warnings for knifeplay / mentions of bloodplay⊠more than anything just kinda graphic/detailed talking about it. also just general roughness? itâs all consensual! s&m D/s dynamic. if youâre not about that kind of thing, probably pass on this one. and of course, lacking proper capitalization, iâm so sorry iâm like this.
âitâs so⊠pretty.â
the pocket knife isnât far off from something from reality. the shape is accurate, and its got a nice weight to it; the hilt fits naturally into swanâs palm, and the edge of the blade is diamond-sharp. the only thing that gives it away as a forgery is the transparency - most of the blade looks like steel, but the pointed tip is nearly invisible, ghostlike and shimmering, glassy quartz from another dimension.
âyeah, k said he didnât really mean for it to be see-through but it looks cool, so who the fuck cares.â swan folds the blade back into its handle and then flicks it out again; skovâs eyes follow it with interest.
âdid he make it just for you?â skov asks, sticking his hand out towards swan, palm flat up. âlemme see.â
when swanâs mouth lifts into a cruel smirk, skovâs limbs start to tingle. swan only smirks like that when heâs in a mood.
heâs been in a mood all day, really; last nightâs party had gone on too long and too late, and the evening (morning, really) had ended with swan cleaning up after kavinskyâs mess. k had over-indulged in various drugs and drinks, as usual, and provoked some random aglionby boy into a vodka-fueled fistfight that swan had to step in and finish because he was bigger and stronger and more sober than both of them.
skov supposes the knife is an attempt at an apology on kavinskyâs part, or as close as heâll ever get to giving one: sorry you had to knock a guy out on my behalf, hereâs a shiny dangerous object. go take out the pent-up aggression youâre still harboring.
âyou wanna see it?â swan grabs skovâs wrist, yanking him a few steps closer. he nearly trips from the force of it, and his chest surges with heat. âask nicely.â
âokay⊠lemme see, and iâll suck you off.â
âa simple âpleaseâ would work, but i like where your mind is at.â swanâs suddenly standing just inches from skov, looming above him, a hawk circling its prey. âk did make it special, just for me. i guess for me to play with.â
instead of handing the knife over, swan traces the knife along skovâs palm in a slicing motion, teasing and light, no pressure applied. it should feel like nothing at all, but the mere idea of swan pressing down and filleting the taut skin of his palm lights a slick curling fire in skovâs gut.
âhe was fucked up when he dreamed it into existence, so thatâs why itâs only âhalf baked.â his words. seems alright to me, though. should do the trick.â
âyeah,â skov agrees, eyes following the blade as swan crawls it down along the delicate tendons of his wrist, still too gentle to even leave a mark. when his breath catches in his throat, swan grins hungrily.
he says, âi think it could probably do some real damage.â
in one swift move, swan shoves skov backwards, and this time he does trip. without any grace, he stumbles and falls to the ground, smacking his elbows against the hardwood flooring before landing flat on his back with the wind knocked from his lungs. now swan is a silhouette above him, feet caging his torso, no longer a hawk but a different beast entirely, something darker, more savage.
âfuck,â skov wheezes. searing hot pain splinters its way from his elbows up through his forearms; for a nightmarish second he thinks he might puke. âthink you broke my fuckinâ elbows, man.â
âdonât be such a baby.â swan crouches down and tilts forward, shifting onto his knees so that heâs straddling skovâs chest. he rests his full weight there, heavy and warm, and suddenly breathing becomes more of a task than before. âyou act tough, but when it comes down to it, you canât handle shit. this is nothing. you want me to hurt you for real?â
heat prickles in skovâs cheeks and he canât tell if itâs from the pain, or because he canât breathe, or because heâs more turned on than he should be by any of this. probably a combination of the three. swan kneels up, no longer crushing skovâs lungs, and the crotch of his jeans brushes against skovâs chin while he gasps for air.
with one hand swan grasps his knife tightly, and the other finds skovâs wrists to bring them together over his head. skov registers swan telling him to keep his hands there and he feels himself nodding obediently, the rough denim and jagged metal zip of swanâs pants grinding against his chin.
âpretend youâre in handcuffs.â swan rolls his hips down and settles forward, leaning over to touch his teeth to the knob of one of skovâs sore elbows. âdefinitely not broken. youâre fine.â
inadvertently skov tenses, waiting for the stinging sensation of a harsh bite, but swan doesnât sink his teeth in. instead he swirls his tongue around and sucks on skovâs elbow, leaving a sloppy mess of saliva across the reddening skin.
it hurts as much as it feels good. skov just barely manages to muffle a desperate groan against swanâs hip. his brain thinks, âplease,â but the word that comes out is, âswan.â
âyes?â swan moves back, repositioning himself to sit astride skovâs thighs. âare you tapping out on me, perrito?â the nickname is usually sweet on swanâs tongue, but tonight itâs an insult, derisive and mean. skov wishes he didnât whimper at the sound of it, a pavlovian response. maybe the name does suit him.
âyouâre always so easy for sweet talking. especialmente en español.â
âmhm,â skov mumbles, blinkling slowly and staring up at swan. whose lips are swollen and glossy with spit, eyes half-lidded and smoldering. âi like it.â
âi know.â swanâs voice is a tigerâs growl. âÂżquieres que te corte con este cuchillo?â he drags the knife skov had almost forgotten about along the middle of his stomach. âi think you want me to.â
âi probably do,â skov assures him, even though he doesnât really know what swan even asked. heâs assuming itâs something involving this knife, and when swan presses the flat of it to the slant of his hipbone, he decides he definitely does want whatever swan is offering.
âyeah. i bet you fucking would let me cut you,â swan murmurs, âlet me slice you right open and leave a mark that wonât ever fully go away. better yet, let me stab you. wouldnât that be something.â he coaxes skovâs shirt further up his stomach, exposing a patch of mottled purple skin on his upper abdomen.
âi could do it,â continues swan, âright where i left this hickey last night.â with the curve of one fingernail, swan digs into the skin heâd broken blood vessels beneath the evening prior when theyâd both been drunk and messy, early on in at kâs party. âitâs more difficult than it seems like it should be, you know.â
âhmm?â skov presses his thighs up against swan impatiently. heâs tempted to touch swan, somewhere, anywhere, but he knows he needs to keep his hands where they are, wrists bound by sheer willpower. he zeroes in on the sensation of swanâs fingers against his skin. âwhat is?â
âstabbing someone. they make it look easy on television, in movies and shit. itâs not. you gotta be confident. make it meaningful.â swan touches another finger to the hickey and sneers when skov shivers. Â âyou scared?â
âoh, yeah.â skov thrusts his hips up, dick throbbing in his pants. âterrified.â
âyou have to do it with intention.â swanâs digging his fingers in now, like heâll be able to break through skovâs bruised skin with brute force alone. skov almost wishes he could. âyou wanna sink it in quick and deep.â
the cool crystalline tip of swanâs knife abruptly replaces his fingers, and skovâs head swims. Â
âbet youâd like the feeling of it, perrito. a nice sharp blade piercing through you. slipping inside.â swan dances the slant of the blade along the slope of skovâs bottom rib and exhales slowly. âgetting all fucking wet and warm with your blood. iâd wanna feel it, too. push my fingers in and open the wound a little. make you lick them clean.â
âoh, fuck,â skov breathes, âdo it.â
swan leans in close and takes the knife away, then jabs his knuckles into the tender skin of skovâs stomach twice, sudden and hard, setting his nerves alight with delightful flares of pain. his whole body buzzes with bliss.
with swanâs third jab, skov reflexively brings his hands in towards him, and he yelps when swan smacks them away and wrenches them up above his head again.
âdid i give you permission to move?â
skov realizes heâs panting as though heâs been at soccer practice. heâs gonna come without swan even getting a hand on his dick. his heart is rabbiting in his chest, adrenaline and anticipation zipping through his system. he says, âno.â
swan gives skovâs wrists a rough squeeze, holding them together. âthen donât move. i have a fucking knife here. youâre gonna hurt yourself, and thatâs not your job here. stay put until i tell you otherwise. got it?â
âgood,â swan says, giving skov a once-over. his gaze lands on skovâs dick where itâs straining against his pants, then flits to his pierced nipples where they peak the cotton of his shirt.
swanâs eyes flash; he looks ravenous, a panther sizing up his dinner. he cups skovâs face in his hand and purrs, âgood boy.â
it makes skov feel holy when the compliment tumbles from swanâs lips, words soft as black velvet. he leans into swanâs palm and nuzzles against it, affectionate.
âyeah. i know you like that. my good fuckinâ boy.â this time, swan punctuates the praise with a backhanded smack to skovâs cheek, followed with a loving stroke of his thumb. âpermĂtame, puppy. let me hurt you.â
when he nudges the edge of skovâs jaw with his blade, skovâs hips jerk up. swan grinds down against him and drops closer, propped on an elbow. he licks along skovâs throat and jawbone and smears his lips across skovâs tingling cheek, and skov feels his breath hot on his sticky skin when he repeats, âlet me.â
skovâs permission is implicit, and both of them know it.
the sharp steel of swanâs knife is cool against skovâs heaving stomach. it doesnât hurt when it slices, itâs more of a stinging burn, and itâs the sweetest relief skov could imagine, made impossibly sweeter when swan wipes at the fresh bleeding cut with one hand and crams the other down skovâs pants to wrap around his cock.
âso wet,â swan comments, and skov doesnât know whether heâs referring to the blood seeping from the new gash, or the precome dripping from his dick. each twist of swanâs firm grip lures him further out of his own head until he can think of nothing beyond how good he feels.
the sour tang of sweat and copper bursts on skovâs tongue when swanâs fingers push in between his lips. âcan you taste your blood?â swan asks. he tugs at skovâs dick and wriggles his fingers around inside skovâs mouth and laughs, low and satisfied, when skov comes.