spencer 🌟

spencer, she, 20 5’2” | sw 115 lbs | lw 101 lbs cw 106 lbs | ugw 100 lbs minors dni pls

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intro post ⭐️ hi I’m spencer!

welcome to my fucked up little diary

I started trying to lose weight a while ago and then kinda lost the plot. lmao. I <3 the gym and I’m a freak about macros, I want to build muscle at some point. I am also a college student so I post about that a lot and try to practice harm reduction even when it’s hard. I am recovering from bed. [this is an €d blog]

goals:

🌟 115 lbs

🌟 110 lbs - dan and phil patreon… don’t laugh..

🌟 105 lbs - new piercing!

⭐️ 100 lbs - dye my hair!

⭐️ break out of the binge cycle! (1/14 day streak sticking to my plan, longest streak 33 days)

⭐️ build muscle and core strength!

what I’m doing rn:

I eat roughly the same 3 meals and 2 snacks every day, and that ends up being around 80g protein and 25g fiber (ideal to me). currently aiming for 90g protein to encourage higher calories but may drop back down to 80g since I am losing access to some safe foods

I go to the gym 3x a week: MF are upper body, W is legs, and I do stretches and core exercises all 3 days.

goal 10k steps a day, absolute minimum 5k steps a day, but I am being careful to avoid overexerting myself

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I think I will also try to participate in research studies this summer to make some extra cash. found an mri one and I’ll try to email them today

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daily newsletter from my school now says “3rd year students” instead of 2nd 😟 why am I unc already

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I got my egg cooker in the mail :) now I can either shower while my eggs are cooking or make my oatmeal at the same time as my eggs yayayayay

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I don’t have wifi set up in the apartment yet so I should have gone to the library today. but I’ll do that tomorrow and instead I’ll do the most important shit on my phone, clear off my bed, and 😴

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I wasted so much time doing diamond art today. I enjoy it and it’s calming but I had shit to do so it’s just another way to procrastinate :|

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I’m only at 6k steps and I’m sooooo sleepy wtf. I see caffeine in my future also I need to start remembering to take my short acting adhd meds again

my goal for the day is 15k

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I think I’m going to have a fruit popsicle because it’s hot out and I’m dehydrated and it’s ok to have carbs :)

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first time having this flavor it was very good and refreshing 👍

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I think I’m going to have a fruit popsicle because it’s hot out and I’m dehydrated and it’s ok to have carbs :)

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I have new brooks with orthotic insoles Im supposed to wear to help my toes and they felt good in the store but tbh the more I wear them the more they just hurt my arches… I feel like I can’t tell if a shoe is good or not until I walk in them for a week or so. it’s not a huge deal though bc if they are bad I can try them without the insoles and I’m supposed to really be good abt replacing my sneakers every 6 months now so I also have another pair I can try in 6 months (nike structure plus)

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I am also in my visibly stimming in public era Ig ? it was enough to just finger spell or do something subtle with my hands the past few months but lately I have the itch to very obviously flap or wring my hands out and it’s hard to get myself to stop. maybe it’s bc I have more energy atm. it’s not necessarily a bad thing but Ik it makes people look at me differently when it’s people I know.

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breakfast already feels too big… granted I’m in a rush this morning but wow. gonna try to get up early enough that I can read with my breakfast and I also ordered a convenience egg cooker so the process will be faster soon. but today I’m gonna try to eat my egg whites n have a few bites of oatmeal and maybe I’ll have more when I get back? Idk lol

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Hi everyone! I’m finally back again! I’ve missed everyone so much😭🩷

Please share this so I can find my moots!

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got fruit punch mio to try and it’s so good! way cheaper way to satisfy my craving for 0cal sweet drinks

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I was having a crazy strong sensory craving for rice cakes and/or drizzilicious today that I think could actually be satisfied with cs… like it’s not a hunger craving it’s mostly the texture and to have a little bit of nice or neutral flavor. I think cs after a week of binging is a terrible idea though so I’ll keep this in the back of my head as maybe a reward for smth. I just wanna. cs 500cal worth and I would log 200cal to be safe probably. and I’d have to make sure the circumstances were just right so that it doesn’t turn into a binge. but for later.

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yayyy I love campus. took a 26min nap woke up with my timer and I’m walking to a souvenir shop half an hour away, I think there’s a used bookstore near it that I really want to check out too and my foot barely hurts and I get to waaaaalk

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waiting for my friend to pick up a mattress for my room (I’m subletting from him). I should have time to shower b4 he gets back so getting my ass in gear