for doing something today

[amargedom]

How to fall in love ?

love yourself first.

[notsatanic]

If you gave up on me, why can’t I?

[notsatanic]

You pinky promised we’d go to England, Amsterdam and Paris together. You promised you wouldn’t leave, you promised you were ready and didn’t want to hurt me anymore. You promised you were ready this time and things would be different. So many promises broken over a silly mistake that could’ve been fixed.

[notsatanic]

Once I’m long gone, my body turned into ashes and deep within the roots of the earth, I hope you look at the moon and think of me. I’d like to hope you’d always remember me, in music, in the stars, in the movies we’d watch together and through the sound of water. I just hope you’d still remember me.

[notsatanic]

I want to call you for help, I wish I could because I know you’d talk me out of my decisions but I can’t find the courage to do so. I don’t want to see the disappointment on your face when I tell you about how I want to end it all.

[marcosticks]

I hope you know, that even though we aren’t speaking, or won’t speak anymore, doesn’t mean I don’t care. I still want to see you do well and thrive.

[notsatanic]

I keep thinking about how I need a day off, maybe a few days. Most people would go out of town on their days off but, I’d wander in the places our ghosts still resides. I’d reopen those memories in the cracks of the pavements we used to walk on, and hear the ghostly cackles of our laughs from years ago. I’d go to the beach we’d always go to, sit in my car and listen to all the songs that we would listen to. I’d drink every drop of whiskey, and then take every pill that I have left. I’d close my eyes and think of you in my dying breath, because at least that’s the closest I’d get to dying with you. As my heart would come to a stop, and I’d feel the last breath escape me, I’d whisper your name so you know that I am sorry for giving up.

[notsatanic]

I wish I could tell you how much I miss you, and how I’ve dreamt of you almost every night. That the nights don’t seem as warm anymore, and the mornings are getting longer without you here. How I get excited to hear your name, and even more to hear your voice, and my heart aches not to hear you laugh. I wish I could tell you that I think of you every day, and always hope you’re doing alright. I hope you’re close to finding what you’re looking for and that one day I’ll see you again. Remember who we used to be? I do, and I’ll never forget. I will always love you and I will always miss you.

[notsatanic]

Reading our old messages just to remember what it felt like to be loved by you.

[notsatanic]

I wish I could live a life where I do not overthink each decision and step I make.

[littlewickedthings]

skvllpel

[wallpaperprintery]

Did I fuck up too many times?

neck deep - lime st.

[notsatanic]

What’s the point if they’re not willing to try?