Nurse Diaries

23. Emergeny Nurse. ;

[the-suicide-effect]

"It all starts with not wanting to get out of bed, that's how you know you're getting bad again"

[battling-my-demons]

[nursediaries]

Lonely

Hi guys.

Today was awful. I had to call out of work for the first time because of N/V/D :( that I have had for three days now. I hate calling out of work because it leaves my team down and I hate letting my team down. I just try to remember it’s better to call out when your sick instead of going in and getting other people sick and then basically neglecting myself some more for 12+ hours. 

I quarantined myself to my bed today to rest because I am trying to go to work tomorrow and Monday. I feel better than I did this morning, but my mental health has suffered because I have spent the day in my room, alone.

I feel lonely. Why do I desire to be loved? Why do I desire to want a boy to like me and give me attention? Is it because I have no girlfriends and I know how to talk with boys easier than girls? I want to be okay with being alone and I don’t know if that feeling will ever go away? It’s been 6 months since I broke up with my ex. I am in a way better place than I was with him but I am not where I want to be. I want to be confident alone. I want to be content with myself and making myself happy. I don’t wanna receive happiness and rely on that through others. So as lonely as I am right now, i know this is good for me. 

I’ve stayed off of social media even though I want to look so bad. I know that I would just be disappointed if I looked though, especially tonight, Saturday, a night I usually go out. I can’t wait for the day I can finally say I am happy alone. More happier than now at least. I know life isn’t perfect but it can be better than the negative energy I am cultivating inside right now. 

xoxox

[inspiredbyfashionxo]

break ups suck because you know it’ll take him 2 weeks to find a decent girl but you have to go through hell for the next 2 years just to find a guy who isn’t straight out of a Law and Order SVU episode

[absandsquats]

[absandsquats]

[boobsbuttsandbodies]

[gigi-hadid-fashion]

[gymaaholic]

You won’t always feel at the top of your game

But you still have to show up. That’s consistency.

https://www.gymaholic.co

[cdnnurse]

[cdnnurse]

[itsbulimicdyingtobeskinnyagain]

I became a walking chaos. Full of emotional baggage, poisonous thoughts and a destroyed body. But most of all, a mind that has been completely damaged.

(via itsbulimicdyingtobeskinnyagain)

[myopressivedepression]

I’m so tired of this

[clitdad]

Thicc T sleepy boi

[system-of-a-feather]

Seriously, sleep is not for the weak though. Sleep is very important and it should be a priority if possible. Naps are good and important. Sleep, when you have mental health issues, is often a difficult thing, but don’t fear sleep. Sleep doesn’t make you weak, it helps your brain be strong and it helps you regulate your emotions and process the events around you better.

Best of luck sleeping to anyone reading this! I hope you sleep well tonight! May good dreams come your way!

[emotionalwords]

[did-you-know]

If you didn’t sleep well last night, you can still feel awake if you just convince yourself you aren’t tired. ‘Placebo sleep’ not only improves cognitive function, it makes you perform better than when you spend the day thinking about being tired. 

(Source, Source 2, Source 3)