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sleep should be optional

So true.

TW VENT

it didn't work last time but it will this time. Ill take more. I'll tell the people I care about that their like family to me. They might not care but that's fine. They won't know what I did until they don't see me online for longer than a few months. At first they'll think I got grounded. I am leaving this shitty, horrible, disgusting world.

#vent post #tw vent

kokichioumatrash

@oversleptstarlight went to the daycare yesterday and took friends along in spirit!! Kiwi doodle :3

kokichioumatrash

Yep yep 🐞

numberoneteassfan

OH MY GOD I DIDNT NOTICE ME THE FIRST TIME! IM THE PURPLE WOLF! THANKS KIWI

VENT

Theres gonna be a data center built near my home making the water ditier and more expensive when my family barley getting by as is. The school supplies list. My mom had to get just the basics until her next paycheck comes. So I won't have most of my school supplies for a while. I'm on the verge of another relapse. My mom is trying her best but its not enough. I can barley find reasons to live each day and my mom won't let me get antidepressant cuz she says ill get addicted meanwhile she blows dabs in my sister face to help with her anxiety. We have insurance that would cover medication but my mom just says we'll get addicted. She won't take me to a mental evaluation even though my therapist keeps recommending it. My therapist told her that I needed to be put in a mental hospital for my own safety. I can't keep going like this. My moms unknowingly toxic. When ever I say something she doesn't like or agree with she says "your just like your dad" *if I were to explain why that's such A bad thing this post would be so long* its breaking down my already shitty mental health. Vivi out.

#tw vent #vent post #personal vent

Tw mentions of suicide

i am tired of living. I have a bottle of Dayquil and no will to live people. Goodbye. All my followers mean so much to me but I can't keep living like with.

VENT

I binged again I got cookies and I ate the whole pack. I'm fat as fuck. If I end up throwing up and my bulimia comes back I'm gonna be pissed with myself.

#tw vent #eating disorder

kokichioumatrash

Human Mako

numberoneteassfan

Their so cute, Kiwi! Good work!

NEW SHIP IDEA!

Suntea x Jupiter. Just imagine it Sun helps Jupiter feel confident about her body and her prosthetic. Jupiter helps Sun learn to cook.

#Suntea x Jupiter

Vent

theres a active CPS investigation into my family. I could be taken away again.

I apologize if I said anything hurtful yesterday. I was so drained of energy and became snappy, I meant absolutely none of those words.

Its fine. I'm used to being snapped at constantly

Vent

My parents can barley afford food and we only got reduced lunch and breakfast instead of free this school year. And my mom doesn't get food stamps cuz she's 20 dollars over the limit. Those food stamps were what kept my family afloat. Were now barley surviving. We have practically no food.

#tw vent

TW:VENT AND MENTIONS OF SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND SELF HARM

Im trying to hard to be bright and funny and kind and follow all the rules. It gets hard when I realise I'm no ones favorite person. I'm losing myself. I fear I have no personality. I have to try so hard not to relapse or attempt again. I can't keeping going like this. I cant just keep going as if I don't have MULTIPLE PTSD and panic attacks daily. I can barley get threw most days and with school coming up soon is gonna make that so much harder. I feel like everyone around me wouldn't even notice if I didn't wake up tomorrow. If I were to just not be here tomorrow no one would notice. AND IF THEY DID THEY PROBABLY WOULDNT CARE. cuz who cares about the girl who tries to hard? That's right, no one. People don't care until your rich, pretty or dead. I can't be two of those so ill end up being the last one soon. Vivi logging off.

#tw vent