Lost-ish
I'm sure I'm not the only human that constantly feels lost and confused in this world. The fact that there is no SET way to live and think makes this life shit so insane to me. Unlimited possibilities. No specific wrong or right. It's all how YOU justify and rationalize your decisions. People from every angle trying to project their views onto you. You HAVE to be strong minded or you'll get eaten alive. I do have the issue of expecting and I think that's why I feel so lost lately. I'm doing all the correct things, to me, but not seeing the results in certain areas of life. One being women. It's pretty clear that there is a shift in how a large number of women think nowadays. They're much stronger minded and have/seek positions of power which I love entirely. The women who know their true power but don't abuse it are the ones for me. It's the women that abuse the FUCK out of their power that is, to me, ruining love all together. Women are free to live and make their own decisions (should've always been this way) but now, I feel like since they've been held back from so much for so long, that now in the world is the result of the years and years of completely shutting women out, not letting them speak, using them etc. SuperEgo has infested the female mind at a high rate. This shift is making it very hard for a man like myself. I'm confident. But I like to show it quietly. Let my work speak for itself. I'm a true gentlemen. I plan on treating my woman like a queen. She gets what she wants because she's there for me, supports me, listens on my bad days. WHY in the world would I not treat someone like that with the utmost respect and love I have to offer? Yes I love to stunt. For me! I'm high maintenance because that's what I like. That's what attracts me. If others like that as well, cool. I get attention for it. But I just like nice things and will flaunt them on the low. Nowadays, women want trap niggas. Bad boys. Boys that create unnecessary friction. Women love arguing now. I hate the shit. Me being a rapper puts off this view that I have and only want hoes. No. I'm different. And it's hard to be different sometimes because it isn't accepted right away. Only when it is accepted by the masses is when those closest to you will accept who you truly are. Sad right? I love the craziness and lifestyle of a rapper but I also love the chill side and feel of a family. A chill night watching movies with my woman. Simply put: I want to perform the craziest most intense shows, followed an after party, followed by back to the hotel with my main. And repeat. All that extra shit is unnecessary and prone to public mistakes that I'm cool on. Conclusion Be you. Don't look for too much guidance on how to be the TYPE of person you want to be. Your thoughts will tell you every last detail of you slow down and listen. I really want to hear how you guys feel about this topic. It's been on my mind. Philosopher 💡