Alas, the desired golden thread, that missed tone of joy sounds in my heart, the gold strand shines so bright in my head.
The renewal of hope fills my mind, I was lost, but, I have been found. My good Lord is calling the secret name in my soul, I am strengthened and pleased by the sound.
The test seems too burdensome to bear, I know it's been me in the way. I must give up my illusions and heed my soul's master, it's required I become God's eager slave.
Every thing I might turn to first, every crutch that I've leaned on instead; I know in my heart, it's time to let go and put my illusions to death.
Every worry I have, every thought in my mind, I must give it to God, with all of its kind. Every pleasure I sought, every comfort I've kept, I must give them to you and your ways I'll accept.
It's a lot to think of it, all the layers of lies, worldly knowledge, I regarded cannot help me to be wise.
I must become just like a child, hanging on Christ's every word. I must never disregard it and obey all I've heard. For only God is wisest, and in his will I see, exactly what my soul really needs to be free.
Yet I've been a bitter clinger to so many broken ways. But, I've known I need deliverance for years and months and days.
I've reaped the same pain, and yet the same seeds are sewn, powerless it seems to enact all I've known.
But God has the strength and knows all, which I don't, he's able to strengthen those areas I won't.
It's what my soul wants, to receive that good grace, but, in order to receive it, I MUST make the space.
I can't carry my old self and become the new, I must let go of past patterns, and really be through.
I know once I give up all that I don't need. God's golden grace will fill me and replace those old seeds.
The test is the patience and perseverance to stand, empty and willing to let God take my hand.
Faith is required to let go of what I know, to forgo easy comforts and let him tell me where to go.
For if I find the faith to simply put to death sin. The strength of Christ's Spirit will fill my heart and dwell within.
By Tara Allgood
















