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trueshredguitar

when you cant control any of your behavior and you. and it goes brrrrrr. when the.

notabled-noodle

the other thing about OCPD is that I literally cannot do anything unless I turn it into a Task that Feels Productive

tumblr blog? more like a mission to correct every piece of misinformation I can find

reading? more like a project to read every book by a certain author or in a certain category by a set date

watching TV? much the same as reading. can’t do it unless I create some kind of goal or end point or reason

I collect data about podcasts just to feel alive. I write lists of media I need to consume just to feel a sense of accomplishment. life is a to-do list, and I aim to win

#oh a thousand percent #a THOUSAND percent

dankmemeuniversity

adhd-alien

ADHD behavior can be full of contradictions. I often see people give reasons as to why someone else can't have it and almost every time that reason either doesn't contradict ADHD, or can be even more of a sign for it.

Some day I'm going to be back on top and my skin will be under control and my eyebrows will be plucked and I can wear contacts again

#Some day I'll be back to that #Not the suicidal part #Just the contacts

I still laugh at that post that called not taking your ADHD meds "chaotic hungry"

#It occurs to me every time I forget to take my meds and spend the whole day eating #That was a good post #actuallyadhd

Brain: make a funny post

Me: but I don't have anything funny to say

Brain: then Bad

Me: what's bad?

Brain: All Bad

#Anyway this is my stream of consciousness #I don't have anything funny to make so everything's bad right now #actuallyadhd #actuallybipolar #Actually attention-seeking #Is that a tag because it should be

ocpdiddy

I've been having a lot of dreams recently, and the therapist in me wants to analyze them, but writing them down is so tedious just because there's so much content and I have no way of separating important from irrelevant details :/

ocpdiddy

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#That the first time I was served the drink it was on a soaked napkin that I had to suck the liquid out of #That I was at some kind of high school dance/banquet with some kid I didn't like #Whose sister weirdly came up to me asking me if I liked him #That I uncomfortably said sure because I didn't know how to say no #That I then went to the bar that opened up at that moment to avoid him #That he was dejectedly walking down a hall with his sister in tow as I walked back to the tables #That I went to sit with high school frienda I've blown off for the last year #(which is when I spilled the drink on myself)#Or how I was talking about getting my hair and nails done with my sister and this girl my sister used to be friends with but now hates #(despite the fact that I have absolutely no desire to do either of those things)#What's important???

I've been having a lot of dreams recently, and the therapist in me wants to analyze them, but writing them down is so tedious just because there's so much content and I have no way of separating important from irrelevant details :/

#Like does it matter that the drink hopper made me was called a 'dark gin'#Or that I really liked it despite hating gin?#That it was made with gin combined with lemon and lime crisps?#That when I spilled it on myself I was wearing black pants #But then when I fell on the floor to clean it off my legs I was wearing a dress?#?????#And that whole thing was maybe 1/20th of the dream #Just... So much happens in my dreams that I give up writing before half the details run out

juzt-peachy

ADHD brain be like:

battledeer

theradioghost

when the times get rough and I lose sight of the goal i just. reread “the orange” by wendy cope again & remember. that’s where I’m going folks. sooner or later, whatever it takes.

theradioghost

At lunchtime I bought a huge orange— The size of it made us all laugh. I peeled it and shared it with Robert and Dave— They got quarters and I had a half.

And that orange, it made me so happy, As ordinary things often do Just lately. The shopping. A walk in the park. This is peace and contentment. It’s new.

The rest of the day was quite easy. I did all the jobs on my list And enjoyed them and had some time over. I love you. I’m glad I exist.

– “The Orange,” Wendy Cope

#Not on brand but #This is how I feel

I want to write about not being depressed anymore but I'm only funny when I'm depressed and the only way to judge the quality of my work is by how pithy and funny it is, so I'm playing a losing game here

#I've had to delete a lot of really mediocre stuff #It makes for better prose but this isn't the platform for that #Maybe I just need to find my journal

Popping on here to say that I think -for the first time in at least 6 months, likely over a year- I'm coming out of this depressive episode

And that's rad ✌️

#I can't be sure but #Things seem... Not bad #And it's been a long time

adhd-alien

Hello world, ADHD is SO much more than just about attention.

(As always, not having all signs doesn’t mean you don’t have ADHD. Self talk doesn’t mean that constant stream of thoughts! Dr. Barkley explains it well)

autismandstuff

Me, in therapy on Monday: so I went out and socialized this weekend

My therapist: Fantastic! What was your motivation?

Me: pretty girl told me to

#Yes I have extreme social anxiety but #This very pretty girl told me to come out so #Out I go to suffer #actuallyanxious #Social anxiety

ocpdiddy

Okay this is a for-real question tho: how am I supposed to make sure I’m eating at least 350 calories for this latuda… if I’m not supposed to be looking at calorie content of my food? :/

ocpdiddy

Ooooo @on-the-precipice that's a good idea! I just shoved as much spaghetti down my throat as I possibly could last night, but this seems safer.

#Good thinking

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