annabeth

idk what i’m doing here, just want somewhere to feel safe | 20yrs old sw:92kg cw: 72.7kg gw: 60kg ugw: 50kg

[faded-butterfly]

super helpful guide <3

[notskinnynalone]

how do i tell a friend they’re incredibly triggering and im relapsing because of them??

it feels unfair saying they’re the cause of my relapse but the guilt they’re making me feel is unbearable, i don’t have any other way to deal with it….

[notskinnynalone]

i need audrey hepburns figure

[notskinnynalone]

im back bitches

i’m feeling sick again 😎 and i want to st*rve 😎😎

[notskinnynalone]

i’ve been ghosted by everyone i was talking to, what is this

[notskinnynalone]

20h in and i’m feeling hungry lmao i’m so weak

[notskinnynalone]

17h into my 36h fast to jumpstart the 30 day challenge <3 the abc diet was not doing it for me (mainly bc i’ve been living with my parents and they’re getting suspicious so i wanna keep it low key)

[notskinnynalone]

i’ve been struggling with feelings of sh lately but idk if i wanna mention it to my therapist… also my ed is pretty much the cause of it and i don’t want to tell her abt it cause she doesn’t know yet and i don’t want recovery 😍😍

[notskinnynalone]

going insane with this girl that just popped up on my fyp

OH TO HAVE A WAIST THAT TINY

[notskinnynalone]

today i was supposed to eat 100 cals, instead i hate 1000 :D someone fucking kill me

[notskinnynalone]

i don’t think there’s really a point in updating here everyday. i’ll update my weight on the final day though

[notskinnynalone]

Day 3

300 - 289

the calls are in red bc those were the ones i planned and ate for today. then i binged.and purged. i feel grossed and swollen. i drank a lot o water while binging so purging was easy but it doesn’t make me feel any less gross and full and disgusting even though i puked it all. not a win.

[notskinnynalone]

Day 2

500 - 482

today slayed so harddddd. i was super busy all day and didn’t have time to eat till like 6pm, then i had a salad which was UNDER 100 cals so that was great. i had pb&j for dinner

i did feel faint at lunch time bc today was SO hot and i ran around all morning. i think i was a bit carsick too, which added to the nausea i was feeling.

tbh i could’ve survived with just the salad i just ate dinner cause my roommate was home and he’s suspicious of my eating habits

[notskinnynalone]

day 2

i love busy days cause i genuinely don’t have time to eat. i planned my meals but left them home. i’ve been running around all day and it’s very hot and i forgot my water so i feel sick, i think i’m gonna buy an apple or smth just cause i won’t be home until night time and i still have a lot of running around to do

[notskinnynalone]

Day 1

500 - 522

can’t believe i already failed day one, this was kind of hard

according to my app i burnt 100 cals by walking which means i didn’t walk that much

i wasted most of my calls on half a bowl of spaghetti, like a bitch

[notskinnynalone]

day 1

it’s being a little harder than expected. i’ve already used up most of my calories but i just finished taking a walk and i really feel like a snack (ugh). i’ll just drink a bunch of water until i’m full.

[notskinnynalone]

low key love that i’m poor cause i can’t afford to spend extra money on food but also does anyone have tips on how to make easy money? i can’t get a proper job cause i will lose my scholarship :/