usual idiot

thorough angst// instagram: @sycther

[littlestpersimmon]

To be loved is to be changed..

[nyeto]

had some warm rice with butter and salt.

want to send nick a photo of bubbles and an apology.

[nyeto]

why do I have so much jealousy whenever I see someone my age get success? I just can’t figure out how to be authentic to just myself, and move on when instead of stop obsessing about something I know nothing about about

[nyeto]

it’s because capitalism is designed to keep the proletariat competing with themselves

[weepingwidar]

Andrew Beck (New Zealander, 1987) - Great White Egret (2024)

[nyeto]

why do I have so much jealousy whenever I see someone my age get success? I just can’t figure out how to be authentic to just myself, and move on when instead of stop obsessing about something I know nothing about about

[bugthingsdaily]

Today's bug thing is this ant vase by Bradley Macom!

[pissvortex]

[songfawn]

Hm i wonder why i feel so disconnected? *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afar* *watches from afa

[nyeto]

my hands are constantly cramping and hurting?

[nyeto]

I just rotted today but at the end of the day nick came and made my chilly paneer and stayed by my side and I was a bit happier

[nyeto]

feeling like i have stopped taking time to notice beauty and photograph it. im envious of aesthetics of other peoples instagrams posts and their presentation of themselves. all i post about is stupid graphic design or nothing. maybe i can try again. it’s keeping me up tonight.

[nyeto]

im so hurt and angry. I feel like a lot of resentment has build up. I talked to a few people about it and honestly I agree with 0931 the most. I don’t need this. I don’t want to be someone’s pick up person who can’t get enough respect that my surroundings are clean in the morning. I know im spiraling a little but honestly i read enough about other people’s relationships that how I get punished is not fair.

[nyeto]

feeling terrible after hanging out with people you have nothing in common with 🛏️

[ryoga-deactivated20231223]

[nyeto]

cried and had a fight w 0723 but I think it helped us make sense of what each other is feeling

went to a pioneer works event and ran into many ppl like tega Zach Gaia will raj

Going to the art book fair tmrw. everyone’s talking abt it

[byjove]

just wanted a visual demonstration since I was talking about how much I love them

[bubobubosibericus]

Mules are like horses with the self destruct button removed

[wolfeyedwitch]

...do you mean the 'self preservation instinct' removed????

[byjove]

No, absolutely not. It’s the opposite. Mules will straight up refuse to do things if they don’t have the confidence that they can complete it. This is where the term “stubborn as a mule” comes from. A horse would attempt these feats and break its weak little ankles and roll over and kill its rider. Mules do this because they know they can. That’s also why mules and donkeys are used as mounts around the Grand Canyon, they’re both sure-footed and stubborn and will refuse to do things that put them and the rider in danger when a horse would listen to the call of the void and just do it. Donkeys are less domesticated than mules, less dependent on humans and more self-assured, this is why they can be harder to train but also why they have such great self-preservation skills. A mule inherits those traits from its father.

[amberautumnfaebrooke]

has anyone noticed recently that it's expensive

[sociallyawkwardrevolution]

times like these really make you appreciate pouring river water in your socks