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It does feel like death in a way

It feels like death in a way

It feels like death.

In a way.

Separation from normal

Even if Hell

Hell looks okay

Fair weather devoured

Five water drops

One thousand apologies

It felt like death. In a way.

Looking backward

When Anne died

Wanting to burrow

Picture your self

Suit on tie

Stoic Pale Face

We sip whiskey

Neat no ice

Trapped inside time

It felt like death in a way.

Mornings after mistakes

Evenings without meaning

Cold cereal coagulation

Foot over foot

Akin to Everest

Glacial slides Eastward

Normality nixes shadow

History begins anew

Routine replacing Anxiety

It felt. Like death. In a way.

I crossed over

Miracles refusing cease

Wholeheartedly unified Again.

Kintsugi creating patterns

Marking multiple cracks

Charting light subsumed

Tired without precedent

Submerged under motion

Sleep softly sirens

When upon waking

Feels like death.

In a way.

It does feel like death. In a way.

Tension

They fall apart.

The push and the pull

Like strings

Like sparks

Like stone.

Atomic weight

Emotional strain

The narrow thread of the divine.

I’m sorry if I

Ex plo dimp lode

Expo limp pose

Expose in fold

Explode/Implode

Explode & Implode

Exposed

I’m fighting and figuring

Things out

Because all I have is

Tension

Between what is and what is not

And all of this happening at once

Is the heated test of metal

The tension

And release

Of all that holds…

#jesse nussbaum #nussbaum #poetry #tension

Worry Less; Smile More

Enjoy Art.

Consider the Skulls of Your Enemies.

Breathe Deeply; Drink Good coffee.

Become unmovable….

The secret here is to learn how to not have enemies. There is no Us vs Them. There is only Us and how we treat those who are not.

I am not I violent or angry person. It’s been awhile since I was truly angry. I joke a lot about “being a villain” or “The Skulls of my enemies”, but deep down I don’t want violence. I don’t even like confrontation.

The last 6 months have been a wild ride. I’ve been robbed of time with my kids. I’ve been arrested, falsely accused, and slandered. I’ve had every opportunity to “be a victim” and let my circumstances dictate my actions. But I’m tired of fighting people who want to fight me. “Love you enemies” was something that Christ spoke. That doesn’t always mean they’re your opponents- it means they think you are the one who needs destroyed. My enemy is hate and bigotry and anyone who would seek to destroy truth and beauty and joy…

At the end of the day, I want to live well and happy and healthy. I want better for myself and people who would call me an enemy. I want better for my children and for the people who love them. I want to enjoy good wine, good bourbon; I want to eat a delicious cheeseburger with no regrets.

It’s easy to sink into the doom and gloom of circumstance… or you can rise to the challenge and meet the new dawn every day. I saw a short documentary film festival this week and the quote that stuck with me from one of them is “What’s the point of all this knowledge if we’re not going to do anything with it?!”

Love life. Love where you are. Let other people enjoy things. Use what you know to make the world a better place.

What have you got to lose?

The World When

Normal looks crazy

Outside the circle

Sitting here

In airplanes

And flannel

In rental cars

And big thoughts

An actual adult

Chews watermelon bubble gum

Wearing sneakers

With headphones on.

Someone left

A bottle of Merlot

Toaster tongs

Blackberry jam

A barrel aged stout.

All delicious.

All along the afternoon

Foot prints grow

Like heart beats

Like heart

Beats

Stepping

Farther

Away

Until they echo

HATE YOU

Instead of

love you

(Whispered in the first place)

You’re rubber.

I’m glue.

All this bouncing back

Gets expensive.

So.

I’ll carry the weight

Until you recognize the truth:

I still love you.

No matter how normal things get.

Hi.

I’ve been away for a really long time.

How are you?

75orchids

FACT:

Usage of the word “The” has begun to decline. This is because as more and more people become educated, usage of the word “Thoum’st” has become more common.

openinmotion

quick question what happened 2009

underrateddoormatt

That’s when we were all using “teh”

roboco-san

got curious and “teh” has an almost identical dip at exactly the same point in time. what the hell happened in 2009

thenewborndeity

We all just shut up in 2009.

wankadoodles

alone on a friday night?

A Treatise on When I get Better:

All the current

In the dark

Couldn’t move me scare me or otherwise

Move us into silence

Or the blessed spark of innocence.

Here’s hoping you choke

On the ashes of my inevitable rise

Demure and splendid ignorance

Falters when the sun strikes

I’m alive and spinning and on fire

nevver

Winter in Aizu, Kiyoshi Saitō

shisasan

𝙰𝚕𝚎𝚓𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚛𝚘 𝙹𝚘𝚍𝚘𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚜𝚔𝚢

jellyfish-everywhere

EVERY BODY KNOWS SHITS FUCKED

bogleech

I can verify this because I like, live out here and stuff, it’s pretty weird to watch the news call it a burning warzone every day

furbearingbrick

this is how propaganda works

cliff-snowpeak

Ah yes, because everyone knows, absolutely no ones’ lives or property are in danger until the entire city has been reduced to rubble.

bogleech

It’s literally like one block of downtown that it’s all focused in.

Few things have sustained more than a broken window or some graffiti.

Photos and videos of completely trashed buildings are including those that have been that way for years.

Stats on closures and financial losses are being confused with those related to covid-19.

The news keeps mentioning the same two or three little “family owned” businesses that got hurt in outbreaks of panic but can’t seem to come up with any more than that.

That’s because downtown is dominated by places Starbuck’s, Rite-Aid, Target, Apple, Microsoft, Nordstrom Rack, Whole Foods, Men’s Warehouse, Payless, AT&T, Sprint, Doc Marten’s and other big chain brands.

Brands which themselves cost hundreds of people their livelihoods or homes when they came here, which people were already angry about before any of this happened.

This is in fact one of the fastest gentrified cities in America.

Oops, I forgot the scientology building got vandalized too. Poor babies.

And STILL, the most that’s happened to the majority is a little graffiti.

Vandalism of business was already commonplace in a city where so much business was lost to gentrification, and the relationship between several major companies and its citizens already strained for very good reason. In fact, this isn’t even a downtown location, but a beloved bowling alley people were hoping to see reopen a couple years ago:

And here it is now:

Damage to inanimate things such as property is an inevitability when large numbers of people are angry together. It’s also undeniable that American law enforcement violates people’s rights every single day, people have protested that for generations without seeing it get better, and outrage over that is justifiable no matter whose bricks or plaster or linoleum gets caught in the crossfire. All media attention to “damaged businesses” is a distraction from what actually matters, on top of being ridiculously overblown.