I've moved over from @endless-elysium because I wanted a fresh start. Though I don't want to delete that account as it does hold nice memories for me.
I realised that I spent more time posting about my religion, rather than immersing myself in it. I spent more time scrolling on Tumblr and looking at pretty pictures and moodboards, allowing others' view of the Gods to influence mine entirely (No matter how good or how bad) rather than doing proper research and figuring out why I feel so connected to helpol, or even if I do. Figuring out my own perception and understanding of things.
After taking a few months away, and really focusing on it, I figured out the proper, genuine joy it can bring me. I figured out the way I view the Gods, the myths, the practices. I figured out which Gods I feel more connected to.
Everything is bound to change, I'm sure of it, but for now, I'm happy where I am, and I feel much more secure in my faith than I did before.
That's all to say, whatever religion you are, or whatever religion you're experimenting with, be sure to have patience for it, and to do proper research and not purely idolise every bit of it before you learn the details. I know it may seem tedious, but it is well worth it, and you'll be glad you did it. Either because you will feel so much more secure in your beliefs, or because you'll realise it just simply wasn't for you (Both are okay! I promise!)
I love this community, and I love helpol. It's made even the mundane so special. But that's only because I looked and realised it for myself, instead of only parroting the words of others.
This is not to say that you should ignore others' opinions, or that only your own views are correct; not at all. What I'm trying to convey is that you need your own foundation, before building upon it with all the wonderfully different ways other people view the world, and the way they go about showing it.
Your practice should bring you joy and comfort, not just those around you.