noxpheron

34 softcore nihilist with a lowercase god complex and a major key aversion

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i am yours

the water rises up to meet the shore i am yours

crawl across the sand in supplication and bear the crown of generations but in my heart i know you can't be tamed for the moment love distorts, it turns to blame

then i'll become the monster you create my breath and blood to consecrate sinking down to where the seaweed tangles quench to break this iron rangel

the water rises up to meet the shore i am yours

take my hand, it’s colder than the grave there’s nothing left inside of me to save except the space you carved inside my soul a black hole, black hole, black hole, black hole

paint my face with symbols of the sun tell me that my suffering is done but i will only find another way to come upon your shore another day

the water rises up to meet the shore i am yours

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Do you have any new pictures to show?

I enjoy them immensely.

always

a sunset, a jasmine flower, a collection of yesterday today and tomorrows, and the moon

and a 'port hole' image of the moon at 300x magnifaction

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This video presents a sonification of M42, the Orion Nebula, created using a program I developed to translate deep space images into sound. A scan line moves across the image from left to right, triggering individual notes from detected stars, and an evolving drone beneath them.

The star notes are calculated by detecting compact points of light and assigning them notes within a predetermined musical scale (in this case, Bmaj). The drone is calculated from the changing balance of dark space and nebula along each scan line, so the background tone gradually shifts as the image moves from emptier regions through nebula.

All of that is to say that there is a significant amount of interpretation involved in the final result. This is not the literal "sound" of M42. Sound, unfortunately, cannot travel through the near vacuum of space. What you're hearing is my interpretation creating an audio translation of visual data that I gathered.

By turning visual data into sound, sonification offers another way to engage with astronomical imagery and demonstrates the broader accessibility value of experiencing space through more than sight alone.

The image of M42 used in this video was taken and stacked by me in my own backyard.

Listen, and enjoy.

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The moon at 150x magnification. February 28th 2026.

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The moonrise from January 30th.

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shuffle

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lows

i have watched you break all the promises you made i have felt my heart ache for the price that you have paid

i have listened to your screams in the depths of darkest night i have watched you reach for dreams in the false hope of light

i have held onto the truth that you were scared to face i have had to soothe what could not be replaced

i have known the cost of the trust you threw away i have carried all you've lost every single day

i have seen your lies reflected in my own eyes and now i realize we never reached the highs

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nepenthe

i asked the river why i stay when every current cuts me through it washed against the hard packed clay great is the effort to carve something new nepenthe, mercy me

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I like the idea of the two questions marks, but for me personally, I'd prefer them back to back and a shared dot

Both looking forward and behind, but with a shared sense of now being buffered in the space between each other

Does it make sense?

question heat ring concept pt 2

yes, that makes total sense. what you described sounds gorgeous and i really like your interpretation

last night i went down a youtube rabbit hole and i learned how to make a quick crude mockup in tinkercad (using a ring base i purchased from cults3d), a million svg iterations of the symbol and i managed to mock up my original question heart version

i was about to share it here when your ask popped up, so obviously it would be criminal if i didn't give it a try and see what it looks like

and now i’m torn because i like both lol let's compare

my original concept design on the left, and anonymous' suggestion on the right damn, they both look gorgeous, and i would wear both and now i have two rings i want designed

next i need to send over some screenshots to LightbringerDesigns and see what he thinks. i tried to put falling question marks on the side but curves are hard, and i would probably have to watch a lot more youtube tutorials. i'll have LightbringerDesigns take a crack at it when he designs the ring

also, i'm considering gutting out some of the inside of the band

mockups of my original concept

mockups of anonymous' concept

thanks for the inspiration, anonymous!

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question heat ring concept

the shit i do when i’m manic and should be sleeping

when i was a teen i used to doodle two question marks facing each other so they’d make a heart shape and i called it a question heart. i drew it on everything and years later i found out that little question heart was really similar to a love point punctuation mark. over the years its become a symbol very near and dear to my heart.

it has always felt like a perfect representation of falling in love. it’s made out of two question marks. love starts with uncertainty. do they like me? what does this mean? where is this going? is this a fling or something more? two separate unknowns, two separate lives, and then somehow when they meet they form a heart.

love forms in spite of all the unknown.

i’ve been playing around with color choices, trying to figure out what i like, and i think i am leaning towards a black heart with the question heart being in a deep red. red enamel, and black patina(or black enamel). i feel like a full red enamel heart might look a little gaudy, but that’s kinda a vibe in itself. if i was a wealthy bitch, it would be set with garnets, so many garnets.

red representing passion, and love, with black representing all the unknown.

i want the top to be a heart shaped signet with the love point sunk in, and i’ve playing with a super simple detail on the sides of the band. i was thinking to either leave it blank, or four question marks ‘falling’ or, one big question mark, but i’m leaning towards the four ‘falling’ question marks on each side.

my CAD skills are shit, so i’m probably definitely going to pay someone to do the CAD.

🫣

either way the goal is to have it 3D printed in sterling silver and finish it with enamel/patina.

i have reached out to LightbringerDesigns on Etsy who i’ve worked with in the past for previous rings i’ve designed, and i’ll have to see what he thinks.

UGH i need it.

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desire

is it a loss cause to be full of desire or is it just my fate to be set a fire? my heart burns so bright, for I cannot let go of this need to see where this feeling will go

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infinite

i believe in the infinite somewhere, the timing is different somewhere, the cost is nothing somewhere, we are something

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i have so much love inside me

and nowhere safe to put it

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three threads

three threads guide the fate of all when they entwine one pulls from the past with hands soft and kind and one bears the weight of the moment as it spins another becoming untouched by our sins

they sit in the endless beyond what we know their fingers move precisely weaving the unknown each life a fine filament caught in their grasp every choice tangling into the last

one holds the distaff, the beat of your heart one knots your sorrow, your triumphs, your faults one holds the last breath that no eye may yet see where what’s woven finds selvedge and ceases to be

walk as you will in the fate you are woven into something far greater than thread of your own for three guide the fate of all who begin and when they are ready they cut it again

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2026 Lunar Phases Graphics

Below are some graphics I made for a personal project that I'm working on. It includes the major phases for each month in 2026 for the northern hemisphere. You are free to use/edit them without crediting me, but please be sure to include credits to NASA (you can copy the credits I've provided at the bottom).

I like making graphics. If you use these in a project and would like to show me, that would be lovely. Okay, byeee!

January

February

March

April

May

June

July

August

September

October

November

December

Credit

All lunar phase imagery used in this collection was sourced from the NASA Scientific Visualization Studio (https://svs.gsfc.nasa.gov/) and the Moon Phase and Libration, 2026 tool. NASA content is in the public domain and used here with gratitude.

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half empty

take a handfull of pills this treatment's never ending and I can choose between numbness and sending myself to an early grave where you are waiting to see if stepping across the line returns feeling

to these pale fingers tingling and tired eyes this false start and stop and go and compromise and you ask me why i'm always sleeping searching for happiness in what i'm dreaming

for better days a better body and mind that isn't fighting against me or time and it feels like everything is running empty swing by the corner store and grab a coke slurpee

my therapist says the small things add up and make us whole but my little cup always seems to be half empty and maybe that's the wrong perspective for me

wanting so much more out of life than i deserve to have because i don't try enough to be something I'm fucking not i can't change who i am it's all i've got

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i am yours

the sea calls back what once it gave i am yours

you are the anchor pulling me to ground the only solace that i've ever found a colder kiss that leads me to my death the final, sweet releasing of my breath

beyond your home that’s built from fallen bones where the only light is how I carry on alone i’ll lure all the fools who take to sea  sacrifice them in your name if it would please

the sea calls back what once it gave  i am yours

let the currents have their way with me i'll shed this life to enter a new reality for in the depths, a truer form awaits beyond the pull of lonely, human fates

a creature of the dark and crushing blue whose single thought is only ever you and when your storms erode this fragile land i'll be the sand that slips right through your hand

the sea calls back what once it gave  i am yours

a continuation of i am yours