行き止まり

⊰ b y s t α η ∂ є r ⊱ it's always been this way. + yuno +

[cvo2v2]

everyone please simmer down

[stalkdiary-blog]

        “Too late, Yukki!” 

     And in a small amount of time, she finally did reach the first text.      A chuckle escapes, the thought of him sending a ‘ who are you ’      was quite amusing..!

                  “Remember when you asked me how I got your number?”

[observediary]

   It’s hopeless.

   There’s no point in even trying to stop her. He’s a mess,    a lousy as hell, sweaty mess.

                                                 “…Please don’t remind me.”

[stalkdiary-blog]

               “Yukki—, you’re so adorable..”

     Continuously scrolling to the deep end of her inbox,      reading each message they exchanged. Nostalgic, huh..

[observediary]

   “A—ahh! W—wait!”

    He’s doing his best not to turn red, but there were     some pretty embarrassing messages on that...!

                                                   “Don’t look at those!”

[observediary]

kyaarameru:

             ♑ //; Tries to lick elbow. Fails. “—Now you gotta be fuckin’ shittin’ me…” Keeps trying.

   「 ♟ 」 He’s doing his best to pretend that he never noticed.                                                  ...and to pretend that he never snickered either.

[mangafascination]

[observediary]

can we .... can we watch the stars together, yukki?

   「 ♟ 」 For a moment, he’s tempted to say yes.

                                She sounds so sincere; so innocent… And that’s exactly why he can’t say yes with a clear conscience. To be honest, the past few weeks have been particularly hard on him. Not physically, just… There are just too many thoughts in his head for him to actually think straight. Just the idea of watching stars — that in itself brings back too many memories. It’s so hard to think clearly. To be honest, It’s almost pathetic. He’s pathetic.

               “Um…                       Yuno, I… It sounds like a good idea, just… maybe not now.”

                       Crap. That doesn’t sound right either. Ahh, he really is terrible with this stuff… No wonder he never ever really had a … you know … girlfriend before. Or real friends for that matter. Haah. But still. Within all the chaos going on everywhere, would one fun night be so bad? Even if the whole idea of “stargazing” was something he wanted to do with them… It wouldn’t hurt, right?

                                                       …Even if he really only intended to stargaze with them.

                     Calm down. Smile. Slow down.                     Don’t think about it. Calm down.

                                   “…Actually, uhh… Yeah. I think that’s a great idea, Yuno.”                                                                                        …what the hell is wrong with him.

[observediary]

i love you yukki

    「 ♟ 」 ‘I love you, too’ sounds too cliché to be an actual answer choice. It’s not that he minds being cliché that much, but for some reason, silence felt like a better answer. It feels like it’s been years, and yet he still doesn’t know how to respond to such a simple statement. What an idiot.

             Still though.                             It sure is comforting to know that someone out there loves you, huh?

                                                                                               “…Yeah.”                                                                                                           Love you, too.

[gasaisyuno]

[stalkdiary-blog]

[observediary]

     「 ♟ 」 On second thought, maybe the weather isn't as bad as he thought.

[observediary]

watch the staRS WITH ME

     「 ♟ 」 "...It's too cloudy for stars."

                                               ...Maybe another time.

[flygons]

[shoujomagic]

[cosmicwizdom]

[earthnation-deactivated20131010]

is being ignored a hobby

[observediary]

I really love every part of you. even your cartilages. your blood vessels too.

             nothing changes about how bizarre the declaration is.

                            ❝—o…kay…?❞

[observediary]

♛ . Yuno —

                   ”…as what?                    —— a friend?                    —— an ally?                    —— or as a lover?”

           Such fairy-tale only is a make believe. A lie to satisfy her needs. However, her love stays genuine than any others —perhaps even than Yukiteru’s. She knew well enough that he remained to be with her to only be secured and safe.. and that’s what she assumed no matter how many thoughts of ’ hers being only his, and his only being hers ‘. It was because of it. It was the survival game..

                                               ”—and now that it's over.. do you still need me?”

           「 ♟ 」 ❝A...as...❞

                 Dammit. She really didn't believe him did she?                  Who would. Fingers clench and unclench to occupy                  himself. He really screwed up, huh?

                 But this time... this time is love really is real.

                                      ❝..As everything, Yuno.❞

                 As a friend, an ally, as a lover. As everything. Of course he                  needed her for the survival game —— but now? He still needs                  her. Because...because he fell in love. Amano Yukiteru, the                  school loner, shut-in, loser. Capable of loving and being loved.

                                      ❝You gave me a reason to live, Yuno.                                         Of course I need you.❞