hello, reader! call me nyx or nymph. i'm a 24 year old agender bisexual with borderline personality disorder, among many other various disorders. i have been writing self insert fanfiction for quite a number of years (i used to be @opalesense before i forgot my password, not even exaggerating), and now real person fiction in general. i try my best to give a sense of voice and humanity through my writing.
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upcoming projects.
"something about us" ch. 22
schlatt x reader gunplay nsfw !
gale x reader fluff
will write for : jschlatt primarily because heâs actually my boyfriend irl, but am also considering branching out to gale (bg3), mauga (ow2), dan avidan, going back to genshin content, and more.
current anons : N/A
masterlist.
newest post is marked in green. mature content is marked in red. sorted by publish date.
schlatt
12 / 2024 : outtake from "something about us" on tumblr [411 words] where some miscommunication is cleared up between you and schlatt regarding sleeping on a couch together while drunk.
03 / 2023 - ongoing : "something about us" on AO3 [21/32 @ 169k words] where you navigate an entirely new life after escaping an abusive relationship by confiding in a content creator you seem to barely know. slowburn friends to lovers.
09 / 2020 : outtake from "something about us" on tumblr [1,290 words] where schlatt feels emboldened while sharing a hotel room with you.
genshin impact
01 / 2022 : "stress relief" on tumblr [4,817 words] where you alleviate some of zhongli's stress.
10 / 2021 : "a winner's prize" on tumblr [2,276 words] where you spar with childe.
09 / 2021 : "sweet nightmare" on tumblr [786 words] where kaeya wakes you up while you're dreaming about him.
09 / 2021 : "you're mine" on tumblr and AO3 [7,382 words] where childe comes home to you and kaeya after weeks of being pent up.
05 / 2021 : "we've only just begun" on tumblr [610 words] headcanons of childe and a bratty significant other.
05 / 2021 : "over the counter" on tumblr [6,537 words] where kaeya catches you and diluc sharing an intimate moment with each other.
04 / 2021 : "unfamiliar feeling" on tumblr [1,054 words] where childe discovers an intimate secret about you.
04 / 2021 : "the rest you deserve" on tumblr [1,144 words] headcanons of how diluc, childe, and scaramouche would react to you passing out from exhaustion.
04 / 2021 : "a funny secret" on tumblr [899 words] where kaeya coerces an intimate secret out of you.
04 / 2021 : "lose control" on tumblr [3,478 words] a sequel to "a sight to behold" where zhongli, childe, diluc, and kaeya can't resist their urges.
04 / 2021 : "one goodbye kiss" on tumblr [1,055 words] where diluc gets flustered after being kissed in public.
04 / 2021 : "a sight to behold" on tumblr [1,1911 words] where zhongli, childe, diluc, and kaeya find you stuck in a wall.
04 / 2021 : headcanons on tumblr [1,174 words] for kaeya, diluc, childe, and zhongli.
03 / 2021 : "snow finch" on tumblr [970 words] where diluc enjoys a picnic at dawn winery with you.
03 / 2021 : "sweet, silent praise" on tumblr [611 words] where you and childe are interrupted while getting intimate.
03 / 2021 : "darkest fantasy" on tumblr [3,792 words] where childe indulges in one of his more dubious fantasies with you.
03 / 2021 : "dinners at diluc's" on tumblr [5,566 words] where sharing dinner with kaeya and diluc turns very dirty, very quick.
03 / 2021 : nsfw headcanons on tumblr [806 words] for kaeya.
03 / 2021 : nsfw headcanons on tumblr [808 words] for diluc.
03 / 2021 : "you asked for it" on tumblr [4,257 words] where kaeya catches you doing something without permission while he is away for work.
03 / 2021 : nsfw headcanons on tumblr [1,191 words] for zhongli.
03 / 2021 : "when it comes to you" on tumblr [351 words] headcanons of what kaeya is like in a relationship with you.
03 / 2021 : "hopelessly devoted" on tumblr [1,367 words] where you confront zhongli about his workaholic schedule.
03 / 2021 : nsfw headcanons on tumblr [770 words] for childe.
03 / 2021 : "more than friends" on tumblr [2,077 words] where kaeya surpises you on valentine's day.
03 / 2021 : "the last appointment" on tumblr [3,492 words] where zhongli receives a reading from the most esteemed fortune teller in liyue â you.
graphics from cheruvic (deactivated), grimskullzbckup, and lilysgguk.
my favorite comment on SAU within 2025 definitely has to be SAU getting called a "once in a lifetime fanfic" like wow. i'm pleasantly stunned. that is some movie critic review kind of language, the type you'd see pop up in trailers all dramatic and shit. i'm so honored!
live action SAU would be insane... it's already so dramatic in writing LOL.
i'm thinking of maybe doing some short fics/hcs for schlatt to warm back up into the fluff side of him (that will be used in the next chapter of SAU because we're finally leaning out of the angst era â see, i'm not cruel) but i'm sort of struggling to come up with original ideas! if anyone has any suggestions they want to send my way, feel free to do so. ⥠no guarantee i'll get to all of them, though...
hi everyone! i hope you enjoyed the latest chapter of "something about us" despite how long it took to update (and i apologize a million times and more about the hiatus!)
i wanted to repost this comment on the chapter as well as my reply to it, because the chapter not only includes a touchy subject, but it also references a real life situation that was difficult to write about, and even more difficult to decide to release. i really appreciate the honesty of this comment and felt it was important to repost here as well.
i think we can all agree that real person fiction blurs the line in terms of respect to real life people. when i initially wrote this story in 2020, i never intended on posting it online because i felt it pulled on my moral compass to choose to portray real people without having ever met them or known them personally. as i continue writing for this work and the "characters" become more complex, balancing reality and fiction does get difficult, as i let my own personal experiences and emotions seep into the story.
writing this latest chapter was emotionally taxing considering the real life situations that occurred surrounding this person. for my sanity as well as yours, i want to assure everyone that this chapter is the heaviest that this story will get, and future chapters will continue to deal with mature subjects, but never to this level.
i tried to be as respectful, raw, and realistic as i could in this chapter without crossing the threshold of just plain disgusting, all while furthering the plot in a way that makes sense (because it will make sense in the future, i promise.) in its initial draft, the chapter was a bit more explicit and scary, and i'm glad i edited it last week before publishing it a few days ago to be a just a smudge more tasteful.
thank you all for supporting this fic, and please don't be afraid to express your thoughts on the story, even if it seems controversial!
i guess since we r mentioning songs rn "are you satisfied" by marina has been reminding me of the reader...
i am uh. two months late to replying to this. BUT YES i absolutely agree! i really love marina and grew up listening to her, and this song is hands down an amazing representation of SAU's reader! especially that second verse into the second pre-chorus. chef's kiss. mythical pull. time to relisten to that entire album before i go to bed, haha.
something about us [XXI] "seethrough" â a preview!
summary: this veryyy short snippet happens after a scene where the reader is just recovering after being roofied.
warnings: brief mention of a knife
notes: it's finally here! this preview is really short because literally any other snippet from this chapter would be major "spoiler" territory! aside from that... oh my god i'm so sorry for just dying for four months. it has been a very stressful few months, but i'm so glad i've finally been able to finish this chapter! i think a lot of you will like it purely because of the ending but... you'll have to sit through some gut wrenching things before you get there. sorry </3
âHey,â Schlatt slowly walks forward, then kneels beside you, carefully watching your knife follow his face. â[Y/N], câmon. Weâve known each other for years. I would never dream of hurting you. Iâm here to help. We need to get you out of here. And Iâm firing that son of a bitch as soon as possible. I promise, I just want to help you.â
You canât even see him. Your vision is so dark and distorted, that all you can recognize of him is the shape of him in his costume, and his softened voice.
âJâŚâ
âYes, [Y/N]?â
âI canât even feel my legs, J. Iâm so scared. I feel like Iâm gonna fall asleep.â
Schlatt takes a deep breath, trying to decide on what to do. âOkay. Just put the knife down, and Iâll take care of everything else. I know itâs hard⌠but youâre gonna have to trust me.â
Trust? When have you ever fully trusted someone? Every time you have put your full trust in someone, you have gotten hurt. How is now, of all situations, the best time to trust someone?
However, youâre running out of options, anyway.
You drop the knife onto the floor, hearing the clatter of the metal scrape the stone once again. Schlatt reaches over to tuck the blade back into its handle, starts picking up all your belongings, then places everything back into your purse. He holds your purse out to you. âI just need you to hold onto this. Then Iâm going to pick you up, weâre gonna stop by Ted to get his keys, and Iâm going to take you to his truck to lie down. Is that okay? Is it okay if I carry you?â
Your brain is too tired to make a fully conscious decision. âYes,â is all you say, before Schlatt hands you your purse, tucks his right arm under your knees and his left arm under your back, then lifts you up slowly. Youâre surprised heâs able to perform a motor task like that while drunk, but as soon as that surprise settles in, you are completely knocked out.
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just finished reading the fic like 2 days ago, (within the span of 3 days,, lol,,) and all i can think about is how "love me not" by ravyn lenae basically sums up the whole dynamic between the two of them,,,
guh im so brainrot and excited for the next chapter !!!!
first of all, thank you so much for reading! i noticed whenever people discover 'something about us,' they tend to binge it within a few days which i love haha, considering it's been years in the making. you guys need to slowly let it consume you for years like i have đ /j
second of all, i listened just now and love it, you're so right! i especially love how there are parallels in the lyrics that can be applied to both the dynamic between the reader and schlatt, but also... the dynamic between the reader and ben (albeit, it's only been vaguely touched upon. for now.)
while yes it's still unfinished so it may not super clear right now, the whole story in general is meant to convey the ripples that trauma can have on future relationships, friendships, and yourself, and how "healing" is nonlinear. what i like about the song is that it kinda sounds like you're slipping and stumbling, almost obsessively letting thoughts of the other person swallow you, but internally rejecting it at the same time because vulnerability is y'know. terrifying. this is so similar to what it's like to battle with mental health issues. love for another person is just as difficult to process and accept as it is to love yourself after going through something life-altering.
but uh... it's still a schlatt x reader fic. LOL
so the next chapter is looking REALLY long, but you guys will like it, especially if you've been missing the fluff/romantic tension between these two. it makes me giddy writing it, but it's nowhere close to polished so i apologize for it taking so long to be published!
i'll only drop one major song from the song list for the next chapter, and then disappear into the void for another decade... (i'm really busy with work lately, super sorry tumblr and discord people!!)
underneath all the brainrot youtube slop with that grumpy "i hate my fans" attitude is a man who baby voices his cats and has smothered them with kisses from cute aggression. think about that while i leave for another six weeks. #canon
somewhat of an og something about us reader here! i just recently found out you've updated the fic a few times since i last was active on ao3 like a year ago? so i've been eating these recent chapters UPPP and i LOVE how you portray schlatt obviously because the story is focused on him. but i especially love the way you portray how the reader handles abuse and self harm, it resonates with me so deeply as someone who has survived that kind of thing. the bouts of avoidance, the inner monologue, the sudden flashbacks, EVERYTHING. it's so realistic and i can tell you write with personal experience. your fic is definitely a comfort fic for me so please please i beg KEEP UPDATING!! i'm so emotionally attached it's not even funny anymore. sorry if that's weird đ but finishing the recent chapter just has me in shambles omg i'm so emotional right now and i had to share my appreciation
aww honey you're so sweet! first, thank you for supporting the fic for that long, i'm astonished whenever i get comments from people who have been supporters for a year or more because of my infrequent updates. it goes to show that at least a few people out there are as passionate about the work as i am. and yes, since i write with personal experience, it truly means the world to me that bits and pieces of my actual life story are recognized â albeit, through the lens of a schlatt x reader piece of fiction. but seen, nonetheless.
all of this to say that i'm glad my writing could be of comfort and solace to you. writing this fic so far has guided me through a handful of personal issues as well, and to think it could be helping someone else in a similar way is very fulfilling for me. it's not weird at all â if anything, comments like these encourage me to continue updating. not like i have ever intended to stop, anyways!
Schlatt who has never truly loved someone before and a reader who has had her heart broken too many times.
He loves her so much his heart aches with it, a physically weight that he carries in his chest. He wants to reach out to her but everytime he lifts his hands, they tremble. What if she doesn't want him? What if he accidentally hurts her too? Schlatt could never liv with himself if he did that to her, so he stays silent. He carries that weight in his chest and he laughs with her, smiles with her, loves her quietly.
adhd brain so efficient that the task(s) that took me a total of two and a half hours to do was put off for nearly a year... anyway, gold star masterlist post is finally up!
i'm intending to maaaybe sort through my AO3 bookmarks and compile them into the gold star list as well, but that's a task for another day... i'd have to reread through all my bookmarks and sort through which ones i actually still like, because a huge heap of works were bookmarked as my ways of showing kudos back when i didn't know how kudos worked haha. i might get started on that tomorrow after work, but we'll see.
also, SAU update. i mentioned this in my discord server but i thought it would be funny to post it here too.
heads up â i have finally finished importing all my works from @opalesense into my masterlist (which you can see by opening my pinned post!) this is something i have been holding off for months, despite it not taking that much time to do, so i'm relieved that it's actually done. although i evidently don't write genshin impact content anymore, i think that displaying my past works helps showcase my progress in writing over the years!
the next (and last, for now) blog formatting related task i have left is to organize all my reposted works under the #goldstar tag into one post, so expect to see that within the next two hours or so...
The latest chapter of Something About Us put me in a coma I hope you know that. Thank you for feeding us â¤ď¸
LOL iâm sorry! đ but iâm glad you awoke from your coma to send me an ask. thank you for reading <3
fun fact: the original ending (and the overarching plot of that chapter in general) was scrapped because it was too awkward and didnât really feel necessary for me to include, so i took quite a bit of time completely rewriting the entire chapter to make the final version of the ending make more sense.
i considered posting the outtake itself, since i already posted one the other week, but itâs too short to make an entirely separate post for it, so iâll just summarize it under the cut, since weâre on the topic of chapter 19.
basically, there was originally more description of schlatt being distant and crabby in santa monica (with a full section of the santa monica video in general, similar in depth to the disneyland chapter), but i took it all out completely because i found it redundant to read and it didnât really add much to the story, like the disneyland chapter did.
then, the griffith stuff stayed largely the same. but the ending was very different.
by the time schlatt and reader are driving home, there isnât much tension anymore (since the tension mostly took place in santa monica, then was pretty much resolved by the time the group gets to the observatory) so they have an awkward confrontational conversation about sleeping together. itâs a comedic section, and it ends with them just awkwardly walking back inside the house like normal â no hard feelings.
the way i revised the chapter for the final draft makes it so that the tension remains even when the group goes back to san diego, so that it isnât just glossed over within one chapter like it never happened.
i hope you enjoyed my silly writerâs thought process that you definitely did not ask for haha.
but thank you again for reading âsomething about us,â and expect chapter 20 before the end of 2024! it is a BEHEMOTH of a chapter since it marks the end of what i call âact II,â so i hope that is apology enough for my slow updates this past year.
i wonât spoil anything, obviously, but if chapter 19 put you in a coma, 20 might just kill you. thatâs all iâll say. AND it gets worse. so. <3
something about us [XIX] "two glass bottles" â an outtake!
summary: you and schlatt clear up some mixed signals and miscommunication about drunkenly sharing a couch together after a party.
warnings: very slight nsfw joke.
notes: for the sake of getting rid of it from my google drive since i officially won't be using it anymore, here's a very short barebones snippet of that aforementioned alternative scene. hope you all are enjoying chapter 20 so far since it was published recently!
You are definitely confused now. Were you misremembering what happened last night? Did it go further than just sleepy cuddles?
âWait⌠Schlatt, did weâŚ? Last night, did you and IâŚ?â
Schlatt quickly glances at you while he navigates through the hills and back to the city, but he has to do a double take to catch what youâre implying. âOh⌠oh! Oh no, we didnâtâ we didnât fuck. If thatâs what youâre thinking. No, no, no, I could never. I would neverââ
âOkay, because for a second I thought you were saying you did something to me while I was sleeping and that wouldâve beenââ
âAbsolutely not. No,â Schlattâs heart sunk at the thought, âNo, we justâ we just⌠cuddled. We slept together. Not in a sexual way. What happened was I was falling asleep and Ted decided it would be funny if he put you next to me while you were sleeping. And then I tried to wake you up and ask you if you wanted me to go back to my room or stay on the couch, and you told me to stay. But in hindsight, I shouldâve just followed my instincts and left, I mean, neither of us have the right judgments when weâre drunk, right?â
âBut Schlatt, Iââ
"I know, I might've pushed some kind of boundary, and that's seriously my bad. Like, not only is it unprofessional, but we're not at that point yet, and I genuinely apologize if I made you uncomfortable."
...Yet? Was he intending for something to grow between you?
"It's been eating me up all day," he fidgets with the steering wheel. "The thought of possibly making you uncomfortable with me."
âNo, but Schlatt... I liked it. I liked sleeping next to you. It was⌠comforting. Am I weird for that?â
He thinks about what you said for a moment. You liked being so close with him? You weren't uncomfortable at all? And he was getting in his head about you, like he has been for the past several months?
Schlatt lets out a long, drawn out sigh of relief hearing you say exactly what he hoped to hear. A grin is trying to creep up his face at the mere mention of you liking something he did, something so... intimate. But he ignores the bubbling feeling of joy and excitement in an effort to look cool. Nonchalant.
âNo, youâre not weird. I⌠I liked it too. I liked it a lot."
except i give you guys light angst instead in the real chapter, so insert that here, haha.
summary: this snippet includes part of a scene where the reader sets up a photoshoot for a merch drop featuring the lunch club members.
warnings: slightly nsfw joke
notes: FINALLY finished this monster of a chapter! it's really long because it sets up the current "arc" ending and the next one beginning, so it's... kind of a roller coaster of emotions. below is the only part of the chapter that i felt was fluff-ish enough to include as a lighthearted preview, so make sure to buckle in when you read the actual chapter because... oh boy. it's a lot.
Returning from the postal office (where the Lunch Club P.O. box was now up and running in hopes to receive packages from fans in the future, thanks to you, of course), you held the most important package in your arms three weeks before the start of TwitchCon. Inside this large hunk of cardboard were the finalized versions of the new merch that you had painstakingly worked on throughout the past spring and summer. It made it past weeks of reviews, tweaks, and packaging delays, and was finally in your possession, ready to be distributed to the boys so they could finally promote a project that had been on the works for months.
In the basement's common area, you spent most of the morning by yourself, working on setting up a photoshoot area for the group using a backdrop screenprinted with a repeating minimalistic pattern of the official Lunch Club logo â courtesy of a manufacturing company Ryan suggested weeks ago. By the time you finished setting up the studio lights borrowed from Ted, arranged a couple of chairs on the set, and unpacked the box of merch to take a peek inside, most of the group had finished eating brunch upstairs.
Ted was the first to come down, since he was the one with the camera you would use for the shoot, so he was the first one to be spoiled by the surprise. "Woah," he's taken aback by the set at first, bewildered by how official you made it look despite the very limited supplies you had. "This looks really professional for only costing, what, like, two hundred bucks? And my lights?"
"One hundred and eighty bucks, actually, with shipping and taxes," you snarkily reply, placing your hands on your hips with pride.
Ted lets out a halfhearted laugh, then after fiddling with his camera, hands it over to you. "Take good care of her. I've had her since the beginning of film school, she's practically my baby."
You wrap the neck strap around your head gently, and offer Ted a thumbs up while looking down at the camera screen, trying to orient yourself to its panel. "We're all good to go, I think. If you could bring all the boys down for me, please?"
"Yes, madam," Ted beams, then suddenly runs up the stairs, shouting, "Alright fellas, get all of yer asses down here right now! We're aboutta' start rootin' and shootin'!"
A distant drawn out "yeehaw" (likely from Charlie) above you makes you roll your eyes. These boys never ran out of ways to make noise echo throughout the house.
One by one, each of the Lunch Club members step down into the basement with 'oohs' and 'aahs,' until all of them convene in front of you and are now ogling the box behind you. Methodically, you explain that you would start with getting shots of each member with their respective pieces of merch, then you would get photos of each of them wearing the group merch, then a few group pictures with all of them together: one set with their group merch, and one set with them wearing whatever they chose to wear. All of these stills would be displayed on a new merch website that had already been prepared in advance by one of Schlatt's web developers he worked with, but you also intended to get some short candid video clips of them just goofing around and chatting with each other that could be used for a video promotion that could go on their channel.
If all went well, they could start promoting their merch exactly one week from now, and by the time TwitchCon rolls around, the manufacturing company should have enough pieces shipped to Ryan to be sold at the Lunch Club booth.
The shoot went as well as expected. Each member had their turns modelling their own pieces, with the remaining boys being hypemen behind the camera. As each session went by, you had a difficult time containing your excitement. Your art and your designs were on official pieces of merchandise that people all over the world had access to. You were directing a photoshoot, which granted, you had never done before nor had interest in, but for your first time trying it, each member seemed happy with the results when their mini modelling session was over.
Of course, when Schlatt's turn came around, you took the opportunity to get him in certain poses that accentuated his features. Partly for you to shamelessly stare at his good looks in your own time, but also partly because you knew a certain part of his audience would be more inclined to support the merch drop if he looked overwhelmingly handsome in his own clothes. If he could take advantage of you being a woman in his Love or Host show, you could take advantage of him being eye candy in clothes you designed. More money for the group. Everyone wins, and the score will be even between you two.
"Let's have you lean a little onto that back leg, and put your left thumb in your pocket... Then just look at Travis behind me... No, chin a little more to your right. There you go. Intense stare, andâŚ" you directed the tall man, as you kneeled on top of a nearby stool to compensate for his height.
"Can you roll up your sleeves a little, like so the hem goes about an inch below your elbow? Then just do that exact pose again... Yep, that's it. No, stop giggling. You're serious. You're calm. You're serious."
"Sorry." Youâre unsure what is so funny, but he stifles his laughter, then settles into the same pose as before.
"Okay, then can I maybe get you on the stool? Yeah, just sit like you normally would. Push your right knee outwards a little more, then let's get your elbows resting on your knees. Yep, and then clasp your hands together, and lift your head and look towards Trav, but not too much? You're trying to showcase your hat, so only let your eyes look up at him, not your entire head. Chin to the right. Perfect."
"I feel like you're shooting a fucking porno of me," he tries to contain his laughter. "It's like you're recreating that one face reveal photo of me looking up at the camera,"
"Just trust the process, J," you roll your eyes as the shutter snaps a few more times when he closes his mouth. "Here, you wanna look?"
You open the camera's preview gallery and show the rest of the boys first, who burst into a roar of overexaggerated gasps and whistles.
"Holy shit, he's hot!" Charlie moans, pretending to fan off his face.
Schlatt pulls himself off of the stool and meanders towards you, reaching a hand out to ask for the camera. Once you give it to him, and he clicks through the photos, he raises his eyebrows in approval. "Holy shit, I am hot."
"You sure are, handsome. Now get back in that damn chair, we have more porn to shoot," you tease. He shakes his head, chuckling as the boys keep cheering him on, chittering in excitement for his newfound confidence after seeing himself on camera.
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Nymph, I'd just like to make you aware that your work is the sole reason why I'm back on Tumblr and you just cannot understand the excitement I excited when I saw this notification or when you responded to my comment on ao3 đđđđđđđđ
