a 16 y/o girl with chronic pain

you hate me? oh darling, i hate myself too. last cut: 24 12 19

[stillesgeschrei]

“Wenn ich die Wahl hätte, mit egal welcher Frau auf der Welt zusammen zu sein oder mit dir zu Hause zu sitzen, Pizza zu essen und Fernsehn zu schauen, würde ich mich jederzeit für dich entscheiden.”

— Scrubs (via honigimohr)

[flyngdream]

[schwierigephase]

“I can not explain with just words how much you mean to me, but you are the only one I am afraid of losing.”

— (via head-circus)

[honigimohr]

“Wenn man mit jemandem glücklich ist schaut man nicht nach anderen.”

— Suits (via unschluessigkeit)

[dogteefh]

“

you can dip your words in honey 
and sugarcoat your wicked tongue, 
but nothing can change your rotten heart
or change what you have done.


”

― poetry doesn’t make what you did pretty

[a-pen-and-some-words]

“when i write of you it is not because i miss you it is merely practice for the day i accept the apology you will never give me and when i write of you it is not ink but poison that spills into the shape of letters on the page”

— d.c.

[haleyincarnate]

AND YOU ALWAYS WILL.

[embercrystal]

How to know if someone is gaslighting you…

something is “off” about your partner and you can’t quite explain or pinpoint why.

you frequently second-guess your ability to remember the details of past events leaving you psychologically powerless.

You feel confused and disorientated.

You feel threatened and on-edge around this person, but you don’t know why.

You feel the need to apologize all the time for what you do or for who you are.

You never quite feel “good enough” and try to live up to the expectations and demands of others, even if they are unreasonable or harm you in some way.

You feel like there’s something fundamentally wrong with you, e.g. you’re neurotic or are “losing it.”

You feel like you’re constantly overreacting or are “too sensitive.”

You feel isolated, hopeless, misunderstood and depressed.

You find it hard to trust your own judgment, and given a choice, you choose to believe the judgment of the abuser.

You feel scared and as though “something is terribly wrong,” but you don’t know what or why.

You find it hard to make decisions because you distrust yourself.

You feel as though you’re a much weaker version of yourself, and you were much more strong and confident in the past.

You feel guilty for not feeling happy like you used to.

You’ve become afraid of “speaking up” or expressing your emotions, so you stay silent instead.

[boyburning]

you are more than your abuse

(also I’m aware I spelled trauma wrong lol)

[hxrrymybae]

no more toxic friendships or relationships, only toxic by britney spears.

[brxkenbella]

[spilled-thouqhts]

I saw your dark side but I still made excuses for you. You saw my vulnerable side and judged me. I see the truth now and now I must let you go.

[areugonnalovemeinmyforties]

‘‘Telling a woman you love her while treating her like shit is abuse. Fuck you.”

[desultory-suggestions]

Sometimes we outgrow people who aren’t growing

[wefucked-up]

I wanted you to hold me , I wanted you and I cried for you , and I hated you because I would’ve chosen you no matter what and you took that away from me

The best of me

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

sometimes we have to realize we’re never getting that apology and that moving on is just something we have to do to live. forgive or don’t forgive, but accept that the apology isn’t coming, because sometimes people aren’t good people. that doesn’t mean you should stop having faith that there are good people. it just means the closure isn’t there like it was meant to be.

[schwierigephase]

“Ich verliere die Kontrolle, werde sauer und verzweifle. Sauer auf mich selbst, weil ich versagt habe. Verzweifle, weil ich nicht weiß wie es weiter geht.”

— verbautezukunft (via verbautezukunft)