unelicited notes of ill ease and fear

[officialbosstweed]

where am i/what year

i have officially jailbroke into my tumblr again after a sizeable amount of years of un-use. honestly, i’d even forgotten my username. what a strange feeling to come home to this website, my home from early 2012 to 2018.... it feels like i’ve been let into a time portal back to who i used to think i was. nice to be back in the blue screen walls, almost. 

[nevahosking]

Snake

[santeria-deactivated20170905]

[benafflecks]

“Here. Here’s simple and happy. That’s what I meant to give you.”

Beginners (2010) Mike Mills

[firesuns-archive]

honestly i know we joke and obviously amy dunne’s story is like. a dramaticized version of what happens to women in order to illustrate it on a more palpable level because it’s so out of the realm of normality so people don’t think it actually happens etc etc…. but if i can’t ditch the nuance for a sec and just chill out and have a conversation with someone about how and why amy dunne was right then WHAT is the point. like we can dissect the actual themes and overall message of gone girl but at the end of the day it’s way more refreshing to just sit down w a gal pal and be like…. if i ever ask a man what he’s doing with a $1200 laptop and he says “laptopping” i should be able to kill him without any real repercussions. that’s how the world should work

[mjalti]

me, killing my idealized self so I can finally thrive instead of just survive

[autoimmuneamy]

“Do you want to talk about it or be distracted from it” is honestly the best thing you can say to me when I say im sad/in pain etc.

[luckytwodollarbill-deactivated2]

this is really good advice to say to anyone who is upset

[pepsiprincesa]

[bellamybellarke--archive]

like full offense, but why are romcoms constantly being criticized for being “unrealistic” and “too self indulgent” but action movies with impossible car stunts and huge shoot out scenes that are led by an average looking, mildly in shape man (who is somehow a practically indestructible and unbeatable fighting robot) are not? 

the answer is because romcoms are generally made for women, and women’s fantasies are never indulged by society the same way men’s are. 

[l0v3-r3v9]

she said what had to be said

[brutalite]

nipples poking through a shirt are an accessory we should all learn to appreciate 

[prince-aziraphale]

The other day a man signed up for our advantage card and I asked for his “email” and he looked at me and goes “No?? I have a gmail, I don’t even know what an email is.” And I was just so in awe for a moment and I just smiled and enthusiastically replied “It’s okay that works!” Meanwhile internally screaming.

[prince-aziraphale]

Honestly if anyone wants to know what retail is like on a daily basis? This is it.

[buttonpoetry]

“I am not an ice sculpture whose inconvenient parts can be chiseled away.”

— Marshall Gillson, “For My White Coworkers”

[nemfrog]

The sun, the moon and the stars. Out-of-doors. v. 2. 1932.

[rohie-deactivated20191102]

“The low-maintenance woman, the ideal woman, has no appetite. This is not to say that she refuses food, sex, romance, emotional effort; to refuse is petulant, which is ironically more demanding. The woman without appetite politely finishes what’s on her plate, and declines seconds. She is satisfied and satisfiable.

A man’s appetite can be hearty, but a woman with an appetite is always voracious: her hunger always overreaches, because it is not supposed to exist. If she wants food, she is a glutton. If she wants sex, she is a slut. If she wants emotional care-taking, she is a high-maintenance bitch or, worse, an “attention whore”: an amalgam of sex-hunger and care-hunger, greedy not only to be fucked and paid but, most unforgivably of all, to be noticed.”

— Hunger Makes Me, Jess Zimmerman

[kozumek]

i love girls we are  so fun and have morals

[01101010-01100100]

me: no one understands me

me also: behaves unintelligibly

[olias-deactivated20171203]