beast monster thing

#1 htlt fan

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why can’t i sleep anymore bro let me sleep being awake SUCKS

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oh okay there’s something deeply wrong with me… oh well i have to go to college so let’s worry abt that later

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just realised i used to get sedated on a regular basis… how did i genuinely never realise that before ??

[number1htltfan]

i have a tendency to never get closure whenever i need it

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danganronpa! do do do do do do dodo do

[number1htltfan]

whenever someone i don’t know compliments me i remember they don’t know me and if they knew me they wouldn’t like me. i fear people only like the concept of me

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this one time when i was drunk i got all the lyrics to beast monster thing in my notes app and explained why i related to every single line

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after all these years i still need a name for what im feeling, so i can start to work on a meaning. there’s a reason i got those lyrics tattooed i guess #htltreference

[number1htltfan]

do i have bpd 🤔🤔🤔

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maybe i never had a successful attempt because i never did it the way i always wanted to 🤔

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i made shitty mango sticky rice for dinner because i have free will and also i wanted it so im trying to honour that or whatever hashtag recovery

[number1htltfan]

hello tumblr should i recover from my 3d

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[number1htltfan]

i can’t go back to not understanding what you mean to me

i’m turning into the person you were afraid i’d turn out to be

[number1htltfan]

i’m a horrible person

[number1htltfan]

nooo angel don’t blame yourself 😔😔💔

[number1htltfan]

anyone else ever get the random urge to self destruct and fuck everything up

[number1htltfan]

i feel like it’s mostly easier to decide everyone doesn’t like you because then when they prove they actually DO like you it feels really special. better than assuming everyone likes u then finding out everyone hates you and wants u to kys