ᴘᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ʜɪɢʜ ʜᴇᴇʟs ᴏɴ

i am slowly falling apart. i wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start. NARCISSA BLACK 𝒶 𝓌𝑒𝑒𝒹 𝒶𝓂𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝓈

[nrcssuh]

SEPTIMA.

“ — hi. totally wasn’t eavesdropping, but i just felt like i needed to say you should definitely go with the FIRST option. ”

CISSA.

              ❛     𝐎𝐅  𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐄  𝐘𝐎𝐔  𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃.      Who  wouldn’t     ?     ❜     Her  tone  lacked  any  real  emotion     ,     falling  free  in  a  chilled  manner     .     Did  the  air  actually  get  colder     ?

[nrcssuh]

TED.

                           ❛ gee, let me guess, ❜ sarcasm dripped from his voice as ted spoke. although he realized she had a fair point, her words still agitated him. why couldn’t he and andromeda simply be left alone ? why did she have to hound him for answers, which she clearly knew already. why did she care so much ? was she really that prejudiced against him ? it was all a bit much. ❛ think whatever you like, okay ? just stay out of my way when doing it. ❜ 

CISSA.

                𝐒𝐇𝐄  𝐃𝐈𝐃  𝐍𝐎𝐓  𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖  𝐖𝐇𝐎  𝐓𝐄𝐃  𝐖𝐀𝐒      .     She  did  not  know  of  his  nicer  qualities      ,     how  he  would  do  anything  to  protect  his  family      ,     or  how  he  treated  her  sister  with  respect      .      What  Narcissa  did  know     ,     however     ,     was  that  this  boy  was  nothing  but  a  bundle  of  bones    ,     knees  figuratively  shaking  and  clanking  when  asked  a  simple  question       .        ❛     You’re  the  one  who  followed  me     ,     remember      ?      Or  is  one  sister  not  enough  for  you     ?      ❜

[nrcssuh]

TED.

                         she had him there. what answer could he possibly give her that would be satisfying enough ? not another lie, of course. ❛ no, it isn’t. not that you believe anything that i say, anyways. ❜

CISSA.

        𝐈𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐘 𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒     .     No  matter  how  beautiful  people  saw  Narcissa     ,     she  was  still  a  Black     ,      and  therefore  dangerous   and  feral     .     He  was  lucky  she  was  a  more  of  a  lady  than  her  oldest  sister     ,      or  heads  would’ve  rolled  instead      .       ❛      That’s  rather  dramatic     ,      Ted      .     I  have  very  little  to  do  with  relationships  and  romance     ;      I  have  no  interest  in  it     ,     but  I  know  it  when  I  see  it     .     I  don’t  trust  you  because  you’ve  foolishly  lied  to  someone  who  obviously  already  knows  the  truth     .     I  don’t  respect  you  because  you’ve  foolishly  lied  to  someone  who  obviously  already  knows  the  truth      .     And  I  won’t  feel  sorry  for  you  because       .  .  .      care  to  guess     ?     ❜    

[ashesandhalefire]

[1/∞] david rose moments

[nrcssuh]

TED.

                       unfortunately it took ted longer than it should have to understand her reference. he simply shook it off, not wanting any more to think about now. ❛ well, apparently that’s harder than you think. i mean, really, you’ve got some impossible standards. ❜

CISSA.

      ❛      Is  honesty  an  impossible  standard  for  a  man      ?       ❜      A  frown  marred  the  girl’s  aristocratic  features  as  she  waited  for  an  answer     .

[nrcssuh]

do you think you're your sisters' favourite sister?

     ❛      Honestly     ?     I’m  not  sure  I’m  anyone’s  favorite  anything  at  this  point      .      ❜

[nrcssuh]

what's your favorite article of clothing?

     ❛      I  have  a  sweater  I  rather  enjoy  wearing      .      I  borrowed  it  from  Sirius  when  we  were  younger       .      It  was  fairly  big  on  me    ,    but  I  grew  into  it      .      Eventually      .      ❜

[nrcssuh]

do you really resent andromeda for wanting to get out? or are you maybe just jealous she has the balls to do something you’ve always wanted to do?

      ❛      Andromeda  hates  everything  about  our  life    .     The  same  life   ,    I  should  remind  you    ,    that  I  am  a  product  of     .     So  naturally    ,     she  must  hate  me  too      .         ❜

     ❛      I  have  always  wanted  for  my  sisters  to  have  everything      .     There  is  no  shame  in  waking  up  and  wanting  something  more  out  of  life     .     I  understand  that  feeling      .      But  she  is  leaving  me  behind      .     She  is  lying  to  me     .     She  is  treating  me  like  an  imbecile    .       I  resent  Andromeda  because  she  is  undeniably  selfish  and  proud    .     She  claims  to  hate  our  world  and  yet  she  is  JUST  like  our  mother     .      ❜

[nrcssuh]

[nrcssuh]

DAISY.

“ — oh, definitely. we just have the one elf at home, and i love kibsy, but she’s so old that half the time she forgets she was cooking and burns dinner to a CRISP. i’ve started just making my own food. ”

CISSA. 

          ❛      I  suppose  that’s  one  way  to  rectify  the  situation    .     I’m  afraid  my  parents  prefer  a  far  more  permanent  means  of  correction    .    But  cooking     ,     huh     ?     And  how  is  that  working  out  for   you     ?    ❜

[kttyabbott]

% ø ✉ ( cissa )

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[ kitty — narcissa: 2:14pm ]  i might be a little under an influence right now so feel free to ignore this but[ kitty — narcissa: 2:15pm ]  what’s it like having sisters? instead of brothers, you know?? i bet it’s amazing 

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text. 

[ kitty — narcissa: 1:47am ]  i want slughorn to like me because potions is like, the only class that i’ve actually got a talent for. but you know how awful he can get right? like i feel like you get it with him [ kitty — narcissa: 1:48am ]  honestly i feel like i’m just glad that all the advanced classes have so many independent projects so i don’t have to spend that much time pretending i’m not creeped out by him  [ kitty — narcissa: 1:49am ]  but then i go back to wondering if it’s even worth being uncomfortable when i’m probably not going to be able to get a job in the field anyway with my scores in everything else. [ kitty — narcissa: 1:50am ]  sorry, you’re probably sleeping. anyway you can ignore this. sorry narcissa 

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

[ kitty — narcissa: 10:32pm [ DELETED ] ]  my mom always has really nice things to say about your family and my brother never really does. but you seem nice. [ kitty — narcissa: 10:32pm [ DELETED ] ]  i think you could be a nice person, anyway 

[blckandrmedas]

✉ ♀ & ( cissa )

a  text  that WASN’T  SENT  . 

[  drafted  —  11:42pm  ]:  i’m  leaving  after  i  graduate  .   i  want  you  to  come  with  me  .   you’re  not  just  my  sister  ,   you’re  one  of  my  best  friends  .   i  love  you  .   i  don’t  want  to  leave  you  .   especially  not  with  them  ,   please  ju

a HEARTBREAKING text  . 

[  sent  —  9:15pm  ]:  it’s  not  safe  for  me  at  home  .   not  anymore  .   these  holidays  solidified  something  in  me  ,   and  it  might  just  mean  i  have  to  make  the  toughest  decision  of  my  life  . [  sent  —  9:16pm  ]:  know  that  whatever  i  do  ,   cissy  ,   i  love  you  so  much  .   you  are  my  sister  and  that’s  never  going  to  change  .  

a LOVING text  . 

[  sent  —  1:28am  ]:  thank  you  for  making  dinner  somewhat  bearable  .   you  didn’t  have  to  stick  up  for  me  like  that  .   i  love  you  so  much  . 

[jaspcrflint]

% # ✉ ( cissa )

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[ jasper → narcissa, 7:39pm ] : what’s your favorite thing from honeydukes?  mine’s gotta be drooble’s.  kinda basic, but a classic.

Send “#” for a RANDOM text.

[ jasper → narcissa, 3:27pm ] : uh random compliment? but your makeup looks great today. 

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT. 

[ jasper → narcissa, drafted ] : you okay? just seemed… idk, kinda fucked up today. like emotionally. 

[acarrrow]

✆ % ✉ ( cissa )

Send “✆” for a MORNING text.

[ alecto — narcissa: 7:15am ]  do you want to grab breakfast together?   [ alecto — narcissa: 7:15am ]  the great hall is absolutely deserted so i doubt anyone’ll mind us ignoring the usual house seating.  

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text. 

[ alecto — narcissa: 5:38pm ]  are things alright with you and your sisters? i’m not around any of you often enough to know but it seems like there’s tension.  [ alecto — narcissa: 5:39pm ]  if not, of course, feel free to tell me to fuck off. [ alecto — narcissa: 5:40pm ]  i know family’s a personal thing. 

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT. 

[ alecto — narcissa: 10:24pm [ DELETED ] ]  i feel like we aren’t as close as we could be. it’d be nice if we were, wouldn’t it? but then i don’t have very many friends. 

[nrcssuh]

JASPER.

“who’s doing any interrogation?”

CISSA.

            ❛     How  was  your  break     ,     Jasper      ?     Did  you  have  fun     ?     What  presents  did  you  get      ?     Are  you  even  Christian     ?     Or  perhaps  Jewish     ?     Can  you  believe  what  they’re  printing  in  the  papers     ?     Are  you  nervous     ?      Did  you  go  to  that  Wicked  Witches  concert  over  the  break     ?       ❜

[nrcssuh]

TED.

                     he had really backed himself into a corner now, hadn’t he ? ted had known he would regret going after her, and now here he stood, palms sweaty, wishing he could take those last few moments back. it was obvious that she knew what was really going on here, yet he wouldn’t bring himself to give her the benefit. ❛ uh… well why would i want you to hate me ? i think we just got off on the wrong foot is all. ❜

CISSA.

            ❛      Unfortunately     ,     we’re  still  there     .     And  I’ve  been  told  I  have  weak  ankles     .       ❜      Pfft     .     Men     .      ❛      I  suppose    ,    if  you’d  like  for  me  not  to  hate  you     .  .  .     then  you  should  stop  giving  me  reasons  to     .    It’s  as  simple  as  that     .      ❜      

[nrcssuh]

ANDIE.    

       ❛   i’m  not  labelling  you  a  villain  ,   narcissa  .   i  would  never  .   though  perhaps  your  moral  compass  is  askew  .   or  maybe  you  just  don’t  think  before  you  act  .   whatever  the  case  ,   it  has  never  been  your  job  to  monitor  my  life  and  though  you  might  think  you’re  protecting  me  ,   you’re  only  making  things  worse  .    ❜    matching  the  younger  girls  straightened  posture  ,   andromeda’s  brow  furrowed  —  she  was  trying  her  very  best  to  keep  her  temper  in  check  ,   though  it  seemed  her  little  sister  was  not  so  willing  to  hide  .     ❛   don’t  be  childish  .   it’s  unbecoming  .   if  you  have  something  you  want  to  say  ,   or  something  to  ask  me  ,   then  now’s  your  chance  —  otherwise  i’m  leaving  .   i  don’t  have  the  time  to  play  your  games  .    ❜

CISSA.

            The  glare  she  cast  her  way  was  questionable  at  best    .     Did  she  expect  the  blonde  to  just  bow  down     ?     Much  like  their  parents  religiously  did      ?     Andromeda  had  not  only  lied  to  her  face    ,     repeatedly    ,     but  she  also  treated  her  like  an  emotional  mess  when  she  succumbed  to  her  disappointment     .     The  middle  child  had  made  her  choice  and  that  was  as  clear  as  day     .     ❛      You’re  right     .     I’m  not  a  child  anymore  and  I  shouldn’t  act  like  it     .     I  can’t  just  run  to  you  and  be  honest  about  how  unfair  I  find  the  world  to  be     .    Not  anymore    .     I  trusted  you  and  you  lied  to  me     .    There  are  things  that  don’t  come  free    ,     Andromeda     ,     and  I  am  tired  of  you  taking  my  loyalty  for  granted     .    So   no     ,     I  have  nothing  to  ask  you     ;    nothing  left  to  say     .     You’re  free  to  leave     .       ❜      Leaning  forward    ,      she  picked  up  her  book  and  opened  to  the  previous  page    ,     a  beautiful  bookmark  waiting  for  her     .     The  young  witch  was  wise  enough  to  understand  her  reasons   .    She  might  have  even  accepted  them  too     ,    but  the  obvious  fact  remained  that     ,     at  the  end  of  the  day      ,     she  found  her  desires  to  be  more  important  than  the  people  she  was  lying  to     ;     the  people  she  was  leaving  behind      .       There  was  nothing  brave  or  honorable  about  that     .