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I feel so comepletely overwhelmed some days. Like no matter what choice I make, it will lead me down a path of failure and hardship. I’m still trying to figure out what the point is.

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In order for there to be change, I have to change.

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Dear Hannah,

Thank you for doing something good for yourself. Thank you for flossing and washing your face every night before bed. Thank you for exercising regularly. Thank you for eating nourishing foods. You’re learning how to take care of yourself. You’re learning how to love you. I’m proud of you. You’re on the right path. Keep going.

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Today was the first day I could feel that foggy dark veil slowly lifting. I cried and it felt good and awkward at the same time. This time is going to be different.

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Day one of trying to take care of this thing.

Neck 16”

Chest 46”

Left Arm 15”

Right Arm 15”

Waist 40”

Belly button 44”

Hips 45”

Butt 45”

Left Thigh 28”

Right Thigh 28”

Weight 198.2

Height 5’2

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The last four years of my life have been a whirlwind. I have harbored hatred, anger, and sadness and it’s all manifested itself into my heart and my body. It’s all showing up and I can see it. I can feel it. I am making the steps to release these heavy layers because my life is not promised. Tomorrow is not promised. I cannot hold on to these feelings of pain for a second longer. I cannot waste anymore time. I cannot hesitate. I want to feel connection and love and freedom.

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It’s important to have things you are grateful for... to have things that are good in our lives.

I’m thankful for the support I have around me.

I’m thankful for the relationship I have with my sister and the ones I will develop with my brothers.

I’m thankful for my job and my salary because it allows me to do things that I enjoy.

I’m thankful for the beauty in nature because it provides the always well needed escape.

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Dear Hannah,

Why are you doing this? Why is this important to you? Are those reasons enough? Are they the right reasons? Please don’t give up. Find the right reasons and keep going.

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My body is in so much pain. I need to make alleviating this pain my main priority so that I can move my body more. I will try to incorporate as many things as I can each week:

Stretching

Epsom salt baths

Hydrotherapy

Massage/Cupping/Guasha

Foam Rolling

Taking care of my body and managing my pain is a form of self love. I think this is a good starting point.

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Today I feel like I’m busting at the seams. It’s hard to move and I feel very uncomfortable and out of control.

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Phase One: Nurturing My Mental, Emotional, and Spiritual Self.

Dear Hannah,

Thank you for taking the steps. Thank you for seeking help. Thank you for keeping up with it. Therapy, acupuncture, and regular reading... will it help? What else can we do? Are there other options? Keep looking, questioning, and fighting... It has to help. Don’t be afraid. Good things will come of this.

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I am capable of being my best self. I know what I want it to look like, I know how to get there and I am capable of doing the work.

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Dear Hannah, 

Focus. You don’t know who you are. I’m not sure you’ve ever known. It’s time to figure it out. It’s time to intentionally live your life. You need to take care of yourself. Do you know what that means? Do you know what it means to love and take proper care of yourself? You were not taught this. It is time for you to learn because you are capable of better. You want better. You’ve been holding yourself back from better. Are you done yet? You’ve given up. Are you done yet? Focus. 

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