fawnie

i count my gain in blood & pain

[nowherefawn]

i hate feeling like i’m not doing enough for him or i can’t help him and it’s the worst feeling in the world because all i want is to help him

[nowherefawn]

how tf do you ask someone for comfort I just sit there like a little bitch

[nowherefawn]

current mood

[nowherefawn]

i’m about to see ethel cain live and i think something’s going to happen to me spiritually

[nowherefawn]

when I’m excited about something but they don’t match my excitement so i just go shoot myself

[nowherefawn]

when you’re so bored but alone all day every day so you genuinely start using gooning as a hobby because it’s the only thing that doesn’t make you feel like you wanna die but it makes you feel guilty

[nowherefawn]

me when i see blood so i know i am getting better at it 🤑🤑🤑 my arm be stinging but we thug it out

[nowherefawn]

urges won fuck it we ballin 🤑🤑🤑🤑

[nowherefawn]

the urges are getting harder now that i see that we have resources where i am

[nowherefawn]

i have been having a really bad urge to relapse because it feels good but i hate that it leaves psychical traces

[nowherefawn]

my old mindset is coming back do i scream in joy or fear

[nowherefawn]

i feel like this guy looked at me in a certain way and i feel so much disgust over myself right now like oh my hosh ew don’t do that. ❤️

[nowherefawn]

hey why am i horrible at this

[nowherefawn]

hi it makes me feel even more guilty than i already do

[nowherefawn]

i feel like i did something really wrong and i’m scared

[nowherefawn]

having a GOOD goon after having a painful one earlier is like winning a halo in royale high but you’re a masochist

[nowherefawn]

to love me is to suffer me