Synopsis: It starts as joke and have been running between you and Minho for a while — until it isn’t anymore. (2,4k words)
It starts as a joke.
The first time you say it is when he cooks dinner.
You’re sitting at the kitchen counter, chin in your hands, watching him move around and looking annoyingly good doing something as mundane as stirring a pan. His focused, dark brown eyes. The strands of hair falling over his forehead. The sharpness of his jaws. The slope of his nose.
He wipes his hands on a cloth when he’s done. Then slides a plate toward you.
“Eat before it gets cold,” he says without the slightest of zest.
“Thank you, my beautiful, private chef,” you teasingly say.
You pick up the fork, taking a piece of the pan seared salmon and shove it into your mouth. It tastes exactly as it looks. As you expected.
“Oh my god,” you gasp, eyes widen dramatically.
He rolls his eyes immediately. “What.”
“This is amazing,” you gasp, clutching your chest like you’ve just been emotionally wounded by good food.
The compliment doesn’t seem to faze him much as he continues eating his own dinner. Yet he looks just as attractive when he’s eating.
You put your hands under your chin, tilting your head slightly to the side as you dreamily sigh, “You’re hot and good at cooking…”
He only looks at you, unimpressed. And yet, his indifference is the biggest part of his charm.
You lean forward and sweetly say, “Please, marry me.”
He doesn’t even look up from his own plate of dinner. “No.”
Your lips curl into a pout. “No?”
“I already cooked for you. That’s more than enough commitment,” he simply answers and ever so casually, taking a sip of water.
The answer comes out so smoothly, so unexpectedly but at the same time, it’s so Minho. You burst out laughing, completely amused. And ever since, you can’t help but teasing him with the same joke, anticipating what his answer will be.
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A week later he comes home with a fresh haircut.
You’re on the couch scrolling through your phone when he walks in, casually kicking off his shoes like he didn’t just drastically increase the apartment’s attractiveness level.
It amazes you how Minho losing a few inches of hair makes you stare and feel warm all over.
He notices as he walks to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. “What?”
“You look hot,” you say, biting your lower lip like it would help supress the dirty thoughts forming in your head. “Like… illegally hot.”
“It’s just a haircut,” he says, matter-of-factly.
You wait until he’s sitting on the sofa with you, scooting closer until you’re right there next to him and stare at him all over again with heart in your eyes.
“Gosh, I have the hottest man in the world as my boyfriend,” you sigh, a finger playfully tracing the prominent vein on his arm.
As usual, Minho is unfazed. He’s on his phone, typing on the screen with so much focus. You lean in closer, close enough to place light, little kisses along the side of his jaw and then a final one on the skin behind his ear, catching the hint of his perfume there.
“I’d destroy the world if you married someone else,” you feign seriousness as you whisper into his ear. “So please… marry me.”
That gets him turning his head toward you and stares at you for a long second. Then he shrugs and says, “Sounds like a you problem.”
With that, he turns his focus back on his phone, ignoring the way you pout and glare at him from the side.
But after a while, you smile as you soften around him again. You wrap your arms and legs around him, clinging to him despite him rejecting your playful proposal for the second time.
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One evening you’re both sprawled on the couch. Minho is lying on his back with a cushion propped under his head and you — you lay on top of him with his muscular chest as your pillow, your legs are tangled with his. His arm wrapped around your back, fingers absentmindedly playing with the end of your hair.
Even doing something mundane like this — just watching a movie, cuddling on the sofa in a contented silence — feels special with him. It really is not about what you’re doing but who you’re doing it with.
You glance up at him and find him so focused on the TV, looking comfortable and warm and frustratingly boyfriend-shaped.
You sigh contentedly and softly call his name, “Minho.”
“Hm.”
“Please marry me.”
He doesn’t even look away from the screen. His tone flat and uninterested as he asks, “Why should I?”
You subtly shrug and say, “So we can do what married people do.”
One hand glides down to the base of your spine, threading his fingers there. He turns his head slightly. “Like what?”
You think about it seriously for a moment, humming in solemn. “We can open joint bank accounts.”
“Terrible idea.”
“Getting a mortgage.”
“Even worse.”
“Buying matching coffins.”
He finally turns fully toward you. “What?”
“So when we die we can be buried next to each other,” you explain matter-of-factly.
He stares at you like he’s reconsidering every life choice that led him here. “You skipped a lot of steps.”
You coyly shrug and grin.
“I’d prefer to be cremated though,” he says, putting both hands on your back now.
“Oh?” You softly gasp, slightly surprised. Then, a second later—
“Oh!” you gasp again, the kind that comes with an idea. A strange, weird idea. “We can have our ashes pressed into diamonds and inherit it to our future children.”
Minho’s lips quirk into a half smirk. “That’s actually a good idea,” he agrees.
You beam and snuggle closer, feeling proud of yourself. You burrow your head into the crook of his neck and softly whisper, “So let’s get married, yeah?”
He pats your head like you’re an overly affectionate cat. “No.”
The proposal isn’t that serious but your head lifts anyway when he rejects you for the third time. “No?”
This time, he looks at you when he says it again. “No.”
“Why not?”
He holds your face with both hands like you’re a fragile object but the answer he gives you is nothing like it. “Cause you’re getting harder to tolerate,” he flatly replies.
Instead of feeling offended, you crack a laugh and bump your nose with his. “I hate you,” you say, affectionately.
“See? Hard to tolerate,” he says, smirking.
But with each rejection, you find yourself falling harder for him. And a tiniest bit of hope that he’ll marry you. For real.
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The joke continues.
Every time he does something nice.
When he brings you coffee.
“Please marry me.”
When he fixes the loose cabinet door you’ve been ignoring for months.
“Please marry me.”
When he wordlessly hands you a blanket because he noticed you were cold.
“Please marry me.”
His responses are always the same level of unimpressed.
“Unlikely.”
“No thanks.”
“Absolutely not.”
Or his personal favorite:
“I’m not in the mood.”
Even when you’re already tucked in bed, drowsy and tired, ready to sleep. You look at Minho who’s peacefully lying beside you with eyes closed. You lean in to his ear, whisper while half asleep.
“Please marry me, Minho.”
Minho’s eyes snap open and slowly, he turns his head toward you. He gives you a look of disbelief. Then he runs his fingers down your face to force you to close your eyes.
“Go to sleep.”
“But—”
This time, he cuts you off with by pressing a sudden, hard kiss on your lips. When he pulls away, he mutters, “Your proposal has been postponed.”
And you can’t really complaint when he shut you up like that. So instead, you snug closer to him and try to sleep. At the same, you’re already planning on proposing again tomorrow.
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Weeks pass.
The joke never really stops. It just becomes part of your routine now.
As Minho is busy preparing dinner in the kitchen, you hug him from behind. You wrap your arms around him, resting your head on his shoulder and feeling comforted already by the mere feel of his body against you.
Minho continues cutting ingredients like this is just another Sunday afternoon. The sounds of his knife hitting the cutting board are the only thing filling the silence. Until—
“Please marry me,” you say, voice a little muffled as your mouth pressed to his neck.
Minho sighs but continues cutting the carrot now. “You’ve proposed to me twelve times today.”
You grin and teasingly say, “So?”
He turns his head, looking at you like he’s both impressed and bewildered that you haven’t given up already.
You don’t waver. Instead, you feel encouraged. “Statistically one of them will work eventually,” you confidently say.
He smirks and simply says, “Good luck with that.”
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One night you come home exhausted. Work had been long and irritating and your brain feels like it’s running on fumes. When you open the apartment door, the smell of food greets you immediately.
Minho stands in the kitchen, the sleeves of his dark sweater rolled up to his elbows, putting too much focus on plating dinner.
Just the sight of him is enough to make the weight of the day vanishes into thin air. “I’m home,” you weakly announce.
“You’re late,” he says without looking up.
You walk up to him, giving him a quick hug while letting out a sigh. Like you’re trying to exhale all the heavy, worried minds out of your head. When you pull away, you offer him a small smile.
“I’m just going to put my bag away and wash up,” you say.
He seems to notice that you’re more exhausted than usual. He gives you a quick kiss on the lips before letting you go.
When you return, he’s already set everything on the dining table and now, filling your glass with red wine. You take your seat, stomach grumbling at the mouth-watering smell of the food in front of you.
It’s when Minho takes his seat, you finally allow yourself to start eating. It feels good to come home to the man you love and eat the food he cooked. You couldn’t be luckier than this.
“Good?” he asks.
You have to stop yourself from shoving more food to properly answer him. “So good,” you say with stuffed cheeks.
He smiles at that, warm and affectionate, before getting back to his own plate of dinner.
At the end of the dinner, you feel so content. Literally. Figuratively. You have a small sip of wine before leaning in to the side until your shoulder meets his and stay there.
You tilt your head, meeting his eyes. “Thank you for dinner,” you genuinely mutter.
Minho puts an arm around your shoulder. “Glad you enjoyed it,” he says, followed with a quick kiss to the top of your head.
You have another sip of wine and feeling playful when you look at him again. Then you hesitantly ask, “Marry me?”
For once, he doesn’t respond immediately. Instead, he looks back at you. He studies your face for a moment. Then, finally answers, “Okay.”
Wow! That’s a first.
But you know him too well to know that he’s only saying that as a joke, to boost your ego. Or lighten up your mood after a long, tiring day.
“You’re not supposed to say yes. You’re supposed to reject me,” you tell him, half-laughing.
He tilts his head slightly and blinks his eyes a few times. “Well, I changed my mind.”
You can’t tell if he’s being serious now or just messing with you. You nervously laugh and decide to entertain the idea. “Okay, let’s go to the city hall tomorrow and get a marriage certificate.”
“Okay,” he repeats.
Your heart starts beating faster. “You’re joking, right?” you carefully ask.
“I’m not,” his voice is calm. Serious.
Your stomach flips. “Minho…”
The arm around your shoulder feels warm and steady. He looks you in the eyes as he says, “I though you always wanted me to say yes.”
Your brain struggles to catch up. “Wait, are you actually—”
“Yes.”
You sigh, a part of you still struggling to believe this. “Minho, I need to know if you’re serious.”
He raises an eyebrow. “Why would I joke about that.”
You stare at him, completely stunned. “But I thought—”
“That it was just a joke?” he finishes.
You nod weakly.
He nonchalantly shrugs. “It started that way. But I thought about it.”
“And?” you whisper.
He looks at you like the answer is obvious. “And I decided I wouldn’t mind doing those things with you.”
Your voice comes out small. “Even the cremated part?”
He sighs like he’s fed up of you doubting his proposal. “If that’s what you want.”
A shaky laugh escapes you, half disbelief and half overwhelming emotion. “You’re really proposing right now?”
“You’re the one who proposed first.”
“That was a joke!”
“And this isn’t.”
The room feels very quiet suddenly. Despite the confusion, the suddenness of this moment, and the fact that it hasn’t sunk into you… your eyes start to sting.
“You’re serious…” you mutter to yourself while laughing in disbelief.
He gently squeezes your shoulder. “Do you want me to ask properly?”
You nod quickly.
He takes a small breath. Then, in the most Minho way possible, he says, “Do you want to marry me so we can open a joint bank account, get a mortgage and have our cremated ashes turn into diamonds?”
You burst into tearful laughter. “Yes. A thousand time yes,” you say immediately.
He nods once, satisfied. “Okay.”
With that, he pulls you into his arms like this was the most normal conversation in the world. That this is not him finally asking you to marry him and said yes to marrying you.
You cling to him, still laughing in disbelief. “Told you, one of them will work eventually,” you mumble into his shoulder.
“I know.”
You tilt your head up, looking at him in love and disbelief that you’ll have your forever with him. “Marry me, Minho,” you softly murmur it’s almost a whisper.
He leans in and places a chaste kiss on your lips. when he pulls away just enough to look at you, he smiles and says, “Already working on it.”
-
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Synopsis: After attending a friend’s funeral, you realize that you have taken a lot of things for granted. Including Hyunjin. (1,7k words)
The sky is a dull, colorless grey. The kind that doesn’t rain, but feels like it might at any second. Almost like… it also mourns a passing of someone dear.
You stand beside Hyunjin in the small crowd gathered around the casket, hands folded in front of you, eyes fixed on the ground because looking at your friend hurts too much.
She’s standing only a few feet away in a black dress. Her eyes are hollow, fingers trembling as they clutch a handkerchief that’s already soaked through. Her husband’s photo rests on a small easel near the flowers. He’s brightly smiling in it, completely wrong for this setting.
You watch as she reaches forward to touch the edge of the casket, her shoulders shaking as someone steps closer to steady her and something in you cracks. Because that was her person, her every day, her safe place. The one she came home to. And now she’s standing here alone.
A cold wave of fear washes over you so suddenly it almost makes you dizzy. What would you do if that were you? If the person inside that casket was—
Without thinking, your hand shoots out and grabs Hyunjin’s. Hard. Your fingers lace with his so tightly it almost hurts. You don’t even realize you’re squeezing until he gently squeezes back. He glances down at you, eyes soft but questioning. But you don’t look at him. You can’t. You’re too busy staring at your friend as she breaks down into someone’s arms, grief folding her in half.
The fear creeps further into your chest. Uninviting. Unsettling.
What if one day you’re the one standing there? What if one day you’re the one left behind? Or worse—what if you’re the one leaving?
Your grip tightens again and Hyunjin shifts closer, shoulder brushing yours now. His thumb rubs slow circles against your knuckles, gentle and warm, assuring.
I’m here. That’s what it feels like he’s saying without words.But the thought won’t leave you.
The ceremony continues in a blur. Voices fade in and out. You barely register what’s being said. All you can think about is how fragile everything suddenly feels. How love can exist one day and be gone the next.
By the time it’s over, your fingers are numb from holding his hand so tightly.
Hyunjin doesn’t pull away.
Not once.
-
Hyunjin hasn’t said much on the drive back until the two of you get home. He unlocks the door, lets you step in first, and closes it gently behind him like he’s afraid to disturb something fragile.
The house is too quiet. The kind that lingers after a long day of holding your breath. You head straight for the bedroom, just sitting there with your back rested against the headboard. Shoes still on. Coats still on. Grief still clinging.
When Hyunjin enters the bedroom as he’s taking his suit jacket off, he immediately notices the way you quietly thinking but he knows your thoughts are loud. He folds the jacket neatly before hanging it on the nearest chair.
“Are you okay?” he softly asks.
You nod because somehow, your throat has felt tight since the service ended.
He joins you on the bed, curling himself behind you, close but not quite touching yet. The space between you feels strange after spending all afternoon pressed side by side.
“Watching her today… it scared me,” you whisper.
He rests a hand on your arm. “Yeah,” he softly answers.
“I kept thinking… what if that was me?” you continue, voice breaking in places.
This time, he buries his head in the crook of your neck and softly, firmly says, “Don’t.”
You slowly turn your head his way, eyes finally meet his. “But what if it was? What if I had to stand there and say goodbye to you?”
The room suddenly feels small. Hyunjin shifts, gently turning you around until you’re lying facing him now. Then he pulls you close, so close that you feel his warmth seep into you. he tenderly runs his knuckles on the side of your face. The kiss he gives you on your forehead feels like an attempt to ward the sad thoughts away.
The tenderness of it makes your chest ache. You look at Hyunjin then. The warm of his brown eyes. The softness in his gaze. The curve of his faint smile. The way he’s trying to keep you steady. The way all of him will become just memories someday…
The words slip out before you can stop it. “I want to die first.”
He goes very still and then, lovingly runs his hand through your hair. “Hey, don’t…” he says gently, like he’s approaching something delicate.
“Life would feel unbearably sad and lonely without you,” your voice trembles as you can vividly imagine it in your head the day it happens. “So I want to go first.”
Hyunjin lightly shakes his head, refusing to accept it. “Your death would leave an abyss in my life. I would be left talking to chairs and pillows…” he talks so low it almost like a whisper.
You clearly not thinking how it would affect him too. Rather devastatingly. Your eyes sting, sadness clawing up your throat. You inhale air and place a hand on the side of his face. “And your death would be more than an abyss. It’s a… yawning gulf,” you say, leaning in until your faces almost touching in the dim of the room.
He closes his eyes for a moment, the lids quivering like he’s trying to suppress the emotions this moment evokes. When he opens them, they find you instantly, still soft and warm, but now tinted in sorrow. “Your death would be a profound depth… a void,” he says back, like he wants to prove how much it costs him.
You feel a lump forming in your throat the harder you try to hold back from crying and it’s burning for every time you take a breath. Like a hot coal clogged your windpipe. “Your death…” you swallow, fingers caressing his cheek in such loving. “Your death would definitely leave a bigger hole in my life than mine would leave in yours.”
“You’ll be fine,” he says so confidently like he can see it happening in front of his eyes. “You’ll travel and have a new and exciting life. I’ll just sit in that chair in the suit that I wore to your funeral forever. “
The thought of him living, wallowing your death is just as sad as the death itself. You shake your head, refusing to believe that would be the case. You frame his face with your hand, looking at him like you’re seeing him for the first time in this light. With this haunting fear that you might have taken things for granted.
“If you went first, I don’t think I’d ever love again.”
Tears flowing down your cheeks as soon as the words coming out of your mouth.
There’s a crease formed between his eyebrows, like he can’t believe what he’s just heard. He pulls you even closer, a hand comes under your chin, tilting your head, forcing your eyes to meet him.
“I hope that’s not true,” he says softly.
More tears streaming down, hurt flickering across your face. “Why would you say that?”
“Because I don’t want my death to steal the rest of your life,” he answers honestly as he slowly, attentively wiping the tears on your cheek with his thumb. “I don’t want you to close yourself off from happiness because of me.”
“I don’t want to fall in love with someone else,” you cries turn into full-on sobs now, shaking and uncontrollable. “I only want you.”
Hyunjin’s expression breaks at that. His arms wrapping tightly around your shoulders now, your head tucked under his chin. You cling to him like you did at the funeral. Like you’re trying to anchor yourself to something solid.
“I don’t want my death to take your life with it,” he murmurs into your hair. “If that day ever comes—far, far away—I want you to keep loving. Keep living.”
“I don’t want that day,” you manage to say between your choked sobs.
“Neither do I.” His voice shakes just slightly, a hand continuously giving you comforting rubs on your back. “But we don’t get to control that. What we do get is this.”
He pulls back gently and cups your face, thumbs wiping your tears. “This moment. Right now. You and me.”
He presses a slow kiss to your forehead. Then your cheeks. Then your eyelids. Then your lips. Each kiss is soft and reassuring. When he pulls away, he stares deeply into your eyes and says, “We’re alive. We’re together. That’s not something everyone gets.”
You nod weakly, shoulders shaking as you’re trying to reorganize your breathing.
He lands another kiss on your forehead, long and lingering. Bittersweet. One hand strokes your hair. The other tirelessly rubs your back in slow, soothing circles.
“If one day I go first, I want you to love again. Because that would mean I loved you well enough that you’re not afraid of it,” he murmurs.
Even with your head buried in his chest, you shake your head, still refusing to agree to that.
Hyunjin softly chuckles at that and then presses a kiss into the top of your head. “But today? Today I’m not going anywhere.”
You close your eyes, listening to his heartbeat under your ear. You tighten your hold around him, not willing to let go even for a second.
He smiles softly against your head. He sways gently with you in his arms, like he’s calming both of you at once. He peppers the side of your face with soft, little kisses before bringing his mouth close to your ear and sweetly says, “I hope we both live forever. Doddering, toothless, liver spotted, hallucinating…”
You slowly lift your head just enough to look at him and nod, eyes still glassy but calmer now.
The smile lingers on his lips as he leans in and kisses you. The kiss is slow, almost chaste. Like an assurance and a promise at once.
And in that moment, you decide to believe in that.
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Synopsis: You learn to protect yourself from hurt by building walls around you. Then Hyunjin comes, showing you that love can be soft, patient and gentle — and worth the leap. (17k words)
The gallery is louder than Hyunjin remembers it ever being.
Voices overlap in polite admiration and thinly veiled competition, laughter ringing too sharp against the white walls. The annual student exhibition always draws a crowd.
His painting hangs at eye level, exactly where the faculty suggested it should be. Oil on canvas. Controlled strokes. Composition honed through months of revisions. He stands near it, hands loosely clasped behind his back, posture relaxed in a way that has been practiced into muscle memory over the years. People drift in and out of his orbit easily.
“This one’s yours again, Hyunjin,” someone says with a laugh, nudging his shoulder.
“You’ve outdone yourself,” another adds, eyes bright with admiration.
“Second years in a row—legendary.”
Everyone keeps saying, assuming the same thing just because he won the student art prize last year. To Hyunjin, winning has never been something he allows himself to assume—not because he lacks confidence, but because he knows how fragile it is. Art doesn’t belong to expectation.
Hyunjin answers questions thoughtfully. He talks about process, about intention. He never talks about victory. He smiles when he’s expected to. Nods. Thanks them. But he never lets it settle because the moment he believes he deserves something, it stops listening to him.
As the crowd shifts, his attention wanders to other paintings lining the walls, to names printed neatly on placards. He scans instinctively, cataloguing styles, techniques and then, he realizes something. There’s a gap. Not an empty wall, but a presence he doesn’t recognize.
At the far end of the gallery, tucked slightly away from the main flow, a painting holds a quiet gravity that doesn’t beg to be noticed. Green dominates the canvas, lush and layered, alive in a way that feels deliberate rather than decorative. Flowers bloom unapologetically, vines twisting into one another like they’re holding secrets.
He steps closer before he means to and at first glance, it’s beautiful. Serene, even. The kind of work that soothes viewers, that gives them something pleasant to praise. He almost turns away—
And then he sees the space between the leaves sharpens. Shadows pull into shape. Two eyes look back at him, not directly, but as if they’re watching from somewhere just beyond the room. A face emerges slowly, fragmented, hidden beneath the growth. And behind it all—thin, careful lines etched into the canvas. Old wounds. Healed badly. Covered, not erased.
Hyunjin stills because the longer he looks, the more the painting changes. Then he glances at the placard beneath it. A name he doesn’t recognize.
He looks around instinctively, expecting to find the artist nearby so he can ask further about their work, but no one stands there. The space around the painting is empty like it’s been left alone on purpose.
Hyunjin exhales slowly, something unfamiliar settling in his chest. Not jealousy. Not fear. Curiosity.
Because whoever painted this—
They weren’t trying to win. They were trying to be understood.
-
The night stretches on in a slow, gilded blur.
Hyunjin answers more questions, accepts more praise than he knows what to do with. Someone presses a champagne flute into his hand, he takes a polite sip and sets it aside untouched. Every few minutes, his gaze drifts back to the green painting at the end of the room like a reflex he hasn’t learned to control yet.
His curiosity deepens as the artist never appears until eventually, the lights dim just slightly—a subtle cue that the night is reaching its peak. Conversations soften, people instinctively drawing closer to the podium located in the center end of the gallery where the judges gather.
Hyunjin straightens without thinking, smoothing a hand over his sleeve. Around him, bodies shift. Eyes flick toward him, then away again, then back. Expectation hums in the air.
Someone near him murmurs, “Here we go,” under their breath.
He feels that collective assumption settling like a weight on his shoulders. Two years of precedent. Two years of predictability. He doesn’t resent it, but he doesn’t claim it either. He keeps his expression calm the way he always does.
Art isn’t a crown you wear. It’s something you offer and then let go of.
The head judge steps forward, microphone catching softly. They speak about growth. About voices. About courage in creation.
Hyunjin listens carefully, more than most. His pulse remains steady.
“And this year,” the judge continues, “the winning piece moved us not because of its polish but because of its honesty.”
A few students glance at him again, smiles already forming, ready to hear his name being called.
Hyunjin doesn’t move. His fingers curl slightly at his side.
“And the winner of this year’s Art Prize is…”
The name is spoken and it’s not his.
For a heartbeat, the gallery goes silent. The kind that comes from surprise, not disappointment. Hyunjin feels the shift immediately, like the room has inhaled and forgotten how to exhale.
Around him, students turn in unison, eyes flicking from him to the far end of the gallery, to the painting cloaked in green. Whispered confusion ripples outward and buzzing in place.
Hyunjin doesn’t feel the loss. There’s no sting. No hollow drop in his chest. Instead, something else unfurls.
He looks again at the painting, seeing it now not as an anomaly, but as an answer. The judge continues speaking, calling for the artist to step forward, but no one does. A pause stretches and then another.
The artist isn’t here.
A quiet murmur spreads, surprised, uncertain. Hyunjin barely hears it. His attention stays anchored to the canvas, to the pair of eyes hidden in the leaves, to the face that never quite steps into the light.
Who paints something like that and doesn’t come to watch it win?
He exhales, the corner of his mouth lifting just barely in intrigue.
Whoever you are, he thinks, you didn’t paint this for applause.
And suddenly, he wants to know you.
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Hyunjin sits through his lectures with the same attentiveness he always has, but there’s a thread pulling at the back of his mind, tugging his focus loose every few minutes. Sketches form beneath his pen without him realizing—leaves, curved lines, negative space that keeps resolving into eyes when he looks too closely. He frowns, closes the notebook, forces himself to listen.
By lunchtime, he eats with friends, nods along to conversations about critiques and deadlines and the shock of the prize going to someone new. Your name surfaces again and again, each time spoken with the same puzzled tone.
“You know who painted it?” someone asks him.
Hyunjin shakes his head. “No.”
That answer sits strangely on his tongue.
Between classes, he starts asking around. Just curiosity disguised as coincidence.
“Hey, do you know who painted the piece that won the art prize?”
“Oh, her? She’s in the illustration track, I think.”
“She’s quiet. Never really talks.”
“I don’t think she hangs around much.”
Most answers trail off into shrugs. Finally, near the end of the day, he catches up to someone from one of the shared studios. He keeps his tone light, conversational.
“Do you know where she usually works?”
The student thinks for a moment. “Yeah. She stays late. Always does.”
“Where?”
They jerk their chin toward the older buildings at the edge of campus. “Studio H. The abandoned one after that fire. Barely anyone uses it anymore. She’s almost always there after school.”
Hyunjin thanks them and turns away before they can read too much into his expression.
The last class of the day drags. He packs up the second it ends, slinging his bag over his shoulder and stepping out into the frosty winter air. The sun hangs low, casting long shadows across campus, students spilling out in clusters toward buses and cafes and home.
Hyunjin walks in the opposite direction and the farther he goes, the quieter it gets. The chatter fades, replaced by the sound of his own footsteps and the rustle of leaves stirred by the wind.
The building comes into view gradually—older, narrower, one of the walls still has smoke stains from a fire that happened almost a year ago.
Hyunjin slows as he approaches, something like reverence settling over him. The windows glow faintly, warm against the encroaching dusk. He pauses at the entrance, fingers brushing the strap of his bag, suddenly aware of the intrusion his presence might be.
He doesn’t know what he’s going to say, only that he needs to see the person who painted something like that. So pushes the door open quietly and steps inside.
-
The studio isn’t what Hyunjin expects.
There’s no familiar scent of oil paint or turpentine, no easels or canvas lined neatly against the walls. Instead, the air is thick with clay and dust, cool and damp in a way that settles into the lungs. Half-finished sculptures crowd the room—torsos without heads, hands reaching for nothing, faces frozen mid-thought. It feels less like a classroom and more like a place where people disappear into their work.
Someone stands at a table near the entrance, sleeves rolled up, hands buried in a block of clay. He wears headphones, head bobbing faintly to a rhythm Hyunjin can’t hear. The sculptor glances up when the door opens, eyes flicking over Hyunjin with mild curiosity before returning immediately to their work. Unbothered.
Hyunjin steps farther inside, careful with his footing. His eyes instinctively search for an easel, canvas, brushes, anything that confirms the person he’s looking for belongs here. He doesn’t find one but what he does find is you.
You sit on a wooden stool near the back, posture slightly hunched, fully absorbed. A half-body sculpture rests in front of you. Your hands move with steady familiarity, thumbs pressing, fingers smoothing. Clay clings beneath your nails, streaks your apron, catches in a loose strand of hair by your temple.
Hyunjin hesitates, suddenly aware of the intrusion. He knows this feeling too well because he too, hates when someone interrupt him in the middle of painting.
Still, he clears his throat softly. “Hi.”
You glance at him then. Just enough to register his presence. Your eyes meet his for half a second before dropping back to your sculpture, hands never pausing. No greeting. No dismissal either.
Hyunjin exhales quietly. He decides to be quick. “Sorry,” he says, lowering his voice. “I’m looking for someone. Do you happen to know where I can find—” He says your name.
Your hands keep moving. You don’t turn to him. “That’s me.”
Hyunjin is puzzled once more. His gaze drifts back to the sculpture, then to you, recalibrating everything he thought he knew. A painter, he had assumed. Not this.
“I—” He catches himself, straightens. “I’m Hyunjin. We haven’t met. But I saw your work at the exhibition.”
Your shoulders tense, just slightly.
He continues carefully, “I wanted to congratulate you. Your painting—it was incredible. I really admired it. And winning the student art prize—”
“I didn’t win anything.”
The interruption is flat and final.
Hyunjin frowns, confused. “But your painting was there. You won this year’s art prize.”
You press your thumb into the clay a little harder than before. “Someone else submitted it without my consent.”
That stops him cold but he isn’t offended. Only sincerely, utterly confused. That painting, raw and deliberate and brave, doesn’t feel like something that should be taken from its creator. And the thought unsettles him.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t know,” he says honestly.
You finally look at him again, this time longer but there’s no warmth in it. Just distance, hollow.
“If you don’t mind,” you say coolly, already turning back to your sculpture, “I’d like to work in peace.”
Hyunjin nods immediately. He understands that tone. He’s used it himself. “Of course. I’m sorry for disturbing you. I hope you have a good day.”
He backs away slowly, careful not to bump into anything, and slips out the door as quietly as he entered.
Outside, the air feels lighter but his chest only tightens. Hyunjin reaches the doorway, hand hovering over the handle, but he quickly pauses. Because now, more than ever, he wants to know why someone who creates like that would let their work speak without them.
And why they’d rather remain unseen.
-
You’re halfway through cleaning clay from beneath your nails when your phone vibrates on the edge of the sink, screen lighting up with your professor’s name. The subject line is polite and you skim most of it, finding out that she wants to see you in her office later.
So after lunch, you make your way there. Her office smells faintly of paper and old coffee, sunlight spilling in through tall windows that make everything feel exposed. She gestures for you to sit, her expression unreadable in that careful way professors master over the years.
“I wanted to talk to you about the exhibition,” she begins.
You already know about what she did with your painting without your permission. Thanks to whoever came to the studio the other day, telling you that you won something you didn’t even know you were a part of in the first place.
She folds her hands on the desk. “I submitted your painting for the student art prize.”
The words land exactly where you expect them to, and still—they irritate. Settle under your skin.
“I didn’t give my consent,” you say evenly.
She sighs, not frustrated—more thoughtful. “I know. And I understand why you’re upset.”
Upset isn’t the word. But you let her continue.
“It won,” she adds.
You look at her then, exasperated but don’t know how to express it since she’s your professor and your respect her too much. “That doesn’t change anything.”
She studies you for a moment, gaze softening. “You’re exceptionally talented. But you hide. You always have. Your work deserves to be seen.”
You inhale air to calm yourself before speaking. “I don’t need validation. Or praise. Or awards.”
There’s no bitterness in your voice. Just fact.
She leans back slightly, fingers tapping once against the armrest. “It’s not about validation. It’s about connection. About letting others know they’re not alone.”
You stiffen because she’s hovering too close to the very thing you don’t want to talk about.
“Your painting,” she continues, careful now, “it heals. Art heals. People like you—people who don’t know how to speak yet—they see it and feel understood.”
You look down at your hands, at the faint cracks in your skin, clay still embedded in the lines of your palms.
“I don’t make art to heal people,” you murmur. “I make it so I can breathe.”
She nods, accepting that. Then she reaches into a drawer and places the certificate on the desk, followed by the small trophy. They look out of place between stacks of papers and books. “I won’t argue with you. But I won’t apologize either,” she says.
You consider pushing back but you’re too tired and arguing won’t unpaint what’s already been seen. You take the certificate and the trophy, not in triumph, but in defeat.
“Since you won,” she adds, stopping you at the door, “your painting is being showcased in the main hall now.”
You close your eyes briefly. Eyelids fluttering as you hold yourself back. You nod once, hand tightening around the edge of the certificate as you step back into the hallway. The door closes behind you with a soft click, leaving you alone with the echo of her words and the weight of something you never asked to share.
You exhale slowly at the fact that more people know about the painting and the one who painted it now. And you’re not sure how that makes you feel—only that there’s no taking it back.
-
The hallway feels longer after stepping out of your professor’s office. Your footsteps echo softly against the tiled floor, certificate tucked under your arm, the trophy weighing your already packed bag.
Students pass you in pairs and clusters, voices overlapping, laughter brushing past you without catching. You keep your eyes forward, jaw set as you think about the painting. You never meant for it to leave your hands.
It wasn’t created for walls or spotlights or circles of admiration. You painted it late at night, alone, when the studios were empty and no one could watch you hesitate. It’s the most honest you’ve ever been—every brushstroke a confession you never learned how to say out loud. You didn’t plan for anyone to see the face hidden beneath the leaves, the way the wounds rest beneath something alive.
You showed it to your professor because you trusted her. Because she asked gently. Because she never pushed. You thought that it would stay between the two of you, safe in that small space of understanding.
Apparently, it wasn’t.
The main hall opens up ahead of you, wide and bright, sunlight flooding in through the tall and wide entrance of the building that leaves nowhere to hide. You slow without meaning to, pulse ticking louder in your ears. A small crowd lingers near the center wall in that particular way people get when they know something is important but don’t quite know why.
You see it then. Your painting hangs there, framed neatly, too clean for what it contains. The green looks brighter under the lights, the flowers more alive than you remember. From a distance, it almost lies, almost convinces. Up close, the truth waits patiently for anyone willing to look long enough.
You notice one person in particular stands in front of it, unmoving. Tall. Lean. Long, silky black hair falling just past his eyes, catching the light when he tilts his head. His posture is relaxed but intent, hands tucked loosely into the pockets of his jeans like he’s afraid to touch anything. There’s a stillness to him that sets him apart from the others drifting in and out.
You recognize him immediately as the guy who came to the studio the other day. He introduced himself and it takes you a while to recall his name.
Hyunjin.
He isn’t looking at the placard. He isn’t glancing around to see who’s watching. His gaze stays fixed on the canvas, expression stripped of anything performative. Just quiet focus like he’s listening to something only the painting is saying.
A strange, uncomfortable thought settles in your chest. Because out of everyone here, he’s the one who’s really seeing it.
You stop a few steps away, heart knocking unevenly, caught between wanting to turn around and wanting to know what he sees when he looks at something you never meant to share. This time, you don’t feel annoyed by his presence. You feel exposed.
You stay where you are as he shifts his weight slightly, head tilting as if he’s following a line only he can see, eyes tracing the edges of the leaves, the spaces between them. He leans in, just a fraction, like he’s careful not to miss anything.
You wonder what he wants from you. When he showed up at the studio, you assumed curiosity sharpened by ego—another artist wanting to size you up, to confirm that the prize made sense. Or maybe obligation. A polite congratulations delivered because it was expected of him, because everyone was watching.
But now, standing here, alone with your painting, he doesn’t look like someone checking a box. He looks… thoughtful.
You wonder if he knows how close he stands to the face hidden in the green. If he’s seen the eyes yet. If he’s noticed the cuts behind the leaves, softened by color but still there, still real. You wonder if he understands that the painting isn’t brave—it’s just tired of being quiet and you hate how much it matters.
You quickly remind yourself that his intentions don’t concern you. That whatever he thinks about your work, about you, doesn’t change the fact that it was never meant to be here.
As if sensing the weight of your gaze, Hyunjin turns and his eyes meet yours immediately. Surprise flickers briefly across his face, then fades into something gentler.
Neither of you speak. The moment stretches thin, suspended between the two of you.
You look away and turn on your heel, heart thudding a little too hard, and start down the hallway toward your next class.
Behind you, you don’t hear him follow. But you feel the echo of his attention linger long after you’ve gone and you don’t know yet whether that unsettles you more than the painting being seen.
-
Studio H has gotten a renovation done months ago but many students choose not to use it anymore because of the fire, the building is old and narrow, and secluded from the rest of the school. This space understands silence better than most people do and for you, that’s the whole charm of it.
There’s only one other person using the studio other than you. Ben. He’s a fellow sculptor, doesn’t talk much and keeps it to himself most of the time which is why you’re comfortable sharing the space with him.
You greet him with a small nod as you step inside. He lifts a hand in return, already half-lost in his work, headphones slipping over his ears. You walk to your usual spot near the back, the stool already molded to the shape of you from hours spent there. The half-body sculpture waits exactly where you left it, surface still bearing the marks of your last touch. You hang your bag, take your apron and put it on.
The door bangs open and someone stumbles in carrying far too much at once—an easel clattering against the frame, a box filled with what looks like paint tubes and brushes threatening to spill, two blank canvases pressed awkwardly under one arm. A backpack recklessly hangs off one shoulder.
Hyunjin freezes for half a second when he spots you, then grins like the disruption is part of his charm. Unfazed, he crosses the room and drops everything into the far corner, directly across from your space.
You watch him quietly as he straightens, dusts off his hands, then shrugs like it’s nothing. “I’m a student here. I can use whichever studio I want,” he says with a coy shrug.
You don’t respond but tie your apron and pick up your sculpting tool, turning back to your work as if he isn’t there. But he is.
You feel the way his presence alters the room, the subtle shift in energy. The scrape of the easel as he adjusts it. The soft clink of paint tubes. The rustle of canvas. You try to tune it out, focus on the curve of the shoulder you’re shaping, the line you want to soften. But it doesn’t work because you’re fully aware that he’s there, close enough to matter, close enough to be intentional.
And that’s what bothers you most. You don’t know why he’s here, but you have the uneasy feeling that at least part of the answer is you.
-
People drift between studios all the time, especially this one, tucked away and forgotten. Hyunjin will get bored, you think. He’ll realize there’s nothing here for him.
But on the next day, his easel is already set up when you arrive. The third day, he’s rearranged the corner just enough to make it his. He moves through the space with an ease that unsettles you, like he’s found comfort faster than he should have.
It annoys you more than you expect. You try to ignore him, the same way you ignore most people. You focus on your sculpture, on the press and pull of clay beneath your fingers. Still, you register everything: the scrape of his chair, the soft hum of music leaking from his headphones, the way he pauses sometimes, staring at his canvas like he’s waiting for it to answer back.
A few days in, he starts bringing coffee. He arrives one afternoon with a cardboard tray balanced in one hand, steam curling up toward the ceiling. He offers cups around casually like he’s always been part of this routine. Ben accepts one with a surprised laugh, pulling off their headphones to say thanks.
Hyunjin doesn’t ask you. He just sets a cup down on the empty table near your station and moves on, as if he knows you’ll decide for yourself.
You don’t touch it, but the warm, bitter, faintly sweet smell lingers longer than you want it to.
Another day, you glance up briefly and find him leaning against Ben’s table talking quietly. They’re smiling and chatting. You don’t hear what’s being said, only catch the way Hyunjin’s hands move when he talks, expressive, animated. It’s strange, seeing him like this here, in a space that never belonged to him before.
Hyunjin laughs at something Ben says and the sound makes your chest tighten, just a little. A few minutes later, he wanders over to your station. You feel him before you see him, the air shifting as he stops beside you. You keep working, carving carefully, refusing to acknowledge him. He doesn’t say anything but stands there, watching. Finally, you glance up and he smiles at you, quiet and unintrusive. Not the kind meant to impress or demand. Just… there.
You look back down at your sculpture, irritation curling low in your stomach. You still don’t know what he wants. But it’s becoming harder to pretend he isn’t slowly making himself impossible to ignore.
-
You already know you’ll see Hyunjin.
The thought settles in your mind sometime between your last class and studio H, and instead of following it, you turn the other way. You leave campus behind, cut through streets you know by heart, and end up at the city park just as the afternoon light begins to thin.
The fountain is cold and still, icicles hanging off the edge like flows of water frozen in time. You sit on a bench nearby and pull your sketchbook free, tucking your hands into your sleeves between strokes. The winter air bites, stiffening your fingers until you have to stop every few minutes, rubbing your palms together, breathing warmth into them before continuing. You don’t mind it. This is your version of rest.
You sketch without thinking too much, letting the page take whatever your hands give it. The sky shifts slowly above you, washed in pale gold and fading blue. People come and go—joggers, couples, someone walking their dog—sometimes sharing the bench for a moment before moving on. You notice them only in passing, vaguely, like background noise.
“Hey,” a voice says. “Do you mind if I sit?”
You look up from your drawing and Hyunjin stands there, hands hooked into the straps of his bag, breath fogging faintly in the cold. He smiles when he sees you, easy and confident, like this was always a possibility.
You slowly look back down at your sketchbook. “It’s a public space. Sit wherever you want.”
He takes that as permission.
He drops down beside you immediately, close enough that your sleeves brush. You stiffen, but he doesn’t comment. He just starts pulling things out of his bag: sketchbook, pencils, eraser. He lines them up neatly on the bench between you.
When you think he’s done, you hear the quiet tear of plastic. All of a sudden, he presses something into your hand. You look down to find a small heat pack, warm and humming faintly against your palm.
Hyunjin doesn’t look at you but flips open his sketchbook to a clean page like he didn’t just do all that and starts drawing, pencil moving with slow confidence. You sit there, stunned, heat seeping into your fingers. And for a long moment, you let him.
The two of you draw in silence, the space between you filled with the scratch of pencil and the distant sound of the city. Your hands loosen. The cold eases. The sky darkens until the last streak of color slips below the horizon, and the park gradually empties, footsteps fading one by one.
When it’s finally quiet enough to hear your own breathing, you close your sketchbook and turn to him. “Say what you want.”
Hyunjin pauses, pencil hovering. He pretends to think about it, eyes drifting upward like he hadn’t come here with intention stitched into every step. Then he looks at you with eyes soft, smile gentler than you expect.
“Uhm… Coffee?”
-
The café is warm in a way that slowly seeps into your bones. Steam curls up from your cup, fogging the space between you and the table, carrying the earthy, comforting scent of coffee. You don’t drink it right away. You just sit there and watch him.
Hyunjin cradles his cup like it’s something fragile. He lifts it, inhales first with eyes closing briefly, a small smile pulling at his mouth before taking a careful sip. He looks at ease like he isn’t sitting across from someone who’s wound tight enough to snap.
You keep watching and he doesn’t call you out on it, doesn’t shift or fidget or ask what you’re staring at. He just lets you look, like he’s used to being observed and has nothing to hide.
It’s been a moment and you’re not exactly enjoying his company so you decide being the one who breaks first. “I know you won the student art prize last year,”
He nods once, swallowing another sip. “Yes.”
“So I’m assuming all of this—congratulating me, suddenly working in my studio, following me around—”
“I didn’t stalk you,” he cuts in calmly.
You pause, eyes narrowing.
“Ben told me you go to the park when you skip the studio,” he adds, unbothered. “I just… guessed.”
You ignore that entirely, lean back slightly and look at him properly now. “Did you do all this because you were hurt? Because you didn’t win this year, and some unknown did instead?”
Hyunjin doesn’t flinch, doesn’t defend himself. He simply sets his cup down on the table with care, porcelain meeting wood softly. Then he looks at you and smiles as he says, “I did it because I admire your work.”
You scoff before you can stop yourself. “How? You only know me now.”
He tilts his head slightly. “It’s not too late to like something.”
You don’t respond. Mostly because you don’t want to entertain him further.
Silence stretches between you, but Hyunjin doesn’t rush to fill it. When he speaks again, his voice is quieter, sincere. “Technically, your painting is incredible. Your control of color, the way you layer greens without letting them turn muddy. Your brushstrokes feel intentional, not decorative. And the composition—how the eye keeps getting drawn inward instead of outward—it’s hard to do that without forcing it.”
You stare at the surface of your coffee, jaw tightening. Then you notice the way his tone shifts.
“But what stayed with me,” he continues, “was the feeling. The restraint. The way the painting doesn’t ask to be understood, but it waits. The honesty in it—how you didn’t soften anything just to make it easier to look at.”
He looks at you steadily now and somehow, you can’t look away. “That takes courage… Being that bare. Not everyone can do that.”
Something in you recoils. It feels like being cut open—not violently, but precisely. Like he’s peeled back layers you never gave permission to touch, standing there with clear sight of everything you keep hidden. You stiffen, spine straightening, walls sliding back into place.
Because this isn’t flattery. This is real. And it terrifies you.
You inhale slowly, forcing calm into your voice. “I appreciate your comments about my painting.”
You stand before he can say anything else. Your chair scrapes softly against the floor as you grab your bag, sling it over your shoulder. There’s a tightness in your chest now, something burning and dangerously close to anger.
“But I’d appreciate it more,” you add, not quite looking at him, “if you stopped coming to the studio. Paint somewhere else.”
You don’t wait for his response but walk straight to the door, push it open, and step outside. The winter air rushes to meet you, cold brushing your cheeks, your hair, stealing your breath for a second. As you head down the street, hands shoved deep into your pockets, you frown to yourself. You don’t understand why you’re so mad at him.
Only that somehow, he saw too much and you weren’t ready for that at all.
-
You walk toward the studio with your shoulders drawn in, jaw set, already bracing yourself.
You tell yourself not to but you do anyway. You picture him there before you even reach the door. Hyunjin, exactly where he’s been these past days, sprawled into the space like he belongs, like your words from last night were nothing more than background noise.
You inhale deeply before pushing the door open. Warm air rushes out to meet you as you slip inside, and you’re quick to shut it behind you, muttering a quiet curse at the cold before it can follow.
“Hey, Ben,” you say, out of habit.
Ben looks up from his station and grins, lifting his thumb in a silent thumbs-up. You nod back, automatic, already moving further inside. And oh, you’re dreading it cause you’re going to see—
Hyunjin’s spot is empty. No easel angled just a little too close to yours. No canvases leaning against the wall. No careless backpack slung over a chair, no presence stretching across the space and into your awareness. It’s… bare.
The corner looks wrong without him like something’s been erased.
Ben notices the pause. He slips one side of his headphones down and follows your line of sight. “Oh, Hyunjin came about an hour ago. Packed up his stuff and left,” he says casually.
You hum in response, like that information means nothing to you. You don’t ask why. You just move. Your feet carry you to your station on instinct, hands already reaching for your apron, body slipping back into the familiar rhythm of work. Clay beneath your fingers, cool and solid, grounding you as you pick up where you left off.
Still, your eyes betray you. They flick up now and then, drifting to that empty corner across the room. Each time, they pause for half a second too long, as if they’re waiting for something to fill the space, as if they need time to adjust.
You tell yourself it’s nothing. Just a habit you’ll break.
-
The cold deepens quietly, the kind that doesn’t announce itself until it’s already settled into your bones. Each day, the walk to the studio becomes a struggle—air biting at your cheeks, breath fogging in front of you like a small, constant reminder that winter has decided to stay. You haven’t seen Hyunjin since that night in the café. Not in the studio. Not in the halls. Not hovering in places you didn’t ask him to be. You tell yourself that’s good. That it’s what you wanted.
Today, snow is already falling by the time you reach the studio. It crunches beneath your boots, a soft, brittle sound that follows you all the way to the door. Inside, warmth wraps around you instantly.
“God, it’s freezing,” Ben groans when you greet him.
You hum in agreement, shrugging off your coat, slipping back into routine like muscle memory. Clay under your fingers. Silence where it belongs. Time dissolves without asking permission.
You don’t notice how late it’s gotten until Ben starts packing up. He pulls on his jacket, shoulders his bag, glancing out the window with a frown. “Weather’s supposed to get bad tonight. You might want to head out early,” he says in quiet concern.
“I’ll wrap up soon,” you assures him.
He smiles in understanding. “Be safe, okay?”
You nod and with that, Ben leaves. The door clicks shut behind him, and the studio exhales into stillness.
It’s quiet in a way that feels heavier without other people to dilute it. You lean back against the wooden table and look out the window. Snow flutters down in uneven patterns, catching the light, softening the world into something distant and muted. There’s a strange ache in watching it—something slow and sinking that you don’t bother naming.
You work for another hour anyway and when you finally stop, your hands are numb. You wash them thoroughly, watching the clay spiral down the drain, then button your coat all the way up, tugging it tight around your throat. Bag over your shoulder. You take one last glance around the studio and then you step outside.
The snow comes down immediately, clinging to your hair, your sleeves, the lashes of your eyes. You shut the door carefully behind you, already dreading the long, freezing walk to the bus stop. You turn toward the school gate and halt to a stop when you see someone there.
Hyunjin, leaning against the wall, hands tucked into his coat pockets, snow caught in his hair, dusting the collar of his coat and the red scarf wrapped loosely around his neck. He looks like he’s been standing there for a while, long enough for the cold to settle into him. Yet, he smiles when he sees you like all of that doesn’t bother him.
“What are you doing here?” you ask, incredulous.
“Waiting for you,” he says easily. Then, as if it’s obvious, “You didn’t want me in your studio.”
“So?”
“So I waited outside.”
That only makes it worse. “Why?”
He coyly shrugs. “I figured you’d be out late. And the buses stop running when the weather gets like this.”
He glances at the snow, then back at you. “So I’ll… drive you home.”
None of it makes sense. You don’t understand why he’s here. Why he’s worried. Why he’s standing in the cold like this is something he owes you. You’re no one to him. You should tell him to leave. You should say thank you. You should say anything that resembles civility. Instead, what comes out is sharp and raw and unfiltered.
“Are you out of your fucking mind?”
Hyunjin just smiles, breath fogging in the air as he once again, coyly shrugs.
-
The car is warm in a way that makes you too aware of everything else.
Hyunjin drives with one hand on the wheel, eyes steady on the road, posture relaxed but attentive. He doesn’t put music on, doesn’t fill the silence with idle talk. The only sound is the low hum of the engine and the soft crunch of tires rolling over snowed road.
You watch the world slide past the window as streetlights blurred into halos, sidewalks smoothed over by white, everything looking quieter, cleaner. Snow has a way of making the city feel forgiven like nothing bad has ever happened here, like nothing bad ever will. It’s almost convincing.
When he stops in front of your apartment building, you don’t move right away. The engine clicks off. Silence pours into the car, low and intimate. The windows fog slowly, your breath and his blurring the glass until the outside world feels very far away.
This time, he’s the one who speaks. “I tried. After you asked me to stop,” Hyunjin says quietly. “I really did.”
He exhales, fingers loosening on the steering wheel. “But every time I walk past your painting… it just—” He shakes his head, a soft, almost disbelieving smile tugging at his lips. “It makes me like you more.”
The words are simple, almost innocent. You take them the way you’ve learned to take things like this. As intentions. As strategies. As something said with a desired outcome already in mind. You can already see where this goes—hopes raised too high, expectations forming, the inevitable collapse waiting patiently at the end. Disappointment. Pain. Regrets. More Pain.
So you scoff, soft but sharp. “So that’s what you want now? Us?”
You finally turn to him, eyes steady but intense. “You want to be boyfriend and girlfriend? Walk around campus holding hands? Kiss and dance under the snow like we’re in some romance movie?”
Your voice stays calm, but there’s something mocking beneath it.
Hyunjin doesn’t flinch as he easily says, “Yeah.”
Then, just as quickly, he adds, “We don’t have to do all of that. Not yet.”
You let out a short laugh because he really doesn’t seem to hear the sarcasm woven in your words.
Hyunjin shifts closer, an arm reaching into the backseat. The movement catches your attention despite yourself as his head lingers so close to yours for a brief moment. He pulls out a folded brochure and holds it out to you.
It takes you a second to register that it’s a brochure for an art exhibition of your favorite sculptor. Your fingers close around it before you can stop them.
“We can start with this,” he says softly.
You hate that you’re considering it, hate that the thought doesn’t feel heavy or terrifying and that it’s easy and possible.
“It’s this Saturday,” he adds, smiling.
You swallow, then hand the brochure back. “I don’t do this,” you say.
“Do what?”
You hesitate for a moment. Then—
“This. Going out. You and me—” You trail off, choosing not to finish the sentence.
He studies you for a moment, then nods like he’s reached a conclusion all on his own. “That’s okay. You don’t have to come.”
Relief barely has time to settle before he continues. “Just so you know, I’ll be waiting outside. In case you change your mind.”
You know what he’s doing. You recognize the shape of it. Emotional leverage dressed up as patience.
You decide not to respond. You unbuckle your seatbelt, fingers steady despite everything tightening in your chest. “Thank you for the ride,” you say.
The cold rushes in the second you open the door. You step out, shut it behind you, and don’t look back.
-
Hyunjin tells himself this was a bad idea. Standing outside the gallery, hands buried deep in his coat pockets, cold seeping through the soles of his shoes, he replays the conversation in his head for the hundredth time.
Waiting outside. In case you change your mind. He winces at his own words.
What was he thinking? This only gives you a way out. He should’ve picked you up, should’ve insisted, should’ve bribed you with something. Anything would’ve been better than this self-inflicted purgatory.
Snow gathers along the edges of the sidewalk. People pass him, couples slipping into the warmth of the gallery, chatting lightly, shaking snow from their coats.
He checks his watch and it’s only been twenty-eight minutes from the appointed time. It hasn’t even been that long, and yet he already senses the disappointment. He exhales, breath fogging in the air, shaking his head at himself.
Of course you wouldn’t come. He knows better than to be angry about it. You were clear. He’s the one who chose to hope anyway. That’s on him.
A few minutes later, acceptance settles in. He reaches into his coat pocket, fingers brushing against his car keys, ready to call it. Ready to leave before he makes a bigger fool of himself.
Then, he looks up and there you are, climbing the steps toward the entrance, coat pulled tight around you, expression calm and composed as always. His hand stills mid-motion, keys half out of his pocket. For a moment, he honestly thinks he’s imagining you.
You stop right in front of him. Your eyes briefly flick to the keys in his hand. “Planning to leave?” you ask flatly, a teasing edge cutting through your deadpan tone.
He gulps, then recovers fast. Too fast. “No. Just—uh—making sure I had my car keys with me.”
You raise an eyebrow in doubt. “Thought you were giving up. Figured you’d assume I wasn’t coming.”
“I didn’t,” he replies immediately, way too quick to be believable.
He sees the way your lips twitch, the split second where a smile almost breaks through before you look away, eyes fixed on the gallery doors instead.
“Can we go in? It’s cold,” you say, shoving your hands deeper into your coat pockets.
Relief hits him so hard it almost knocks the air from his lungs. “Yeah—yeah,” he says, already turning, holding the door open for you. “Of course.”
-
Walking through the gallery with you feels nothing like Hyunjin imagined.
It’s quieter than the campus halls. White walls. Soft lighting. The kind of space that asks people to lower their voices, even their thoughts.
You move slowly, hands tucked into your coat sleeves, stopping in front of each sculpture like you’re greeting an old acquaintance. Hyunjin stays half a step behind you, watching the way your eyes trace lines and shadows before you even look at the plaque.
“So,” he says, stopping beside you in front of a tall, abstract piece, “tell me everything.”
You glance at him. “You can read the brochure.”
“Unacceptable.”
“Or,” you add dryly, “ask the curator.”
He leans closer, lowering his voice like he’s letting you in on a secret. “That defeats the purpose.”
You sigh. “And what purpose is that?”
“Bringing you,” he says easily.
You scoff. “Why me?”
He smiles, eyes warm. “Because you’re the only sculptor I know.”
“That’s a lie,” you reply immediately. “Ben’s a sculptor.”
Hyunjin barely thinks before answering, “Yeah, but there’s nothing romantic about taking Ben here.”
You stop walking and turn to look at him. “I came because I thought it supposed to be educational,” you say.
“It is,” he says, grinning. “With romantic undertones.”
You shake your head, muttering something under your breath as you move on, but a few steps later, you start talking anyway. About the negative space. About balance. About how the sculptor clearly wanted the weight to feel like it’s leaning forward even though it isn’t.
Hyunjin listens, genuinely, eyes flicking between you and the piece. At one point, he tilts his head and says, far too casually, “I don’t know. Sculptors always seem like they’re just… attacking their materials.”
You stop mid-sentence, clearly offended by what he said. “Excuse you? That’s such a lazy take. Sculpting is about dialogue—about resistance and cooperation. You don’t dominate the medium, you listen to it.”
Hyunjin’s smile slowly blooming on his face, wider and brighter. “Oh, she has opinions,” he pokes fun.
You keep going, words tumbling out faster now, hands moving as you talk. You’re defending it with your whole chest, and it hits him all at once—how alive you look like this. How open.
You catch yourself a second too late. Your voice trails off. Your cheeks warm. You look away.
Hyunjin laughs softly. “Wow. I didn’t know you could talk this much.”
You shoot him a glare that lacks real bite and Hyunjin lifts his hands in surrender. But he sees you almost—almost—laugh and he counts that as a win.
By the time you reach the last room, the crowd has thinned. Hyunjin feels that soft winding-down of the evening, the way the energy shifts when there’s nothing left to discover but the exit.
You stand in front of the final piece a little longer than necessary, then step back, hands slipping into your coat pockets. “Well,” you say, turning to him, voice measured. “That’s the end of the educational trip.”
Hyunjin doesn’t miss a beat. He shakes his head, slow and confident. “Disagree.”
You narrow your eyes. “On what grounds?”
“It continues,” he says.
“With what?”
He leans in just slightly, lowering his voice like this is the most serious thing in the world. “Learning Italian cuisine.”
You stare at him, an eyebrow raises higher than the other.
He holds your gaze, completely unbothered, then smiles. “There’s an Italian place not far from here.”
He watches you think like this is a decision that will alter the trajectory of your life. Your jaw tightens. Your eyes flick toward the exit, then back to him.
Hyunjin doesn’t rush it. He’s learned better than that. Finally, without saying a word, you turn and start walking.
It takes him half a second to realize what just happened.
He catches up to you easily, falling into step beside you, a triumphant smile pulling at his lip, but careful as to not scare the moment away.
-
This Italian restaurant is what Hyunjin expected to be after reading the reviews on the internet. Farfalle, a restaurant that earned three stars rating. Great place, great food, great service but of course, you don’t care with such thing. Hyunjin doesn’t mind, he likes it that you’re more at ease with a glass of wine within reach.
The food arrives not long after and for a long while, the two of you eat in comfortable silence. Then curiosity gets the better of him.
“So,” Hyunjin says between bites, “why sculpture?”
You look up at him sharply. “What, you think that means I’m bad at it?”
He freezes for half a second. “No—no, that’s not what I meant.”
You hold his gaze, then the faintest smile appears, like a crack in glass. “I like it more. I like that it’s tangible. Heavy. Real.” You gesture lightly with your fork. “It takes patience. Time. You can’t rush it.”
Hyunjin nods, listening closely. Giving you all of his undivided attention.
“Painting,” you continue, quieter now, “is personal. I don’t do it for anyone else. It’s like… a private journal.”
That lands somewhere deep in his chest. He takes a sip of his wine, thoughtful.
“What about you? What do you do besides painting?”
Before he can swallow and answer your question, you tilt your head and add, “Let me guess—you take half the girls at school on ‘educational trips’ like this.”
He coughs once, then laughs, setting his glass down. “First of all, they were not educational.”
You hum as you reach for your wine glass. “Of course.”
“And second,” he adds, shameless, “I stopped because apparently it’s bad for me financially.”
You gasp softly, eyes widening in mock horror. “What a revelation!”
Then you lean back, fingers wrapped around the stem of the wine glass. “And how about this one?”
Hyunjin doesn’t hesitate. He looks at you in the eyes as he confidently answers, “Special occasion.”
You don’t look impressed, but he catches the way your lips curve as you lift your wine glass.
“Whatever,” you say, clinking your glass lightly against his. “You’re paying.”
Hyunjin holds your gaze as you both take a sip, smiling into the moment.
-
Outside, the cold greets you immediately and Hyunjin feels bad for telling you that he’s parked his car down the street so the two of you have to walk through the park to get there. You sigh like it’s an inconvenience carved directly into fate, but you nod and step forward anyway.
He barely lets you take two steps before stopping you. You turn, ready with another comment, but he’s already unwinding his scarf and drapes it around your neck with utter gentleness, careful.
You roll your eyes. “I was fine.”
“I know,” he says, smiling.
You let it happen and that feels nice. It matters to him.
The park is quiet and empty at this hour, snow floating lazily through the air, settling onto benches and pathways like the city has decided to hold its breath. Each step crunches softly beneath your shoes. Hyunjin listens to the sound of the night folding itself around the two of you. He smiles, warmth spreading through his chest. “We had a pretty romantic night, don’t you think?”
You glance at him. “You mean educational?”
He laughs. “Fine. Educational exhibition. Then a romantic dinner.”
“Also educational.”
He hums, pretending to consider. “So what’s next on the list?”
He remembers your words in the café and it’s playing in his head like a tune. You want to be boyfriend and girlfriend? Walk around campus holding hands? Kiss and dance under the snow like we’re in some romance movie?
He smiles at himself as he recalls it. Then looks at you. “We could try holding hands.”
“Pass.”
He nods solemnly. “Okay. Kissing?”
“Hard pass.”
Hyunjin stops walking altogether, drawing in a dramatic breath. “Dancing under the snow?”
You turn to him, unimpressed. “Nope.”
“Why not?”
“This isn’t some romcom. It’s real life. People don’t just… dance under the snow.”
Hyunjin tilts his head, eyes bright and mischievous. “I beg to differ.”
Before you can react, he takes your hand and tugs you forward. You resist at first but barely. Then he feels the moment where resistance softens into reluctant allowance. He guides you gently, twirling you once, twice, laughter slipping into his voice as snow clings to your hair.
You look annoyed but he continues anyway. He spins you out, then pulls you back in a little too hard, too fast. You crash into his chest just as his foot slips on the slick pavement.
“Oh my—”
You both crash down as gravity wins. Hyunjin hits the ground first, breath knocked out of him, and you land squarely on his chest. Cold seeps through his coat, but he barely notices.
“Are you okay?” he blurts, hands already hovering, panicked.
You lift your head and you’re… laughing. Full, unguarded, breathless laughter. It catches him off guard so badly that he starts laughing too, the sound echoing into the quiet park. He asks again, softer this time. “Are you okay?”
You nod in confirmation, still laughing as you roll off him and collapse beside him.
You both lie there, side by side, staring up at the dark sky as snow drifts down, tickling your cheeks, melting into your hair. The hilarity continues for another moment until laughter slowly fades, leaving behind something tender and fragile.
Hyunjin feels this quiet, glowing fullness in his chest. A happiness so simple it almost scares him. He turns his head toward you and his heart sinks when he sees tears sliding silently into your hair.
He knows better not to rush you or interrupt you as you’re processing emotions. He watches for a moment, lets you have the space to feel whatever is breaking open inside you. Then he rolls onto his side, close but not crowding. He finds your red-rimmed eyes, shining, holding a sadness that seems too great to hold by yourself. He lifts his hand, knuckles brushing gently along your cheek, wiping the tears away. His cold skin meeting your hot tears.
“I just…” your voice breaking, heavy with sadness as you whisper, “I don’t want to get hurt.”
Something slides into place. That’s it. That’s the wall you built around yourself. Not indifference. Not pride. But fear, old and crippling.
Hyunjin wipes another tear from your temple, then cups your face fully, grounding you, steady and sure. “I’m not going to hurt you,” he quietly assures you.
You nod, even as tears cling stubbornly to your lashes.
He leans in slowly, giving you every chance to pull away. Then his lips meet yours in a soft, fragile kiss, almost reverent. Not a promise of forever. Not a demand. Just proof that he’s here for anything but hurt you. He kisses you slowly, carefully because he’s aware of how easily this could shatter if handled wrong. Your lips tremble against his, and he keeps his hand steady at your cheek, grounding you and himself in the moment.
Hyunjin closes his eyes because he knows that this is something sacred. Fragile. Earned. And whatever happens next, he’ll carry this with him as something precious he was lucky enough to be given.
When you pull back, snow settles softly into your hair. Hyunjin looks at you then and understands something with quiet clarity. This isn’t something he won. It isn’t something he charmed his way into or stumbled upon by luck alone. This is permission. This is trust. This is you opening a door just wide enough for him to stand in the threshold and he knows how rare that is.
He presses his forehead lightly to yours, breath mingling with yours in the cold air, and makes himself a promise. He won’t waste this. He won’t rush you. Won’t take more than you’re ready to give. He’ll stay. He’ll prove it, not with grand gestures or pretty words, but with patience, gentleness, and care.
Because being let in like this isn’t something to take for granted. It’s something to earn. And Hyunjin knows, with a certainty that settles deep in his chest, that he wants to spend whatever time it takes earning you.
-
Hyunjin waits by the back exit with his breath fogging faintly in the cold. Both hands are buried deep in his coat pockets, shoulders hunched against the wind, eyes fixed on the path you always take to the studio.
As expected, you appear a moment later with your coat buttoned up, bag slung over your shoulder, expression calm as ever.
He smiles before he can stop himself and he notices the subtle curl of your lips when you see him. Small. Almost nothing. But to him, it’s more than enough.
You keep walking and Hyunjin falls into step beside you, matching your pace easily.
“Going to the studio?” he asks.
“Yes.”
“Want to spend time with me instead?”
“Nope.”
The word is flat, but the smile tugging at your lips gives you away.
Hyunjin steps ahead of you suddenly, blocking your path. He turns, hands still in his pockets, a sly grin spreading across his face. “How about somewhere warm and quiet—where I’ll let you draw this pretty face of mine?”
He watches as you scoff but he already knows how this goes. You pretend you’re immune. You aren’t.
You sigh, defeated. “Yes to the warm and quiet. No to the pretty face.”
Despite it, Hyunjin’s grin widens. Before you can reconsider, he reaches out and takes your hand. You tense immediately, instinct flaring, trying to pull away but he holds firm. He shoves your interlocked hands into his coat pocket, warmth closing around both of you, and starts walking.
Hyunjin feels your hesitation soften just a little and he knows—this, too, is something he’s earning, step by step.
-
The city library is warm and quiet as Hyunjin promised. In fact, it’s too quiet that the only sounds that can be heard is the rustle of papers as people flips the pages on theirs book and that low, haunting creaks coming from the trolley the librarian pushes around to return the books to its shelf.
Hyunjin sits beside you on the wide windowsill on the third floor, knees drawn up slightly, sketchbook balanced against his thigh. Outside, the city stretches out in muted winter tones, rooftops dusted with snow, the skyline hazy and distant.
For a while, neither of you speak. Just pencil against paper. Breathing. Existing.
“You draw here often?” you ask suddenly, not looking at him.
“You’d know about it too,” he says lightly as he glances over at your drawing of the city skyline, “if you didn’t coop yourself up in that abandoned studio.”
Hyunjin smiles to himself because he knows your silence by now—how it’s not dismissal, just refusal to indulge him.
The quiet returns and Hyunjin steals glances at you as he draws. The way your brows knit when you focus. The way your shoulders relax when you forget you’re being watched. There’s something unguarded about you like this—soft, real, almost painfully beautiful.
He can’t help but wanting to know more what’s inside that pretty head of yours.
“What’s your favorite season?” he asks.
“Fall.”
Honestly, Hyunjin didn’t expect that you’d answer immediately. He didn’t even expect that you’d answer at all. He holds himself back from doing any form of celebration and pretends to continue drawing to ask more.
“Favorite singer?”
“Nina Simone.”
“Favorite food?”
“Shrimp scampi.”
“Favorite movie?”
“Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.”
“Favorite color?”
“Lilac.”
He leans in slightly, opening his mouth for another question and he closes it again when he finds you glaring at him.
“Stop asking questions,” you firmly scold.
He pouts, lower lip jutting out dramtically, genuinely offended. “I was going to ask if you want coffee.”
Your expression softens immediately. It’s subtle, but he sees it. “I’d like coffee,” you say quietly.
Hyunjin smiles and sets his sketchbook aside, then, just to push his luck, leans his head against your shoulder, letting it rest there for a beat. “Wait here, yeah?” he murmurs.
You hum in response.
He lifts his head and looks at you seriously. “I’m serious. Stay here. Don’t go anywhere.”
You sigh, rolling your eyes to the side. “Yes. I’ll be here.”
Satisfied, Hyunjin smiles again before walking off, warmth settling in his chest.
-
It’s hard to act calm when Hyunjin leans in too close and you can feel the warmth of his breath against your cheek when he tells you to wait here. His voice drops, soft but serious in a way that surprises you.
“Stay here. Don’t go anywhere.”
It doesn’t sound teasing. It sounds like he means it like he’s afraid that if he turns his back, you’ll disappear. You inhale air before turning your head to look at him.
“Yes,” you steadily says even though something in your chest tightens. “I’ll be here.”
Only then does he nod, satisfied, before finally turning and walking away.
You exhale slowly once he’s gone and force yourself to focus back on your sketchbook. You draw because drawing is easier than thinking, but your eyes somehow keep drifting to Hyunjin’s sketchbook that sits beside you, unattended and flipped open. The page catches the light from the window, graphite smudged at the edges.
You hesitate because you know that you shouldn’t look into someone’s personal thing. You’d hate it too if someone does that. But you can’t resist for long, you pick it up and flip one page, then another.
They’re drawings of people. Strangers, mostly. A boy laughing with his head thrown back. An old woman with deep smile lines. Flowers sketched with detailed attention, places caught mid-breath. All of it beautiful in that quiet, unshowy way that feels honest.
“You know, most people ask first,” a voice says from behind you.
You jolt, nearly dropping the sketchbook.
Hyunjin stands there, coffee in hands, eyebrows raised, not amused.
“I—I didn’t mean to. I just—” you stammer, fully aware that you did wrong.
“Who allowed you to look through my sketchbook… without me?” he asks flatly and then breaks into a big, smile. The kind that makes his eyes form two crescent moons.
He sits back down beside you and hands you your coffee first before setting his aside. He gently takes the sketchbook from your hands. “Since you’ve already seen it, I might as well explain,” he says, the smile still etched on his face.
He flips the pages to the beginning. He eventually stops, pointing to a sketch. “This is from last summer. Kids playing in a fountain. I ruined my shoes that day.”
You smile despite yourself.
He turns the page to show a different drawing. “This one’s a little girl petting a puppy. It wasn’t even her puppy. It just came to her, asking to be petted.”
More pages, more behind stories of his drawing. Flowers from the botanical garden. A garden from one of his trips, drawn with memory rather than precision. He talks with his whole body—hands moving, voice warm, eyes lit with something unguarded.
You watch him more than the drawings. This love for his art that spills out of him naturally. Then he flips to a rough sketch of something familiar, something you’ve seen before.
You place your hand on his wrist, stopping him from flipping the page. “Wait.”
He looks at you, surprised.
“Is that… the sketch of your painting? The one that won last year’s art prize?”
He stills, not expecting that. “You know that one?”
“Yeah,” you admit. “I can see why you won. You’re… really talented.”
You hesitate, then add with sincerity, “I think you were born for this. Painting. Creating beautiful things.”
Hyunjin goes quiet, so quiet that fear flickers through you. You wonder if you somehow crossed a line, if you said too much. Then he smiles and your worries melt away with it.
“Thank you,” he says with a soft, almost disbelieving smile. “That… means a lot. Coming from you.”
You smile, a little shy. You didn’t expect that your words hold that kind of effect on him. You shake your head quickly. “You don’t have to—”
Hyunjin leans in and doesn’t stop until his plush lips meet yours in the most innocent kiss of lips meeting lips, softness on softness. He kisses you like he’s careful not to scare something fragile away.
You stiffen for half a heartbeat and honestly, you’re tired of fighting it. You cave in, slowly part your mouth open, allowing him to deepen the kiss, allowing him more of you to taste.
He retaliates by sliding his hand to the back of your head, holding you with a tenderness that makes your chest ache. He tilts his head, angling his head with such calculation to deepen the kiss the way he wants it. He parts his mouth just slightly and a soft gasp slipped out of you when you feel his tongue slipping between your lips.
In the next moment, Hyunjin pulls away for a brief moment only to have your lower lip tugged between his lips, sucking at it gently. He lets go to kiss you again, deeper, a little harder.
You can hear your own loud heartbeat and somehow, the sound of the kissing is even louder in your ears. Your heart flutters wildly, cracking open, and your fingers clutch the edge of his sketchbook like it’s the only solid thing you can hold on to.
When he pulls back, he smiles. Then he brushes a strand of hair behind your ear and keeps it there. “Thank you,” he says once again and you’re not sure if he’s thanking you for your words, the kiss or both.
You mind goes blank as he presses another quick kiss to your lips, lighter this time. He puts an arm around you as he looks out of the window.
“We should go,” he says, noticing the snow coming down in flurries now. “Before the weather gets bad.”
You nod, moving on instinct, heart still unsteady, still airborne. But he takes your hand and somehow, that’s enough to keep you grounded as you walk together into the falling snow.
-
The city lights blurring past the windows like smeared paint. Snow taps lightly against the windshield, rhythmic, almost soothing. You cradle the warmth of your coffee between your palms, watching his reflection in the glass. He glances over after a while like he’s been thinking about saying something and finally gives in.
“Do you want to grab dinner first?” he asks casually, cautiously.
You shake your head, already smiling a little. “No. It’s too cold.”
He nods easily, accepting it without fuss, eyes back on the road.
For a second, that seems like the end of it. Then you add, almost absentmindedly, “We could order food instead. And just… have it at my place.”
The words settle in the car but you see the exact moment it clicks. Hyunjin stills for half a beat. Not enough to be obvious, but enough that you notice: the slight tension in his jaw, the way his grip on the steering wheel tightens before he loosens it again. He keeps his eyes forward, like if he doesn’t look at you, he can play it cool.
“Oh,” he says. Then, a breath later, “Yeah. We can definitely do that.”
You turn your face toward the window, biting back a smile as warmth blooms in your chest. You can practically feel the nerves rolling off him now, hidden behind that calm tone like he’s trying very hard not to overthink the fact that you just invited him into your space.
Snow keeps falling as the car keeps moving and you keep smiling to yourself, holding onto the small thrill of knowing you’re the reason his heart’s probably racing just a little faster right now.
-
In your bedroom, you change into comfortable clothes—an old sweater that smells faintly like laundry detergent and home, leggings worn thin at the knees. You take a breath before stepping back out like you’re crossing some invisible line.
Hyunjin is in your living room, hands tucked into the back pockets of his jeans, moving slowly as if the space might spook if he’s too loud. He stops in front of the small painting on the wall—the one of your childhood pet cat, all crooked whiskers and warm amber eyes. He leans in a little, studying it with genuine focus.
“Did you order the food?” you ask, leaning against the doorframe.
He startles, just a bit. “Yeah—yeah, I did. It should be here soon.”
You have to bite the inside of your cheek to keep from laughing. He looks… lost. Awkward. Like he’s been dropped into unfamiliar territory without a map. It’s strangely endearing, especially considering the rumors, the reputation—Hyunjin, who supposedly knows exactly what to do in every room he walks into.
“You can sit,” you tell him gently. “Make yourself comfortable.”
He nods, then pauses when you add, “Do you want something to drink?”
“A glass of water would be nice,” he says.
You head into the kitchen, already reaching for a glass, but you hear his footsteps trailing after you. You glance over your shoulder to see him standing by the fridge, eyes scanning the cluttered door.
He points at the collections of fridge magnets and then his gaze lands on the slightly faded Christmas card tucked under one of them.
“Can I see that?” he asks, softer now.
After dinner, you stand at the sink, sleeves pushed up, warm water running over your hands as you wash the dishes one by one. Hyunjin stands beside you, close enough that your elbows almost brush, carefully drying each plate before setting it aside. He hums under his breath, something absentminded, and you pretend not to notice how domestic it all feels.
He glances out the window and stills. Snow is coming down harder now, thick and relentless, the streetlights outside blurred into soft halos.
“I should probably head home soon,” he says, wistful.
Something in your chest tightens. The thought of him leaving, of the door closing behind him and the apartment going quiet again, makes you uneasy in a way you weren’t prepared for. Before you can overthink it, the words slip out. “You can stay,” you say, casual, like it doesn’t mean anything.
A beat later, you quickly add, “I just think that it’s not safe to drive in this weather.”
He turns to you slowly, brows knitting together in confusion, like he’s trying to figure out if he heard you right. Then a teasing grin spreads across his face as he leans closer.
“Are you worried about me?” he playfully asks.
You roll your eyes, focusing a little too hard on the plate in your hands. “Never mind. I take it back.”
Hyunjin moves behind you, arms wrapping around your waist. You freeze as he presses closer, his solid chest against your back, his chin settling into the crook of your neck. He nuzzles there and your breath catches despite yourself.
“You’re so considerate, so kind for not letting me drive in this weather,” he murmurs followed with a quiet laugh. “Thank you for letting me stay.”
You fight the smile threatening to give you away, squirming in his hold. “Let go,” you say, failing to sound firm.
He doesn’t obey right away but you stop resisting, letting yourself lean back just a fraction, let the moment stretch until it feels dangerously easy to stay there.
After a while, you clear your throat and try again. “I still need to finish the dishes.”
He gasps dramatically like the idea has only just occurred to him. “Oh. Right. Dishes.”
He releases you at once, stepping back with a sheepish grin, and picks up the towel again. As he resumes drying the dishes, his smile lingers while your heart keeps doing things you pretend not to notice.
-
You pull the blanket free and give it a sharp shake, letting it settle over the mattress. Hyunjin stands on the other side of the bed, holding the extra pillow, that same smile glued to his face like he’s won something and decided not to gloat about it out loud.
“What,” you say, narrowing your eyes at him as you tuck one corner of the blanket in. “Why do you look like that?”
He only shrugs, still smiling, eyes following your hands as you work. It makes you oddly self-conscious, like every small movement is being carefully memorized.
You straighten up and meet his gaze. “Just so we’re clear, we’re sharing the bed because the sofa is too small for you. That’s it.”
Hyunjin nods like he’s been expecting this explanation all along. “I know. Blaming my long legs as we speak,” he says but he looks satisfied. Content in a way that makes your chest feel tight.
“And,” you add quickly, “nothing is going to happen.”
This time, he tilts his head, considering it for a second before shrugging. “Who knows?”
The smirk that follows is immediate and infuriating. You swing the pillow in your hands and hit him lightly in the chest.
He laughs and catches the pillow mid-air before it can fall. Instead of tossing it back, he hugs it to his chest, still grinning at you like this is exactly where he wants to be.
“Violence already?” he says, amused. “And we haven’t even gone to bed yet.”
You turn away to hide your face, busying yourself with smoothing the sheets, pretending your heart isn’t beating too fast.
Behind you, Hyunjin stays right where he is—smiling, pillow clutched to his chest, looking entirely too happy for someone who’s been warned that nothing is going to happen.
-
The night stretches quietly around you.
The lamp by the bed is dimmed low, casting soft shadows along the walls, and beyond the window the snow keeps falling. You and Hyunjin lie side by side under the blanket, warm and snug, a careful space kept between your bodies like an unspoken agreement. Close, but not touching.
You talk about the paintings around your apartment, the small ones tucked into corners and above shelves. You tell him which ones are yours, which ones were made by your mom.
There’s a pause, then he turns his head slightly toward you. “Can I ask about the Christmas card?”
“What about it?”
“Your grandparents called you ‘little beaver’ in it.” His tone is gentle, curious. “Why’s that?”
This is the kind of thing you don’t usually give away. It feels small, harmless but it’s yours, and it comes with the risk of being seen too clearly. Still, he’s lying there on his side, facing you, eyes patient and open, waiting without pressure.
So you give in. You keep your voice soft and low as you share. “When I was little. I was obsessed with beavers. Like—really obsessed.”
You let out a quiet breath, half a laugh before continuing. “I even made up this… beaver dance. I used to perform it for my grandparents on family gatherings, birthdays, Christmases… Anway, it was stupid.”
You wince, bracing for teasing. Instead, Hyunjin’s smile widens, warm and earnest. “That’s adorable.”
You roll your eyes, but it doesn’t quite land. “That’s why they still call me that. Little beaver. Even to this day.”
He nods like it makes perfect sense. “Are you still obsessed with beavers?”
“…A little,” you admit, a soft chuckle slipping out before you can stop it.
He grins. “Do you still remember the dance?”
“Barely.”
His eyes light up as he turns more fully toward you. “Do you think I’ll ever get to see it?”
You snort. “Never.”
“Ever?”
You shake your head firmly. “Never. Ever.”
He sighs dramatically, disappointed in a way that’s clearly exaggerated, but still sincere enough to make you smile. “That’s tragic.”
Silence settles after that, the kind that doesn’t demand filling. You glance at him without meaning to and he’s already looking at you. Soft, dark brown eyes deeply staring into yours.
Your gaze drops and notice his hand resting in the empty space between you. Palm turned up and open. Fingers relaxed, slightly curled, like an invitation.
Slowly, hesitantly, you reach for it. Your fingers brush his first, testing, before slipping between his. You lace them together loosely, like you might pull away at any second.
You can’t remember the last time you shared a bed with someone like this. Under the same blanket. Talking about nothing and everything. Offering childhood memories instead of defenses. Being listened to—truly listened to.
Once upon a time, you did this without fear and it broke you.
You remember what came after: being hurt, manipulated, lied to. Cheated on. Your heart shattered so completely that you were sure it would never fit back together the same way. So you built strong walls. Grew a thicker shell. Learned how to survive by keeping everything out. You told yourself that strength meant distance.
But lying here now, fingers tangled with his, you realize something else: you’re strong because you’re fragile. Because you feel things deeply. Because you still can. And it terrifies you.
The fear creeps in quietly at first, then all at once. Your chest tightens. Your breath turns shallow. Your heart shakes like it’s shrinking in on itself, and suddenly it feels hard to breathe.
“I’m… scared,” you whisper, the words barely making it past your throat.
Hyunjin turns fully toward you, concern flickering across his face but not panic. Just understanding. He knows exactly what you mean.
“I’m here,” he says it so low like a whispered prayer. “You can hold on to me.”
You see it in his eyes: sincerity, patience, something steady and real. He isn’t rushing you toward anything. He’s just offering to stay.
You scoot closer before you can talk yourself out of it and the moment you do, his arms gently come around you, pulling you into his chest. He’s warm, solid, familiar already. His scent surrounds you, calming something deep in your chest you didn’t realize was still hurting.
You realize then that loving someone is a leap—an act of faith. It’s stepping off the edge and trusting that someone will catch you.
And right now, wrapped in Hyunjin’s arms, you’re not sure you’re ready for it but your hand clutches at his shirt, clinging onto his chest because it feels like you’re already falling.
-
The weather’s been kinder lately. You notice it halfway through class, the way the light slips in through the window without that harsh winter glare, the sky pale instead of heavy. Snow still lingers in corners of the campus, but the air feels forgiving like it’s giving you a break. You rest your chin against your palm and stare outside a little too long, thoughts drifting somewhere warm and soft and entirely distracting.
The bell rings before you realize it. You gather your things and step out into the hallway. You stop short the second you notice the long, silky hair, the stance that oozes quiet confidence and the eyes that forms into crescents as he smiles.
Hyunjin stops leaning against the wall outside your classroom, his whole face lights up like he’s been waiting only for this exact second. Before you can say a word, he’s already grabbing your hand.
“I still have another class and—” you start, but he’s moving, pulling you gently into the flow of students flooding the hallway.
“I know,” he says easily, like he’s reading your mind.
You glance at him, suspicious. “Then why are you—”
He veers sharply to the side, tugging you with him and slipping into an empty classroom. The door shuts quietly behind you, cutting off the noise of the hallway.
“Hyunjin,” you warn, half-amused, half-confused.
He turns to face you, eyes gleaming. “Do you have your apartment keys with you?”
Your brows knit together. “…What?”
He tilts his head, patient but clearly pleased with himself. “Your keys.”
Slowly, you nod. “Yeah?”
“Where?”
Still confused, you reach into your bag, fingers rummaging past notebooks and pencils before closing around the cold metal. You pull them out and Hyunjin snatches them from your hand.
“Hey—!” you protest.
“I’m borrowing these,” he says cheerfully.
“For what?”
He smirks. “It’s a surprise.”
You groan immediately. “I don’t like the sound of that.”
“That’s because you don’t like surprises,” he counters, clearly enjoying this far too much.
He steps closer, hands settling on your arms, grounding you in place. “One more thing,” he says, suddenly serious. “You’re not allowed to come home before seven.”
You stare at him. “What?”
“You heard me.”
“Hyunjin—”
He cuts you off by leaning in and kissing you. It’s long and lingering, the kind that steals your breath and leaves your thoughts scattered. His lips are warm, familiar now in a way that still makes your chest flutter.
When he finally pulls back, he flashes you a crooked grin, eyes bright with mischief. “See you later,” he says.
You don’t answer—just let out a long, defeated sigh.
He laughs softly, already turning to go. But after two steps, he spins back around and presses another quick peck to your lips, stealing it before you can react.
This time, he leaves for real—half-jogging down the hallway, giggling like he’s just won something. You watch him go, the messy bun bouncing at the back of his head, your heart doing something reckless in your chest.
It’s only when the hallway starts to empty that you realize you’re almost late for your next class.
-
You’ve got a little more than two hours to kill. Which feels illegal, somehow—being told not to go home to your own apartment. You end up walking to the studio out of habit, letting your feet decide for you while your mind keeps circling back to the same thing: seven o’clock.
When you step inside, the familiar scent of clay and dust greets you. Ben’s already there, hunched over his sculpture, headphones on, head nodding slightly with whatever he’s listening to.
Noticing your arrival, Ben slips one side of his headphones down and looks at you, eyebrows lifting. “Didn’t expect to see you here.”
You halt to a stop. “Why not?”
He squints at you, then smirks. “It’s Valentine’s Day. Thought you and Hyunjin would be… I don’t know. Have plans.”
You scoff, a short laugh escaping you before you can stop it. So that’s the kind of “surprise” Hyunjin’s cooking up. A valentine’s day surprise.
You shake your head and walk to your usual spot. The motions come back to you easily: apron on, hands working the material, body remembering what to do even when your mind refuses to cooperate. You used to lose yourself here.
Now, your phone keeps stealing your focus. You check the time. Put it away. Work for five minutes. Check again.
The sculpture takes shape under your hands, but you’re not really seeing it. Your thoughts keep drifting out of your body back to Hyunjin, smirking as he snatched your apartment keys from your hand.
You catch yourself calculating instead of creating. How long it takes to walk home. What time you’d have to leave to arrive around the allowed time for you to come home. You feel restless, anticipatory in a way that makes you want to roll your eyes at yourself.
When you finally glance at the clock and realize it’s time, you don’t hesitate. You peel off your apron and grab your bag.
Ben looks up just as you’re heading for the door, one eyebrow arching. “Leaving already?” he asks.
You pause and smile. “Yeah.”
He doesn’t tease you. Just nods and says, “Be safe on your way home.”
“I will,” you reply, soft.
You wave once and step outside.
The cold hits immediately, but this time, you don’t brace yourself against it. You pull your coat tighter and start walking, breath fogging in the air, heart steady and warm. Because now you have something to come home to.
-
You inhale air before pushing the door to your apartment open and the first thing that hits you is the smell. Something warm, rich… and dangerously close to burning.
You step inside, frowning slightly, and you find Hyunjin in your kitchen, sleeves pushed up, hair tied messily, standing over the stove like he’s in the middle of a battle. Steam rises aggressively from a pot of pasta he’s just strained, curling into the air as he waves a towel uselessly at it, half-coughing, half-cursing under his breath.
For a second, you just stand there and watch him.
When he turns his head and finds you there, his eyes widen, panic flashing across his face like he’s just been caught committing a crime. “Why are you here?”
“Because this is my apartment,” you simply answer.
He stares at you, horrified, then asks more urgently this time. “No, why are you here this early?”
You calmly pull out your phone and hold it up between you, the screen glowing. 7:14 p.m.
“I came right on time.”
Hyunjin gasps like the realization physically knocks the air out of him. “Oh—shoot.”
He whips his head back toward the stove, muttering under his breath. “I lost track of time—oh my god—”
He spirals for a second, moving between the counter and the stove, hands everywhere, unsure whether to save the pasta, turn off the heat, or simply lie down on the floor and accept defeat.
He eventually stops. Straightens his back. Takes a breath. Runs a hand through his hair like he’s trying to reboot himself. He turns back to you, forcing a smile that’s a little too tight but very sincere. “Okay. So. I need… like, ten minutes. Maybe fifteen. To set things up.”
You open your mouth, ready to say you can help but one look at him tells you he’s already juggling too much. You don’t want to be another thing he has to manage so you nod.
“Go get changed,” he says gently, ushering you toward the hallway. “I’ll call you when it’s… ready.”
You nod once again and then turn toward your bedroom. As you close the door behind you, the sounds of clattering pans and frantic movement resume on the other side. And despite yourself, despite the smell of nearly burnt pasta, despite the chaos on the other side of the door, despite the way everything is clearly not going according to plan— you smile.
-
It’s been twenty minutes since you sit on the edge of your bed, already changed, already ready.
You quietly open the door just a crack to have a peek into situation on the other side of the door. Hyunjin crossing the living room, disappearing into the kitchen, coming back with something in his hands. He doesn’t look done. Not even close.
So you quietly push the door shut again, giving him the grace of time. You us the spare time to brush your hair slowly, add a sheer layer of lipstick—just enough color to look alive. A few sprays of perfume at your wrists and neck.
When you peek again, the living room lights are off. Your heart does a small, traitorous flip.
You close the door gently this time, clear your throat, and raise your voice just enough to carry. “Can I come out now?”
There’s a pause and then the sound of movement that is rather clumsy.
“Give me a second,” Hyunjin says, slightly breathless.
You bite back a smile, picturing him rushing around your apartment, adjusting things, fixing something that probably doesn’t need fixing.
A moment later, he announces, “Okay. You can come out now.”
You inhale air, steady yourself and then turn the knob.
The living room is dark, save for the soft glow spilling from the kitchen and the amber flicker of candles arranged on the dining table. The light dances gently, low and intimate, casting shadows that make the space feel smaller like the world has narrowed down to just this room.
Hyunjin stands beside the table, changed into a white shirt and a tie. And— blue jeans?
You almost laugh at the combination, but the thought dissolves the second you take in his whole look and honestly, he looks good in everything. What you like the most though is the way he’s standing there now, a little nervous, a little proud, smiling at you like this moment matters more than anything.
“Happy Valentine’s Day,” he says.
Once upon a time, you would’ve scoffed. Rolled your eyes. Thought it was corny. Cringe. Too much. But now, standing here on the receiving end of candlelight and effort and someone wanting to make something special just for you, you understand.
Those reactions were never about the romance. They were about never being chosen like this. And right now, you feel special.
You take slow steps toward him, the candlelight catching in your eyes, and Hyunjin’s smile never wavers even for a second, a little too soft for someone who used to feel so untouchable. Then he reaches behind his back.
“Uh—” he starts, and pulls out a bouquet.
You stop right in front of him as he offers it to you, both hands like it’s something precious. You take it, fingers brushing his, and he exhales like he’s been holding his breath this whole time.
“I didn’t know your favorite flowers,” he says quickly, a little sheepish, “but you said your favorite color is lilac, so… I got lilac.”
You lift the bouquet to your nose, breathing in the subtle floral scent, hiding your smile behind the soft petals.
“And,” he adds, rubbing the back of his neck, “apparently there are a lot of kinds of lilac. So I kind of… got all of them.”
In this light, stripped of rumors and confidence and reputation, Hyunjin is just… a boy—slightly silly, a bit awkward, visibly nervous and somehow, that makes him unbearably adorable.
You lower the bouquet, take one more step closer. “Thank you,” you murmur.
Before you can change your mind, you lean in to press a quick kiss on his lips. When you pull away, you see the surprise flicker across his face, eyes wide for half a second before he blinks.
You grin. “My lipstick got on you.”
He smacks his lips together experimentally, like he’s tasting it. “Oh.”
You tilt your head. “Never mind. It looks good on you.”
His smile turns slow, dangerous in the gentlest way. “You should put more on me then.”
You laugh. “I’ll go grab it from my room real quick.”
“Never mind,” he says quickly, moving to pull out your chair. “Sit.”
You raise an eyebrow, playful. “Wow. Very demanding.”
But you obey, sitting down and placing the bouquet carefully on the table. Up close, you really take in the effort—the candles, the plates, the way he’s tried to make everything feel intentional.
“Can I eat now?” you ask hopefully. “I’m starving.”
He holds up a finger, stopping you. “Wine first.”
You wait patiently as he uncaps the bottle, eyes squeezing shut in anticipation and fear. When the cork finally pops, his shoulders jump, and you both burst into laughter. He pours the wine, rich red filling your glasses, the aphrodisiac smell of it wafting around the room.
“To—” he starts, lifting his glass, then hesitates.
“To what?” you ask.
He goes quiet, genuinely thinking.
“How about… successfully not setting my apartment on fire?”
He laughs, relieved. “Yeah. That.”
You clink your glasses together, finally having that sip of sweet, earthy tone of the wine.
“Okay. Now can we eat?” you ask impatiently.
His hands fly to the lids covering the plates of dinner and sighs dramatically before reveal them. “Your favorite. Shrimp scampi.”
You lean in, impressed. It looks… good. But you don’t skip the chance to tease him. “Is it safe to eat though?”
He nods confidently. “I followed the recipe. I just can’t remember if I added salt or baking soda.”
You laugh, shaking your head. “Thank you for the food.”
You have a taste of it and it’s not exactly how you like it, but it’s good. For someone who made it for the first time in his life, he did well.
He watches you too closely. “Well?”
“It’s good,” you say.
“You can be honest.”
“It’s good because I’m hungry,” you jokingly say.
He smiles, entirely unoffended.
Dinner continues like that, filled with teasing, light conversation, easy laughter that comes naturally and sitting there, you realize something quietly—
You feel content.
-
The plates are empty now, pushed to the side, crumbs wiped away. The candles have burned lower, wax pooling lazily at their bases, and the room feels warmer like it’s wrapped itself around the two of you.
“So,” Hyunjin says, swirling the dark red in his glass. “Did you like the dinner?”
You nod without hesitation. “Surprisingly, I did.”
His face brightens immediately, pride blooming so openly it makes your chest ache a little. But you lift a finger before he can bask in it too long. “I liked everything. Except the part where I wasn’t allowed to come home to my own apartment.”
His lips form a coy pout. “I’m not sorry.”
You huff, but there’s no real heat behind it. Silence settles again, gentle this time. You take another sip of your wine, then look at him, sitting there in your space, surrounded by candlelight and effort and intention.
“…Thank you,” you say quietly. “I don’t remember the last time someone did something like this for me.”
“Yeah,” he says lightly, “I can tell.”
You shoot him a look but it does make him feel the slightest but intimidated like you hope it would.
“That look doesn’t scare me anymore,” he says with a soft chuckle.
You shake your head, smiling despite yourself.
He drinks from his glass, then glances at you over the rim. “By the way, did you prepare a gift for me?”
Your brows knit together. “What gift?”
“It’s Valentine’s Day. I gave you plenty of time to think of a gift.”
You gape at him. “You didn’t even tell me you were doing this. I only found out it's Valentine’s Day from Ben.”
“Oh, so you had a source,” he counters.
“That doesn’t count!”
The argument dissolves quickly into bickering and slowly descends into hilarity, then burst into laughter, the kind that makes your shoulders loosen and your chest feel light.
“Okay, okay,” he says, holding up his hands. “You don’t have to get me anything.”
You nod. “Good.”
“But,” he adds, eyes glinting, “it doesn’t have to be an object.”
You narrow your eyes, not liking the sound of it.
His gaze flicks past you, toward the fridge, toward the Christmas card. He leans forward, elbows on the table, eyes crinkling as his voice softens into something dangerously sweet. “Can I see the beaver dance?”
You groan, leaning back in your chair. “Absolutely not.”
He clasps his hands together. “Please.”
“I barely remember it.”
“I’ll take a glimpse. A hint. A historical reenactment,” he tries his best to coax you.
You mumble something incoherent, dragging a hand down your face. Every instinct tells you to refuse, but then you look at him. At the care. The effort. The way he looks at you like this moment matters.
It’s just a silly little dance, you tell yourself.
With a long sigh, you cave. “Fine.”
His grin is immediate and radiant, like he’s just been handed the greatest gift in the world.
You drain half your glass in one go before you can change your mind, the wine warming your chest as you stand up from the table.
“Sit,” you tell him, pointing at the sofa like it’s an order.
Hyunjin obeys immediately, a little too happily, hands clasped together on his lap, eyes bright with anticipation.
You stand in front of him and inhale. Exhale. You wait another second to let the wine takes effect on your nerves.
This is a terrible idea. You tell yourself but begin moving anyway. You lift one hand then immediately cringe.
“Wait. I need another second,” you mutter, grabbing your glass again and taking another long sip before returning to your spot.
Okay. Let’s get it over with.
You stare at the floor, replaying fragments of memory you haven’t touched in years. Made up lyrics only you remember. Movements half-lost to time. Your hands curl into small fists, lifting under your chin, elbows tucked in as you sway awkwardly from side to side the way a beaver does.
You mumble-sing under your breath about a beaver who can swim, about it eating apple, about things that made sense only to a child once. You shuffle, hop a little, mimic gnawing motions, cheeks burning, laughter bubbling up because you can’t believe you’re actually doing this.
The whole time, you’re avoiding Hyunjin’s eyes, hate to catch that smile of satisfaction on his devastatingly beautiful face. You continue until you can’t recall the rest of the choreography from memory but you finish with one last ridiculous beaver pose.
That’s when you finally glance up—still laughing, still breathless, ready to see him doubled over, teasing you forever about this.
However, Hyunjin isn’t laughing. He is very still. He looks at you with something so soft, so full, it almost hurts to see. Fondness, yes—but also something deeper. Wistful. Like he’s been shown a piece of sunlight he didn’t know he was missing.
Your stance falter, so does your smile. “…You can just say it,” you joke weakly. “I look silly. Or funny. Or—”
He stands before you can finish. In two long strides, he closes the distance, takes your hands gently, and guides you down onto the sofa. Then he kneels in front of you, right there. Your hands are still in his as he looks up at you, eyes shining even in the low light, voice trembling just enough to be honest.
“I don’t know how much you’ve been hurt. But I hate, I hate whoever made you feel like you had to hide this part of yourself.”
Your chest tightens but you daringly look back into his eyes, holding his gaze steadily.
“I hate that someone made you build walls,” he continues, gaze never leaving yours. “When there’s something this beautiful inside you.”
Your heart quivers because he sees it. All of it. And he isn’t flinching.
“Thank you,” he whispers, squeezing your hands. “For trusting me with this. With you.”
Your vision blurs as tears pooling in your eyes. It’s the way he looks at you, touched you with words that aren’t just words, they’re heavy with meaning and intentions and emotions.
“I promise,” he says, voice steady now, full of conviction, “I’ll do everything I can to make you happy. To make you smile. To make sure you never feel like you have to hide again.”
Tears spill despite yourself and in that moment, you know it with bone-deep certainty. He’s there. He’s not stepping back. He’s on his knees, ready to catch you.
So you lean forward and kiss him.
And this time, you don’t hesitate.
You take the leap.
-
The snow that once clung stubbornly to the ground is gone now, reduced to wet patches and darkened sidewalks, and the light outside feels softer, warmer. The sky is pale and open, the air no longer biting. You smile to yourself because spring is coming—you can feel it in the way the world seems to be slowly loosening its grip.
When the bell rings and you step out into the low hum of the hallway, Hyunjin is already waiting outside your class, leaning against the wall like he’s always been meant to be. His smile is warm and beautiful when his eyes find yours, and something in your chest eases at the sight of it. You walk straight into his space without thinking, rising onto your toes to press a quick kiss to his lips. He lets out a soft laugh, surprised but pleased, and when your fingers slide into his, he laces them together like he’s been doing it for years instead of weeks.
You move down the hallway hand in hand, carried along by the crowd but somehow separate from it, talking over each other about nothing and everything—coffee or a walk, somewhere quiet or somewhere familiar, now or later.
Hyunjin squeezes your hand as he talks, glancing at you like he’s trying to remember this exact moment, as if this ordinary afternoon matters. You bump your shoulder into his on purpose, smiling, already knowing you’ll figure it out together, wherever you end up.
And maybe that’s how it begins and continues.
Maybe the future is unclear, maybe there are still questions neither of you are ready to answer yet, but as you walk beside Hyunjin, you know one thing for certain: you are no longer afraid of wanting, of choosing, of loving out loud.
And if loving Hyunjin means stepping forward without knowing exactly where you’ll land, then this time, you’re willing to do it bravely, openly—together.
-
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Synopsis: Forced to go on a blind date at a cat café, Minho expects nothing more than coffee and cats. (3k words)
Minho is halfway through his favorite manga when the dorm door opens without knocking.
He doesn’t look up. He already knows who it is.
“Hey,” his friend says, voice too bright for someone invading his quiet. “What are you doing this weekend?”
Minho turns a page. “Reading.”
Outside his dorm room, the campus hums with movement and plans and people, but in here, it’s just him, the rustle of papers, and the cat curled up against his side.
“Okay, but—”
“No.”
His friend laughs. “You didn’t even hear what I was going to say.”
“I don’t need to.” Minho finally glances up, unimpressed. “Whatever it is, the answer is no.”
He shifts on the bed, settling more comfortably against the wall. The cat lets out a sleepy noise and presses closer, claiming territory.
“I’m setting you up on a blind date,” his friend says anyway.
Minho’s face twists instantly. “Absolutely not.”
“Minho.”
“No.”
“You haven’t gone on a date in forever.”
“That’s on purpose.”
“You can’t spend every weekend in your dorm.”
Minho looks down at the comic panel he’s already read twice, then at the cat purring beside him. He gestures between them. “I’m busy.”
His friend drops into the chair with a dramatic sigh. “You don’t even know who I’m setting you up with.”
“That’s the problem.”
A beat passes. Then—
“What if I told you the date is at a cat café?”
Minho slowly, cautiously, he looks up. “…Still not interested.”
Yet his voice tinted with a tad of hesitance.
“Oh, come one,” his friend says, grinning, coaxing. “This weekend. Cat café. A date. Good coffee. Lots of cats.”
Minho exhales through his nose, irritated at how his interest gives him away. “That’s emotional manipulation.”
“And it’s very effective.”
Minho groans, dragging a hand down his face. The cat beside him doesn’t move, entirely unbothered. “I don’t want a date. I want a peaceful weekend.”
“You can have both,” his friend says. “An hour. Two, max.”
Minho glances back at his manga, at the stillness he’s reluctant to leave. He hates that now he has time to think about it. After a moment, he finally comes to a decision. “…If this goes badly, I’m leaving.”
His friend beams. “Deal.”
Minho sighs, already regretting it. But the thought lingers anyway. He snaps his comic shut with a quiet sound. “One hour,” he says. “This weekend.”
-
The weekend arrives far too quickly. Minho stands in front of his mirror, staring at himself like he’s waiting for a stranger to stare back. He tugs at the sleeve of his sweater, then lets it fall. He’d chosen it deliberately to give the impression that he doesn’t try too hard while still being acceptable in public. His hair is neat, not styled and yes, that’s intentional too.
The cat on his bed watches him with lazy judgment as he rolls the sleeve of the sweater to his elbows.
“This isn’t a big deal,” Minho mutters, mostly to himself. “I’m just going to look at cats.”
The knock on his door is loud and relentless, as if summoned by the universe itself.
“Mmh,” he hums in answer, already annoyed.
When he opens it, his friend is standing there with a satisfied grin, eyes immediately scanning him from head to toe.
“Oh, you actually got dressed,” his friend says, impressed.
Minho frowns. “I always get dressed.”
“For dates?”
“This isn’t a date.”
His friend hums, clearly unconvinced, and steps inside without waiting for permission. “You look fine. Good, even.”
“I’m not trying to look good.”
“Sure you are.”
Minho turns back toward his desk, grabbing his phone, keys, wallet like if he goes through the routine fast enough, the outcome might change.
His friend leans against the doorframe. “You weren’t planning on bailing, were you?”
“No,” Minho says immediately. Then, more honestly, he adds, “I thought about it.”
“I knew it.”
“I just don’t see the point,” Minho adds. “If it’s awkward, I’ll leave. If it’s boring, I’ll leave. If they’re late—”
“She won’t be,” his friend cuts in. “And even if she is, you’ll have cats.”
Minho hates that his friend knows exactly how to convince him. “Ugh,” he groans under his breath.
He glances around his dorm one last time—the quiet, the half-read manga on his bed, the familiar comfort waiting for him when he comes back. The cat blinks slowly, unimpressed by his hesitation.
“An hour,” Minho says. “That’s it.”
“Sure,” his friend says, already opening the door for him. “Have fun!”
-
The bell above the door chimes softly as Minho steps into the cat café.
Warm air greets him first and then the smell of coffee. It’s quieter than he expected, sunlight filtering through the windows in gentle stripes across wooden floors.
“Hi, welcome in.”
A voice catches his attention before he even realizes it’s directed at him. You’re standing behind the counter, apron tied neatly around your waist, a small smile on your face.
Minho pauses for half a second and offers a polite nod in reply. He’s already moving past you as if lingering might invite conversation he isn’t prepared for.
And then, Minho sees them.
Cats—everywhere.
One sprawled across the back of a couch like it owns the place. Another perched on a windowsill, tail flicking lazily in the sunlight. A small cluster gathered around a low table, blinking up at him with open curiosity. A dozen, maybe more, scattered throughout the café like they’ve been placed deliberately to overwhelm him.
Minho exhales, tension easing from his shoulders without him noticing. “Oh,” he murmurs.
A calico pads toward him first, brushing against his ankle with casual confidence. He stills, then carefully lowers his hand, letting her sniff him before she leans into his touch like she’s already decided he belongs.
Another cat hops onto the cat tree behind him. Then another.
Minho crouches near the low table, one knee pressed into the floor, the calico already settled comfortably in his lap like it’s found its rightful place. He doesn’t question it.
You never do when cats decide things for you.
His fingers move slowly, careful not to startle her as he scratches gently behind her ears. She leans into the touch with a pleased little sound, tail flicking lazily.
“You know that means you’re not allowed to leave, right?”
The voice comes from close by.
Minho looks up to find you standing there, apron still on, hands loosely folded in front of you. You’re watching him—not intently, not like you’re studying him—but with mild amusement, like this is something you see every day and still enjoy.
He glances down at the cat, then back at you. “That seems unfair.”
You smile. “It’s their café. We just work here.”
Minho huffs quietly, the corner of his mouth twitching despite himself. “…You’re letting the cats run a business?”
“You don’t question management,” you simply say with a smile.
Minho almost snorts, almost. But he holds himself back well.
Another cat hops onto the table, then another squeezes into the space beside him, nudging insistently at his hand. Minho adjusts without thinking, spreading his attention easily, movements unhurried and gentle.
Without having to look, he knows you’re watching him — the way his dark hair falling, curtaining his forehead, the evident veins on the back of his hand as he pets the cats, the way he talks to the cats in soft murmurs. For someone with sharp features and an intimidating look, people wouldn’t think Minho has this gentleness in him.
You tilt your head slightly, surprise mixed with quiet admiration. “You’re good with them.”
“They’re easy. They don’t expect much,” Minho calmly replies.
“Mm, I don’t know. They expect respect. And patience.”
He shrugs. “That’s not hard.”
You laugh softly at that, like he’s said something unintentionally funny. “You’d be surprised.”
Minho watches you as he pets the cat in his lap, vaguely aware of the warmth creeping into his ears. “Do they do this with everyone?” he asks, gesturing vaguely to the growing crowd around him.
“Nope.” You crouch beside him, close enough that he notices the faint scent of coffee on you. “Some people try too hard. Some don’t try at all.”
“And me?”
You glance at him, eyes flicking briefly to his hands, then back up to his face. “You let them come to you.”
He swallows, suddenly too aware of how close you are. “Huh,” he says.
A pause stretches between you, comfortable, filled only by soft purring.
“This is your first time here, right?” you ask casually.
Minho nods. “Yes.”
“Well,” you say lightly, “they’ve already decided they like you.”
He looks down at the cat, who’s now half-asleep against him. “Guess I’m stuck, then.”
You grin. “Dangerous place to get trapped.”
“Worth it,” he mutters before he can stop himself.
Your eyebrows lift just a fraction. “Oh?” you tease.
Minho clears his throat, pretending to be very focused on the cat. “For the cats,” he adds quickly.
“Of course,” you say, tone entirely too amused. “Only the cats.”
The cat purrs louder, as if agreeing.
Minho doesn’t mean to keep looking at you. It just… happens.
You’re still crouched beside him, attention split between him and the cats, one hand reaching out to scratch under a ginger cat’s chin as it shamelessly leans into you. The scene feels strangely domestic, like something he’s wandered into by accident.
“You know,” you say, glancing back at him, “they don’t usually warm up this fast.”
“Maybe they’re bored,” Minho replies.
You laugh, clearly unconvinced. “No. They’re picky.”
“Are you saying I passed some kind of test?”
You pretend to think about it, eyes drifting over him slowly enough that his stomach tightens. “I’d say so. They like calm people. People who don’t rush.”
“That’s a good thing?”
“With cats?” You smile. “Always.”
Something about the way you say it makes his chest feel warm in an unfamiliar way.
Before he can think of a response, you blink, straightening slightly. “Oh—wait. I’m supposed to be doing my job.”
Minho watches as you shift fully into work mode, though the smile doesn’t leave your face. “Are you ready to order?”
“Oh.” He blinks, caught off guard. “Uh—iced coffee?”
“Any preference?” you ask.
“Whatever you recommend.”
You grin at that, like you’ve been handed an unexpected gift. “I’ll make you a good one.”
As you stand, a cat clings briefly to your apron, forcing you to pause and laugh softly as you gently unhook its claws.
Minho watches you walk back toward the counter and on the way, you stop to pet a cat perched on a small bookshelf, fingers brushing over its head, the cat closes its eyes immediately.
His hand absently moves to the one resting near him, thumb tracing slow circles through its fur. For a moment, he’s forgetting the time and the reason why he’s here in the first place. He checks his phone but there’s no new messages, no notifications. No news whether his date will come or not. He frowns slightly, thumb hovering over the screen before he glances at the time. He’s been here for a little more than an hour.
That can’t be right.
He shifts in his seat, careful not to disturb the cat dozing beside him, its body warm and heavy against his thigh. Another one is perched above him on the cat tree, tail hanging lazily within reach.
Minho exhales, leaning back a little. “…Huh.”
So that’s that, then.
He could leave. He should, probably. He’d told his friend an hour. An hour was generous. More than generous, even.
But the cat on his lap stretches and then starts kneading on his thigh, its claws digging through his jeans but Minho doesn’t mind, because it means the cat feels safe and happy with him.
He absently scratches behind its ears, earning a louder purr. “I know. I’m not going anywhere,” he mutters.
The thought surprises him a little.
He’s comfortable. Too comfortable. The café is cozy, the cats content, the iced coffee he ordered still on its way. And—unhelpfully—he finds his gaze drifting toward the counter again.
You’re there, busy now, focused, moving with practiced ease. When you return, you’re carrying his drink on a tray. “Sorry for the wait,” you mutter.
Minho looks up and the smile you give him is apologetic, but warm and welcoming — the kind that makes his lips quirk without him meaning to.
You set the glass down gently on the table beside him, careful not to disturb the cats. Condensation beads along the side, ice clinking against the glass as you slide it closer.
“Here you go. Iced coffee.”
Minho nods, fingers brushing the glass. “It’s okay.”
You glance down at the cat sleeping on his lap. “She likes you.”
He shrugs, eyes dropping to the cat that it’s now nuzzling its head into his hand. “Maybe she has good taste.”
You raise an eyebrow, a corner of your mouth lifts higher than the other. “In people?”
Minho looks at you, a faint smirk tugging at his lips as he answers, “…In lap pillows.”
A soft laugh escapes you as you nod in acknowledgement.
There’s something about the way you’re amused by his words that makes Minho’s heart does this little flip in his chest. He immediately wraps his fingers around the cool glass, taking a small sip. It’s good. Smooth. Exactly the kind of drink that makes him want to stay longer than planned.
“Do you want to know their names?” you ask, still standing there.
He looks up, surprised. “All of them?”
You grin. “You’ve been chosen. It feels rude not to introduce you properly.”
Minho glances around at the cats scattered near him. “That sounds… dangerous.”
“Only if you get attached,” you say lightly.
You crouch down beside him again, close enough that your shoulder nearly brushes his. You point at the cat curled in his lap. “That’s Miso. She pretends she’s aloof, but she’s a liar.”
Miso flicks her tail like she’s been personally attacked.
Minho snorts before he can stop himself. “I respect that.”
“She’ll sit with you for hours,” you continue. “But if you move even a little, she’ll act betrayed.”
“That explains the glare.”
You laugh, then gesture to the one perched above him on the tree. “And that’s Bean. He likes heights. Thinks he’s better than everyone.”
Bean stares down at them, unimpressed.
Minho raises an eyebrow. “I don’t like his attitude.”
“He likes yours,” you say. “You didn’t look at him first.”
Minho hums. “Good. We understand each other.”
You watch him reach up to gently scratch under Bean’s chin, careful, slow. Bean melts immediately.
“…Okay,” you admit. “Maybe he’s flexible.”
You move from cat to cat, introducing each one with affection and commentary, and Minho listens like it’s important information. Like it matters. He asks questions, quietly curious, and you answer every one with easy warmth.
“They listen to you,” he says at one point.
“Someone has to,” you reply. “They’re very opinionated.”
Minho hesitates before speaking, fingers still moving absently through Miso’s fur.
“…Is it,” he starts, then stops. Tries again. “Is it okay for you to… do this?”
You glance at him. “Do what?”
“Talk and flirt,” he says, gesturing vaguely between the two of you. The cats. The closeness. “With customers. Like this.”
For a second, you just blink at him and then you laugh. Not loud—just a soft chuckle, like he’s said something unexpectedly endearing.
“Oh, actually,” you say. “My shift ended an hour ago.”
Minho stills because you’re not quite answering the question nor deflect it. Especially, the ‘flirt’ part.
But then you tilt your head and add, “I stayed because I wanted to.”
An hour ago. You didn’t have to be here. Didn’t have to sit with him, introduce him to every cat by name, tease him gently until his cheeks warmed.
Minho’s brain lags behind his chest, which suddenly feels tight in a way he doesn’t quite recognize. “Oh?” he says again, quieter this time.
You watch his expression carefully, then add, gently, “I assume your friend didn’t tell you.”
He looks up. “What?”
You smile, soft and certain. “About me.”
His brows knit, still piecing things together in his head. “Huh?”
“Your friend showed me a picture of you,” you explain. “I figured you’d be the quiet one pretending you weren’t on a blind date.”
He opens his mouth. Closes it. Still figuring it out.
You extend a hand, still smiling. “I’m—you know. Your blind date.”
The cats choose that moment to stretch, shift, settle more firmly against him, as if bracing him in place.
Minho stares at you, processing in slow increments. The conversation. The ease. The way none of this felt forced or awkward or like something he had to perform for.
“Oh,” he says, for the third time. Then, finally, “I thought I’d been stood up.”
You wince apologetically. “Sorry. I didn’t mean for it to go that way. I thought your friend already told you about me.”
Minho swallows air. His friend did offer about showing you to him but he flatly refused.
“It’s okay,” he says quickly. Then realizes that’s the truth. “I didn’t mind.”
You hesitate, then ask, “If you want to… we can continue the date somewhere else? We could go for dinner. Or a walk.”
Minho looks around.
At the warm light. The iced coffee sweating against his palm. The cats draped over him like they’ve claimed him as furniture. At you—comfortable, warm, like you’ve known him longer than an hour.
He exhales, something loosening in his chest. “…Actually, I kind of like it here.”
You glance at the cat asleep in his lap, then back at him. “Yeah?”
Minho huffs a quiet laugh. “I don’t think they’d let me leave anyway.”
You grin, nodding solemnly. “I agree. That one looks very committed.”
Miso purrs, loud and smug.
You settle back beside him again, like the decision was already made.
Minho stays longer than he planned. Longer than he ever plans to.
You keep talking—about cats, about nothing, about everything in between. The cats shift and resettle around you, sunlight fading slowly through the windows. Minho doesn’t check the time again. He feels good, he’s comfortable and cozy. And for once, he doesn’t feel the need to leave.
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BANGCHAN
The moment you step into your friend’s apartment, the heavy weight of the outside world melts away. You exhale, running a hand through your hair, as if you can physically shake off the exhaustion pressing down on you. The past few weeks have been a nightmare—your latest movie, the one you poured your soul into, is flopping spectacularly. Critics have been ruthless, social media is in an uproar, and the press won't stop circling like vultures.
The moment the headlines started piling up, you knew you had to disappear for a while. That’s why you’re here—hiding out in your friend’s apartment under the pretense of dog-sitting. No cameras, no probing questions—just you, an empty apartment, and Lucky, the sweet yorkshire terrier trotting up to you with a wagging tail.
You kneel down to scratch behind Lucky’s ears, murmuring a soft, “At least you don’t care about box office numbers.” The dog licks your hand in response, and you sigh, finally feeling a sliver of peace. This was exactly what you needed—a quiet hideout, just you and a dog to keep you company.
You straighten up, stretching your arms above your head, and begin mumbling to yourself, “Finally, I’m free—”
“Free from what?”
The deep, amused voice startles you so badly you nearly trip over Lucky. Your head snaps toward the source of the voice, and your breath catches in your throat.
Standing in the doorway to the kitchen is a man you definitely were not expecting to see—especially not like this. Bang Chan, your friend’s mysterious neighbor that you’ve only heard about in passing, leans casually against the counter, watching you with an easy grin. The dim apartment lighting casts warm shadows across his toned upper body—because, oh, he is very much shirtless. Only a pair of low-rise jeans cling to his hips, showcasing his defined V-line, the dips of his muscles highlighted in the soft glow of the room.
You have to physically fight the urge to gawk. This man looks like he stepped out of a daydream, all smooth skin, broad shoulders, and the kind of body sculpted with undeniable dedication. His face? Just as unfairly stunning. Tousled curls, deep brown eyes, and a smirk that practically drips confidence.
You swallow hard, forcing your gaze away, but his grin deepens like he knows exactly what’s running through your mind. “Who—what—why are you here?” you stammer, your brain short-circuiting.
Chan grabs a glass from the cabinet, filling it with water as if this is the most natural situation in the world. “Same reason as you,” he says before taking a long sip, making you wait for an answer. The nerve.
You cross your arms. “I don’t know you,” you state firmly. “I’m here to dog-sit Lucky.”
Chan finishes his water and sets the glass down with an infuriatingly smug expression. “That’s funny,” he says, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. “Because I’m also here to dog-sit Lucky.”
You narrow your eyes. “Well, I got here first. So you can leave now.”
Chan lets out a soft chuckle, shaking his head. “Sorry, but I’m not going anywhere.” He tilts his head, amusement dancing in his eyes.
He steps closer, his bare torso just inches from yours, and you swear you can feel the warmth radiating off him. Your pulse flutters traitorously, but you keep your expression steady.
“By the way,” he murmurs, eyes twinkling, “I’m Bang Chan.”
You blink up at him, pretending to be unfazed despite the way your heart hammers in your chest. “Good for you.”
His grin widens at your coy response. “Well, I guess we should get acquainted.” His voice dips just slightly, teasing but warm. “Because it looks like we’re stuck with each other.”
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HAN
The rehearsal dinner is a dream for everyone else, but for you, it’s a carefully constructed nightmare. The laughter, the clinking of glasses, the soft glow of string lights—it should all feel magical, but instead, it suffocates you. Because every smile you force, every congratulatory toast you raise, is a reminder that the man standing beside your best friend isn’t yours.
And he never will be.
Your best friend, glowing in her wedding dress, nudges you playfully. “Come on, say something! Give us a sneak peek of your speech!” she beams, oblivious to the storm inside you.
You swallow hard, gripping your champagne glass like it’s the only thing anchoring you. You’ve rehearsed the words a hundred times, words that are supposed to be light and heartfelt, filled with love and admiration. But all they do is choke you. Because how do you stand in front of a room full of people and celebrate a love that should have been yours?
Excusing yourself quickly, you slip away from the main hall, finding refuge in an empty room. The air is still, the sound of muffled chatter fading as you close the door behind you. Pacing back and forth, you clutch your phone, reading over your speech, trying to force the words out.
“You’re not in love with him. You’re not in love with him,” you mutter under your breath, gripping the edges of your dress as if grounding yourself will make the feelings disappear. “She’s your best friend. You should be happy for her.”
“Yikes,” a voice drawls from the corner.
You nearly jump out of your skin. Your head snaps toward the sound, and you spot a man lounging against the counter, phone in hand, his dark eyes watching you with amusement. He’s wearing a crisp white shirt and black vest, his waiter attire slightly disheveled like he’s been dodging guests all evening. A few strands of his brown hair fall over his forehead, his bowtie hanging slightly loose like he gave up on perfection halfway through the night. Somehow, it makes him look effortlessly charming, like he doesn’t even have to try to be attractive.
Your gaze flickers to the name embroidered on his vest: Han. The name suits him, you think, just as he tilts his head and gives you a crooked smile—one that feels so authentic to him, like he’s never forced a thing in his life.
“Who—who are you?” you demand, heart still racing from the shock.
Han gestures to his vest. “Just a humble waiter, taking a break from serving champagne and avoiding the drunk aunties.”
Your eyes narrow. “Why are you in here?”
He shrugs, slipping his phone into his pocket. “I could ask you the same thing. But I think I already got my answer.”
Heat rises to your cheeks. “Were you eavesdropping?”
He grins. “Hard not to when someone’s dramatically pacing and muttering about being in love with the groom.”
You groan, dragging a hand down your face. “Great. Just great.”
Han pushes off the counter and takes a step toward you, eyes glinting with mischief. “You know, I happen to be an expert in giving speeches at weddings.”
You scoff. “Oh, really?”
He nods solemnly. “Of course. And my first tip?” He walks past you, pausing at the door just long enough to glance back with a teasing smirk. “Try not to be in love with the groom.”
Before you can come up with a retort, he’s gone, leaving you staring after him, your heart pounding for an entirely new reason.
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FELIX
The soft hum of an espresso machine and the quiet chatter of customers fill the air as Felix steps into the café, the scent of freshly brewed coffee welcoming him. It’s a nice afternoon, the kind where the sun isn’t too harsh, and the breeze slipping through the open doors carries just the right amount of warmth. He walks up to the counter, smiling at the barista as he places his order.
"Name?" the barista asks, already reaching for a cup.
"Lee Felix," he answers, watching as his full name is scribbled onto the side before the barista moves on to the next order.
While waiting, Felix’s attention is drawn to a voice nearby. It isn’t just any voice—it carries a sharp, amused lilt, weaving through words with the kind of conviction that makes him pause. His gaze flickers toward the source, finding you sitting by the window, a book in one hand, your phone pressed to your ear with the other.
“I don’t get the hype,” you say, flipping through the pages with a skeptical frown. “It’s just… pretentious. Like, am I really supposed to be moved by this overly poetic nonsense? The guy basically had a lush life, wrote it all down, and got it published because—oh, surprise, surprise—his father owns a publishing company.”
Felix blinks, momentarily thrown off. He recognizes the book immediately—the cover, the title, the way your fingers tap idly against the spine. He should just ignore it, should let you have your opinion and go on with his day. But instead, he lingers, unable to help the way his eyes trail over you, watching as your brows furrow in concentration, your lips pursing slightly as you flip through another page. There’s something oddly captivating about the way you read, completely absorbed in your thoughts, unaware of anything—or anyone—else around you.
Before he knows it, he finds himself speaking.
"It’s based on a true story, you know."
You turn, eyebrows raising at the unexpected interruption. Now that he has your attention, Felix feels a little ridiculous, but he stands his ground.
"Is that so?" you muse, studying him. "Because it reads more like someone playing pretend with a thesaurus and a wealthy upbringing."
Felix huffs a quiet laugh, shaking his head. "That’s not exactly what it’s about."
You smile, tilting your head in mock curiosity. "What a shame I can’t ask the author himself if that’s true."
And that’s when the barista calls out, loud and clear, "Lee Felix!"
You turn, eyes flicking toward the cup being placed on the counter. Then, as if in slow motion, your gaze drops to the book in your hand, back to the coffee cup, and then finally, back to him.
Felix can practically see the moment the realization dawns on you.
His name. The book.
Your lips part slightly before pressing together, the corners twitching like you aren’t sure whether to laugh or sink into the floor.
Felix grins, reaching for his coffee. "Yeah," he says, taking a casual sip, "what a shame you’ll never find out if it’s true."
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SEUNGMIN
The summer sun hangs high in the sky, casting long shadows across the baseball field. The rhythmic sound of a ball smacking into a glove and the occasional crack of a bat fill the air as Seungmin and his friends run through their practice drills. It’s just another afternoon in their small town—until you walk onto the field.
“Can I play?” you ask, hands on your hips, your expression unreadable.
Seungmin stops mid-throw, glancing at you with an amused, almost condescending smile. “I don’t have time to teach you how to bat.”
His friend elbows him, shooting him a look. “Dude, don’t be rude.”
Your lips twitch, but you don’t back down. “Just let me play. One pitch. That’s all I need.”
Seungmin tilts his head, considering you for a moment. There’s something about the confidence in your stance that makes him hesitate. Without a word, he jerks his chin toward his friend, who hands you a bat.
You take your position, gripping the bat with an ease that makes Seungmin slightly curious. He plays with the baseball in his hand, rolling it between his fingers before settling into his stance. He decides to go easy on you—give you what they call ‘the girl pitch.’
The moment he throws it, you don’t even flinch. Instead of swinging, you catch the ball with your free hand, holding it up for him to see. The smirk on your lips is nothing short of victorious.
“Come on! Give me a real pitch,” you say, eyes locked onto his.
A slow wave of silence washes over the field. Seungmin clenches his jaw, something stirring in him—challenge, intrigue, maybe even a little admiration. Fine, if that’s what you want.
He winds up properly this time, sending a fast, clean pitch straight toward you. The moment the ball meets your bat, there’s a sharp crack, and everyone watches as it soars deep into the outfield.
You lower the bat, turning back to Seungmin with a teasing glint in your eyes. “Should I jog the bases to prove I know how to play?”
Seungmin just blinks at you, processing what just happened, before he scoffs under his breath.
You walk over to his friend, handing back the bat with a satisfied smile. “You guys are playing that match on Thursday, right?”
His friend nods. “Yeah. You should come watch.”
You don’t respond to the invitation, only shifting your gaze back to Seungmin. He holds your stare, still trying to figure you out.
“Good luck on Thursday then,” you say, then turn on your heel and walk away, leaving Seungmin gripping his glove a little tighter than before.
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CHANGBIN
Moving to a new city means adjusting to a lot of new things—new house, new neighborhood, new people. And today, it means a new gym. Stepping inside, you immediately notice how much nicer it is than your old one. The air smells faintly of rubber mats and clean sweat, the low hum of machines blending with music overhead. It’s spacious, well-lit, and filled with people who look like they know exactly what they’re doing.
You have a plan for the day—an upper body workout. But first, cardio. After warming up on the treadmill, you move to the dumbbell rack, beginning your arm and back exercises. The floor-to-ceiling mirror lets you track your form, but something else catches your eye instead.
A guy—muscular in all the right places—is deadlifting nearby. He moves with precision, his arms flexing under the weight as he lifts. You were never really into overly muscular men, but something about him makes it hard not to look. There’s an intensity to him, a sharp focus, but the way he interacts with the people around him is unexpectedly warm. You watch as he ruffles a friend’s hair after they finish their set, his teasing grin completely different from his intimidating appearance. The contrast is oddly charming.
Realizing you’re staring, you quickly turn back to your own workout.
Eventually, you make your way to the pull-up bar. It’s just slightly out of reach, so you have to jump to grab onto it. You power through a set, feeling accomplished—until you realize just how high up you are. The floor feels impossibly far away, and now that your arms are burning, the thought of simply letting go seems… daunting.
A voice breaks through your thoughts. “Do you need help?”
Startled, you turn to see the same guy from earlier, standing close with an amused but kind expression. Up close, he’s even more intimidating—broad shoulders, strong arms—but his tone is light, his smile making it clear he isn’t laughing at you.
A nervous chuckle escapes you. “I, uh… I can’t get down.”
His grin widens. “I got you.” Then, almost as an afterthought, he adds, “Is it okay if I touch you?”
You nod quickly, just wanting to get your feet back on the ground. Without hesitation, he places his hands firmly on your waist, his grip secure yet gentle as he lifts you off the bar with ease. The moment your feet touch the ground, warmth rushes to your face—not just from the workout, but from the sheer embarrassment.
“Thanks,” you say, managing to meet his gaze.
“No problem,” he replies, then offers his hand. “I’m Changbin.”
You introduce yourself, still feeling slightly flustered. To your surprise, he tilts his head slightly and asks, “Need a workout partner?”
Blinking, you hesitate for only a second before nodding. “Yeah. That… that would be great.”
Changbin smiles, and just like that, your new gym—and maybe this new city—feels a whole lot better.
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LEE KNOW
Minho stands by the airport carousel, arms crossed, exhaustion weighing on him like a heavy coat. The hum of luggage wheels and distant announcements blend into white noise as he waits for his bag, his body still adjusting to the time zone shift. Just as his patience begins to thin, a presence approaches.
“Minho, can I get a sign?”
He exhales sharply through his nose, biting back a sigh. He’s not in the mood—jetlag drags at his limbs, and the last thing he wants is to entertain a fan in the middle of baggage claim. Still, he’s not rude. Without looking up, he takes the offered phone case, quickly scrawls his autograph, and hands it back.
“Can I also get a picture?” the fan asks eagerly.
Minho forces himself to cooperate, leaning in just enough to fit in the frame before straightening the second the photo is taken. The fan says something else, but Minho isn’t listening. His attention is on the conveyor belt, where a black suitcase is rolling toward him. He’s almost certain it’s his.
Before he can step forward, another figure moves past him. He instinctively reaches out, stopping you with a firm hand on the arm. “Hey, no need to be aggressive just to get my autograph.”
You blink at him, eyebrows furrowing. “Excuse me?”
Minho cocks his head, confused by your confusion. “I get it, you’re a fan, but—”
You scoff, cutting him off. “I’m not here for you. You’re in the way.”
Minho watches as you reach out, gripping the handle of the suitcase he was eyeing and pulling it off the conveyor belt. His brow furrows. Before you can roll it away, he steps in front of you.
“That’s my bag.”
You stare at him like he just spoke an alien language. “No, it’s not.”
Minho doesn’t move. “Yeah, it is.”
Annoyance flashes in your eyes as you yank your luggage away from his grip. “You’re not the only one with this kind of suitcase,” you say, then jab a finger toward the carousel.
Sure enough, another identical black suitcase rounds the corner. Minho frowns, shifting his gaze between the two bags. You huff, shooting him an unimpressed look before rolling your luggage away without another word.
Minho exhales through his nose, dragging his actual suitcase off the belt. Fine, maybe he jumped to conclusions. He blames the jetlag.
But as you walk away, he catches you glancing back at him for a brief second. He smirks, tilting his head slightly. Probably swept off by his beautiful face or his body, or maybe—just maybe—you’re secretly starstruck. The thought amuses him.
Later, when he finally gets home, tosses his bag onto his bed, and unzips it—he stares. His expression shifts from exhaustion to disbelief as neatly folded clothes that are most definitely not his greet him.
Minho exhales, tipping his head back. “You’ve got to be kidding me.”
Looks like he was right after all.
And now he has to find you.
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JEONGIN
You weave through the crowded lobby, heart pounding as you dodge people left and right. Time isn’t on your side this morning, and if you don’t make it to the elevator now, you’re going to be late. With just enough luck, you slip through the closing doors, pressing your back against the cool metal wall as you exhale a sigh of relief. Clutching your laptop close to your chest, you finally allow yourself a moment to breathe.
“Busy morning?”
The voice startles you. You blink and turn your head, realizing you’re not alone. Standing beside you is a young man with sharp yet soft features, his hands casually tucked into his pockets. He’s watching you with a small, amused smile, dimples appearing on his cheeks. His foxy eyes gleam with curiosity, and despite his casual posture, there’s an undeniable elegance in the way he carries himself.
“Yeah,” you reply, offering a polite smile in return. “Super busy. I’ve got a meeting with the new CEO today.”
The words spill out before you can stop them. Something about his relaxed energy makes you feel comfortable, and suddenly, you’re ranting about how the new CEO has been making all these changes, some of them completely unnecessary. “I mean, we get it, he wants to prove himself, but he’s probably just another nepo baby like the last guy.” You shake your head, sighing. “Sorry, I’m rambling.”
He chuckles, the corners of his eyes crinkling slightly. “No, it’s fine. Sounds like a lot to deal with.”
You nod and tilt your head, realizing you don’t recognize him. “I haven’t seen you around before. What department are you in?”
He pauses for a moment, lips pressing together in thought before answering, “Uh... the ninth floor.”
Your eyes light up. “Oh! So you’re in accounting?”
He lets out a small laugh but doesn’t confirm or deny it. Before you can question further, the elevator dings, signaling your floor.
You step out, turning back to face him with a small smile. “Good day!”
His dimpled smile grows. “Good luck with your meeting.”
An hour later, you’re seated in the conference room, prepared and waiting. Your laptop is connected, the presentation ready, the files neatly stacked in front of you. When someone announces the new CEO’s arrival, you sit up straighter, mentally preparing yourself for what’s to come.
The doors open, and in walks—
The guy from the elevator.
Your jaw nearly drops as he strides confidently into the room, exuding authority in a way that feels completely different from the easygoing person you’d met earlier. Dressed in a sleek, tailored suit, he looks effortlessly refined, his sharp features even more striking under the room’s bright lighting. His foxy eyes, once playful, now hold a commanding intensity, but the moment he spots you, his dimples make a brief reappearance.
Someone clears their throat. “Everyone, please welcome our new CEO, Yang Jeongin.”
Your stomach sinks.
Jeongin’s gaze flickers toward you again, the corner of his mouth twitching with amusement, as if he knows exactly what you’re thinking.
“Good morning, everyone.” His voice is smooth, composed. “Let’s get started, shall we?”
And just like that, you realize you’ve just ranted about your boss to your boss.
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HYUNJIN
The art exhibition hums with quiet conversations and the soft clinking of wine glasses. You weave through the gallery, taking your time to appreciate each piece, until one particular painting catches your attention. There’s something about it—the bold strokes, the interplay of colors—that keeps you rooted in place, contemplating its meaning.
“That’s one of my favorites.”
A voice beside you pulls you from your thoughts. You glance to the side and find a tall young man standing next to you, a glass of red wine in his hand. His sharp features and expressive eyes make him look like he belongs in one of these paintings himself. His beauty is striking, almost otherworldly—soft yet defined, with foxy eyes that hold a quiet intensity. The warm lighting of the gallery only accentuates the elegance of his presence, making it impossible to look away.
Thinking he’s referring to the artwork, you tilt your head and say, “Yeah… it’s a little overstated.”
He lets out a soft chuckle, the corners of his lips curling into a smile. “I was actually talking about the wine,” he says, amusement dancing in his eyes.
Your cheeks heat up as you look down at your glass. “Oh.”
“But,” he continues, “now I’m curious. Go on.”
You hesitate for a second before deciding to humor him. “Alright,” you say, shifting your focus back to the painting. “I just think it’s trying too hard to be profound. The colors are vibrant, sure, but the strokes feel… aggressive, like it’s screaming for attention.”
He hums in thought, tilting his head as he studies the piece. “I see it differently. To me, the bold strokes feel intentional, like the artist wanted to capture raw, unfiltered emotion.”
You scoff playfully. “Or maybe they were just throwing paint at the canvas and hoping for the best.”
Hyunjin gasps in mock offense. “How dare you undermine the genius of expressive art?”
You arch a brow. “You’re really defending this that hard?”
He crosses his arms, a teasing smile tugging at his lips. “Absolutely. Art is meant to evoke something in the viewer, whether that’s admiration or, in your case, extreme skepticism.”
You can’t help but laugh. “Fine, fine. I’ll admit—it does make me feel something.”
“See? That’s the magic of art,” he says with a triumphant grin.
Curious, he finally asks, “So, what brings you here tonight?”
You take a sip of your drink. “A friend invited me.” Then, you return the question, tilting your head slightly. “What about you?”
He smiles—this time, it’s sly, teasing. “I came to hear what people think about my paintings.” He nods toward the artwork in front of you. “Like that one.”
Your eyes widen, and you nearly choke on your drink. He politely suppresses a laugh, his expression full of barely contained amusement.
“I—” You clear your throat, utterly mortified. “Well, that’s… unexpected.”
He finally lets out a soft laugh and extends his hand. “Hyunjin.”
You exhale, shaking his hand with a sheepish smile. “Nice to meet you, Hyunjin.”
And just like that, what started as an art critique turns into something far more interesting.
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Synopsis: In a distant future where an app can predict your death, a retired dancer and an ambitious swimmer cross path by chance. With their final day looming, they choose to share it together, finding unexpected connection in the fleeting hours they have left. (19,5k words)
In the distant future, death isn’t a mystery. It’s an appointment.
It started with a breakthrough—an algorithm said to be so precise it could predict the exact day someone would die. Governments called it progress, a tool to manage the chaos of an overburdened planet. They named it Mortem. What they didn’t expect was how quickly the app would seep into the fabric of life.
People stopped planning for the long term. Relationships became fleeting, careers lost their permanence, and calendars filled with expiration dates. Death notifications became part of the noise—just another alert blinking alongside weather updates and dinner reservations.
But Mortem wasn’t perfect. It couldn’t tell you the when—only the day. That meant hours, minutes, or fleeting seconds could separate you from the end. For some, it was a mercy. For others, a torment.
Tonight, the city pulses with quiet tension, as it always does. Neon lights flicker against a backdrop of endless skyscrapers, their glass walls reflecting a future built on progress and control. Somewhere, phones buzz softly, notifying their owners of an unchangeable truth: Tomorrow is your last day.
For those who receive the message, there are choices to make. Will they cling to the comforts of routine, pretending the day ahead is like any other? Or will they seek something different—a chance to hold onto life for just a little longer?
Two strangers will soon find themselves asking that same question. Their lives have never crossed before, but by the time tomorrow ends, they will have shared something no one else can understand.
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5:00 a.m.
The alarm pierces the early morning silence, jolting Hwang Hyunjin awake. With practiced ease, he silences it, sitting on the edge of his bed as he stretches his long arms. His back arches slightly, muscles awakening as he bends forward to gather his thoughts.
The world outside is still cloaked in darkness, but Hyunjin is already lacing up his running shoes. A quick double knot secures them before he presses play on his playlist, music flooding his ears and sharpening his focus.
The crisp, cool morning air greets him as he steps outside. It stings against his skin, but he welcomes it, inhaling deeply as he begins to run. His strides are steady, powerful, each one cutting against the wind. His long, dark hair bounces with the rhythm of his movement, dampened slightly by the early morning mist.
After completing his route, Hyunjin stops by his favorite bakery, where the warm aroma of freshly baked bread envelops him. He orders his usual: a selection of warm pastries and a steaming cup of coffee to go. Back at his apartment, he settles by the window, the city stirring to life beyond the glass. He takes slow bites of his breakfast, sipping his coffee as the first golden rays of sunlight paint the skyline.
It’s moments like this, quiet and unassuming, that he treasures most. They remind him of the beauty in simplicity, grounding him before the demands of the day.
By ten o’clock, Hyunjin arrives at the training center, his focus razor-sharp. He begins with a grueling gym session, pushing his limits to strengthen his arms and back. The burn in his muscles is a familiar companion, one he embraces with resolve. Sweat drips down his chin as he finishes his final set, his determination unwavering.
But this is only the beginning.
Hyunjin steps into the aquatic center, the sharp scent of chlorine filling his lungs. In the locker room, he changes into a sleek pair of swimming briefs.
"How are you feeling, my man?" A friendly pat on his back pulls him from his thoughts.
"Excellent," he replies confidently, catching his reflection in the mirror as he adjusts his swim cap. His friend's grin widens, sensing the energy radiating off him.
"What's your current record?"
"For the 100 or the 200 medley?" Hyunjin asks, slipping the last strands of his hair beneath the cap."You know which one I'm asking."
"47.12." A proud smile curves his lips.
"Bet you can take it to 46 today," his friend challenges, tossing his shoes into his locker.
The words hang in the air, lighting a spark in Hyunjin. He doesn’t need the push—he’s already determined—but the encouragement fuels his fire.
Hyunjin steps onto the pool deck, his reflection shimmering on the surface of the water. Memories of his younger self flicker in his mind, the boy who first discovered the joy of being in the water. Back then, it felt like another world—quiet, weightless, serene.
That love hasn’t faded.
He dips a hand into the pool, splashing the cold water onto the back of his neck. It’s a small ritual, an anchor before the dive. His goggles are snug against his face, a protective barrier between him and the world above.
Hyunjin climbs onto the starting block, his heart steady, his goal clear. He holds the current record in the 100-meter freestyle, but today isn’t about records or accolades. It’s about pushing himself to the edge, chasing a version of himself he’s yet to meet.
The whistle shrieks, and Hyunjin dives.
The water welcomes him, enveloping him in its familiar embrace. Each stroke propels him forward, every kick slicing through the resistance. His body moves in perfect harmony, years of training reducing the act to instinct.
To Hyunjin, the sky isn’t the limit—it’s just the beginning. And soon, he knows, he won’t just swim among the clouds. He’ll soar beyond them.
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8:02 a.m.
The studio is quiet, save for the soft creak of polished wood beneath your bare feet. Sunlight streams through the high windows, casting long beams across the mirrored walls. You breathe in the familiar scent of resin and faintly worn leather, grounding yourself in this sacred space.
This is how you always start your mornings: alone, warming up in the quiet before the day begins. It’s a small luxury, one you’ve come to cherish in a world that feels anything but certain.
You stand in the center of the room, your reflection poised and still. Slowly, you move through the routine, arms lifting, legs extending, muscles lengthening with every step. The rhythm flows from memory—an old habit, a comfort that never falters.
Then, it happens.
A sharp ping breaks through the silence, echoing off the walls.
You freeze mid-pirouette, your balance wavering. Across the room, your phone sits on the bench, its screen lit up with a single notification. For a moment, you don’t move. It’s not unusual for your phone to chime—messages from parents, reminders for classes—but something about the sound feels heavier this time.
You exhale, lowering your arms. Whatever it is can wait. You’ve always finished what you started, and today will be no different.
You push forward, completing the warm-up with careful precision. The movements are second nature, your body carrying you through muscle memory. But there’s a weight in the air now, and with each step, your focus frays a little more.
Finally, you stop.
The studio falls silent again as you walk toward the bench. Your pulse quickens when you see the notification’s source: Mortem.
You stare at it, your breath catching in your chest. The app sits there, waiting, the message unread. Tomorrow is your last day. Is that what it will say? Or will it be another date, far off in the future?
For a moment, you consider turning away. Dancing has always been your escape, your solace. Maybe one more routine will help you clear your mind.
You step back toward the center of the studio, muscles coiled and ready to begin again. But something stops you. A voice, faint but insistent, whispers at the edge of your thoughts: Face it.
Your hands tremble as you pick up the phone. You swipe the screen, heart pounding in your ears, and open the notification.
Your eyes lock onto the date, and for a moment, everything freezes. Confusion flickers in your chest, followed by the sharp pang of disbelief. You’d told yourself you were ready for this, that the day would come eventually, but seeing it spelled out so plainly shakes you.
And then, as quickly as it came, the chaos fades. You take a deep breath, grounding yourself as you’ve done countless times before. The truth is undeniable, and no amount of fear will change it.
You’ve made your peace with death. You always knew it would come soon. And now, soon is here.
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3:25 p.m.
Dahlias.
Your mother’s favorite flowers. They stand out vividly against the muted tones of the hospital’s inpatient ward, clutched close to your chest as you make your way to her room.
It started with an ache—sharp and unrelenting—but she didn’t see a doctor until the nausea and loss of appetite became impossible to ignore. Six months ago, the diagnosis came: stage 3 pancreatic cancer. The doctor gave her six months to a year to live, and with every agonizing moment, you’ve come to understand why she wishes the end would hurry along.
But the notification she hopes for never arrives.
“Honey, I haven’t gotten my notification yet,” she mutters the moment you step into her room. Her voice is flat, a mix of irritation and resignation, as her eyes glance at the flowers in your hands.
She’s always irritable after chemo, so you don’t let her tone sting. Instead, you walk to the sink, filling a vase with water.
After the nurse checks her IV and blood pressure, you’re left alone with her. The silence isn’t new, but it feels heavier today.
“They said six months. Why am I still here?” she groans, struggling to adjust her pillow.
You hurry to help, carefully setting the vase of dahlias on the bedside table. They brighten the room immediately.
“They’re beautiful,” she finally says, softening just a little.
“I’m glad you like them,” you reply with a faint smile.
Your mother has always lived with vivacity. She wasn’t one for small dreams; she lived a thousand of them. In her teens, she wanted to be a singer. By her twenties, fashion called her, leading to an internship at a fabric shop. There, she befriended a chef who inspired her to pursue culinary arts. It was during that chapter of her life that she met a classical musician—your father.
And you.
Her dreams shifted then, morphing into family and love, and for years, she poured herself into creating a home filled with warmth. When your father passed, she found a new dream: becoming a florist. She turned it into a thriving business.
Until six months ago.
“Are you eating well?” she asks suddenly, her concern for you breaking through her fatigue.
You nod. “Yes.”
“What did you eat this morning?”
It’s a routine question, part of her new reality where food tastes like nothing. Asking you lets her imagine the flavors she misses.
“I had cranberry ciabatta from the bakery across the street,” you lie gently.
She hums contentedly, closing her eyes. “They make the perfect ciabatta.”
“Mom,” you say softly, taking her frail hand in yours.
“Yes, my darling?”
“What would you cook for your last dinner?” You smile to hold back the lump in your throat.
Her face lights up, pleased by the question. She’s always loved sharing her stories, and now they’re all she has left to give.
“For an appetizer, I’d make eggplant croquettes,” she says with a teasing grin.
“Mom, not the eggplant,” you protest, wrinkling your nose.
Her laugh is weak but genuine. “Okay, okay. How about scampi bruschetta?”
“Now that’s more like it,” you say with exaggerated approval.
She closes her eyes, envisioning her creation. “With thyme and lemon. I’d toast the ciabatta for five minutes—just enough for a crunch—and sear the shrimp with olive oil and a pinch of salt. Then sauté spring onions with thyme, lemon zest, and honey. Acacia honey.”
As she speaks, her voice gains strength, her enthusiasm igniting memories of her former self. Between recipes, she slips in anecdotes, turning her imagined last meal into a tapestry of her life.
You hang on every word because you know these stories matter. They are her, distilled into moments you’ll carry forever.
And yet, the cruel irony doesn’t escape you.
You were supposed to be the one holding her hand at the end, not the other way around. The thought pierces through your heart as you sit there, smiling at her stories. She has spent six months longing for death, only for it to come for you first.
She deserves to rest, to find peace after everything she’s endured. You would have done anything to give her that. But the universe is merciless. It has flipped the natural order, leaving her with the unbearable task of outliving her child.
The injustice of it sits heavy in your chest, threatening to choke you. How is it fair that the one who wants to die must keep fighting, while you—her child—are robbed of the chance to live?
By the time she moves to selecting drinks, her eyelids grow heavy.
“You’re sleepy, Mom,” you whisper, smoothing the duvet around her.
She nods, offering a tired smile. “I’m just a little tired these days.”
You watch her closely, memorizing every line of her face, every glimmer in her weary eyes. “You look beautiful today.”
Her smile deepens, faint but radiant. “I know.”
“You’ve always been beautiful,” you add, unable to stop yourself.
She chuckles weakly. “I look good with cancer, huh?”
You laugh softly, brushing a strand of hair from her face, committing her image to memory.
As you stand to leave, her hand clasps yours, pulling it to her chest. For a moment, it rests there, and just when you think she’s asleep, she lifts her other hand to pat your head.
“You’re a superstar,” she whispers. “I adore you so much.”
Those were her bedtime words to you as a child, and now they hit deeper, wrapping around your heart with bittersweet comfort.
In her eyes, you will always be her child, no matter how much of the world you’ve seen or what you’ve become.
As she drifts to sleep, you kiss the back of her hand, releasing it gently. You take one last look at her before leaving the room.
This isn’t goodbye. It’s not the last mother-daughter moment, either, because in life and in death, she will always be your mother.
For you, death isn’t the opposite of life. It’s simply a part of it.
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6:16 p.m.
“46.92!”
The words ring out in the humid air of the locker room as Hyunjin’s friend pats his back enthusiastically. They’re both standing under the shower, letting the day’s fatigue wash away.
“I see a gold medal in your near future,” his friend adds, grinning.
Hyunjin can’t stop the smile that creeps onto his face. The thought of victory is intoxicating, the image of standing atop the podium almost tangible. He can taste it—sweet, like honey.
“Beers? What do you think?” another teammate calls out as Hyunjin turns off his shower head.
For a moment, he’s tempted. He deserves it, doesn’t he? Breaking his personal record, getting closer to his dream—surely, a small celebration wouldn’t hurt.
But discipline pulls him back. His body is his temple, and the bread he allowed himself this morning was already a rare indulgence.
“Not tonight,” Hyunjin says, his tone polite but firm.
“Next time, then,” his friend replies easily, shrugging it off as he heads for the lockers.
The others filter out, their laughter and chatter fading down the hallway until silence envelops the space. Hyunjin is alone now, drying his damp hair with a towel. He moves methodically, packing his bag, folding his towel, tucking everything neatly into place.
When he pulls out his phone, a cluster of notifications greets him. Most are messages from his teammates—congratulations, plans for the weekend, harmless banter. He skims through them absentmindedly until one notification stops him cold.
It stands out like a blot of ink on an otherwise pristine page.
Mortem: Tomorrow is your last day.
For a moment, Hyunjin forgets to breathe. The locker room feels impossibly quiet, the white noise of the air conditioning fading into nothingness.
He reads the notification again, hoping—no, praying—that he’s misunderstood. But the words remain the same.
Hyunjin’s legs feel unsteady as he forces himself to move, his bag slipping from his shoulder as he stumbles toward the pool. He steps onto the edge, the scent of chlorine sharp in the air. The water is eerily still, reflecting the overhead lights in perfect symmetry.
He looks down at his reflection, and what he sees isn’t the confident, ambitious swimmer who broke his record earlier today.
It’s someone hollow. A boy with dreams just out of reach, crushed under the weight of a cruel truth.
His fists clench at his sides as anger rises in his chest, hot and unrelenting.
“FUCK YOU!” he screams, his voice tearing through the silence, reverberating across the chamber.
The sound ricochets off the walls, rippling across the surface of the water. His reflection distorts, breaking apart into fragments before settling again, unfamiliar and unkind.
They say death comes at the right time. A gentle visitor, arriving only when it’s supposed to.
But that’s a lie.
It doesn’t care about dreams or sacrifices. It doesn’t care that Hyunjin has spent years of his life in pursuit of one thing, pushing his body and mind to their limits.
It doesn’t care that he’s so close.
And now, when victory is within his grasp, it will take everything away.
He closes his eyes, chest heaving as he fights to steady his breathing. The rage doesn’t subside—it sits in his chest, a molten core of grief and frustration.
Hyunjin knows there’s nothing he can do to stop what’s coming. But for tonight, he lets himself curse the unfairness of it all, his voice echoing into the void until there’s nothing left but silence.
For Hyunjin, death is a thief.
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7:22 p.m.
Alcohol is never your first choice. You’re not a fan of the bitter aftertaste or the burn as it slides down your throat. But tonight, you need something to dull the ache.
Your phone lies face-up on the bar, the notification glaring at you like a cruel joke. It’s accompanied by offers—a funeral service arrangement, a hotline for counseling.
You stare at the screen, unsure how to even begin processing it all. Sadness feels too small a word for the heap of emotions weighing you down. Beneath the sorrow lies a sliver of joy at the thought of not having to endure another day. And beneath that, a fragile sense of relief that it will soon be over.
How do you explain that to anyone? How do you untangle that mess of feelings, let alone share them with a therapist?
The bartender doesn’t ask. He doesn’t need to. Your sadness is written all over your face.
An hour passes, your drink long since gone, and you finally decide to leave. The bartender approaches, not with the check but with a bottle in hand.
“Here,” he says, taking your empty glass away.
You blink at him, confused. “I’m ready to pay—”
“I’m not taking your money,” he interrupts, pouring liquid from three different bottles into a pair of shot glasses with precise movements.
It clicks belatedly in your mind—some unspoken gesture, one you wouldn’t have recognized if you didn’t spend most of your nights at home.
“May I ask what this is?” you say, eyeing the amber liquid as he slides the shot glass toward you.
“The Three Wise Men,” he says with a faint smile.
“And who are they?”
“Johnnie Walker, Jim Beam, and Jack Daniels,” he explains, gesturing to the bottles on the counter.
“Ah...” A small laugh escapes you. “Very wise indeed.”
He lifts his shot glass, holding it up in a silent toast. “Ready?”
You hesitate, your hand wrapping around the glass. “Any tips for this?”
“Don’t think. Just swallow.”
You nod, mirroring his stance.
“To the three wise men,” he says.
“To the three wise men,” you repeat, exhaling before tipping the shot back. The liquid burns all the way down, leaving a warmth in its wake.
“Whoo...” the bartender exhales, slamming his glass upside down on the counter.
You mimic him, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand. “That was…” You pause, laughing nervously. “…something.”
He chuckles, leaning on the counter as his gaze sweeps the bar. “They say you’re either living to die or dying to live.”
The room feels quieter for a moment as his words settle.
He sighs, his voice softening. “But you know what? I only pity the living.”
The statement strikes you in a way you can’t quite articulate. You don’t want to die, not really. But the thought of living, with all its weight, feels far worse.
“Another round?” he offers, holding up one of the bottles.
You shake your head. “No, thank you. I haven’t eaten dinner, so I don’t think that’s… wise.”
“See? You learned from these men,” he teases, capping the bottle with a grin.
You pull out your wallet, sliding a card toward him. “At least let me pay—”
He steps back, hands raised in mock surrender. “Use the money to buy yourself a nice dinner, okay?”
There’s no arguing with him, so you reluctantly tuck your card away. “Thank you,” you say softly, your voice heavier with gratitude than the words can carry.
He nods, his smile kind. “Hey, I needed that shot too.”
You rise from the stool, glancing back as you sling your bag over your shoulder. “Have a great night.”
The bartender is busy with another order, but a few steps later, his voice calls out to you.
“See you on the other side,” he says, raising a hand in farewell.
For a moment, you pause, then nod, offering a faint wave before stepping out into the night.
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7:45 p.m.
There's nowhere to go.
You’ve been walking aimlessly since leaving the bar, letting your feet lead the way. Your hands are stuffed into your jacket pockets as you stop at a crosswalk, waiting for the light to turn green. The thought of returning to your apartment, where silence lingers like an unwelcome guest, feels unbearable.
You could visit your mother again, but the idea of seeing her only to leave her forever—it's too much to handle.
There are so many things you want to do, yet none of them feel right.
The light finally turns green, and you step off the curb. But before you can take another step, something grabs your shoulders and pulls you back. A motorcycle speeds past, narrowly missing you.
Your mind goes blank. Instead of your life flashing before your eyes, everything shuts down for a moment.
"Come on!" a voice urges. A hand takes yours, pulling you across the street just as the light turns red again.
You don’t realize what just happened until you’re safely on the other side. Someone has just saved you. If they hadn’t stopped you, that motorcycle might have dragged your body halfway down the street.
You turn to look at your savior and freeze. He’s beautiful—stunning, even—and for a moment, you’re speechless.
"Are you okay?" he asks, his voice gentle but tinged with concern.
His words snap you out of your daze, and you hurriedly compose yourself. "Yeah, I’m sorry, I was—"
"No, no, it’s not your fault. That motorcycle ran the light," he interrupts, shaking his head.
Why are you apologizing? You should be thanking him. But when you look at him, the words catch in your throat, so you glance away. "Thank you… for, uh, earlier," you manage to say.
He smiles, and his eyes curve along with it, warm and genuine. But then his next words take you by surprise.
"Your death isn’t today, right? I’m pretty sure it said tomorrow."
You freeze again, alarm bells ringing in your head. How does he know that? You take a step back, suddenly wary.
Realizing he’s scared you, he raises his hands in a gesture of surrender. "I’m sorry—I should’ve explained first."
He lowers his hands and exhales before continuing, "I was in the bar earlier. I accidentally saw the notification on your phone when I was getting my drink. And then I followed you..." He grimaces. "Wait, that makes me sound like a creep."
He stops rambling and pulls his phone from his jacket pocket, tapping the screen until it lights up. He turns it toward you, revealing a notification identical to yours.
His death is tomorrow, too.
"I guess we’re doomed, huh?" he says with a shrug, his tone oddly lighthearted.
You’re at a loss for words, staring at the screen and then at him. How is it possible that someone like him—this beautiful, radiant man—is doomed?
He puts his phone away and looks at you earnestly. "I know this is sudden, and random, and... probably really weird. But do you want to have dinner with me?"
It is sudden, random, and undeniably strange. But as you look at him—this stranger who saved your life—one thought crosses your mind: What’s the worst that could happen?
You’re going to be dead in a matter of hours anyway.
"Okay," you say.
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08:10 p.m.
The two of you decide to walk to dinner, hands tucked into your jacket pockets, his adjusting his beanie every few steps. He finally breaks the silence as you pass the second block from where you met.
"I'm Hyunjin, by the way," he says.
You glance at him and give your name in return. When you expect the exchange to end, he extends his hand, and you shake it, feeling the chill of his skin against yours. His long fingers, adorned with rings, seem oddly delicate.
"Nice to meet you," he says with a small smile, pulling his hand back to adjust his beanie again.
“So... when did you get your notification?” he asks after a beat.
“This morning,” you reply, freeing your hands from your pockets now that the silence has been broken. “You?”
He tilts his head back slightly, lips pressing into a thin line. “Two hours ago.”
A strange feeling of unease stirs inside you, but he doesn’t let the conversation falter. “How do you feel about all this?”
“All this?” you echo.
He nods, waiting for your response. You search for the words, trying to name the whirlwind of emotions you’ve carried since the moment you opened that notification.
“I feel... alright, I guess.”
Hyunjin stops mid-step, turning to look at you with incredulity. “Alright?”
You shrug, unsure how to elaborate.
“You’re not angry? At all?” His tone sharpens, his brow furrowing in disbelief.
Angry? That hadn’t crossed your mind. There’s an odd peace in accepting what you can’t control, a clarity you never expected. You shake your head. “No.”
His eyes darken, and he mutters, “Well, I am.” He starts walking again, this time faster, his strides growing wide and purposeful.
“I’m livid,” he says through gritted teeth. “If death had a face, I’d punch it.”
You pick up your pace to match his, almost jogging, until he notices and abruptly halts.
“Are you okay?” he asks, his frustration dissolving into concern.
You nod, panting slightly.
He chuckles softly, his eyes crinkling into crescent moons. “Sorry, I tend to walk fast when I’m angry.”
The two of you fall into a slower, more deliberate pace, hands swinging at your sides. You want to ask what exactly makes him so angry, but before you can, he stops again.
“We’re here,” he announces, holding the door open for you.
You step inside and immediately feel out of place. The restaurant is elegant, full of people dressed to the nines. Self-consciousness creeps up your spine, and you spin around to look at him—only to bump into his chest.
“Sorry,” you mumble, looking down.
Hyunjin steadies you with a firm grip on your shoulders. “You alright?”
“Yeah,” you say quietly, stepping back to stand behind him.
“Table for two, please,” he tells the hostess.
She leads you to a table by a large window overlooking the city, the full moon casting a gentle glow over the skyline. As she places menus in front of you, Hyunjin mutters a polite thank-you, his attention already elsewhere.
You glance at him as he removes his jacket, folding it neatly over the back of his chair. He seems unbothered by the setting, completely at ease. He flips open the menu, his eyes scanning the options.
“Any ideas on what to have?” he asks, glancing up at you.
You fumble to open your menu, pretending to read it while avoiding his gaze. Finally, you lean forward and whisper, “Don’t you think we’re underdressed?”
He gasps dramatically, as if your words remind him of something crucial. Tugging off his beanie, his dark hair tumbles down, slightly damp and shiny, framing his small face. He ruffles it quickly, then shrugs.
“Steak? Pizza? Pasta?” he suggests, ignoring your question entirely.
You hesitate. When he offered to take you to dinner, you’d imagined a casual spot, maybe a pizza joint or noodle bar. Not this. And while you’re trying not to think about money, the menu’s prices make your stomach turn.
“I think we should go somewhere else,” you say quietly, your eyes darting over the options.
“Why?”
“It’s... too expensive.”
Hyunjin laughs, low and amused. “Do you think I can’t afford it?”
You shake your head frantically. “No, no, that’s not what I meant—”
“I’m kidding,” he interrupts with a grin. Leaning forward, he drops his voice to a whisper. “Honestly? I can probably only afford a plate of pasta and garlic bread.”
Your eyes widen, but his sly smile makes it clear he’s joking again.
“Good thing we’ve got the pity card,” he says, leaning back with a nonchalant shrug.
You freeze, reminded of the pity card. It’s a small perk that comes with the notification—a free pass to almost anything, covered by taxes. A gesture from the system to say, “Sorry you’re dying soon—here’s a little something.”
But the thought of using it makes your skin crawl.
“No,” you say, shaking your head firmly. “Not the pity card.”
“Why not?”
You struggle to explain. “It just... feels wrong. I don’t want their pity.”
Hyunjin raises a brow. “Who cares? We’ll be dead in a few hours.”
Before you can respond, a waiter approaches to pour water and set down a plate of bread. Hyunjin thanks them softly, then turns back to you.
“It’s not like we’re taking their pity with us to the grave,” he says, lifting his glass. “So, what do you say?”
You glance at the clock on the wall. Four hours left. Soon, none of this—money, pity, pride—will matter.
“We only die once, right?” you say, lifting your glass awkwardly.
Hyunjin laughs, his grin lighting up his face. “We only die once,” he echoes, clinking his glass against yours.
-
8:20 p.m.
You're not much of a conversationalist, so Hyunjin takes it upon himself to break the silence, his curiosity about you driving him forward. He has a myriad of questions on his mind but decides to start simple.
"May I ask what you do?"
His question makes you look up at him, and after a moment's hesitation, you place your hands under the table and answer with a sheepish smile, "I'm a ballet instructor."
The pieces click into place for him—the flowy skirt, black tights, and your hair tied neatly into a bun.
"So, you're a ballerina," Hyunjin remarks, nodding thoughtfully.
"I was," you correct him softly.
He tilts his head, his brows furrowing slightly. "Was?"
"I'm retired," you say briefly, offering another shy smile.
Hyunjin blinks in confusion. Retired? You seem far too young for that. "May I ask why?"
You adjust the cutlery in front of you, your hand steady despite the weight of your words. "I got into an accident a couple of years ago. I badly injured my leg, and the doctor insisted I stop dancing if I wanted to keep walking..." Your voice trails off, and your lips curve into a sad smile as you avert your gaze.
The weight of your story hits him. He can empathize with the sense of loss; after all, his situation is eerily similar. You had to give up your passion because of an accident, while he faces an abrupt end because of the ticking clock. Both of you are here, grappling with the unfairness of it all on what could be your final hours.
"It's like that saying," you continue, "‘Those who can, do. Those who can't, teach.’ So that’s what I’m doing now." You tuck a stray strand of hair behind your ear and flash him a reassuring smile, but Hyunjin isn’t convinced. He recognizes the facade; he’s worn it himself.
"And you're not mad about it?" he asks, fully aware he might be treading into private territory.
"I was, for a long time. But eventually, I realized there’s no point in drowning myself in anger."
This time, your smile is different—genuine, even serene. It’s as if you’ve made peace with the cruelty of life, embracing it with quiet strength. Hyunjin admires it, though he knows how hard it must’ve been for you to reach that place.
He takes a breath and shifts the conversation, sensing the need to lighten the mood. "So, you’re teaching at a dance company?"
"A dance academy," you correct him with a nod. "I teach girls between the ages of seven and sixteen."
He can picture it easily—you, guiding a room full of eager young dancers, patient and warm. You probably make their favorite teacher list without even trying.
"And what about you?" you ask, lifting your glass of water for a sip.
"I'm an athlete," he replies.
"Ah..." you murmur, intrigued. "What sport?"
"Take a guess," he says with a playful grin, leaning back in his seat.
Your laughter fills the air, and you give him a once-over, your eyes narrowing as you search for clues. After a moment of deliberation, you venture, "You’re tall and lean so... basketball?."
Hyunjin chuckles, pleased with the compliment but shakes his head. "Nope."
You purse your lips in thought. "Soccer?"
"I like soccer," he admits, leaning forward, "but that’s not it."
You groan in mock defeat, covering your face with your hands. "I’m terrible at this!"
Hyunjin laughs, finding your reaction endearing. "I’m a swimmer," he reveals.
Your eyes widen in surprise. "That’s amazing!"
"I was scouted for the national team," he says, a hint of pride in his voice. "I was supposed to compete this summer."
The realization of his words hits him mid-sentence, and the excitement drains from his face. Summer is two months away—a future he knows he won’t see.
"That’s incredible," you say gently, your empathetic smile offering comfort.
Just then, the waiter arrives with the menus, saving the atmosphere from slipping into melancholy.
"Would you like to order some wine?" the waiter asks, presenting a list.
You scan the menu and suggest, "I think I’ll have white wine."
Hyunjin glances over the options, muttering to himself, "Vanilla and peach... sounds nice."
"Viognier, sir?" the waiter recommends.
Hyunjin looks to you for approval, and your small nod seals the deal. "We’ll have that," he says.
The wine arrives alongside your meals, and the two of you fall into a rhythm of eating, sipping, and conversing between bites.
"How long have you been swimming?" you ask.
"Since I was eight," he replies, pausing to take a sip of wine.
"Wow. I didn’t even realize I wanted to be a ballerina until I was twelve," you admit.
He’s struck by how much more at ease you seem now, whether it’s the wine or simply warming up to him. "What did you want to be before that?"
"A lot of things. An astronaut, a doctor, a ventriloquist..." You pause, your cheeks flushing with a laugh. "A vampire slayer."
Hyunjin bursts into laughter, shaking his head in disbelief. "You really wanted to be everything."
"My mom broke my heart when she said I couldn’t be a vampire slayer," you say, your expression deadly serious.
"Honestly? I’d be sad too," he jokes, grinning.
You lean in, lowering your voice as if sharing a secret. "Then she told me this: ‘It’s okay if you can’t achieve your dream. You can always go back to sleep and live a new dream.’"
Your laughter carries across the table, and Hyunjin smiles faintly, though the sentiment hits too close to home. Finding a new dream is one thing—but having the time to chase it is another entirely.
You finish your meal and dab your lips with a napkin. "The academy I teach at isn’t far from here, just a few blocks away. I actually have to stop by to grab a few things."
You glance at him, your expression soft. "Do you want to come with me?"
The invitation catches him off guard, but the warmth behind it makes it impossible to refuse.
"I’d love to," Hyunjin answers, smiling. For a fleeting moment, he feels less alone in facing the inevitable—because now, at least, he has a friend.
-
09:15 p.m.
"We'd like to pay with this," Hyunjin slides his phone across the table to the waiter.
The waiter studies the screen for a moment. You can see the subtle shift in his expression as realization dawns—Hyunjin's pity card, stark proof of his limited time, is what he offers as payment. The waiter looks back at both of you, his eyes softening, probably assuming this is some kind of farewell dinner.
He forces a smile and says, "We'll process it right away."
Hyunjin raises his eyebrows at you, a small grin tugging at his lips as if to say, Here it comes.
Sure enough, the waiter, taking a step away, turns back around and says solemnly, "We're very sorry."
Both of you burst into quiet laughter, your shared amusement breaking the gravity of the moment.
"That's one!" you tease, raising your coffee cup as if to toast.
When the waiter returns with Hyunjin's phone and the bill, his demeanor is still tinged with melancholy. As Hyunjin signs, the waiter fidgets slightly, clearly wrestling with unspoken words. In the end, all he offers is another subdued, "I'm very sorry."
You glance at Hyunjin with a smirk. "Two," you whisper under your breath.
The waiter departs, but not before the lady at the till calls after you as you're leaving. "Thank you, and we're very sorry."
The moment the door closes behind you, you and Hyunjin burst into unrestrained laughter.
"A hat trick!" he says, shaking his head, his hands tucked into his jacket pockets.
As you stroll to the academy, you find yourselves critiquing the meal like professional food critics, though the details blur in your slightly tipsy haze. The wine stands out—delicious enough that you’d kept asking for refills. Thankfully, the cool evening air helps clear your head by the time you reach the academy.
You unlock the studio door, the faint scent of wood polish and faint traces of rosin welcoming you. The dim overhead lights flicker on, casting a warm glow over the polished floor and mirrored walls. Hyunjin steps inside, his eyes widening as he takes in the space.
"This is where you work?" he asks, his voice tinged with awe.
You nod. "My second home."
Hyunjin walks around the room, his footsteps echoing softly against the floor. He pauses by the ballet barre, running his fingers lightly over the smooth wood. "This place is beautiful," he murmurs.
You smile, setting your bag down. "It has its charm, doesn't it?"
His gaze falls on the wall of framed photos—groups of smiling children in costumes, candid shots of performances. "Are these your students?"
"Yes," you say, walking up beside him. "They’re the reason I still love what I do."
Hyunjin glances at you, his expression soft. "I can see why they'd love you as a teacher."
The compliment catches you off guard, and your cheeks warm. Quickly, you motion to the barre. "Want to try something?"
He raises an eyebrow, intrigued. "Are you offering to teach me ballet?"
"Why not?" you say, grinning. "You’re an athlete. It’ll be fun."
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10:25 p.m.
You stand in front of him, arms crossed, as Hyunjin tentatively grips the barre. His tall frame looks comically out of place in the elegant studio.
"Okay," you begin, stepping closer. "We’ll start with something simple—a plié."
Hyunjin looks at you skeptically. "A what?"
You laugh softly. "It’s just bending your knees. Easy."
Demonstrating, you lower yourself gracefully, your knees bending outward as your back stays straight. Hyunjin watches, nodding, and attempts to mimic you.
His execution is… not as graceful.
"No, no," you say, laughing, stepping behind him to adjust his posture. "Straighten your back. And don’t forget to keep your heels on the ground."
You place your hands lightly on his shoulders to guide him. The moment your hands touch him, he stiffens, looking up at your reflection in the mirror.
"Relax," you say softly, your gaze meeting his.
He swallows hard, his Adam’s apple bobbing, and finally eases into the position. You step around to face him, studying his form critically.
"Not bad," you tease. "But your turnout needs work."
"What’s that?" he asks, genuinely curious.
You tap his knee gently. "It’s the angle of your legs. Let me show you."
You crouch slightly, your hands brushing his calf as you adjust his stance. He watches you intently, his dark eyes following your every move. When you glance up, you find him staring.
"Something wrong?" you ask, standing upright.
He blinks and shakes his head. "No, it’s just… you’re really good at this."
You chuckle, stepping back. "It’s my job."
Encouraged by your patient coaching, Hyunjin tries another plié. It’s still a little stiff, but he manages to get through it without wobbling.
"See? You’re getting the hang of it," you say, clapping lightly.
"Don’t lie," he says, laughing.
"Okay, you’re still stiff," you admit with a grin, "but that’s expected. Ballet is all about control and precision."
Hyunjin straightens up, rolling his shoulders. "It’s harder than it looks."
"Now you understand why ballerinas are tough," you say, playfully nudging him.
He laughs, the sound light and carefree. "Okay, what’s next?"
You hesitate, considering. "Maybe a pirouette?"
"A what?"
You demonstrate the spin, moving with effortless grace. Hyunjin stares, wide-eyed.
"Yeah, no," he says, laughing nervously. "I’ll break something."
You step closer, placing a reassuring hand on his arm. "I’ll guide you. Trust me."
As you position him for the spin, your hand lingers on his waist. The closeness brings an unexpected tension between you, and for a moment, neither of you moves.
"You ready?" you ask, your voice barely above a whisper.
Hyunjin nods, his eyes locked on yours.
"Okay. One… two… three."
He spins—clumsily, of course—but the two of you dissolve into laughter as he nearly stumbles into you. You catch his arm to steady him, the laughter fading as you find yourselves standing mere inches apart.
"Not bad for your first time," you say softly, your hand still on his arm.
Hyunjin smiles, his gaze lingering on you. "Only because I had a good teacher."
-
10:55 p.m.
The quiet of the studio wraps around you like a soft blanket, interrupted only by the faint hum of the overhead lights. Hyunjin leans against the barre, watching you adjust your pointe shoes with practiced precision. The thought has been circling his mind since you both left the restaurant, but now, in this space that seems so deeply a part of you, he can’t hold back his curiosity.
“So…” he begins cautiously, his voice light but uncertain, “how did it happen?”
You pause, looking up at him with a flicker of confusion.
“I mean, your accident,” he clarifies quickly, his expression apologetic, as though he’s afraid he’s overstepped. “If it’s okay to ask.”
A faint smile touches your lips, and you straighten, leaning against the mirror. “Two years ago,” you say softly, the words feeling fragile yet certain, as if the memory lives just on the edge of your voice.
Hyunjin stays quiet, giving you space to continue.
“I was preparing for an audition—Swan Lake,” you say, your eyes shimmering with a mix of pride and pain. “I’d been working on my fouettés for weeks, trying to perfect all thirty-two of them. It was… everything to me.”
He can see it in your expression, the longing for something lost yet deeply cherished.
“The morning of the audition, I was rushing to catch the bus,” you continue, your hand gesturing lightly as though retracing steps from that day. “I was almost out the door when I realized I’d forgotten my shoes—the ones I believed would bring me luck. So, I ran back to get them.”
Your voice falters, and Hyunjin feels a pang of dread, already sensing what comes next.
“When I stepped out of my apartment building, a car came out of nowhere.”
You take a deep breath, your fingers brushing over the edge of the barre. “It wasn’t even going that fast, but the way I fell… My leg took the worst of it. Surgery, physical therapy… the usual.”
Hyunjin swallows hard, unsure what to say. “Do you… regret going back for the shoes?”
A soft, almost bitter laugh escapes you. “Every day.”
The silence that follows feels heavy and fragile, a moment suspended between reflection and grief.
“Can you dance at all now?” Hyunjin asks gently, his voice barely above a whisper, unsure if he wants to hear your answer.
You surprise him by smiling. “Why don’t I show you?”
Standing in the center of the studio, a quiet determination settles over you. The space transforms as you raise your arms, your posture suddenly regal, every movement deliberate and graceful.
“This is the introduction to Black Swan, Act III,” you say, your voice steady. “It’s what I’d prepared for the audition.”
Hyunjin nods, unable to take his eyes off you as you begin to move. You are mesmerizing, every gesture steeped in a passion he can feel even in the silence of the room. But as you transition into the fouettés, he notices the strain in your expression. Your balance falters, your leg wobbles, and before he can call out, you tumble to the floor.
“Are you okay?” Hyunjin rushes to your side, dropping to his knees as you prop yourself up on your elbows.
Instead of answering, you let out a loud, breathless laugh that echoes through the studio. You collapse back onto the polished floor, holding your stomach as the laughter spills out, unstoppable.
Hyunjin blinks, confused at first, but the sound of your laughter pulls him in. A small smile tugs at his lips. “You’re unbelievable,” he mutters, lying down beside you.
The quiet returns, the two of you staring up at the ceiling.
After a moment, you speak, your voice softer now, almost wistful. “Sometimes, I like to think there’s another me out there, one who made it to the audition, who got to live that dream.”
Hyunjin turns his head to look at you. Your expression is calm, tinged with longing but also a quiet acceptance.
“And you know what?” you continue, your voice barely above a whisper. “I’m happy for her and that’s enough for me.”
Hyunjin doesn’t know what to say, so he simply stays beside you, sharing the silence. There’s something achingly beautiful about your acceptance, the way you’ve found peace in the life you have now.
In that moment, he realizes how much strength it takes to smile at what could have been and quietly say, That’s enough.
-
11:13 p.m.
The studio falls into a comfortable silence, the kind that feels like a warm embrace. After a while, you sit up, brushing your hands over the smooth wood of the floor, and glance at Hyunjin lying beside you. He looks peaceful, almost lost in thought, but you can’t help the smile tugging at your lips as an idea forms.
“I showed you my dancing,” you say, breaking the quiet. “Now I want to see you swim.”
Hyunjin’s head turns toward you, his brows lifting slightly in surprise. “You want to see me swim?” he asks, his voice soft yet curious.
You nod, leaning back on your palms. “It’s only fair. I want to see you doing what you do best.”
For a moment, he studies you, as if trying to gauge whether you’re serious. Then, a small chuckle escapes him, and he pushes himself up to sit beside you. “Alright,” he says, a playful smile spreading across his face. “If you really want to.”
He rises to his feet effortlessly and extends a hand to you, his fingers warm and steady as they wrap around yours. With a strong tug, he pulls you up, but the motion catches you off guard, and your body stumbles forward, colliding with his.
Your breath hitches as you find yourself pressed against him, your hands instinctively landing on his chest for balance. Hyunjin’s hands settle on your waist, steadying you, and for a moment, the world feels still again—but this time, it’s charged with something unspoken.
You glance up at him, and your heart skips a beat when you notice his gaze lingering on your lips. The air feels heavier, your pulse quickening under his touch. His expression is unreadable, his eyes soft yet intense, as if caught in a moment of indecision.
Flustered, you look away quickly, stepping back to put some distance between you. “I should, um, clean out my locker first,” you say, your voice slightly rushed. “Then we can go.”
Hyunjin blinks, the spell broken, and his lips curve into a small, understanding smile. “Alright,” he replies simply, his tone easy and light, as though nothing happened.
You turn toward the studio door, your cheeks warm as you try to steady your racing thoughts. Behind you, Hyunjin’s footsteps follow quietly, his presence a steady comfort in the stillness of the room.
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11:49 p.m.
As the taxi pulls up in front of the aquatic center, Hyunjin is the first to step out. The cool night air brushes against his skin as he circles around to your side, offering his hand to help you out of the back seat. You take it with a quiet "thank you," and he smiles softly in response, his fingers lingering for a moment before he lets go.
Inside, the center is quiet, the fluorescent lights casting a pale glow over the sleek, tiled interior. Hyunjin leads the way, his footsteps echoing lightly in the stillness, but after a few steps, he notices you’re no longer beside him.
He turns around, his brows knitting together in concern. “What’s wrong?” he asks.
You hold up your phone, its screen glowing in the dim light, and his eyes fall to the numbers displayed there. It’s past midnight. The date has turned, and the realization hits him like a weight in his chest—this is it. The day has come.
“It’s today,” you say quietly, your voice steady but tinged with sadness.
Hyunjin studies your face, searching for any sign of fear. “Are you scared?” he asks softly.
You don’t answer right away, your lips curving into a sad smile instead. Then, with a steadying breath, you meet his gaze and say, “Promise me something.”
His heart tightens at your tone. “What is it?”
“If my time comes first,” you begin, your voice cracking slightly, “I want you to move on. Keep going. Finish your day, okay?”
Hyunjin’s chest tightens, his head shaking before you can even finish the thought. “No,” he says firmly, stepping closer to you. “I can’t do that. Not unless you promise me the same thing.”
You hesitate, your eyes glistening under the soft glow of the lights. After a moment, you nod, your voice a whisper. “Okay. We’ll both keep going.”
He takes your hand in his, his grip firm but comforting. “We’ll do it together,” he says, his voice steady and resolute.
You smile at him then, soft and bittersweet, and he feels his heart ache at how brave you are in this moment.
Hyunjin squeezes your hand gently and tilts his head. “So,” he says, a small smile playing on his lips, “do you still want to see me swim, or is there something else you’d rather do?”
You shake your head, a quiet laugh escaping you. “I still want to see you swim,” you insist, your determination making his heart feel lighter.
He chuckles softly, releasing your hand and motioning toward the pool. “Alright then,” he says. “Let’s make this count.”
With that, he turns and walks with you into the aquatic center, the weight of the clock pressing on both of you, but your shared promise holding it at bay for just a little longer.
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12:07 a.m.
The sharp, unmistakable scent of chlorine stings your nose as you step inside the aquatic center. The lights overhead cast shimmering reflections across the vast, still water, and you pause, taking it all in. The pool is immense, almost intimidating in its size, with the kind of quiet that feels both peaceful and eerie.
You walk to the edge, peering over cautiously. The water glimmers below, deceptively inviting, but as your gaze shifts downward, the sheer depth of the pool sends a chill through you.
“Can you swim?” Hyunjin’s voice cuts through the stillness, pulling your focus to him.
You shake your head, your lips pressing into a tight line. “No,” you admit softly. “I almost drowned once when I was ten. I’ve been afraid of swimming ever since.”
Hyunjin studies you for a moment, his expression thoughtful. Then, with a small smile, he says, “It’s not too late to learn, you know.”
You hesitate, your arms wrapping around yourself. The idea alone sends your pulse racing, the memory of water filling your lungs still too vivid in your mind. “It’s… not that easy,” you mumble, avoiding his gaze.
Hyunjin steps closer, holding out his hand to you. His voice is gentle but insistent. “Come with me. I can teach you how to swim… without the water.”
You glance at his outstretched hand, uncertainty swirling inside you. But the way he looks at you, so patient and reassuring, nudges you forward. Slowly, you nod.
“Alright,” you say, placing your hand in his.
He leads you to a smaller pool, its drained interior revealing its tiled floor. Hyunjin climbs down the ladder first, but the rungs don’t reach all the way to the bottom, and you watch as he drops the last few feet with an easy, practiced grace.
“It’s not so bad,” he calls up to you, extending his arms. “Come on. I’ll guide you down.”
You grip the ladder, your knuckles whitening as you lower yourself carefully. Hyunjin watches you closely, his gaze steady and encouraging. But as you near the bottom, your foot slips on the slick metal.
Your heart lurches as you lose your grip, your body tilting backward into the empty pool.
“Hyunjin!” you cry out, the name leaving your lips instinctively as panic seizes you.
For a split second, the world tilts and blurs, your breath catching in your throat. The feeling of falling stretches out endlessly, your chest tightening with dread. Is this it? Is this the moment everything ends?
The silence in the pool amplifies the rush of your heartbeat, drowning out everything else.
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12:15 a.m.
It all happens so fast that Hyunjin doesn’t fully register the moment until you’re lying at the bottom of the drained pool, unmoving. A jolt of fear grips him as he rushes to your side, kneeling beside you.
“Hey,” he calls softly, his voice trembling. His hand hovers over your shoulder, unsure whether to shake you or give you space. Your eyes remain closed, and there’s no reaction. For a second, his breath hitches.
Then, just as his chest tightens with panic, you let out a low whine, your hand reaching for the back of your head. Relief crashes over him so strongly that he nearly laughs out loud.
“You scared me!” he exclaims, leaning closer as he gently brushes his fingers against the back of your head to check for any injury. “Does it hurt here?”
You wince but then immediately chuckle, brushing him off. “That would’ve been such an anticlimactic death,” you joke, trying to sit up.
Hyunjin lets out a shaky laugh, torn between exasperation and amusement. “I don’t think I’d recover from that,” he mutters, helping you up. To make sure you’re okay, he holds up three fingers with a mock-serious expression. “Alright, genius. How many fingers am I holding up?”
Rolling your eyes, you swat his hand away, a grin tugging at your lips. “I’m fine, Hyunjin.”
“You sure?” He narrows his eyes, clearly still worried.
“Yes, I’m sure,” you reply, waving him off. “Now, are you going to teach me how to swim or not?”
He laughs and takes a step back, gesturing for you to follow him to the center of the empty pool. “Alright, since you’re so eager. Do you have a swimming style in mind?”
“Uh… backstroke?”
“Backstroke, huh? Fancy choice.” He teases, listing a few others—freestyle, breaststroke, butterfly—all with a playful grin. Shrugging off his hoodie and tossing it to the side, he positions himself in front of you, standing tall and confident.
“Okay,” he says, holding his arms out in front of him. “Rest your back on my arms. I’ll guide you.”
You hesitate, your brows knitting together. “I don’t know, I might be too heavy—”
“Seriously?” He rolls his eyes and interrupts you. “I’m an athlete. I’m strong enough to hold you. Just trust me.”
Still unsure, you eventually take a deep breath and lean back, letting your weight settle onto his arms. His grip is steady, firm, and reassuring.
“See? No problem,” he says, his voice soft now, coaxing you to relax. “Alright, keep your body straight, like you’re floating on water. Flap your arms back and kick your feet forward, just like this.”
You follow his guidance, mimicking the movements, and he begins to move backward, gently carrying you along. It feels so real that for a moment, you let yourself believe you’re actually swimming.
But then your focus drifts as you glance at him—his sharp features illuminated under the pool’s dim lights, the concentration in his expression, the way he looks at you like you’re the only person in the world.
He catches your gaze and quirks a brow. “What?”
Flustered, you quickly look away, and your hand smacks against the tiled wall at the end of the pool. Startled, you sit up.
“Whoa, swimmer!” Hyunjin teases, his laughter echoing in the empty pool. “If this was real, your head would’ve hit the wall instead of your hand.”
You can’t help but laugh with him, the moment so lighthearted and surreal that it temporarily pushes the looming reality of the day out of your mind.
Hyunjin chuckles as your laughter fades, his hand brushing back his damp hair. The glimmer in his eyes is playful, but there’s an undercurrent of something softer, almost protective, as he watches you sit up fully, still smiling from his teasing.
"Alright," he says, crossing his arms. "You’re not bad for someone who’s never been in the water."
You roll your eyes but can’t help grinning. “Thanks to my amazing teacher, right?”
He bows theatrically. “Obviously. Natural talent helps too, but I’ll let you take some credit.”
You shake your head, standing up as you stretch your arms. “Well,” you say with mock seriousness, “now that I’ve impressed you with my not-so-real swimming skills, it’s your turn to show me what you’ve got.”
Hyunjin straightens, his grin widening. “Oh, you want to see me swim for real?”
“Of course,” you reply, stepping aside and gesturing toward the other end of the pool. “How else am I supposed to judge if you’re actually any good?”
He smirks at your challenge, the competitive spark in his eyes lighting up. “Alright, I’ll show you,” he says confidently, already pulling his hoodie back on. “But don’t blink—you might miss how fast I am.”
You laugh, following him as he leads the way out of the drained pool, anticipation bubbling in the air between you.
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12:55 a.m.
The aquatic center feels almost otherworldly in its stillness, the faint scent of chlorine hanging in the air. When Hyunjin finally reappears, dressed in nothing but his swimming trunks, towel, and goggles in hand, it takes you by surprise. His tall, lean frame seems even more striking now, the hoodie he'd worn earlier having hidden the breadth of his shoulders and the defined lines of his physique.
You catch yourself staring, and before you can stop it, an awkward giggle slips out. Hyunjin tilts his head, confused but amused. "What?" he asks.
Shyly, you admit, "Nothing, I just— I was starting to get creeped out being here all alone when you went to change."
He chuckles softly, walking to the edge of the pool. He crouches to scoop water into his hand, splashing it onto the back of his neck before straightening up.
"I need to warm up first," he says casually. You nod, stepping back to give him space.
Hyunjin drops to the ground and starts doing push-ups, his muscles flexing with each movement. You’re mesmerized despite yourself, your gaze tracing the way his body moves with fluid strength. Feeling the heat creep up your face, you force yourself to look away just as he finishes, bouncing lightly on his feet to shake out his wrists and arms.
"Don’t blink," he says, smirking as he heads toward the pool. "I swim so fast, you might miss it."
Rolling your eyes playfully, you respond with a teasing, "I’ll try to keep up."
Hyunjin dives in, his body cutting through the water with ease. The rhythmic splashing fills the air, and you can’t help but admire him. Watching him move with such precision and grace, he looks almost otherworldly—like a god emerging from the sea as he surfaces and climbs out of the pool.
The sight of water beading on his skin makes you avert your gaze, your heart racing. Grabbing the towel he'd left behind, you hand it to him without meeting his eyes.
"What did you think?" he asks, running the towel over his hair.
"Eh, it was alright," you tease with a grin.
Hyunjin raises an eyebrow at your playful jab but chuckles, grabbing a stopwatch from his things. "Alright, critic. Let’s make it official. Time me this time."
"I don’t know if I’ll get it right," you protest, but he waves your concerns off.
"It doesn’t have to be perfect," he reassures you, securing his swimming cap and goggles. Once he’s ready, he asks, "You ready?"
You move closer to the pool’s edge, holding up the stopwatch. "Ready when you are."
Hyunjin steps onto the starting block, his form taut and focused. You start the countdown, your voice echoing slightly in the vast space. "Three... two... one!"
At the sound of "one," he dives in, and the water comes alive with his movement. Squatting down, you watch intently as he powers through the length of the pool and then back again, his speed almost unbelievable. The closer he gets to the edge, the tighter your grip on the stopwatch becomes.
When his hand finally slaps the wall, you hit the button, exhaling in relief.
Hyunjin surfaces, wiping his face. "What’s the time?"
You glance at the stopwatch, still catching your breath. "Forty-six point six-five," you announce, your voice tinged with excitement.
For a moment, Hyunjin looks puzzled, then his expression lights up. Dropping his towel, he strides over and lifts you effortlessly by the waist, spinning you around.
"Wait—did you break your record?" you ask, half-laughing and half-stunned.
He nods, grinning, but the elation fades quickly. As he sets you back down, his smile dims, his joy giving way to something more subdued.
"Hyunjin, what’s wrong?" you ask, concerned.
He shakes his head, forcing a small smile. "It’s nothing," he murmurs. Without another word, he excuses himself to wash up, leaving you alone with the faint ripples in the pool and a lingering sense that something deeper is on his mind.
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01:08 a.m.
The hot shower does little to clear Hyunjin’s mind, the cloud of thoughts stubbornly lingering as he dries off and dresses. He sighs, running a towel halfheartedly through his damp hair before giving up and heading out.
The sound of his footsteps echoes softly as he exits the changing room, and he sees you standing by the bulletin board, seemingly engrossed in its contents. At the sound of his approach, you turn, your face lighting up with a soft smile. Hyunjin feels something warm unfurl in his chest—a comfort he hadn’t expected.
“You didn’t dry your hair properly,” you tease gently, pointing to the still-dripping strands clinging to his neck.
He rubs the back of his head sheepishly, and you tilt yours thoughtfully. “How about some hot drinks after this?”
Hyunjin arches a brow, a teasing grin spreading across his face. “Hot drinks, huh? I’ve got just the thing.”
The short walk to his apartment is quiet but companionable, and when Hyunjin opens the door, he apologizes for the small, bare setup. His apartment is modest and practical—one room with everything visible at a glance—but he doesn’t seem embarrassed, just matter-of-fact.
He heads straight for the kitchen, pulling out a bottle of whiskey from a cabinet. “This is what I mean by hot drinks,” he says, smirking as he pours two glasses.
You both take a sip, and the burn of the alcohol draws simultaneous gasps. Laughing, Hyunjin suggests snacks to enjoy the drinks with and disappears back into the kitchen.
While he’s gone, your attention is drawn to a shelf lined with photos, medals, and trophies. You step closer, taking in the collection of memories. There’s Hyunjin on a podium, his face glowing with pride as he holds up a medal; Hyunjin mid-dive, captured in perfect form; Hyunjin smiling so brightly that the photo seems to radiate his joy.
When he returns, balancing a plate of snacks, he pauses beside you, his gaze falling on the same shelf. For a moment, there’s silence, just the two of you standing there, and then Hyunjin lets out a soft sigh.
Hyunjin sets everything down on the small table, but his eyes linger on the shelf filled with memorabilia. The once-vivid memories of his accomplishments now feel distant, like faded photographs of a life that no longer feels like his own.
He steps closer, his gaze tracing over the medals hanging neatly on hooks, the trophies gleaming faintly under the dim light, and the framed photos of him on various winner's podiums. He can almost hear the echo of applause, the feel of a medal being draped around his neck, the weight of victory sitting proud on his shoulders.
But the applause has long since faded, and what hangs over him now is a heavier truth: it will all become nothing.
Hyunjin swallows hard, the realization pressing against his chest like a stone. Every record he broke, every trophy he held high—soon, none of it will matter. No one will remember him or the things he did. The glory, the pride, the recognition—it will all vanish as if it never existed.
He lets out a shaky breath, his voice barely above a whisper. “All of this... it’s meaningless now. Everything I’ve done—it’s nothing. Soon, it’ll all be forgotten.”
The weight of his words fills the room, thick and suffocating. His shoulders slump as he drops his gaze, unable to meet your eyes. For a moment, he feels like the water he’s so accustomed to—a surface rippling with movement, but underneath, a deep void pulling him down.
You stand beside him, quietly taking in his anguish. Finally, you turn to him, your voice steady, a soft but unyielding anchor against the tide of his despair. “I disagree with you, Hyunjin.”
Hyunjin looks at you, surprised by your tone.
“This is... your whole life and it shows that you achieved a lot of great, wonderful things. You can see how far you've become, your triumphs and failures, everything that makes you who you are now,” you say, your eyes locking with his. “And just because the whole world doesn't know how great you are this doesn't mean it's nothing. This is not nothing, this is everything.”
He watches you intently, your words weaving through the storm of his thoughts like threads of light. For a moment, he feels the weight on his chest lift, just enough for him to draw a deeper breath.
It's true that his dream is to make a mark in the world, he wants to be remembered by the world but as he looks at you, Hyunjin realizes that it only takes one person to know what he capable of. He doesn't need the whole world to know that he's great, he only needs one that fully acknowledges him as one.
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01:22 a.m.
Hyunjin's words linger in the air, heavy with vulnerability, and for the first time since meeting him, you realize just how deeply he craves to make a mark on this world. It isn’t just about the trophies on his shelf or the accolades he’s earned—it’s about the story he wants to leave behind, the proof that he existed, that he mattered.
You see it in the way his fingers hover over the medals, in the wistful look in his eyes as they trace the photos on the shelf. For all his confidence and charisma, there’s a quiet fear beneath it all—a fear of being forgotten, of fading into obscurity when his time is up.
“Hyunjin…” you say softly, stepping closer to him. He doesn’t look at you right away, his gaze fixed on a photo of him on a podium, his smile bright but distant, like a memory that no longer feels real.
You hesitate for a moment, unsure of what to say. But then, the words spill out. “You are something and you're a fool for thinking otherwise.”
That catches his attention. He turns to look at you, his expression unreadable, and for a second, you worry you’ve said too much. But then his lips part, as if he’s about to say something, and he stops himself.
Instead, he just looks at you. Really looks at you. And in his eyes, you see something shift—a softening, a quiet acknowledgment of your words sinking in.
You feel your pulse quicken, the air between you charged with something unspoken. “And I know that we'll go into oblivion soon,” you continue, your voice steady but quiet, “but I'm still here and I know, I know how remarkable you are.”
Hyunjin’s gaze doesn’t waver, and for the first time, you see him without the walls he’s so carefully built around himself. He takes a step closer, his hand reaching out as if to steady himself—or maybe you.
“I don’t know if I can believe that yet,” he murmurs, his voice so soft it’s almost a whisper. “But… thank you.”
The way he’s looking at you now feels different—like he’s searching for something, something only you can give him. And as the silence stretches between you, you feel the weight of it shift into something warmer, something that pulls you closer to him without either of you realizing it.
When Hyunjin leans in, it isn’t sudden. It’s slow, deliberate, as if he’s giving you every chance to step back. But you don’t. You hold your ground, your breath catching as his face inches closer to yours.
And when his lips finally meet yours, it’s soft, almost hesitant, like he’s asking a question he’s too afraid to voice aloud. But as you kiss him back, the answer becomes clear. For this moment, at least, he isn’t alone.
Hyunjin pulls back slightly, his forehead resting against yours, his breath warm and uneven against your skin. His eyes flutter open, and for a moment, you both stay there, caught in the stillness of the moment. His gaze searches yours, hesitant but vulnerable, like he’s waiting for something—validation, reassurance, or maybe just the courage to believe in himself.
Before he can say anything, you lean in again, capturing his lips with yours. This kiss is different, deeper, more intentional. You pour everything you want him to know into it—all the words he needs to hear, the things you can’t quite say aloud.
You are something. You are remarkable. You are a wonder, both in the water and outside of it.
Hyunjin responds immediately, his hands sliding to your waist, holding you like you’re the anchor he didn’t realize he needed. You can feel the way his lips tremble slightly against yours, the way his touch tightens just enough to keep you close but not trap you.
Through the kisses, you try to tell him everything you feel. That his achievements aren’t meaningless. That his existence isn’t something that will fade into nothingness. That even in the face of the inevitable, he has already left a mark—on you, on the world, on everyone lucky enough to know him.
His hands move to cradle your face, his thumbs brushing against your cheeks as if grounding himself in this moment, in you. His lips press harder against yours, the kiss turning fervent, desperate, as though he’s trying to absorb every ounce of comfort and affirmation you’re giving him.
You can feel the tension in his body begin to melt away, replaced by something softer, something more vulnerable. The world outside fades, leaving only the two of you in this small, quiet space.
When you finally pull back, it’s not far—just enough to catch your breath. Hyunjin’s eyes remain closed for a moment, his expression unreadable, but when they open, they’re shining with something you can’t quite name. Gratitude, maybe. Hope.
“You’re…” he begins, his voice barely above a whisper. But he doesn’t finish. Instead, he leans in again, his lips finding yours once more, and this time, it feels like a promise.
The two of you melt into each other, the kisses growing slower but no less intense. You lose track of time, caught in the warmth and closeness, as if the weight of the world has lifted, if only for a little while. For this moment, at least, you’re both enough—just as you are.
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01:52 a.m.
Hyunjin's forehead still resting against yours, his breath warm against your lips. His fingers trail softly down your arms, and his gaze locks onto yours with an intensity that makes your heart race. There’s no hesitation now, no doubt in the way he looks at you, like he’s trying to memorize every detail, every curve, every moment.
Without a word, he cups your face, his touch both gentle and steady, as if grounding himself in you. His thumbs trace slow circles over your cheeks, and you feel your breath hitch as his lips find yours again, softer this time, yet filled with a quiet yearning.
The world around you feels muted, distant, as he leads you toward the bed. The dim light casts soft shadows, and the room seems to shrink until it holds only the two of you.
Eventually, the room falls into a soft silence, broken only by the sound of your breathing. Hyunjin’s arm wraps around you, pulling you into the curve of his body. His hand rests lightly against your waist, his thumb drawing lazy patterns on your skin.
In the stillness, he presses a lingering kiss to the crown of your head. “You’re remarkable too,” he murmurs, his voice low and laced with sincerity.
A small smile tugs at your lips, and you nestle closer to him, your fingers brushing against his. For the first time, the weight of the day seems to lift, leaving only this shared moment, this connection, that feels infinite despite the inevitable.
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02:59 a.m.
The early dawn filters softly through the curtains, casting a bluish glow over the room as you lay next to Hyunjin, your head resting on his arm while his other hand lazily traces small patterns along your back. His warmth surrounds you, and for a moment, the world feels still and quiet.
With a curious smile, you tilt your head to look up at him. “Hyunjin?” you call softly, your voice breaking the comfortable silence.
Hyunjin turns his head to the side and softly gazes into your eyes. “Yeah?”
“What would your perfect day look like?”
Hyunjin grins, a playful gleam in his eyes. “This,” he says, gesturing to the two of you tangled together under the covers. “Right here, right now. Best way to be found dead.”
You laugh and gently swat at his chest, shaking your head. “Stop saying things like that,” you scold, though the smile on your face betrays your amusement. “I want a serious answer.”
Hyunjin hums thoughtfully, his gaze drifting toward the ceiling as he considers. “Okay,” he finally says. “I’d start the day early, maybe before sunrise. I’d drive to this lake I used to visit when I was younger. It’s peaceful, surrounded by trees, and the water’s always so calm in the morning.” His voice softens as he speaks, a hint of nostalgia coloring his words. “It must be beautiful this time of year.”
You shift slightly, propping yourself up on your elbow to get a better look at him. “Is it far?”
“Not too far,” Hyunjin replies, turning his head to meet your gaze. “About two hours by car.”
A spark of determination lights up in your eyes, and you sit up, pulling the blanket with you. “Then let’s go,” you declare, your voice filled with excitement. “Let’s create a perfect day. It’s the last chance we have, so why not make it count?”
Hyunjin looks up at you, his expression softening as his lips curve into a tender smile. For a moment, he says nothing, just gazes at you like you’ve just handed him the world.
“No, let’s just stay here. It's perfect like this,” Hyunjin says with a sly grin.
You gently slap his chest and whine, hoping to put some senses into him.
Slowly, he sits up, leaning closer until his lips brush against yours in a kiss so gentle it feels like a promise. When he pulls back, his face lingers close to yours, his breath warm against your skin. “Okay. Let’s do it,” he murmurs, his voice low but steady. “Let’s go.”
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03:25 a.m.
Hyunjin is scribbling something on a piece of paper when you return, holding two bags of snacks and drinks from the convenience store. The way his brow furrows slightly in concentration catches your attention, and you pause for a moment, noticing he's using your red hairtie to tie his hair into a low ponytail and engrossed on writing something on a piece of paper.
You step closer and knock on the windshield, grinning as his head snaps up, startled. His wide eyes make you laugh, the sound light and teasing as you shake your head. He rolls his eyes in mock annoyance but leans over to push the car door open for you.
“Need help with those?” he asks, already reaching for the bags in your hands.
“Thanks,” you say, handing them over as he places them neatly in the backseat.
“Did you get everything?” he asks, glancing at the bags.
You nod. “Yep, all set.” Then, reaching into your pocket, you pull out something small and hold it up. “Oh, and this,” you add with a smile.
Hyunjin tilts his head, curious. “What’s that?”
“For you,” you say, showing him the little star-shaped pin in your hand. “Your reward for breaking your time record today.”
His expression shifts, his gaze softening as he looks at the pin. A smile spreads slowly across his face, and for a moment, he doesn’t say anything.
Without waiting, you lean in and carefully attach the pin to the lapel of his jacket. “There,” you say, stepping back slightly to admire your work. “Congratulations, Hyunjin.”
He looks down at the pin, his smile widening, and when his gaze lifts to meet yours, there’s a playful glint in his eyes. “You're not going to kiss me?” he asks, his voice teasing yet warm.
You let out a soft laugh and lean in, brushing a quick kiss against his lips. But before you can fully pull away, Hyunjin’s hand comes up to the back of your neck, and he pulls you in for another kiss—deeper, slower.
You giggle against his lips, your laughter muffled between you, and he smiles into the kiss before finally pulling back. The warmth in his gaze lingers, leaving you breathless and smiling.
“Alright,” he says, settling back into his seat and starting the car. “Shall we?”
You buckle your seatbelt, excitement bubbling up as you nod. “Ready when you are.”
Hyunjin glances at you, his own excitement mirrored in his expression. “Alright, here we go,” he says, pulling out of the parking lot, the perfect day waiting just ahead.
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04:11 a.m.
The hum of the car fills the air as you and Hyunjin drive down the winding road, the sun rising higher with each passing mile. You’re both relaxed, trading stories and laughing as a small mountain of snack wrappers begins to pile up between you. Hyunjin occasionally glances your way, his smile soft but constant, as if the moment itself feels too perfect to break.
Reaching into the bag beside you, you pull out a can of soda and hand it to him. “Here,” you say, passing it over without thinking.
Hyunjin takes it with one hand, his other still loosely gripping the steering wheel. As he shifts his attention to crack the tab open, the can slips from his fingers. The drink spills across the front of his t-shirt in an instant, cold liquid spreading like a stain across the fabric.
“Ah, shit!” Hyunjin exclaims, pulling the car slightly to the side as you grab a handful of tissues.
“Hold still,” you say, leaning over to help dab at the spill.
Hyunjin laughs, the sound tinged with embarrassment as he attempts to help, both of your hands awkwardly brushing against each other. “You’re worse at this than me,” he teases.
“Hey, it’s your fault for spilling in the first place!” you counter, trying to keep your tone light as you both focus on cleaning up the mess.
But then it happens—Hyunjin’s attention strays too long from the road, and neither of you notice the dog suddenly darting into the street.
“Hyunjin!” you scream, your voice sharp with panic as your hand instinctively shoots out to grab his arm.
His eyes snap forward, and his body reacts instantly. The tires screech against the asphalt as he slams on the brakes, the force jerking both of you against your seatbelts. The world feels as though it’s spinning for a second, the weight of the abrupt stop pressing hard against your chest.
The car comes to a halt just inches away from the small, trembling dog, its wide eyes staring at you through the windshield.
Your heart is racing, your breaths shallow and shaky as you sit frozen, staring out at the still figure on the road. Hyunjin grips the steering wheel tightly, his knuckles white as he exhales a shaky breath.
“Are you okay?” he asks, his voice low and thick with concern.
You nod numbly, your voice catching in your throat as you try to answer. “Y-yeah. Are you?”
He glances at you, his expression softening when he sees your trembling hands. “I’m fine,” he assures you, though his voice is quieter now, more careful.
The two of you sit in silence for a long moment, the sound of your racing hearts almost audible in the stillness. Then, Hyunjin glances at the dog, who scampers away unscathed, disappearing into the brush.
“I’m so sorry,” he says, his voice cracking slightly as he turns to face you fully.
You shake your head quickly, trying to reassure him. “It’s okay. It’s not your fault,” you say, though the adrenaline coursing through your veins makes your words waver.
Hyunjin’s hand hesitates for a moment before it finds yours, his fingers squeezing gently. “We’re okay,” he whispers, almost as if convincing himself.
You nod again, letting out a shaky laugh. “Yeah, we are.”
As the car slowly starts moving again, the tension lingers, but there’s a quiet understanding between you—a shared moment that feels heavier than words, as if both of you silently acknowledge how fragile this perfect day could have been.
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05:22 a.m.
The car ride is quiet now, the earlier tension still lingering in the air. Neither of you speak for a while, each lost in your thoughts as the road stretches ahead. The sun begins to crest over the horizon, its warm light spilling across the landscape, painting the morning in hues of gold and soft pink.
You reach for the window switch and roll it down, letting the cool morning breeze rush into the car. It sweeps through your hair, refreshing and light, and you close your eyes for a moment, letting the sensation calm your nerves.
When you glance over at Hyunjin, he’s already looking at you, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. You can’t help but smile back, warmth blooming in your chest despite the chill of the breeze.
“Look at the sky,” you say softly, nodding toward the view. “It’s beautiful.”
Hyunjin tears his gaze from you, his eyes following your gesture. The sky is breathtaking, streaked with the first slivers of sunlight that break through the faint morning mist.
“Yeah,” he murmurs, his voice low and reflective. “It is.”
His hand leaves the steering wheel, searching for yours. When he finds it, he laces his fingers with yours and rests them gently on his lap. His touch is warm and grounding, a silent reassurance that everything is okay now.
Hyunjin keeps his eyes on the horizon, the soft glow of the sun reflecting in his gaze. “It’s beautiful,” he repeats, but this time, his voice is heavier, almost wistful, as if he’s savoring the moment in a way he never has before.
You tighten your hold on his hand, the simple gesture conveying what words can’t. Together, you sit in the quiet, watching the morning unfold, the world outside feeling peaceful and endless as the car moves forward.
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05:40 a.m.
The car comes to a halt, and you step out into the crisp morning air. Hyunjin joins you, stretching his arms over his head with a satisfied sigh. You glance around, the scent of pine and damp earth filling your lungs as you take in the scenery.
After a short walk, the lake comes into view, and you gasp, unable to contain your amazement. The water is perfectly still, a mirror reflecting the sky and the towering trees surrounding it. The faint golden light of the morning casts everything in a dreamy glow. The trees, just beginning to turn with the season, stand like silent sentinels guarding this little piece of paradise.
“Wow,” you whisper, your voice barely audible over the soft rustling of leaves.
Hyunjin looks at you, his smile growing at your reaction. He reaches for your hand and takes it, his fingers warm and steady against yours. “Come on,” he says, leading you toward the water’s edge.
The two of you stop just where the land kisses the lake. You peer down at the water, its surface so calm it feels like stepping into a painting.
“It must be freezing,” you say, giving Hyunjin a wary glance.
He narrows his eyes playfully. “That’s what makes it perfect for a morning swim.”
You shake your head firmly, taking a step back. “No way.”
Hyunjin laughs, undeterred. “Trust me. Once you’re in, it’s not that bad.”
You laugh nervously, shaking your head again. “Hyunjin, I still can’t swim, remember?”
His expression softens, and he takes both of your hands in his. “And I told you— No worries, I’ll hold you.” His tone is earnest, his dark eyes unwavering.
Despite your protests, he’s relentless, coaxing you closer to the edge until you’re standing there, shivering slightly in your underwear. You grip his hand tightly, trying one last time to dissuade him.
“Hyunjin, I’m serious—”
Before you can finish, he sweeps you off your feet, his arms locking around your waist. You let out a startled squeal, clinging to him instinctively.
“Hyunjin, don’t you dare—”
But it’s too late. He steps into the water, pulling you with him. The cold shocks your body the second you make contact, and you scream, the sound piercing through the stillness of the lake.
Hyunjin doesn’t stop until the two of you are submerged waist-deep. You’re clinging to him for dear life, your arms wrapped tightly around his neck, your legs curling up to avoid the icy water.
“See? It’s not as bad as you think,” he says, his voice light with amusement as he looks down at you.
Your teeth are chattering, and you tighten your hold on him. “You’re right,” you say through gritted teeth. “It’s worse than I thought it would be.”
Hyunjin throws his head back and laughs, his warm breath misting in the cool air. The sound is infectious, and soon you’re laughing too, your voices echoing across the serene lake.
He then adjusts your arms around his shoulders and gives you an encouraging look. “Hold on tight,” he says, his voice warm with reassurance. You do as he says, gripping him as he begins to move through the water with ease.
The cold from earlier feels less harsh now, your body gradually adapting to the temperature. As Hyunjin swims farther from the shore, you cling to him, feeling the strength in his movements as he effortlessly cuts through the water.
“Not so bad now, huh?” he teases, glancing over his shoulder.
You roll your eyes but can’t help a small smile. “I’m still debating.”
When he slows down, you notice just how far you’ve come from the shore. The lake stretches around you, a perfect circle of serenity framed by towering trees. Hyunjin turns to face you, still holding you securely as you float together.
“Relax,” he says, his voice softer now. His hands guide you gently, helping you stay afloat. You take a deep breath and allow yourself to loosen your grip, trusting him.
The stillness of the moment washes over you as you look around. The world seems to fade away, leaving only the two of you suspended in the calm water under the open sky. The reflection of the trees and clouds ripples gently with every movement.
“Still as bad as you think?” Hyunjin asks, a playful glint in his eyes.
You shrug, pretending to be unimpressed. “It’s... alright, I guess.”
Hyunjin bursts out laughing, his joy infectious as it echoes across the lake. He leans in slightly, his arms finding their way around your waist. Before you can react, he pulls you down with him, both of you plunging beneath the surface.
The cold water shocks you as it rushes over your head, and you instinctively hold your breath. A moment later, you break the surface, gasping for air.
“Hyunjin!” you sputter, wiping water from your face. “What was that for?”
He’s already laughing, his wet hair plastered to his forehead. “You should’ve seen your face!”
You glare at him, about to launch into a scolding, but he interrupts by cupping your face in his hands and pulling you into a kiss.
Your protest dies on your lips, muffled by his. You try to hold on to your indignation, muttering complaints against his mouth, but his kiss is too warm, too insistent. Eventually, you give in, melting against him as his laughter hums through the connection.
When you finally pull away, Hyunjin grins at you, water dripping from his face. “Still want to complain?”
You shake your head, a smile tugging at your lips despite yourself. “You’re lucky I can’t swim away from you right now.”
“Exactly,” he says, leaning his forehead against yours. “That’s why I had to bring you out here.”
The water is cold, but in this moment, surrounded by the beauty of the lake and the warmth of Hyunjin’s arms, you’ve never felt more alive.
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06:21 a.m.
The sun climbs higher into the sky, warming your skin as you sit on the smooth rocks by the shore, your clothes drying slowly in the gentle breeze. Hyunjin’s jacket is draped over your shoulders, a welcome layer against the cool air still lingering from your swim. You glance at him and murmur your thanks, to which he responds with a small, warm smile.
Opening a can of soda, you take a sip, the drink now lukewarm but refreshing nonetheless. You tilt your head toward Hyunjin. “So, what’s next on your perfect day itinerary?”
Hyunjin sets his can down and grins, his eyes lighting up with boyish excitement. “There’s this diner I used to go to. It’s not too far from here. They make the best waffles.”
“Waffles, huh?” you ask, raising a brow, though his enthusiasm already has you smiling.
“They’re amazing,” he insists, his hands gesturing animatedly. “Crispy on the outside, fluffy on the inside, with this maple syrup that’s just—” He sighs in exaggerated bliss, making you laugh.
“Alright, alright,” you say, holding up your hands. “I’m sold. Waffles it is.”
Hyunjin chuckles and shifts closer, his hand reaching up to brush a damp strand of hair from your face. His touch is gentle, his fingers lingering for a moment before he tucks the strand behind your ear. Without a word, he leans in, his lips meeting yours in a kiss that’s soft and slow, like the morning sun warming your skin.
When he pulls back, his smile is tender, and it makes your heart ache. “I'm glad I met you.”
“Me too,” you say back while placing your hand on his and hold it tightly.
The sunlight hits right on Hyunjin’s eyes, making them shine as he stares at you. You know you've only known him for barely a day but Hyunjin knows things most people doesn't know about you. He knows your prefers your flowers to be red than blue, he knows your dreams you never say out loud but you secretly wish to come true and that makes you feel significant to him as he is significant to you. You believe that is how Hyunjin going to make a mark on you.
“I’m going to take one more lap around the lake before we go,” he says, his voice quiet yet certain.
You nod, but before he can move, you catch his wrist, pulling him back toward you. This time, it’s you who closes the distance, pressing a kiss to his lips. It lingers, a silent plea that feels like it’s carrying the weight of everything you can’t say aloud. You wish for more time—just one more day, one more perfect morning.
Hyunjin seems to sense it, his fingers brushing softly against your cheek as he gazes at you, a bittersweet smile tugging at his lips. He leans in to press a featherlight kiss to your lips before pulling away completely.
“Don’t worry,” he says with a wink, his voice lighter now. “I won’t take too long.”
As you watch him dive back into the water, the sunlight catching on the ripples he leaves behind, you feel a fleeting, impossible sense of forever. For this moment, at least, Hyunjin makes you believe it’s within reach.
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06:51 a.m.
The warmth of the morning sun wraps around you, its gentle rays brushing against your damp skin. The sky is alive with soft hues of gold and blue, a masterpiece unfolding before your eyes. Overhead, a flock of birds glides effortlessly, their formation cutting gracefully through the stillness. For the first time in what feels like forever, you allow yourself to marvel at it all—the simplicity, the beauty, the life you’ve taken for granted.
But the moment fractures.
You glance toward the lake, expecting to find Hyunjin slicing through the water, to hear the rhythmic splashes that have become so familiar. Instead, there is only silence. The lake mirrors the sky, undisturbed, serene, and empty.
A flicker of unease takes root in your chest. You scan the shoreline, your gaze darting to every shadow, every ripple. The stillness feels wrong now.
“Hyunjin?” you call out, your voice tentative, breaking the quiet.
No answer.
You step closer to the edge, the cool rocks pressing into your bare feet, your heart beginning to pound against your ribcage. “Hyunjin,” you try again, louder this time, but the name hangs in the air unanswered.
The warmth of the morning sun seems to mock you now, its gentle rays brushing against your damp skin as the sky stretches overhead, a canvas of soft gold and endless blue. The flock of birds that once felt like a sign of life now drifts aimlessly, their formation a cruel reminder of how fragile everything truly is.
You glance toward the lake, expecting to find him slicing through the water, his laughter echoing in the stillness. Instead, there is only silence. The lake reflects the sky perfectly, undisturbed, as if it had swallowed him whole and left no trace.
Your chest tightens. “Hyunjin?” you call out, your voice soft at first, hesitant to break the quiet.
No answer.
You step closer to the edge, the rocks digging into your bare feet as your pulse quickens. “Hyunjin,” you try again, louder this time, your voice trembling. But the name dissipates into the air, unanswered.
A flicker of unease blooms into full-blown panic. You scan the water frantically, your eyes darting across every ripple, every shadow. “This isn’t funny!” you yell, your voice rising with desperation. “If you’re hiding, just stop it and come out!”
Still nothing.
Fear grips you like a vice, and before you can stop yourself, you wade into the water. The cold seeps through your skin, biting and relentless, but you don’t care. You splash forward, the ripples spreading around you, as though trying to reach him through sheer force of will.
“Hyunjin!” you scream, your voice cracking under the weight of your fear. “Answer me!”
The water clings to you, dragging you down as if conspiring with your helplessness. You tread forward a little more, but you can’t go far. Your feet leave the ground, and you freeze, paralyzed by the sudden depth. You try to push forward, but your body resists—muscles locking up with the knowledge that you can’t swim.
Frustration and panic mix into a volatile cocktail in your chest. You slap the water with your hands, gasping for breath, tears streaming as you scream his name again.
“I can’t do this! Hyunjin!” you cry out, the words breaking apart into sobs. The lake offers no comfort, its silence an unbearable void. You flail for a moment, trying to search the surface, but every movement feels futile.
You cling to the thought of him, to his smile, his laughter, the warmth he carried with him like a shield against the world. But now, that warmth feels so far away, unreachable in the depths of the water.
“Hyunjin!” you cry again, weaker this time, the weight of your helplessness pressing down on you. You force yourself back toward the shore, stumbling onto the rocks as you collapse to your knees, breathless and shaking. “Please, don't— don't leave me”
The water stills behind you, its surface reflecting the endless morning sky. You look out at it, broken and trembling, your heart refusing to accept what your mind is beginning to believe. It can’t be over. Not like this.
“Hyunjin...”
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08:01 a.m.
The rocks beneath you feel sharp, unforgiving, but you barely notice. You sit there, knees pulled tight to your chest, your damp clothes clinging to your skin as you watch the rescue team comb through the lake. Every moment stretches painfully, the weight of silence crushing you with each passing second.
Your fingers dig into your arms as if grounding yourself can keep you from unraveling completely. Then, a shout echoes from the water. You see them—a group of rescuers—working together to pull a body from the depths.
Your breath catches in your throat.
They move with careful precision, carrying the body to shore in a black bag. You feel your body trembling uncontrollably as they approach. One of them steps forward, their expression solemn, as they lower the bag in front of you.
"Is this him?" they ask, their voice heavy with the weight of what they know must be unbearable.
You freeze, staring at the zipper of the bag, your entire being screaming to look and yet refusing at the same time. You can’t do it. You can’t see him like that.
But then your eyes catch something—a flash of red against the black. It’s your hair tie, wrapped around his wrist. You had given it to him, smiling at how absurdly adorable he’d looked wearing it. And now, it’s the confirmation you never wanted.
Your breath hitches as tears flood your vision. "It’s him," you whisper, the words breaking apart as they leave your lips.
Slowly, you reach out, your trembling hand finding his through the body bag.
With shaking fingers, you reach at the lapel of his jacket you're wearing and take off the star-shaped pin, the one you had given him just hours ago. It glints faintly in the sunlight, a small reminder of the joy he carried with him. Carefully, you place it in his palm and fold his fingers around it.
"Keep it," you say softly, tears dripping onto the bag. "It’s yours."
It’s cold—his hand is so cold it sends a shiver through you. But you hold it tight, pressing his lifeless hand to your lips. "Wait for me," you murmur, your voice cracking as the tears spill over. "I’ll see you soon, Hyunjin."
You step back as they zip the bag closed, sealing him away from you forever. The sound cuts through the air like a blade, leaving you raw and hollow.
The ambulance arrives, and they load his body inside. You stand there, watching, your hands shoved deep into the pockets of his jacket. As the vehicle pulls away, your fingers brush against something—a folded piece of paper.
Curious and aching, you pull it out and unfold it with trembling hands. It’s his handwriting, messy but unmistakably his. A list of things he wanted to do today.
Swim in the lake.
Watch the sunrise.
Have waffles for breakfast.
Visit the art gallery.
Hot cocoa at the park.
The last line reads, Buy roses for...
Your lips tremble as you remember the promise you’d made to each other—the promise to keep moving forward, no matter who went first. The memory feels like a cruel joke now, but as you stare at his words, something inside you hardens.
You swallow the lump in your throat, your voice barely above a whisper as you say to the empty air, "I’m keeping my promise, Hyunjin."
The ambulance disappears down the road, and you stand there, the morning sun casting long shadows around you. Still, you refuse to believe that Hyunjin’s gone. He is not, he just goes to sleep to live a new dream.
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09:14 a.m.
You sit in the corner booth of the diner, the same one Hyunjin had gushed about just hours ago. The waffles arrive, golden and drenched in syrup, the butter melting into small pools on the plate. You take a bite, the sweetness coating your tongue, but it tastes hollow. Your chest tightens as you remember how Hyunjin’s eyes had sparkled when he described them to you, as though they were a treasure worth crossing the world for.
Now, it feels like swallowing shards of glass.
The drive back to the city is quiet, the hum of the engine filling the void Hyunjin once occupied. His note sits folded on the passenger seat, a reminder of the day you’re piecing together without him. You glance at it at every stoplight, as if his handwriting might come alive and guide you forward.
Your next stop is the art gallery. You find his favorite painting almost instinctively, a swirling masterpiece of color and emotion. Sitting on the bench before it, you let your mind wander. You picture Hyunjin here, standing with his hands clasped behind his back, his head tilted slightly as he studied the strokes.
"Do you see how the colors bleed into each other?" he would say. "It’s chaotic but still… perfect."
The memory slices through you, and you blink away the tears that threaten to spill.
From the gallery, you walk to a nearby café, the warmth of the cup of hot cocoa in your hands doing little to soothe the chill in your heart. You sit on a bench overlooking the river, the city split in two by its calm flow. The world moves on around you—people walking their dogs, children laughing in the distance—but you’re trapped in stillness.
You think of Hyunjin, of how he was alive and laughing mere hours ago. You think of his voice, his touch, the way he could make the ordinary feel extraordinary.
And now he’s gone.
For the first time, anger stirs beneath your grief. It rises like a storm, raw and uncontrollable. You clench the cup tightly, your knuckles whitening. How could death be so cruel? How could it take someone so vibrant and leave you tethered to feelings that have nowhere to go?
"Death takes the person, but not the love," you whisper to yourself, your voice trembling. Death is so unfair.
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04:02 p.m.
The world has grown quiet around you, the buzz of the city dimmed to a distant hum as you sit alone on a park bench overlooking the river. The sun dips low in the sky, painting the water with hues of gold and amber. You clutch Hyunjin's jacket tighter around your shoulders, the scent of him still lingering faintly, a bittersweet reminder of everything you've lost—and everything you're about to gain.
The list he left behind is tucked into your pocket, crumpled and worn from your grip throughout the day. You pull it out, scanning the list. There’s only one thing left, unfinished: “Buys roses for…”
He hadn’t finished the sentence. You remember startling him as he jotted it down, and now the incomplete thought feels like a cruel echo. But you know what to do.
You find the nearest florist and step inside, the smell of flowers overwhelming you. "Roses," you tell the florist, your voice quiet but firm. "A bouquet of red roses."
They hand you the bouquet, the petals deep and vibrant, reminiscent of Hyunjin’s flushed cheeks and his soft lips. You trace a fingertip over the delicate blooms before asking for a card.
Sitting at a small table in the corner of the shop, you stare at the blank card. The weight of all you want to say crushes you, an endless stream of emotions that can’t possibly fit onto a single piece of paper.
Still, you write:
For what it’s worth, you showed me that there is such a thing as a perfect day. You made a mark on me, Hyunjin.
Your hand shakes as you finish the words. You close your eyes, taking a deep breath to steady yourself, willing the tears to stay at bay. When you’re ready, you fold the card and slip it into the bouquet.
You stand at the corner of the street, clutching the bouquet of roses close to your chest as you wait for the light to turn. The city hums around you, alive and indifferent, the world moving on as it always does. But your mind drifts elsewhere, carried away by memories.
This was the place you met Hyunjin for the first time. You can almost see him standing there, smiling like the world belonged to him. It feels like a lifetime ago, yet so vivid it could have been yesterday. You replay the moment in your mind, the way he held himself with an effortless grace, the way his eyes met yours and lingered, as if he'd been waiting for you his entire life.
The light changes, and the crowd around you begins to move. Lost in your thoughts, you follow them, stepping onto the street.
A distant sound reaches your ears—a horn blaring, tires screeching—but it feels far away, as if it belongs to another world. By the time you register the rushing car, it’s too late.
There’s no time to scream, no time to run.
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06:11 pm
The world comes back to you in fragments: the cool roughness of asphalt beneath your body, the distant murmur of voices, the sharp tang of blood in the air. Your vision swims, but when it clears, the twilight sky is the first thing you see.
It’s beautiful, painted in hues of lavender and gold, with the faintest blush of pink at the edges. The sight feels distant yet oddly comforting, like a gentle reminder of where you are—and where you’re going.
Your body is heavy, the pain a dull throb that seems to ebb and flow, fading as the seconds stretch on. You’re dimly aware of the rose petals scattered around you, spinning lazily in the air with every gust of wind. They look like they’re floating, as if gravity itself has softened its grip.
You close your eyes briefly and feel something shift inside you—a strange sense of clarity. This is it. You know it, feel it in your very bones. This is your ending.
But there’s no fear. Instead, a deep, resounding calm washes over you, carrying with it the promise of reunion. Hyunjin’s face fills your mind, vivid and bright, his laughter echoing in your ears, his touch still lingering on your skin.
You force your eyes open again, taking in the petals that now rest lightly against your arm, the faint scent of roses mingling with the cool evening air. A soft smile tugs at your lips, even as your breaths come slower, shallower.
Death is not an end, you think. It’s a reunion. It’s a promise kept. It’s my happy ending.
Somewhere in the distance, you hear sirens, but they feel like they belong to another world entirely. You’re beyond that now. Your heart slows, the pain dulls, and in its place is an overwhelming sense of peace.
The light in the sky begins to blur, stars flickering faintly above as if welcoming you home. You can almost feel him, his hand in yours, his voice calling your name like a melody you’ve always known.
Tears slip down your cheeks, but they’re not from sorrow. They’re from relief, from the quiet joy of knowing you’ll see him again, touch him again, love him again.
As the world fades, you exhale one last time, your voice barely a whisper in the wind. “I’m coming, Hyunjin.”
And then there’s nothing but light.
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Synopsis: At first, you knew Seungmin as the guy you made out with on a flight home but once the plane landed, you discovered that he's the son of your father's rival candidate for the upcoming election, causing you to be caught between love and loyalty. (10,9k words)
Some people might call it fate, serendipity, or kismet, but you're not the type to believe in romantic clichés like that, so let's just call it a coincidence.
It's merely a coincidence that the car got a flat tire on the way to the airport, causing you to miss the flight you were supposed to be on. Otherwise, you would have been sitting in seat 4B on a completely different plane next to a completely different passenger in seat 4A.
As you make your way to your seat, you notice him immediately. A young man sitting in the window seat next to yours, he possesses a rare, gentlemanly beauty. With refined features, a charming smile, and tousled dark hair, he exudes a sophisticated appeal. In other words, he’s the kind of guy who instantly catches your eye.
He glances up as you stow your bag in the overhead compartment, offering a polite nod. You take your seat next to him, trying to keep your cool even though your heart skips a beat.
There’s something about him that draws you in, something magnetic—a quiet confidence that doesn’t need to be loud or showy to be felt.
After you settle in and the plane takes off, you feel the urge to talk to him. You're usually not the type to strike up conversations with strangers, but for some reason, with him, you can't help it. Also, you realize that if you want something to happen, you have to start somewhere.
“Is this your first time flying out of here?” you ask, turning to him with a smile.
He looks at you, his lips curving into a small smile. “No, I’ve been here before, but it’s been a while," he answers, his voice smooth and calm, making something flutter in your chest.
You introduce yourself to break the ice and make interacting easier.
"Seungmin," he says, taking your hand and holding it for a moment as he introduces himself. "Traveling alone?"
"Yes," you answer innocently.
"Business or pleasure?" he asks, a playful glint in his warm brown eyes.
You stare into his eyes and faintly bite your lower lip before answering, "Hopefully, pleasure."
From there, the conversation flows effortlessly. You talk about everything—from favorite travel destinations to the books you're reading. Something about Seungmin makes it feel so natural, and before you know it, two hours have passed in the blink of an eye.
“I can’t believe we’ve been talking for hours,” you say with a low laugh, glancing out the window at the darkened sky.
The Atlantic stretches endlessly below, and the flight attendants have dimmed the cabin lights, casting a soft, intimate glow over the rows of seats.
“Time flies when the company’s good,” he says, his eyes lingering on you in a way that makes your heart race.
The space between you feels charged now, the conversation slowing as the connection deepens into something more. You can feel the pull—the undeniable attraction that’s been simmering since you sat down. Then you catch him glancing at your lips, and you know he feels it too.
Daringly, you lean in slightly, testing the waters, and he responds by shifting closer. The air between you is electric, and when his hand brushes yours, a spark shoots through you.
Both of you hesitate for a moment, caught in that intoxicating space where everything hangs in the balance until neither of you can resist any longer.
Your lips meet in a soft, tentative kiss, and the world outside the window seems to fall away. His kiss is gentle at first, cautious, testing, but when you respond, he takes it as permission to deepen it. He rests his hand on your cheek, and warmth spreads through you as his lips move against yours in a slow, intoxicating rhythm, making you forget you’re on a plane surrounded by strangers.
For those few moments, it's just you and him, lost in each other, the quiet hum of the plane fading into the background.
When you finally pull apart, breathless and dazed, you exchange a look that says everything. This isn't just some fleeting attraction. There’s something real here, something undeniable.
However, once the plane touches down and the cabin lights flicker back to life, reality begins to creep in. It's the altitude, the change in air, and the fact that you now have both feet on the ground. The intimacy of your shared moments with Seungmin starts to fade as you both prepare to disembark.
Everyone stands from their seats to gather their things, and you can feel Seungmin watching as you reach for your bag in the overhead compartment.
"So…" Seungmin begins as you both shuffle out of the row and into the aisle. "Can I get your number? Or at least, a last name?"
Your heart is still fluttering from the kiss you shared just hours ago, but you hesitate. There’s an inexplicable tug in your gut telling you not to give in so easily, to be cautious. You like him—really like him—but you're not going to make it that easy.
You flash him a playful smile. “Hmm... I’m not sure I should make it that easy for you,” you tease, shifting your bag onto your shoulder.
Seungmin raises an eyebrow, his lips curling into a half-smile. “You’re going to make me work for it?”
You nonchalantly shrug, trying to keep things light despite your racing heart. “Let’s just say I like a challenge.”
As you walk together through the terminal, the chemistry between you still crackling, you step outside and notice a car waiting at the curb. The driver, standing beside it, is holding a sign with Seungmin’s name. At first, nothing seems out of the ordinary, until you notice his jacket. The driver is wearing a dark blazer, but pinned to it is a familiar emblem—the logo of a political campaign.
Not just any campaign. It's your father’s rival’s campaign.
Your smile falters as you look more closely, and your heart drops when something clicks. You turn to Seungmin, your mind racing.
“Is that your driver?” your voice comes out sharper than you intended.
Seungmin follows your gaze, looking a bit confused. “Yeah. Why?”
Your throat suddenly feels dry. You clear it before asking the big question. “Are you from the Kim family? The same Kim family running for governor?”
"Yes," Seungmin answers, clearly puzzled.
The Kim family. The Kim family. Your father’s bitter rival in the upcoming election. This isn’t just some random guy you met on a plane—he's the son of the man your father has been railing against for weeks. You feel the blood drain from your face as the realization crashes down.
Seungmin’s expression shifts from confusion to concern. “What’s wrong?”
You unconsciously take a step back. "You’re... you’re a Kim," you say, still in disbelief.
Seungmin opens his mouth to respond, but you cut him off. "Your father and mine—they’re both running for governor."
For a moment, Seungmin seems to be processing what you’ve said. Then his face hardens slightly in understanding. You take another step back, the weight of everything pressing down on you.
“This changes everything,” you whisper.
He looks at you, his eyes searching. “No, it doesn’t have to," he says.
If only he knew how badly you wanted to believe him. But you can’t ignore the reality of the situation. Both of your families are in a brutal political war, and no matter how much you like him, getting involved with Seungmin could blow everything up—for both of you.
"How is it not? Your father accused mine of siphoning money from the city’s budget for his campaign."
"Because he did!" Seungmin says boldly.
"There’s no concrete proof!" you counter.
"Of course, because they know how to make things disappear. Your family is known for their generosity with hush money," he remarks bluntly.
You’ve never been one to argue about things that aren’t your business, but when it comes to your family, you naturally defend them.
"As opposed to your father’s blatant hypocrisy," you calmly reply. "He’s fighting the climate crisis, but his wife keeps taking private jets for her shopping trips."
You come up with a concrete data point. "According to the data, those trips contributed 58 metric tons of carbon—the same amount emitted by 4,625 cars in a day."
That seems to shut him up. His jaw clenches, and it's unfair how good he looks when he's mad.
The driver awkwardly clears his throat, glancing between you both. “Sir, we should get going. Your father’s waiting.”
"It was good to see you," Seungmin says before storming off, childishly bumping your shoulder as he passes.
"Goodbye, I guess," you mutter, scoffing in disbelief as you watch him walk away.
That concludes everything, officially making it an unpleasant coincidence.
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It was just a coincidence!
That's what Seungmin has been telling himself after spending days wrestling with his feelings, convincing himself that it doesn’t matter, that you are just a fleeting moment, a passing fancy. But the truth is undeniable: no matter how much he tries to push you out of his mind, he just can’t stop thinking about you.
When his friend mentioned that you’re living separately from your family, something shifted inside him. The tension between your families has always been an obstacle, a reason to stay away, but now it seems more like an excuse. If anything, the fact that you aren’t on good terms with your family only deepens his curiosity—and somehow, his feelings.
Seungmin hadn’t planned to find your hotel room, but once he knew where you were staying, he couldn’t help himself. And now, as he stands there, waiting for you to open the door, his heart races in anticipation despite the cool facade he tries to maintain.
After a moment, the door creaks open, and there you are—your hair slightly tousled, your expression showing slight shock to see him there. His heart leaps at the sight of you, but instead of the warmth or excitement he hoped to see, your face remains cold, indifferent.
“Are you stalking me?” your voice is cool, a little too casual, as if you haven’t been thinking about him at all.
There's no going back now, so Seungmin pushes forward. "Well, you're not that hard to track."
You lean against the doorframe, crossing your arms in front of you defensively. “You shouldn’t be here,” you say flatly.
Seungmin notices the flicker in your eyes, something you’re trying to hide. He takes a small step closer, his gaze softening, and playfully says, “Maybe."
You stare at him for a moment, your expression hard, but he sees the hesitation in the way your fingers grip the edge of the door. You’re fighting something, trying to keep a wall between the two of you. He understands why you keep your guard up so high—you’re trying to protect yourself, your heart, and maybe even protect him from the mess that is your life right now.
“You shouldn’t be... with me,” you make it even clearer, but even as you say the words, your voice wavers.
Seungmin takes another step forward, placing his hand near where yours rests. “Let me in, and we'll find out."
Your eyes soften for a brief moment before you quickly look away, the conflict clear in your expression. It’s obvious that you want to shut the door, to push him away, but something is holding you back. Maybe it's the same thing that brought him here in the first place—the connection, the spark between you that refuses to be ignored.
The conflict in your eyes only encourages Seungmin. He leans against the doorframe, his eyes never leaving yours. "Why are you staying in a hotel anyway?" he asks, his voice casual but tinged with curiosity.
You remain aloof, folding your arms across your chest as you raise an eyebrow. “Why should I let my enemy know?"
The coldness in your tone is deliberate, a shield to guard against him, against what you’re really feeling. But he doesn’t back down; his smirk only grows wider.
His hand inches closer to yours as he leans in just a bit closer, making his presence suddenly more overwhelming.
“See, that’s the thing..." his voice drops lower, with a teasing edge.
“What?” you ask, trying to keep your cool even though the proximity makes your heart race.
“We’re enemies,” he states the obvious, his gaze locking onto yours with such intensity that it sends a shiver down your spine.
You let out a sigh, already prepared for whatever line he’s about to throw at you. “And what’s your point?”
Seungmin’s smirk deepens as he leans in even closer, his face now mere inches away from yours. His voice is low and soft, almost a whisper, but filled with mischief.
“Sleeping with the enemy is hot.”
Your breath hitches slightly, but you keep your expression in check, refusing to let him see just how much his words affect you. You tilt your head a little to the side, raising an eyebrow, but the corner of your mouth betrays you with the slightest hint of a smile.
“Is that so?” you respond with a daring smirk.
Seungmin lets out a low chuckle, his eyes flickering with something dangerous and alluring, like he knows exactly how this game is going to end.
As you stand there weighing your options, the tension between you and him becomes unbearable. You can feel the electricity crackling in the air, and despite everything, you find yourself taking a step back, opening the door wider without saying a word.
Seungmin’s triumphant smile tells you that he understands your silent invitation. Without wasting another second, he steps inside, the door closing softly behind him as the world outside fades away.
Before you can even catch your breath, he’s on you—his lips crash against yours with a force that makes you dizzy. The kiss is urgent, an explosion of passion and frustration that has been building between you and him for so long.
His hands grip your waist, pulling you closer as if the mere touch of your skin isn’t enough to satisfy the hunger between you.
All the walls you’ve built, all the reasons you shouldn’t be doing this, crumble in an instant. It doesn’t matter that he’s your enemy. Right now, all that matters is the way his lips brush against yours, the way his breath mingles with yours, the way your hearts seem to beat in sync.
In that moment, nothing else exists but the two of you.
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It’s Seungmin’s third time staying over in your hotel room this week alone, and no, you're not complaining at all. You've already grown accustomed to him—Seungmin is part of your routine now, part of your life, and his absence leaves you feeling restless.
When you're not with him, you recall what he’s done to you: the way he kissed you, caressed you, all the things he's said. Your hand unconsciously flies down to your thigh, wishing he was touching you right now.
But don’t get it wrong—the non-bedroom side of Seungmin appeals to you just as much as the lover side, if not more. He makes you laugh, and he listens to you, even when what you talk about isn’t particularly interesting. He’s comfortable around you, and that makes you comfortable around him. You like how he fills the empty space in the bed, and you also like just lying with him in a comfortable silence that doesn’t beg for questions.
However, tonight is an exception.
As you lie on the bed with Seungmin, still recovering from the passionate lovemaking you shared earlier, you feel the weight of reality slowly creeping back in. The silence between you isn’t uncomfortable, but it feels heavy, as if there are things that need to be said.
You roll over slightly to face him and place your hand on his arm, fingers gently tracing the veins coiling down his inner arm. “I need to tell you something,” you murmur.
Seungmin turns his head to look at you, his gaze soft but curious. “What is it?”
You inhale deeply as you gather your thoughts, looking into his eyes as you begin with the one thing you're sure of.
“I really like you, Seungmin.”
“I know,” he says confidently, one corner of his mouth curling into a half-smirk.
You bring your hand up to cup his chin, gently scratching his jaw with your fingertips as you flash him a soft smile and continue speaking.
“What you don’t know is that my family isn’t speaking to me right now, and that’s something I’d like to change.”
“I didn’t know. I’m sorry,” he says earnestly, softly caressing your cheek.
“My family used to control me—I’m sure you know what that’s like. I rebelled, took off, and a year into it, I found out my younger sister was going through something, and I wasn’t there for her because I was trying to prove some... stupid point,” you explain with a dry chuckle.
His gaze remains steady as he listens to you without interrupting.
“I’m just trying to find my way back in, and I happened to bump into you along the way.”
“And I’m glad you did,” he says, catching your other hand in his and resting it on his chest.
You hold his chin, wanting all of his attention focused on you, because what you're about to say is the most important part of this conversation.
“Being seen with you would send the wrong message, and I really can’t risk making my family more upset right now.”
Seungmin’s eyes soften, and without the slightest hesitation, he nods in agreement. “I understand,” he says calmly.
“Don’t worry, I’m pretty good at secret relationships,” he adds with a playful smirk. “And all the sneaking around... it’s kind of thrilling. I find it really hot.”
You let out a soft laugh, suddenly feeling at ease. “Of course you do.”
Seungmin pulls you closer, gently brushing a strand of hair away from your face before placing a chaste kiss on your lips.
“We’ll keep it a secret, but I want you to know that it doesn’t change how I feel about you.”
As Seungmin presses a tender kiss to your forehead, you feel the warmth and reassurance sinking in. For now, the secret doesn’t feel like a burden—it feels like a shared world that belongs only to the two of you.
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In under a month, Seungmin learned a lot about you.
You live by routine: you get up at the same time every day, shower, and then your breakfast usually consists of a cup of black coffee and French toast. You share a kiss before parting ways, as you get picked up at the entrance of the hotel while Seungmin makes his getaway through the hotel kitchen exit.
During the day, you help your father with his campaign at headquarters, and you're back to your hotel room around 8 or 9 when you have dinner with your family.
As for your evenings, they belong to Seungmin. When the two of you aren’t fooling around like teenagers, you fill the time with late-night snacks, talking about random things, or just cuddling on the bed—things that Seungmin has never experienced with anyone before.
Day by day, he wants more of you, not less.
Tonight, you both decide to pass the time by watching something on pay-per-view. You rest your head against his shoulder while your eyes are on the large screen mounted on the wall. At times, Seungmin places a kiss on you, and it feels good having you near, as if he was made to be your lover.
From time to time, you react to certain scenes in the film, your bare legs shifting beneath the hem of your nightdress.
“Are you wearing underwear?” he jokingly asks into your ear.
You laugh, teasing him with your playful smile. The night continues with soft moments like these—gentle touches, soft kisses, and quiet laughter.
By the time the movie credits roll, you both realize the film played in the background while the two of you were wrapped up in each other. At the end of the night, you climb into bed, nuzzling your head into the crook of his neck, enveloping him with your warmth.
Seungmin brushes stray hair away from your face and trails his fingertips over the smooth curve of your lips before placing a gentle kiss with tenderness mixed with a sense of possessiveness.
“Goodnight,” he mutters softly as he breaks the kiss.
The next morning, he finds you wearing his shirt—the one from the very first night he spent with you. He doesn’t know how to describe the feeling that rushes through him seeing you in his clothes, knowing you kept his shirt and have been wearing it. All he knows is that it feels good.
Truthfully, he’s been feeling like this a lot lately—every time you smile, ask for a kiss, or cross the room just to be near him, but also when the two of you aren’t together. He has spent the past few weeks in a euphoric high, grinning for no other reason than thinking of you.
There’s no doubt about it—Seungmin is stupid in love.
-
The fundraiser party is in full swing, the lights casting a warm, polished glow over the room as it's buzzing with conversations and the clinking of glasses. You stand beside your father, perfectly poised, playing the part of the dutiful daughter.
This night isn’t about you—it’s about him. Every charming smile, every polite nod you give is an extension of the image he wants to project: a perfect family, a perfect father. But you know the truth.
As you watch your father work the room, shaking hands and making connections, you know your role is to boost his image—not because he cares about you, but because you are part of his political strategy. Still, this is your chance to prove yourself, to show him you can be the daughter he wants, even if the real connection is long gone.
Then, out of the corner of your eye, you see Seungmin and his brother-in-law approaching. Your heart skips a beat, but you hurriedly calm yourself down, knowing this isn’t the time for emotions—it’s the time for control.
Seungmin and his brother-in-law stop in front of you and your father. Seungmin’s gaze briefly meets yours for a second, and despite the public setting, the intensity of that look sends a small thrill through you.
“Good evening,” Seungmin’s brother-in-law says politely and formally. “We’re here representing our father tonight, and he sends his regards.”
Your father, ever the politician, gives a thin, practiced smile. “Ah, yes, it’s unfortunate he couldn’t attend himself. I suppose running a campaign must keep him quite busy.”
There’s a subtle edge to his words, a slight sneer that isn’t lost on you or anyone, but fortunately, Seungmin and his brother-in-law remain composed, not rising to the bait.
“Of course,” Seungmin replies calmly. “He’s doing everything he can for the campaign.”
Your father’s gaze shifts to Seungmin, sizing him up before his eyes narrow in curiosity. "Seungmin, isn’t it? I’ve heard good things about you. You’ve been quite the asset to your father’s campaign, haven’t you?”
“Oh, please. I’m just doing the best I can to help,” Seungmin humbly replies, perfectly nailing the model son role.
“It’s refreshing to see someone so dedicated to their family’s success. We could all learn from that, couldn’t we?” your father says, glancing at you, making it clear that his praise for Seungmin is a thinly veiled comparison.
You keep your composure, your smile unwavering, even as a knot of discomfort forms in your stomach. You entertain yourself with the thought that your father has no idea what is really going on—that the very man he is praising is the one you are secretly seeing. The joke is on him.
“Have you met my daughter?" your father asks, gesturing toward you as if you haven’t been standing there the whole time.
Seungmin turns to you, his expression steady, but his eyes flicker with something only you can recognize. He holds out his hand. “It’s a pleasure to meet you.”
“Likewise,” you reply, keeping your smile polite. You have to continue acting as if nothing has ever happened between you and him.
Hours pass as you mingle with other guests, but the pressure of keeping up appearances starts to weigh on you. Toward the end of the party, when most of the guests are distracted, you slip away, catching Seungmin’s eye as you do. He follows discreetly, and soon you find yourselves in an isolated part of the building, the muffled sounds of the party still audible.
The moment he comes into sight, you let out a sigh of relief, allowing yourself to drop the mask you’ve worn all night.
"I missed you," he whispers as he steps closer. Before you can respond, he presses his lips to yours, the kiss filled with longing and the tension that has been building up since your last secret meeting.
"I missed you too," you murmur between kisses.
In the dimly lit, secluded hallway, you and Seungmin find a rare moment of peace. His hands cup your face, his lips moving urgently against yours, pouring all the longing and frustration of the past few days into every kiss.
It is reckless, but being with him feels too good to resist. In fact, it feels so good that you almost forget the dark shadow that has been hanging over your mind. Almost.
"My mom found out about us," you blurt out after breaking the kiss.
Seungmin freezes, his lips barely an inch from yours, his brows furrowing as he processes what you’ve just said. "Wait... what?"
“I guess we didn’t fool the doorman,” you say with a heavy sigh as the gravity of the situation sinks in.
For a moment, Seungmin just stands there, panic rising in his chest. If your mom knows, it won’t be long before both of your families find out, and he knows exactly what that would mean for both of you—and for his father’s campaign.
“So... you told her the truth?” he asks, focusing on the possibility that your mom might indirectly support this relationship.
“Obviously, I didn’t want to risk everything with my family for some fling that wasn’t going to last,” you reply meekly.
Seungmin blinks, then his lips curl into a teasing smile. "Oh, so it isn’t just some fling?”
“Seungmin, I’m serious!" you whine in frustration, giving him a playful slap on the chest.
"You can’t keep sneaking into the hotel anymore. It’s too risky, and if my father finds out...” You can’t even finish your sentence without feeling sick to your stomach.
Seungmin’s smile fades as he realizes the danger you are both in. It feels as if the walls are closing in on both sides, and it won’t be long before someone else notices the two of you together. His mind races, trying to think of a solution, somewhere you can be together without the prying eyes of your families.
Just as he opens his mouth to say something, a voice interrupts, and both of you stiffen.
“Seungmin?”
His brother-in-law is standing a few feet away, his eyes narrowing as he glances between the two of you, catching sight of Seungmin’s hand still holding yours.
None of you speak, and in that moment, it feels like the quiet before a storm about to break.
-
Seungmin’s brother-in-law has always been sharp, and tonight is no exception. As you and Seungmin slipped out of the party, thinking you were being discreet, he spotted the two of you. From the moment you met, he sensed something was already there. He observed further, noticing the sneaky glances, the looks that said more than words, and the way you interacted with each other. He must admit, both of you are poor actors.
When his brother-in-law corners the two of you in the hallway, Seungmin braces himself, expecting him to spill everything to his father immediately, knowing what he could gain from it.
“Why aren’t you saying anything?” Seungmin asks, suspicion creeping in. He knows his brother-in-law has always been loyal to the family, especially to his father, so this calm, nonchalant reaction doesn’t add up.
Instead, his brother-in-law glances between you both with a knowing smile and says, "You two are playing a dangerous game, but you know what? I won’t stand in your way."
That doesn't make Seungmin relax. If anything, the words make him more cautious. "And why’s that? Why are you suddenly on my side?”
“Seungmin, I already think of you like my own brother,” his brother-in-law replies simply, with enough sincerity to convince anyone who hears him. “I want you to be happy."
Seungmin remains quiet for a moment, still wary, but realizing he has little choice. Whatever his brother-in-law’s motives are, this is the only lifeline he has right now.
“So, what’s the plan?” Seungmin finally asks, keeping his voice steady.
“I have a boat. It’s docked not far from here. No one checks it, no one comes by." His brother-in-law reaches into the inner pocket of his jacket and pulls out a small set of keys, handing them to Seungmin. "You two can stay there, alone, as long as you need."
Seungmin’s gaze flicks from the keys to his brother-in-law’s face, still unsure if he can fully trust him. But this is the best option you both have right now. He decides to take a leap of faith and takes the keys from him.
"It's docked on the west side, slip twenty-three," his brother-in-law informs him. Before Seungmin can say anything else, he adds, “Oh, you may want to check the first aid kit on the boat.”
Seungmin’s eyebrows knit in confusion. “What for?”
His brother-in-law puts on a mischievous grin. “Let’s just say you’ll find some essentials in there."
Seungmin’s suspicion deepens, but he doesn’t question it further. Maybe his brother-in-law is being sincere, so Seungmin stops overthinking it. On a more important note, you both need a place to hide, and this is as good as it’s going to get. He glances over at you, and with a silent agreement, you both know you have to take this opportunity, no matter the risks.
“Thanks,” Seungmin mutters, cautious but grateful. “I appreciate it.”
His brother-in-law pats him on the shoulder, giving him a reassuring nod. “Just be careful,” he says.
With that, you and Seungmin slip away into the night, heading toward the boat where, for at least one night, you can finally be alone.
-
The boat is bigger than you thought it would be, bobbing gently in the moonlit water. As you step onto the deck, you feel a sense of freedom, as if, for once, the outside world can’t reach you. You settle into the small but comfortable space, the tension between you fading into something softer, more tender.
When it’s just the two of you, you can finally let your guard down and be your authentic self. You walk up to him and slip into his arms for a warm embrace.
"It's just you and me now," you say, resting your forehead against him.
"Just you and me," he repeats, gently tilting your head with his hand on your chin, and places the gentlest kiss, treating you like a fragile piece of art.
Seungmin leads you through the cabin, the scent of saltwater and wood lingering in the air, mixing with the faint aroma of the sea breeze drifting in from the open hatch.
“This is nice,” you comment, running your fingers along the edge of a worn leather couch. “But do you think your brother-in-law keeps any food around? I’m starving.”
He lets out a soft chuckle and makes his way to the small kitchenette, opening the fridge with a creak. “Looks like frozen pizza is on the menu,” he says, pulling out the pack and showing it to you.
As Seungmin prepares the frozen pizza and tosses it into the microwave, you head to the bedroom to find something comfortable to wear. In the bathroom, you find a soft bathrobe neatly folded on the top shelf. Without a second thought, you change out of your dress and into the robe. As you tie the belt around your waist, you sigh in relief, feeling a great sense of comfort.
By the time you return, Seungmin is plating the pizza, the smell filling the small cabin. He has also found a bottle of champagne in the cabinet, the label a little worn and the drink lukewarm. Both of you eat in comfortable silence, exchanging small smiles between bites, enjoying this rare moment of normalcy.
When the food is all gone, you lean back in your seat with a contented sigh. The dinner is simple, yet it feels more special than any you’ve had before.
Being the neat person he is, Seungmin wastes no time cleaning up after dinner.
“You can clean up later,” you tell him, sipping your warm champagne.
“There’s not much to clean anyway,” he replies, taking the dirty plates back into the cabin.
Remembering what Seungmin’s brother-in-law said before you left, you decide to go on a little hunt for the first-aid kit he mentioned and see what’s inside. It doesn’t take long to find it tucked away in one of the cabinets in the control room. As you open it, you blink in surprise.
“Well, well…” you murmur, pulling out a small Ziploc bag among the usual bandages and ointments.
Seungmin raises an eyebrow when you bring it over and show him. He shakes his head, already deciding it’s a bad idea.
You shrug, holding the pack out to him with a playful smile. “Why not? Let’s live a little.”
“We shouldn’t even be touching his things,” he says, leaning back on the sun lounger.
“What are you talking about? We’ve just eaten his frozen pizza and drunk his champagne,” you remind him, settling onto his lap.
“I can buy those things back for him,” he replies, folding his hands behind his head.
“But he mentioned it, so that means he’s fine with it, right?”
He shakes his head, eyes closed, unwilling to hear more persuasion.
“Come on,” you urge, taking a rolled blunt out of the bag and rolling it between your fingers. “Just one. It’s a special night, isn’t it?”
He opens his eyes and finds himself unable to resist you when you smile so sweetly. He reaches for the blunt.
“Alright, fine," he gives in, "but just one.”
You light it and take a slow drag, letting the smoke curl lazily into the air before handing it over to him. His fingers brush against yours as he inhales, and you watch as his shoulders visibly relax.
The two of you take turns smoking, the night enveloping you in a peaceful cocoon. The quiet of the water, the gentle sway of the boat, and the faint glow of stars above make everything feel far away, as if the world and its complications couldn’t touch you here.
“I could get used to this,” you softly mutter, your voice barely louder than a whisper as you nuzzle into Seungmin’s side, sharing the sun lounger with him, the blunt hanging loosely between your fingers.
Seungmin exhales long and slow, his arm coming around your shoulders to pull you close. “Yeah, me too.”
The smoke, the sea, and the quiet lull you into a different kind of peace—an escape from everything, if only for tonight.
With one last drag, you finish the rest of the blunt yourself. You rest your head on Seungmin’s shoulder, your hand on his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his breath. For once, you don’t feel like you’re running away from something.
“I wish it could always be like this,” you murmur, more to yourself than to him. “I feel happiest when it’s just us, alone like this.”
Seungmin shifts slightly, his arm tightening around you as if he wants to hold onto this moment forever. He presses a soft kiss to the top of your head, and your heart flutters in response. He doesn’t say anything at first, just holds you closer, and you wonder if he feels the same way—that the world outside seems so distant when it’s just the two of you.
“I feel it too,” he finally says. “When it’s just us… it feels like everything makes sense. Like we’re the only two people in the world that matter.”
His words make your heart ache with a bittersweet warmth. In a moment like this, it’s easy to forget about the chaos waiting for you back home.
Here, it’s just you and him.
You stare at him, your faces merely inches apart. The moonlight casts a soft glow across his features, and God, he’s just so beautiful. His eyes meet yours, and the longer you look into them, the more you see the depth of his feelings. There’s something tender, something vulnerable—you’ve never seen him look at you like this before.
Seungmin swallows, his Adam’s apple bobbing as if he’s gathering courage. Then, in a soft yet steady voice, he says, “I love you.”
The words hang in the air, suspended between you, and for a moment, you forget how to breathe. He’s never said it before, and hearing those words now, spoken under the starry sky with the waves lapping gently against the boat, it feels… magical.
“I love you,” he repeats, his voice more certain this time, his eyes steady on yours. “I don’t care about the rest of it—our families, the politics, all of it. I love you."
Tears well up in your eyes, not from sadness, but from the overwhelming joy of hearing him say those words. You feel the sincerity in them, the weight of what it means for him to admit it, to declare it, despite everything.
You reach for him, cupping his face in your hands. Using your thumb, you softly rub his cheek. “I love you too, Seungmin, and I think I’ve loved you for longer than I can admit," your voice breaking as you try to hold back your emotions.
Seungmin leans in, closing the small distance between you, and kisses you softly, slowly, as if savoring the moment. His lips are warm against yours, and in that kiss, you feel everything: his love, his promise, his fear, and his hope.
-
Things are going well. Your relationship with Seungmin remains a secret, and the results of the pre-vote are out, revealing that your father is leading the race by an 8% margin. Everyone is happy, all is well—but you have this nagging feeling in your chest that things won’t stay like this for long. You hope it's for the better, and God, you hope that's true.
To celebrate your father leading in the pre-vote, your family holds a brunch this afternoon. Being invited to this is a significant step toward winning your way back into the family. Your little sister has taken your hand under the table, squeezing it as a sign of solidarity. She hasn’t said it out loud, but you can feel that she’s happy to have you here, part of the family again, even if only for a moment.
However, as the minutes tick by and your father doesn’t appear, a gnawing feeling settles in your chest. You try to brush it off, focusing on how far you’ve come. After all, you’re here, included, proving that you can still be the daughter your family wants you to be.
Then your mother calls you and asks you to follow her to your father’s study. She makes you sit on the leather sofa in anticipation. Her expression is soft, but there’s something behind her eyes that makes your stomach churn, and you know something is wrong before she even speaks.
“When was the last time you saw him?” she asks, her voice quiet but direct.
Your mind flashes back to that night with Seungmin on the boat. You haven’t told anyone, and as far as you know, no one has seen you. But your mother’s gaze is sharp, and she’ll know if you lie.
“I… I went on a boat with Seungmin,” you admit meekly, your voice small and low. “But we were discreet. I swear, no one saw us.”
Your mother lets out a heavy sigh, her hand going to the nape of her neck as she massages it lightly. She doesn’t say anything but takes out her phone from her tweed jacket, tapping the screen a few times before handing it to you. Your eyes widen as you look at the screen, the shock hitting you like a punch to the gut.
There on the screen are photos—compromising photos. Some show you smoking; others are more intimate, even naked. You feel the blood drain from your face. These are pictures from that night on Seungmin’s brother-in-law’s boat, now plastered across the internet.
“Mom…” you stammer, trying to make sense of it. “There was no one there except us. This can’t be happening. It wasn’t Seungmin… it couldn’t be.”
“I’m afraid you weren’t as discreet as you thought,” your mother says, her expression composed but with a grave undertone. “Your father found out about the relationship. He’s furious, and this… this could ruin everything for him.”
You feel faint and hurriedly lean against the table to steady yourself. “No… no, it can’t be. Seungmin would never—”
The idea of Seungmin betraying you is unthinkable, but the pictures don’t lie. Someone had been there, someone had taken them, and now your life is spiraling out of control.
“I don’t believe it’s him,” you insist, shaking your head in denial. “Seungmin wouldn’t do this to me. He cares about me.”
“Think about what’s best for you,” your mother says, her voice rising slightly as she struggles to keep her composure. “Whether it’s Seungmin or his family behind this, we can’t take any more risks. You need to stay away from him, at least until I can figure out what’s really going on.”
Your heart aches, torn between your love for Seungmin and the loyalty you’re still trying to prove to your family.
“I’m sending you back to your hotel,” she says in a tone that leaves no room for argument. “And you’re not to leave until I say it’s safe. Your father is already angry enough, and we can’t afford any more mistakes.”
Before you can protest, she leaves, the door clicking shut behind her, leaving you standing in the middle of the room. You want to believe in Seungmin, but now doubts plague your mind. A question gnaws at you: Is your love for Seungmin worth risking everything you have left?
-
The car ride back to the hotel is a blur of tears and shattered trust. Your chest feels heavy, the weight of betrayal pressing down on you, suffocating you.
The man you trusted, the one who held you close, is part of the very family responsible for leaking those photos. Whether Seungmin is directly involved or not doesn’t matter anymore—his family is, and that’s enough for you to push him away.
The car pulls up to the curb, and the doorman is there instantly, opening the door and offering his hand to help you out. You feel faint, your legs trembling from the emotions raging inside, but you force yourself to stand, to walk, and to keep your head up if you can.
Just as you step onto the pavement, a familiar hand grabs your arm. You stop in your tracks, your heart aching in your chest.
Seungmin. He’s there, his eyes wide with worry, as if he hadn’t expected to see you like this. And oh, the sight of him, the man you thought you could trust, brings everything crashing down.
Without thinking, you rush at him, your fists pounding against his chest in a fit of anger and betrayal.
“How could you?!” you scream through your tears, each punch that lands fueled by the pain inside. “How could you let them do this to me?!”
Seungmin doesn’t fight back. He just stands there, letting you hit him, his face filled with shock and pain as he tries to reach for you, to explain.
“It wasn’t me,” he tries to say, but the words are lost in the chaos of your emotions. “You know I’d never—”
“Stop lying!” you shout, cutting him off.
Your emotions hit their boiling point, the pain overwhelming you. “You expect me to believe you didn’t know? That this wasn’t some way to tear me apart?”
His eyes widen in disbelief, his hands reaching for you, but you slap them away. “I don’t know who’s doing this, but I would never let anyone hurt you like this. You have to believe me!”
“Believe you? After everything that’s happened? I’ve been humiliated, and you come here pretending like you had nothing to do with it?” Your voice rises with every word, and you’re too far gone, too hurt.
He tries again, stepping closer, but you shove him hard enough that he staggers backward. “I can’t even look at you right now. Get out! Get the fuck out of my face!” you scream, tears streaming down your cheeks.
Seeing you like this is painful for him, but not as painful as knowing he caused this. His hands tremble as he tries one last time to reach for you. “Please, don’t do this—let’s talk—”
Drawn by the commotion, hotel security steps in between you and him, blocking him from approaching you.
“Sir, you need to leave,” one of them says, placing a firm hand on Seungmin’s shoulder.
“Wait! Just let me talk to her!” He tries to push past them, but they hold him back, stronger.
It’s too late. You’ve already turned away, not even sparing him a last glance. He can’t bear the thought of being the cause of all this.
As the door of your hotel room clicks shut behind you, the silence fills the room, and everything comes crashing down again. This time, you don’t have anything left to fight with, so you let the pain and heartbreak consume you, sinking to the floor as tears flood your eyes.
It hits you now—you’ve pushed away the one person you thought you could trust, but everything feels broken beyond repair. It feels like you’re losing everything: your family, your trust, and the man you thought was different.
Leaning against the closed door that seals you off from the outside world, you wonder if there’s anything left to hold on to.
-
The more Seungmin thinks about it, the more certain he becomes that there is only one person who could have leaked the photos—someone who knew about the boat, someone involved. His brother-in-law.
He doesn’t waste any more time. He grabs his car keys and drives straight to his brother-in-law’s place. A storm rages in his chest, anger mixed with dread, his head full of accusations and possible answers.
When he arrives, he skips the courtesies and storms inside. He finds his brother-in-law leaning against the kitchen counter, looking surprised but not startled to see him.
“Seungmin? What’s going on?” he casually asks.
Seungmin doesn’t stop until he’s standing right in front of him, glaring into his eyes, refusing to be fooled again.
“You know damn well what’s going on. You’re the only one who knew about the boat, the only one who could’ve tipped off the paparazzi. Tell me the truth!" He slams his hand on the counter, causing a spoon resting on the edge of a bowl to clatter. "Did you leak those photos?”
His brother-in-law’s face tenses, the calm façade slipping, replaced by panic. “Look, Seungmin, before you go off—”
“Just answer me!” Seungmin urges, his voice cracking with anger. He can’t bear the thought that someone so close to him—someone he thought of as a brother—has betrayed him like this.
After an intense silence, his brother-in-law sighs and rubs his forehead. “Fine. Yes, I hired the paparazzi.”
Deep down, Seungmin knew this would be the answer, but it doesn’t stop the anger and betrayal surging through him. His hands ball into fists at his sides, his body shaking from holding back violence.
“You set us up? Why?”
His brother-in-law looks at him and licks his lips before answering, “It wasn’t just me, alright? I had permission—permission from your father.”
Seungmin could understand his brother-in-law’s motive: he wants to get on his father’s good side, to be acknowledged and approved. But his father? His own father, whom Seungmin respects and admires, someone he has helped campaign for because he believes in him?
“My father? He knew? He approved this?” Seungmin stammers, struggling to comprehend it.
“Your father’s been watching you, Seungmin. He knows about your little affair with her, and he’s not happy. So yeah, he gave the go-ahead. The idea was to expose her, make her the problem,” his brother-in-law explains, and as if he couldn’t say anything more stupid, he adds, “It’s nothing personal, just politics.”
Seungmin knocks everything off the table—plates, glass, spoon—all clattering to the floor. “You ruined her life for politics!" he shouts, hoping it’ll knock some sense into his brother-in-law’s crooked mind.
“You know how this works, Seungmin,” his brother-in-law says calmly, still leaning against the counter. “Your father is just trying to protect you.”
“Protect me? By destroying her? By ruining her reputation?” Seungmin’s jaw clenches as he fists his hands so hard his knuckles turn white.
“She’s not innocent in all of this, and you know you shouldn’t have gotten involved with her in the first place,” his brother-in-law says, his gaze piercing.
It’s betrayal upon betrayal. Seungmin’s mind is still struggling to process the fact that his father orchestrated the entire thing, using his brother-in-law to tear them apart.
Without another word, Seungmin storms out, but his brother-in-law daringly runs his mouth once more, “You’ll thank me later, Seungmin. Trust me.”
But Seungmin isn’t listening. His mind is busy planning what to do next—how to fix this, how to make things right. His number one priority is not letting his family ruin your life any further.
-
Seungmin storms into his father’s office, despite his father clearly being in the middle of an interview. His father hurriedly signals his secretary to escort the interviewer out of the room, knowing Seungmin is barely containing his anger.
The man behind the desk doesn’t flinch, already knowing why his son is there. He’s always composed and in control, but today, Seungmin isn’t going to let him keep that control.
“You set me up,” Seungmin spits, his voice sharp with betrayal. His father looks up, surprised but not shaken. “You used your own son to destroy her, to ruin her life, just because of some political rivalry?”
His father leans back in his chair, calmly putting his hands together in front of him. “It’s not about you, Seungmin. It’s about our family’s legacy. You were distracted, involved with the wrong person. I had to make sure you stayed focused on what really matters.”
“What really matters?” Seungmin’s voice shakes with disbelief and anger. “What really matters is that you took someone I care about and humiliated her! For what? Your campaign?”
“That girl was trouble,” his father remarks coldly. “She’s from a family that stands against everything we’re trying to build. You should have known better.”
“I don’t care about the politics!” Seungmin shouts, stepping closer to his father’s desk, unafraid for the first time of going against his father’s principles. “I care about her, and you—you ruined her for your own gain.”
His father stands, towering over the desk and staring intensely into his eyes. “You think you can just walk away from this? From your family? We’ve sacrificed everything for you, Seungmin. You’re going to be a part of this, whether you like it or not.”
“No, I’m not. I’m done with all of this. I’ll never be a part of this family again,” Seungmin says, shaking his head, done being a pawn in his father’s political games.
His father’s eyes darken, and a cold smirk rises at the corner of his lips. “You think this is all about one girl?” he scoffs.
“You’re naïve, Seungmin. You haven’t been in this world long enough to understand how power works. Sacrifices have to be made. And if you walk away from this family, from me, there’s more where that came from.”
Seungmin’s chest tightens with disbelief. “What do you mean by that?”
His father leans forward, his voice low and dangerous. “You think those were the only photos? There’s more from her past. I have them, and if you walk away now—if you so much as think about turning your back on this family—I will release every last one. She won’t have a life left to salvage.”
His father pulls open a drawer and takes out a file, showing Seungmin the photos he’s been keeping as a weapon. “But if you stay—if you fall in line and keep your head down until the election is over—I’ll make sure they disappear.”
Seungmin is hit with another wave of betrayal. His father had planned this all along, dangling her reputation as leverage over him. He expected manipulation, but this? This was beyond anything he could have imagined.
“You’re willing to destroy everything just for power?”
His father doesn’t flinch. “It’s not about power, Seungmin. It’s about winning. And I have won.”
-
TEN DAYS LATER.
The election is over, and his father has indeed won, but to Seungmin, it means he has nothing left to lose.
The man in front of him has torn apart the one thing that means the most to him, and for what? A title? A seat in the governor’s office?
As everyone gathers around his father, congratulating him and celebrating his victory, Seungmin can't help but wonder: does his father feel the slightest bit of disgust for what he did to achieve this win? Seungmin certainly does. He can't look at his father the same way anymore and refuses being related to him apart from sharing the same DNA.
Seungmin makes his way toward his father, and when he's close enough, he extends his hand. His father doesn't hesitate and grips it, shaking it with a triumphant smile plastered across his face.
"Are you happy now?" Seungmin asks calmly.
"Well, I've won," his father replies with a sickening smirk.
There’s not a hint of remorse on his face for what he did to his own son, which only convinces Seungmin further that he wants no part of this anymore.
"But you've lost your son," Seungmin boldly remarks, each word carrying a finality his father can’t ignore.
Without waiting for his father’s reply, Seungmin turns on his heel and walks away—from his father, his family, everything. He leaves the office behind, as if it’s already become a distant memory.
There's only one thing left to do now.
He drives straight to your father’s campaign headquarters because he doesn't know where else to start. Your family is the only one who knows where you are, and although he doubts any of them would tell him, he can’t—he mustn't—give up.
When he arrives, the place is busy with activity, but it offers a different kind of atmosphere compared to his father’s headquarters. He balls his hands into fists in determination and enters the building without hesitation.
"Apologies, sir, but the headquarters is strictly for staff only tonight," a security guard blocks him from stepping inside.
"I need to talk to someone in there," Seungmin says, hoping the guard will understand and let him through.
"Unless you’ve already made an appointment, we can't let you in, sir," the guard says firmly, crossing his arms and standing in front of the doorway.
Reluctantly, Seungmin steps back, trying to come up with a new plan. He considers waiting outside until one of your family members leaves. It’s a flawed idea, but it’s the best one he has.
Then, as if by divine intervention, your younger sister appears at the reception desk. Seungmin takes a step closer to the entrance, ignoring the guard, and does everything he can to catch her attention, even calling her by her full name.
She looks over her shoulder and, upon seeing him, her expression turns cold and defensive. She never trusted him, and Seungmin doesn’t blame her. Still, he’s desperate, and this might be his only chance to find you.
“I need to know where she is,” Seungmin says, his voice steady but pleading. “I need to see her before it’s too late.”
Your sister crosses her arms, scrutinizing him. "Why should I help you? After everything that’s happened, why should I trust you?"
His throat tightens, but he meets her gaze with unwavering sincerity. “Because I love her. I had no part in what my father did. I’d give up everything to be with her. I already have.”
There’s a long pause as your sister’s expression shifts, her defenses slowly lowering. Perhaps she sees the earnestness in his eyes, the depth of his regret, and his determination.
She turns to the receptionist, writes something down on a piece of paper, and hands it to him. “If you break her heart again, I swear to God...” she mutters, leaving the threat unfinished.
Seungmin’s heart leaps. He’s just met her, but she already feels more like family than his own ever has. “Thank you," he says, his voice full of gratitude.
“She’s leaving the country tomorrow, so you’d better hurry,” she adds, turning away before he can say anything more.
Every second becomes precious as his heart pounds with a new sense of urgency. This is it. He won’t lose you—not to his father, not to the mess his family has created. This time, nothing will stop him.
-
The country house is quiet, almost too quiet. The only sounds are the soft rustling of the trees outside and the occasional creak of the old wooden floorboards beneath your feet. The room is stifling, but it’s your thoughts that press down on you the most. You fold another shirt and tuck it into your suitcase, packing for tomorrow, planning to leave nothing behind.
It was a mistake to come back here, and you know it now. This city was once a refuge; now, it feels like a prison, a place to hide. You’ve become a liability to your family, and your father made that painfully clear when he sent you here. You were told to stay quiet, remain hidden, and leave without a trace in the morning.
There’s no future for you here anyway.
Tears prick the corners of your eyes as you zip up the suitcase. You can’t take any more of this—feeling like a pawn in a game that was never yours to play. Leaving is the only choice left. It’s for the best, even if it means abandoning everything you’ve ever known. It’s not an easy decision, but you force yourself to push through it.
Then, suddenly, there’s a knock on the door, breaking the stillness of the night.
Your heart leaps, and for a moment, you freeze. You remember your father’s warnings: Never open the door. No one is to know you’re here. Stay hidden. You take a step back, away from the door.
Another knock comes, this time more urgent.
You remain still, holding your breath, praying that whoever it is will go away. But then you hear a voice—his voice.
“Please... it’s me, Seungmin.”
Your heart races at the sound of his voice, familiar and full of emotion. You badly want to rush to the door, to throw it open and fall into his arms, but the alarm bells in your head ring louder. You can’t. You shouldn’t.
“I know you’re in there,” Seungmin says, his voice breaking between words. “I’ve been looking for you everywhere. Please... just let me in.”
You clench your fists, torn between what you know is right and the ache in your chest. You stay quiet, pressing your back against the door, fighting the overwhelming urge to respond.
"I had to find you," Seungmin continues, his voice softer now, almost desperate. “I couldn’t let you leave without seeing you. I can’t lose you—not after everything we’ve been through.”
Tears well in your eyes as you lean your forehead against the door, trying to keep your emotions in check. You shouldn’t let him in. This is a mistake—all of it—but hearing him on the other side, so close yet out of reach, is tearing you apart.
“I just want to be with you," Seungmin whispers. "I love you.”
The words break something inside you, and before you realize what you’re doing, your hand is on the doorknob. Torn between fear and love, you know you shouldn’t open the door, but your heart is aching for him. No matter how hard you try, you can’t ignore the pull you feel toward him.
“Please, don’t shut me out," he mutters, his voice thick with hopelessness.
Your walls crumble. With shaking hands, you unlock the door and pull it open, revealing Seungmin standing there, his face full of worry and relief. His eyes soften the moment they meet yours. Without a word, he steps forward and takes you into his arms.
He holds you tightly, his warmth familiar and comforting. He feels like home. Finally, you let out a breath you didn’t realize you’d been holding.
Seungmin buries his face in your hair, whispering, “I’m here. I’m not going anywhere.”
You pull back just enough to look up at him, your eyes searching his. In that moment, without thinking, you lean in and press your lips to his—a kiss full of longing and everything you’ve been holding back for so long.
In the quiet of that night, with the stars shining through the open window and the future uncertain, you know that, despite everything, being with him is the only thing that makes sense.
-
The soft glow of moonlight filters through the curtains, casting a delicate sheen across the room. Your bodies are entwined beneath the sheets, the warmth of the moment lingering between you.
Seungmin hovers above you, his chest rising and falling as he gently caresses your face, his fingertips tracing the outline of your cheek like you are something sacred. His gaze is intense but tender, as if memorizing every part of you, still unable to believe you are really here in his arms.
His touch is soft, but the weight of the emotions between you is palpable. You can feel it in the way his fingers brush over your skin. He hasn’t said much, but his eyes tell everything—relief, love, fear of what could have been if he had lost you for good.
“I almost lost you,” he murmurs, his thumb grazing your lips. You lean into his touch, savoring the feeling of being so close, so connected. “I don’t ever want to feel that again.”
You gaze up at him, your heart aching with affection. Here, in this moment, it is just you and him, and nothing else matters.
Seungmin lowers his head to place a soft kiss on your forehead, then your lips, as if sealing some unspoken promise between the two of you.
“Let’s go somewhere,” his lips brush against yours with every word. “Let's start over, somewhere far away from all of this.”
His words hang in the air. The invitation comes so suddenly that you don’t know how to react. You blink up at him, feeling a mix of emotions—hope, love, but also fear. You love him deeply, more than you thought was possible, but you don’t want him to lose everything for you the way you have for him.
“Seungmin…” you whisper, your voice barely audible as your hand comes up to cup his face. “Are you sure? I don’t want you to lose your family, not like I did.”
“I’m sure,” he says firmly, his voice filled with conviction. “This, us, it’s what I want. I want to leave all of this behind and just be with you.”
A tear rolls down your cheek as you stare into his eyes, seeing the truth in his words, the earnestness of his intentions. While it makes you indescribably happy, it also breaks your heart a little. He is giving up everything—his family, his place in their world—just to be with you. You love him more for it, but it's also a heavy burden to bear.
“You really mean that?” you ask, your voice trembling with emotion.
Seungmin nods, his forehead pressing gently against yours. “Yes. This is what I want.”
It feels like the world has finally shifted, like things are starting to fall into place. Even though the future is still uncertain, you believe in him, in the two of you together, and that's enough.
“I love you,” you whisper, pulling him down into a soft, lingering kiss. “As long as we’re together, everything’s going to be okay.”
He kisses you back, holding you tightly against him, and in that moment, everything becomes clear. This is not just a mere coincidence. This is fate. You and Seungmin, together, is fate.
-
The hum of the plane's engines is comforting, familiar, as you both settle into your seats, side by side.
The memory of that first flight together—the stolen glances, the whispered conversations—comes rushing back, but this time it feels different. This is a new beginning, a chance to start over.
Seungmin glances over at you, a playful glint filling his warm brown eyes. He shifts in his seat, turning toward you just like he had the first time.
"Hi, I’m Seungmin,” he softly says, offering his hand in mock formality, his smile full of warmth. “Traveling alone?”
You can’t help but smile back, slipping your hand into his. “Nice to meet you. And I’m traveling with someone very special, actually.”
You both chuckle, the familiarity of the moment easing the tension of everything that came before. It's like stepping into a memory but with the promise of something better ahead.
Seungmin’s eyes soften as he looks at you, and he leans in closer, his voice lowering.
“Business or pleasure?” you ask playfully, replaying the conversation that had sparked your connection all those months ago.
“Neither,” he answers, his voice gentle but certain. “I’m traveling for a happy ending.”
His words send a flutter through your chest, and you feel the warmth spread all the way to your fingertips. You look at him, your heart overflowing with emotion, knowing that this isn’t just a flight—it is a leap into the unknown, into something new and full of possibility.
You squeeze his hand, feeling the familiar warmth of his skin against yours. “A happy ending,” you repeat with a smile.
As the plane begins to taxi down the runway, he intertwines his fingers with yours, holding on tightly, unwilling to let go. You both stare out the window, watching the world fall away beneath you, your hearts beating in sync.
And as the plane lifts off, climbing higher into the sky, you know that whatever the future holds, as long as you are together, everything will be okay.
The past is behind you now, and in this moment, with Seungmin by your side, the world feels wide open, full of hope and promise. Into a happy ending, you go.
-
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Synopsis: Han doesn’t believe that a dating app would bring him love but at the same time, he got tired of being lonely. After a few tries, he gets more cynical because none of his matches is you.
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For a long, long time Han feels like he doesn't belong anywhere by himself, like an alien who tries to blend in with the earthlings.
He speaks the same language, but no one seems to try and hear him when he says something.
No matter how much he smiles, he feels lonely.
Would it make him a pathetic person that he sought emotions, sparks, that tingle you feel when your eyes first set and meet in that one fated second where you know did you cross paths for a reason?
He still wants to believe that one day, he'll find that magical moment.
But he is lonely and he got tired of waiting.
And time made him a little more pliable, a bit more broken, made him eventually give in to the last chance of getting, at least, what it feels like to be in someone's company.
He is just so lonely, he wants someone to reach out and hold him.
He has been staring at the notification on the app that tells him he just found a match.
He is not obligated to respond, but he promises himself to start putting himself out there and with a sigh, he braves himself to compose a message.
He doesn't wait for a reply, he closes the message box and continues his day, trying not to think so much.
From this day and forth, he'll stop thinking and just do.
-
It's called the Dot app.
It's available exclusively for the students of the university, it was made by a team of students and is still in development.
The app is a social media that students can use to find friends who share the same interests with them.
Or that is what the original plan was.
When two students are matched and decide to be friends, they can go on a "hangout", in their preferred time and space.
And all that changed when students started using it as a dating app, from there "hangout" turns into "doting", hence the app name.
At first, Han was skeptical about it. He can't even trust the date his friend set up for him, how can he trust an app would find him a better date through a computer algorithm?
He has a hard time wrapping his head around it but desperate time calls for a desperate measure.
He witnessed a lot of his friends find their partners from the app and their relationships still going like any other normal relationship.
Maybe the app just shortened the search and maybe he shouldn't oppose the idea without trying it first.
So here he is, sitting alone waiting for his date in a cafe on a Friday afternoon. He comes just a little early, the appropriate time according to him: fifteen minutes before the appointed time.
And he has been sitting at the table drinking cold water for almost an hour and still can't decide if it's appropriate for him to order or if should he waits for his date to arrive first.
As the ice cubes on the bottom of his glass have melted into water, you come pushing through the door with your hair messy from the windy day.
You hurriedly comb your hair with your fingers, putting the stray hairs covering your face behind your ear and that's when he can see you.
A face that he had never seen but at the same time, peculiarly familiar to him.
In contrast to the cloudy sky, your smile is so bright, your eyes offer warmth like a good cup of tea on autumn days.
Your eyes scan the whole room and look just as clueless as him, could it be that you are looking for him?
He secretly waits until your eyes meet his and when it happens, he got a little disappointed for not getting that tingle he so badly wanted to feel.
You smile at him and start to walk slowly but confidently, making your way toward his table.
All of a sudden, he feels the need to act normal, so he holds his breath and balls his hands on his lap, sitting straight on his chair.
He doesn't even know if you're his date but if you are, he wants to give a good first impression.
You hold your hair from curtaining your face and hold it there, then your mouth opens and a word
falls out of it, "Hi!"
Your voice sounded so welcoming and open, like a friendly hug.
"Hi!" He says back because he yearned to be held and to hold.
You smooth down your skirt with your palms and smile again at him, clearing your throat before speaking again which makes him suddenly aware of his whereabouts.
"Please, sit down!" He says to you, gesturing to the chair across from him.
Your fingers fiddle with the strap of your bag and ask him, "Are you Park?"
His heart deflates in a second and he feels stupid for not asking you first, he sheepishly smiles and answers, "No, I'm not."
Your mouth is open once again but no word comes out of it, "I'm sorry," you apologize.
"No worries!"
"This is my first doting," you explain and uneasily gripping the bag strap on your shoulder.
"This is my first time too," he says if that's anything that would comfort you.
You smile while nodding at him, "I'd better find my match then!"
"Sure!" He says that even though he was reluctant to let you go and has to wait again until his match arrives.
"Good luck!" You say to him before leaving his table.
"You too!" He says, watching you make your way to the table in the corner occupied by a guy who reads a book by himself.
He tries not to look but he can't help himself, it seems like that guy is indeed the one you are looking for and as much as he hates to say it, you look great together.
When he sits back on his chair and looks straight ahead, a girl is standing by his table.
"Are you Han?" She asks.
Finally! He says to himself.
"Yes!" He answers with an enthusiastic grin.
-
He wouldn't say his first match is a disappointment.
Han shares a lot in common with her, they're both music majors but she studies the business, she has an eclectic taste in music and she also watches anime even though she prefers the English subbed one instead of reading subtitles but he appreciated her honesty.
Apart from her habit of playing with her hair a lot, Han likes her.
Something feels strange though, he shares a lot of common with her but she feels so distant.
Let's say there's no chemistry and maybe love doesn't come on the first try.
He thought of taking a few days to recover from his first 'alright' doting experience until his phone chimed with a new notification of a new match as he holds it up above him.
He stares at his phone screen for a good minute as messages fill his inbox, it feels new to him that his match is the one who messaged him first.
He isn't complaining though, it's easier for him when he isn't the one who initiates it.
Because when things don't go as he expected, he wouldn't feel burdened to cut the strings off.
Or maybe his expectation will meet reality and love comes on the second try.
So he comes to the same cafe on time hoping that his date would be already there, he looks around and found you instead.
You are drawing something on your napkin looking bored then glance up at him like you notice he is looking at you.
He doesn't know why but his hand raises to wave at you and fortunately, you wave back at him.
He can imagine how embarrassing he would be if you didn't.
"Doting?" You ask.
He nods and opens his mouth to speak, a girl waves her hand at him two tables away from yours.
"Good luck!" You mouthed to him before he leaves for his table.
The girl observes him the second he is seated and the more she looks, the more apparent the disappointment drawn on her face.
"Did you wait long?" He asks with a smile for a good first impression.
"I'm sorry but I can't stay long," she says with a grimace, "I have somewhere to be in 30 minutes."
The first thing she said is very unwelcoming and from there everything feels rushed, Han keeps dissociating the entire time she talks about herself.
And when she doesn't talk, she keeps checking the time on her phone screen which only hints that she doesn't want to stay long.
"If you're in a hurry, you can leave," Han says to her with a thin smile.
At least, now he
knows that there's something worse than a bad date and that is being on a date
with someone that doesn't want to be there in the first place.
She got caught by
his words and uneasily glances at him, "it was nice meeting you," she
stammered while gathering his phone and wallet from the table.
"Likewise!"
Han says back to him with another smile.
The girl leaves
without saying anything else and is pretty much as relieved as him when the
date ends.
Turns out love
doesn't come on the second try, or you know what? Maybe love doesn't come that
easily.
He let out a long
breath as he gets up from his chair, he turns his head in the direction of your table and sees you still sitting alone.
"You're date is late?" He asks when he arrives at your table.
You glance up but still have your hand propped under your chin, the soft glow of twilight kissed
your face and makes you appear mystical to him.
"He said he's not coming because something came up," you answer and gesture for him to sit.
He looks down at the drawings of patterns on your napkin.
"Or a nice way to say that he wanted to bail on me," you said with a scrunched nose and a smile.
That is enough to make his heart flips in a second and a chuckle escapes his mouth, "well, it's better than seeing your date want to flee at any second," he says.
You chuckle and put down your pen, "No way?!"
You lean forward, "Is that why the date was so short?"
Han nods then shrugs.
You snort, "we shouldn't be laughing, our dates are ditching us!"
But as your eyes locked in a gaze, you both burst out laughing almost at the same time. He didn't know that he can easily share a laugh with a stranger like this.
"Can I get you a coffee?"
"I don't drink coffee," you reply, "but I would like tea, please?"
"Sure!"
Han returns to the table with the drinks and carefully puts them down on the table. You are drawing another pattern on the napkin, a circle, and inside it, are smaller triangles and so on.
"What are you drawing?"
"Geometric pattern!" You answer nonchalantly.
It feels weird that he feels comfortable around you despite he knows nothing about you, not even a name. This reminds him to introduce himself first.
"I'm Han."
You introduce yourself back and Han suddenly feels seen at how you look at him with two wide eyes full of curiosity.
He clears his throat and pulls his coffee mug, starts blowing on the hot beverage.
You drag his coffee mug away, "Don't do that!"
"Huh?"
"Blowing on it will only release carbon dioxide and carbon monoxide, they will react with the water particle, resulting in the formation of carbonic acid. So when you take food after blowing on it, you tend to take more amount of carbonic acid and the
unwanted carbon monoxide," you pause to take a breath.
"In conclusion, this unhealthy practice will mess with the alkali in your body and cause metabolic imbalance!" You finish then put your hand away from his mug.
Han blinks and tries to process your words into his head "And what is your major?"
"Astrophysics."
Han swallows because science is not something he can bravely dip his feet into, "That explains."
"That also explains why my date is ditching me," You say while wrapping your hand around your teacup to absorb the heat.
"No, I mean, that explains why I have never seen you," he quickly adds.
"Shouldn't have explained the second law of thermodynamics to him on the first date," you shake your head, half-laughing.
Han doesn't know anything about physics in the first place but he wishes he can have anything to say about that.
You softly laugh at the perplexed look on his face, your finger trailing the rim of your teacup, "have you ever heard of 'arrow of time'?"
He shakes his head, confused but purely curious at once.
"We live in a spacetime that is 4 dimensional but space and time differ in some fundamental ways."
Han nods, intently listening to your words.
"In space, we're free to move as we wish," you take your pen and move it around in the air, "we can go back, forward, side to side."
You put the pen down and then stack your hands together on the table, "but when it comes to time, we're stuck. We grow older, not younger. We remember the past, not the future. Time, unlike space, has a preferred direction."
His brain pops a question, "time only flows in one direction?" He asks as baffled as the question itself.
You nod with a smile, "why do you think?"
Han takes his time because he wants to give the best answer, "I mean... if you know about the future then it wouldn't be exciting anymore, don't you think?"
You nod at him.
"Also, if you know everything, both the past and the future, wouldn't it be too much?"
You slightly tip your head to the side, intrigued.
"A person can't have that much knowledge," he concludes.
A smile rises on your face, "see? I don't need a smart answer, I just need an honest one."
Han can't help but smile in satisfaction knowing that you acknowledged his answer.
"Can we drink now?" He hesitates as his finger is hooked on the handle of the coffee mug.
"Sure!"
It's dark when you both get out of the cafe and dried leaves litter the pavements, your feet making crunching sounds as you step on them.
"I forgot to ask you what your major is?" You ask, shoving your hands into the pockets of your cardigan.
"Music production and engineering," he answers also putting his hands into the pockets of his jackets since the wind is getting cold toward the end of autumn.
"Ah, music. Is that something you are passionate about?"
Han sucks air through his teeth, he doesn't expect this kind of question that indirectly dig through his personal life.
"My father was in a band and he used to write songs so I think that influenced me a lot to learn music," he answers.
"And you write music?"
He awkwardly laughs at how you casually ask him but he understands that you are merely curious, "well, yeah."
"What kind of music?"
"I'm always open to trying any genre," he replies.
"I only listen to classical so I don't know much about music," you admit then fire another question.
"Do you play any instruments?"
"Guitar and piano."
You gasp in awe.
"Why? You must be able to play at least one musical instrument too, right?"
You stifle a laugh,
"I played clarinet in the school band. Does that count?"
"Of course, that counts!" He assures rather too passionately.
"But I kind of got kicked out on the second practice because I was always behind the tempo," you add with a grimace.
You both stop at the intersection and look at each other.
"Come on! You did that on purpose, didn't you?"
You shake your head, "I wish but I'm just so bad at it."
Han can't accept the fact that someone as fascinating as you do have a flaw, not when the streetlight shines down on you and form a halo glow above your head.
"Anyway, I'm going this way," you point to the way behind you, heading east of the
intersection.
"And I'm going that way," he points the opposite way.
You stand on your tiptoes for a second and smile, "bye then!"
"Bye!" He flashes another smile before you turn around and leave, he watches you until your figure disappeared, engulfed by the dark of the night then he turns his way.
-
Han can't believe that the only common thing he has with the girl he's having a date with now is through a book he read once in his teen years.
The girl is pretty, she wears glasses that emphasize her beautiful brown eyes and shiny dark hair that would pass a shampoo ad. And she's very soft-spoken.
He doesn't have a certain type to begin with but she is close to what he wanted.
The only thing that gets in the way is she's just as awkward as he is, from the two hours he spent on the date an hour was spent in silence.
The date ends on a nice note with her nervously saying that she isn't actually in need of a significant other and agrees to be friends with him instead.
It isn't a loss if he gained something from it, right?
He walks out of the cafe alone and finds himself at the intersection where he parted with you that night, which was two weeks ago.
He hasn't seen you again ever since.
He got tempted to go to your faculty building but was afraid that would make him seem pretentious and he doesn't know anyone from any science majors.
He walks in the direction of the university complex where a festival is held, he decides to come since the date finishes earlier than he thought.
His friends must be somewhere and he plans of finding them even if that means he would be the only one without a plus one.
He stops by a game tent to play a game of ring toss and pays for a round.
He got 5 rings and he successfully put the first one but missed the next two rings.
He heavily sighs seeing that he only got two rings left, the best he can get is three out of five and that would only win him a silly little keychain as a consolation prize.
With a deep breath and confidence he got, he throws the fourth ring. He groans as it misses too far back and hits the wall instead.
"Your posture is wrong!" Someone says.
His head snaps to the source of the voice and finds you standing next to him.
"You lean your body forward so you should balance it with a leg to the back, not bending your knees."
Han hesitates to do it as you instructed him, he looks at you again and you blink at him, waiting if he will do as you say.
He caves in and does as you instructed, throwing the last ring he got as it successfully lands in one of the little traffic cones.
"Well, you should have come earlier and I would have won one of those food coupons,"
he says out of embarrassment as he takes the keychain as his consolation prize.
You crack a laugh and pull out money to play for a round, "it's all about the angle and how you throw the ring," you say and take a stance to start throwing.
The first ring seamlessly lands on the closest traffic cone and you confidently throw the remaining rings, effortlessly putting everyone else who is also playing to shame.
You receive two food coupons to exchange at selected food stands.
"Are you always this cool?" He asks with mouth agape.
"There's a scientific way to do almost anything," you say while laughing.
"So, what do you want to eat?" You ask for a suggestion from him.
"Huh?"
"Aren't we going to exchange the coupons?"
It takes him a moment to realize that you want to share the coupons with him, "are you sharing it with me?"
"Well, I have two coupons!" You show him and look around the row of food stands in the crowded place.
"I just thought—"
You cut him off with a question, "How about pizza?"
Han stifles a nod.
He voluntarily brings the pizza on paper plates with both hands while you're carrying the cans of drink, walking together to the garden near the university library where it's less crowded.
You both sit on the picnic table instead of on its bench and set the food in the space between you and him.
"Pineapple pizza for you and cheese pizza for me!" He says while handing you your slice of pizza.
"Cola for you and juice for me!" You place his can of soda in from of him and open your can next.
Han follows suit, opening his can and clinking it with you for a toast.
"Cheers!" You both say in unison.
The faint music from the festival still can be heard but he can also hear the rustles of leaves as the wind blows in.
"One question!" Han suddenly says with his cheeks full of food.
"Why pineapple pizza?"
You sigh while rolling your eyes and finish chewing, "I know there's a whole debate out there whether it's okay to put pineapple on pizza or not," you explain.
"So you know?"
"I'm not living under a rock!"
Han chuckles in response and continues chewing.
"But at the end of the day, it's just food. I love pizza, I love pineapple, it's basically two things that I love in one!" You defend your argument with a nonchalant shrug and take another bite of your pizza.
He nods in agreement, "that's valid!"
He puts the trash away into the nearest rubbish bin and returns to the picnic table, watching you looking up at the night sky like you're sunbathing under the moon.
He sits next to you and does the same thing, propping his hands behind him, head tilting up looking at the bright, almost full moon.
"Did you stop doting?" He asks.
"Not really."
"I haven't seen you in the cafe anymore," he says, turning his head at you and watching your face bask under the moonlight.
"I was sick with flu last week," you reply.
"That sucks!" He comments and back to looking up at the stars dotted in the night sky.
"Are you still doting?" You ask.
"I did one today."
"How was it?"
"It was nice but we decide to be friends," he puts his hand up to figuratively pinch the moon between his thumb and forefinger.
"That's cute!"
Han hesitates to ask you the question he's been meaning to ask but his curiosity always gets the
best of him, "May I know why you decide to start doting?"
He hears you hum
and shift on the table and turns slightly to face him with your legs stacked
against each other.
“I’m not trying to find someone to date,” you answer
with a soft smile, “let’s start there!”
“I think you know by now that I have a very unquiet mind,” you let out a low laugh.
“I just want someone who wants to listen.”
He can relate to your answer because oftentimes, he finds himself filled with ideas that he gets the urge to share with someone.
You are larger-than-life but what you want is something as simple as that. You don’t necessarily need someone who can comprehend your ideas and thoughts, you just want someone who listens.
“What about you?”
Han doesn’t expect you to ask him back but he must return the favor.
He doesn’t know how to give you a proper answer when he, himself, doesn’t know the answer, “I honestly don’t know,” he answers with a dry laugh.
He tries his best to accumulate his thoughts and focus on the question, deep down he knows what his heart wants.
“I just want to know if I deserve love,” he finally admits.
He looks at you looking at him with the moon reflected in your eyes, sparkling and bright.
Suddenly, he gets so aware of his too honest, lame answer and gets embarrassed.
“Well, now you know how pathetic I am!”
You take a long breath and hold your hand up to connect one star to another to form a constellation, “do you know that we are made of star stuff?”
“Star stuff?” He asks.
“Yeah,” you confirm and come up with the explanation.
“Our solar system is formed from a supernova and that’s including earth. Over billion of years, the matter within earth coalesced into life forms of ever-increasing complexity.
"So the particles in our bodies like the nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood and etcetera have been in existence for billions of years.
"And they will persist for billions of years after we move on.”
You pause to turn your head at him with your eyes staring straight into him.
“And these particles were all forged in the nuclear fusion fires of stars.”
You lean in close enough that he can see those glints in your eyes, the lively glints of when people talk about something they’re passionate about.
“Whenever you feel pathetic, just remember that we are made of star stuff.”
He instantly looks up at stars scattering above him, he suddenly feels small as he gets hit by the realization that the universe is so vast, but at the same time, he feels big because he is a part of it, and he doesn’t know how is that possible.
For the first time in his life, he feels larger than himself, that he deserves love and more.
He turns his head at you, “star stuff…” he sighs.
“Star stuff!” You say back.
You stare into each other's eyes as if there we star collapsing on them and the chime comes from Han's phone to defuse the explosion.
"Seems like you get a new match!" It's a very familiar sound that anyone in the university can easily recognize.
Han pulls his phone out of his jacket pocket and turns the notification off, pushing it back inside the pocket without checking.
When it's getting late and you announce it's time to get back, Han insists on walking you back to
the intersection.
"Thank you for the pizza!" He says, kicking a twig to the side of the pavement so you wouldn't trip over it.
"No worries!"
"I owe you one!" He says, in hope that he gets to treat you something someday.
"Can I have that keychain then?"
"The keychain?" He gropes the pockets of his jacket because he can't remember which pocket he put it in and finds it in the pocket of his jeans instead.
He holds the keychain with a miniature penguin dangling from the end of the chain.
"I'll take this," you say and take the keychain looping around his finger, "so now we're even!"
Han gets a little disappointed but what else can he do, "do you know any fun facts about penguins?"
He playfully asks.
"I actually do!"
Han laughs in response, he shouldn't try to tease you because you're very knowledgeable. He wasn't serious about his question but now he's curious to know.
"When a male penguin falls in love with a female penguin, he searches the whole beach to find her the smoothest, most perfect pebble to present to her as a proposal," you elaborate while continue walking next to him and your hands
brushing with his as you walk.
"If she approves, she puts the stone in her nest."
"What if she doesn't?"
"I don't know," you answer, "throw it at his face maybe?" You guess while looking at him.
He looks back at you and at the same time, bursts into laughs.
"That's cruel!" He comments while still laughing.
The intersection is closing in and oddly enough, he doesn't want to part with you yet. He still finds it strange to find comfort in a person he knows so little about, but maybe it's you that is so fascinating to him.
"Here we are!" You say as you walk on your way home, standing a foot away from him while fixing your hair from the raging wind.
"Goodnight!"
He holds his hand up and waves at you, "Goodnight!"
After a few steps, he can hear your phone dinged with the familiar tone of the dot app notification sound. It seems like you too just got a new match.
He doesn't need to question the app on why he never matches with you, it's obvious that the two of you have nothing in common. From your two different majors, how you don't drink coffee, you only listen to classical and you're really, really smart while he's far below average.
The algorithm knows better to never match you with him, an alien roaming the earth.
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"Don't blow on it!" Han snaps at his date when she's about to blow his hot cappuccino.
The girl's eyes widen in confusion, "Uhm... why?"
Han gets conscious of his actions and immediately retracts his hand from covering the poor girl's drink.
"I don't know the scientific explanation but it's an unhealthy practice," he meekly explains with an awkward smile.
The girl reclines in her seat, "what are you majoring in again?"
"Music!"
The girl shoots him a weird stare and then pushes her coffee mug away.
The date is surprisingly going well until that happens.
She shares a lot in common with him, she listens to the bands he listened to and reads so many of his favorite comics and movies that he watched one too many times.
This should be convenient because he can talk about so many things, right?
But after the date, he finds himself under the streetlight where he parted with you.
It feels somehow melancholic looking up at the night sky while listening to the track he made last night through his earphones and he closes his eyes, putting the world on pause.
After a moment of detaching himself from the world, he opens his eyes to find you standing next to him.
His loud thoughts must have called out for you to appear right in front of him. like the universe heard his subconscious desire.
You speak to him but he can't hear you with the earphones on, he quickly takes them off.
"Sorry, what are you saying?" He asks again.
"What are you listening to?" You ask, your hair is messy from the wind even though you tied it into a bun.
"Uh... just a track I made," he stutters, a bit embarrassed to say it because he doesn't want to give the impression that he was bragging.
"Can I listen?" You ask, taking a step closer next to him.
The request takes him by surprise but he hands you his earphones, "but it's not done yet," he says.
You shrug then put the earphones on, "It's not like... I'm Mozart," you say with a sly smile.
Han replays the track he listened to and watches you listening to it, it's slightly nerve-wracking because he is the one who made it.
He sees you flash him a smile before closing your eyes and the wind starts blowing your way,
shaking the leaves from the tree above, sending them falling on both of you.
A leaf caught in your hair and he reaches to remove it, his hand pauses just right on the side
of your head the moment he realizes the proximity. The first thing that crosses his mind is to look at your face, beautiful and still.
At that moment, he wishes time would stop flowing so he can admire you for as long as he wants.
Then your eyes snap open and you take the earphones away, giving them back to him.
"It's still rough so I'm sorry if it's... bad," Han starts to blabber although you didn't say anything about it.
"I want to listen to it again once you finish it," you say, not giving him a comment on the piece of music he wrote.
He puts his phone away and nods, he doesn't know why he agrees without thinking.
"I guess you just did another doting?" You suddenly ask.
He shoves his hands into his jacket pockets to hold the urge to put your hair away from covering your face, "Yes."
"How did it go?"
"We're going on a second date next Friday," he answers with a shy smile.
"That's good!" You beam while hoisting the strap of your bag higher on your shoulder.
"Yeah," he isn't sure if that's the right response to your positive comment, he should be excited since this is what he wanted and he is close to getting it.
"Where are you going?" He asks since meeting you here is so coincidental.
"Home!" You shortly reply at the same time a strong gust of wind blowing in and you stagger to the side.
Han immediately grabs your elbow to steady you and helps you fix your hair, "Are you okay?"
Your eyes locked for a second and in that one second, he believes his heart skipped a beat too.
"Yeah, thank you!" You respond with a low laugh and start clutching your trench coat together.
"I'd better get home fast, I have to study for an exam tomorrow!"
Realizing that you said you needed to get home, he lets go of your elbow almost immediately and says, "yeah, you'd better!"
You grip your bag strap and head in the direction of your way home, "anyway, nice meeting you here!"
He nods in response and watches you walk away until your figure forms a dot in the distance then nothing. And he doesn't know why he feels so sad about it.
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The girl smiles at him the moment she sees him entering the cafe and he takes it as a good sign.
"I'm sorry for being late," he says and sits across his date.
"That's okay!" She replies with an easy smile.
It doesn't hard to talk to her because she knows everything about his favorite things and conversations keep flowing, there's no way he doesn't enjoy this.
A moment later, you come into the cafe with your eyes scanning the room and it seems like you're coming for doting as well.
He thought you intentionally avoid his eyes until you walk past his table and mouthed, "she's really pretty!"
He sheepishly smiles in return and watches you walk to the empty table in the corner where he first met you.
It's funny that ever since you come through the door, he can't focus on the conversation going on with his date and all he can think about is how he doesn't get the same comfort as when he talks with you.
Han often thinks that the ultimate way to find love is to find someone who shares a lot in common with him, shares a lot of likes and dislikes, someone who is similar to him in some ways.
But maybe he is wrong.
Maybe love isn't about finding someone to share his silly little hobbies with.
Maybe love is a space where he can truly be himself and be comfortable doing it. Maybe it's not about sharing things he already knows, maybe it's about learning new things from each other even to the strangest of ideas.
He turns in his chair to see you as you start drawing on the napkin again with the afternoon sun so softly bathing your face in a warm glow.
The more he looks at you the more he feels that invisible force that pulls him in attracts him to come close and stays close to you.
And he wanted to gravitate towards you, no one else, but you.
He let out a series of laughter out of the blue, feeling foolish that he trusted an algorithm to find him love instead of his own heart.
"Are you okay?" His date asks.
He stops laughing and looks at her, "you're really lovely!"
The girl gets taken aback by the compliment, "oh?"
He thinks of a way to put things gently, "I'm sorry but... I think I'm not the right one for you."
"Oh?" She says again but in a mix of slight shock and pity.
Han feels bad of course, but it's better than letting her hope grows and wasting her time, time that she can use to find someone far better than him.
And he knows that he needs to do the right thing.
"Now if you excuse me," he says and gets up from his chair.
He sees your date is coming to your table which means it's late for him to get to you first.
He stands there between the options, to take his shot or not.
This must be what people called as a life-altering decision, one decision that has an effect strong enough to change his life path.
So he strides to your table, against all odds.
You were talking with your date and he seems nice, he doesn't know if he's nice enough for you but he is willing to try.
You glance up to find him looking at you, "hey, can I help you with something?" You ask.
"Do you want to go on a date with me?" He blurts out without thinking, ignoring your date who is looking completely stunned by the scene that unfolds in front of him.
"All of a sudden?" You ask with an awkward laugh and propping a hand under your chin to look at him.
He can't tell the reasons behind this impulsive action so he settles on something that crosses his mind, "isn't there a theory where an object will not change its motion unless a force acts on it?"
Your plain expression turns alive followed by giggles spilling out of your mouth.
"That's not a theory, my friend!" The nice guy says to him with a condescending laugh.
"You mean, Newton's first law?" You guess.
Han jerks his head back, trapped by his own smart-ass words which makes him wish that he didn't say that.
"Well, I wasn't planning on... I was trying..." he stutters and eventually gives up on explaining.
He takes a deep breath, sensing that he's about to start blabbering around like he always does when he's nervous.
"Yeah, I want to go on a date with you!" You say ever so casually, shocking both him and the nice guy sitting across from you.
You gather your coat from the chair next to you along with your bag, "we're going now, right?"
Han quickly gets ahold of himself and nods, "yes!"
You get up from the chair, "It was nice meeting you!" You say to the nice guy then follow Han out of the cafe.
A soft, pleasant breeze welcomes you both as you push the door out of the cafe and you hurriedly put on your coat while Han is still trying to get a grasp of what just happened.
Did you just agree to go on a date with him?
"So, where are we going?" You ask, fixing your hair and taking it out of the collar of your coat, slinging your bag across your chest.
Han doesn't think this through because it's so unlike him to act on the spur of the moment therefore he has no plans on what to do after.
"Uhm..." he hums long enough that it starts to sound like a buzzing of a mosquito.
You notice that he has no ideas in mind and laughs, "how about movies? What do you think?" You offer one.
He lets out a breath of relief, thankful that he gets a way out of it, and smiles, "yes!"
Again, he doesn't think through that being in a darkened room with you will be a good idea.
He steals a glance to his side and sees your face illuminated by the light from the screen, fully focusing on the movie, unlike him who keeps looking down at his hand that rests so close to yours
He just needs to reach it yet it feels like his hand suddenly turns heavy every time he tried to do so.
He licks his lips and inaudibly inhales air, mustering up the guts to lift his hand to grab yours.
He aborts his plan when all of a sudden you draw your hand away from your lap to wipe your nose.
A sigh escapes his mouth, unintentionally loud.
"You don't like the movie?" You ask.
He vigorously shakes his head, "No!"
Then looks back straight ahead and tries not to think about holding your hand, wiping them down his thighs instead because apparently, his palms are sweaty.
Then out of nowhere, your hand grabs his on his lap.
His head automatically turns at you and in the dark, he can see your smile and he can feel the warmth it is emitting.
"Your hand is so cold," you say in a low voice and with that being said, you slip your fingers between the spaces of his fingers and intertwine them together.
"Is it warm enough?" You ask again.
Luckily you can't see how flushed he look at that moment, how so many thoughts rushing into his head that he can't sort out his feelings anymore.
But yes, it is comfortably warm.
"Yes."
He wanted so much to give you the best date that he can come up with, if only he come prepared and planned everything, he believed he can give that to you.
He can do so much better than eating fast food in the park at night.
"Tonight's weather is exceptionally nice!" You chime in as if you heard his weary thought and assure him you're enjoying the moment.
Maybe Han shouldn't be too hasty to conclude that the date is an utter disappointment when the universe is in his favor.
The cold, raging wind is replaced by a pleasant, cool breeze that blows so softly which reminds him of spring and how he wants to skip winter altogether.
"Did you finish the song?"
He chews on his food fast to answer your question, "No, not yet," he answers.
"I don't even know if I'll ever finish it to be honest," he corrected, unsure of his answer as well.
You drink your orange juice through the straw, "are you working on another track?"
He shakes his head.
"That's the only thing I've been making so far," he honestly admits.
Han is insecure about a lot of things but not his passion, music.
Once he entered college and learned more about it, and met a lot of people who share the same passion, better than him, he got a lot insecure.
He believes in the notion that his insecurity will shrink as he gets older, but that was a childish thought, that was before he realized that a lot of people are better than him.
"Why?" You ask.
It's such a simple question but it demands more than just a simple answer in return. The question asks more than the reasons why but also what led him into this, stuck in the forest of anxiety.
"Creative block, I guess," he vaguely answers.
You both start to walk around the park as the quiet of the night is masked by the sounds of the rippling water of the lake.
"You wrote the music and I think that's remarkable already," you say to him.
Han softly smiles and to hear a compliment from you is enough for him.
"It's not like I'm Mozart," he says, poking fun at your past remark
You respond with a laugh, "well, did you play songs on harpsichord at four years old and compose simple music at five?"
"Nah, I'm not that great!" He replies with a playful laugh.
"I don't think I'll ever be that great!"
He doesn't want it to end, yet again.
As you both walk the same pavements that lead to your way home, he knows that the night is about to end and that he is about to part with you soon.
At least, he gets to walk you home to the front gate of your student housing.
You both stop as you entered the pin to unlock the gate then hold it ajar.
He takes it as a sign to step back, "I'm sorry for the disappointing date," he meekly says.
You turn around with your hand still holding the gate door open, "aren't you coming upstairs?"
He stops right as he was about to take another step back, scares if he misheard you.
"To your...... place?" He asks for confirmation.
You replace your hand and hold the gate open with your foot, "it's not big but... I think it fits two people."
Isn't it obvious that his knowledge about dating is lacking but he knows what this means, you invite him to your place even though it's only the first, proper date.
"Is it okay... if I...?" He stammers, hands awkwardly swaying in the air.
"I wouldn't ask if it's not allowed," you say while laughing.
Han doesn't have anything against this, he wants to spend the night with you if not more.
Turns out, it's gender-inclusive housing from the crowd gathering in the lobby of the building but in one look, he can tell that everyone living in the building has a higher IQ than him. A few people greet you on the way to your room and you politely greet them back, they can't be bothered with him following you from behind and you briefly introduce him to your peers.
You pull out a key with the penguin keychain from his consolation prize dangling from it, jiggling as you turn the key and push the door to your room open.
He already expects that there will be a lot of books inside but not that they'll be stacked like they're on a garage sale.
"Beware of the books!" You tell him.
And he carefully picks where he steps on or else he'll nudge one of the stacks and sends it collapsing down the floor.
You lead him to the spacious part of your room and probably, the most private part of your room.
There's your bed and study desk, more books on the bedside table, and a record player in the corner of the room.
He got curious to know what music are you listening to, he turns it on and then put the needle on the record.
Music starts filling the room with a classical tune, one that Han never heard before.
"It's Tristan und Isolde by Richard Wagner," you tell him while taking off your coat and putting down your bag on the desk chair.
He nods and is suddenly aware that he's in your room now, with you.
Doesn't want to seem awkward, he starts to look around the room but one that catches his attention is the wallpaper on the ceiling of your room.
He looks up at the drawn stars as they form visible constellations that he doesn't know the name of.
"My sister put them up for me!"
"That's lovely!"
You head for the switch and turn the lights off, he hopes for total darkness but something lights up above him. The stars on the ceiling glow in the dark just like real stars out there in the night sky.
You walk up to him and stand just right in front of him, tilting your head up.
"What is your constellation?"
"Virgo."
You look around and point at the thirteen stars that formed a constellation, "Virgo is between Leo and Libra there!"
Han sees the constellation that forms a lazy Y shape.
"It's the second largest constellation in the sky," you add with an enthusiastic smile.
He stops looking up and looks at you instead, the stars reflected in your eyes, mesmerizing, hypnotizing.
Notice that he is looking at you, you look back at him and it's the closest you've ever seen him.
Then he feels it, the sparks that light up his heart and are about to burst out of him, he can't control it anymore.
So he leans in and kisses you so tenderly, with soft lips and warm breaths, his heart melts as the kiss softens his edges.
The kiss is nothing but something that he's been looking for in his life.
It makes him feel embraced, welcomed, comforted, everything that is good in this world that he doesn't know if he deserves it.
He lets go with a gasp as his lungs burns from running out of oxygen.
But he doesn't want to stop yet, he holds your face with both hands and it assures him that he had chosen the right path.
"You're so beautiful," he whispers because that moment feels so sacred and he is afraid that he will ruin it by speaking.
You softly smile and his thumb wipes over your lips before pressing his lips on you again.
He lets his arms open to hold you like he always wanted, close.
And kisses you more under the stars.
If humans truly are made of star stuff, he believes you are made from the brightest star in the universe because he refuses to believe that he's made of the same thing.
As he lays next to you on your bed and stares up at your starry ceiling though he has a change of mind, he thinks that maybe you are made of outer space and he wants to explore.
He has been staring at you and when you turn your head at him, your eyes find him almost immediately.
Your eyes, your eyes pull him in like a pair of black holes that gets him curious about what lies behind and inside that beautiful head of yours.
"Want to know something?" You ask.
"Yes?" Because he wants to be the one who listens to you.
You stare up at the ceiling again and softly sigh, "When stars die, they don't just fade away."
You put your hand on your side from resting it on your stomach.
"Their lives end in the most spectacular and most luminous explosions that we know."
He feels his hand nudges yours on the bed but this time, he doesn't hesitate to hold yours.
"For weeks they can become nearly as bright as a whole galaxy," you finish.
He turns your hand up and interlaces his hand with yours, "that's fascinating!"
You flash him a smile, "I believe we are just the same," you pause to lock a gaze with him, "that before we die, we will make the most spectacular and luminous explosions!"
"So, don't ever say that you'll never be great," you say to him in an incredibly low voice it's almost like a whisper.
"Someday, you'll shine as bright as a whole galaxy." You say with a gentle squeeze on his hand.
He doesn't know if it's in how you use the metaphors or how you smile at him or the way you hold his hand back that gives him the confidence to believe in that too.
He stares back at you, "because we are made of star stuff?"
You nod with a smile, "yeah."
"Star stuff?" he sighs.
"Star stuff," you say back.
At that moment, he thinks that love is finding his universe in a person.
And he's no longer an alien cause he finds it in you.
All the while, you find a different answer to one of life's mysteries, the one thing that transcends dimensions of time and space: Love.
You can't find any scientific explanation for that but then again, the universe is under no obligation to make sense to you.
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