I have 99 problems and life is lowkey all of them @offkilling - Tumblr Blog

— “lucy”, he she, 18yo; main blog is @bugicidal . this is a vent blog; block, don’t report.

(i am pro self-diagnosis with proper research) — mostly posting about mdd, ocd, c-did, & cluster b; suspected bipolar.

people tags : #. 🎮 <- brother; #. ☀️ <- sister; #. 🌀 <- ex partner/prev fp; #. 💝 <- childhood bsf; #. 🪿 <- ex bsf

#// txt #// lyrics #// rb #// asks #. 🎮#. ☀️#. 🌀#. 💝#. 🪿

logging out of everything .

holy shit nobody fucking cares okay .

c said they’ll both be back soon ( i’m not sure how likely that is though ) , so i should crash sooner than later .

#// txt

offkilling

should i go crash my car ?

offkilling

laughing . the urge ( ? ) to do this is getting stronger by the second .

should i go crash my car ?

god fucking damnit .

we have a sense of urgency and intensity with basically everything we do / say , so it’s almost relieving when no one reaches out to us about any suicide - posting . we’ve actually attempted or gotten really close to attempting after posting about it maybe , , twice ? so it’s amazing to know that no one would care . no one would care and no one ever fucking reaches out about it , so i may as well go through it with .

#// txt

the funny thing is that people telling me how sad they’d be if i died either makes me feel worse does a large amount of nothing .

i either feel guilty and then more suicidal , or i’ll just be like , , well i won’t be around to experience your grief so why would i care ? ?

#// txt

will i even make it to then ? lmao .

there’s a riptide begging me to capsize .

#just over and over and over and over and over .#// lyrics

that’s fucking wild .

and just like that .

everyone pisses me off . and if no one even cares about me then , what’s the fucking point ?

#// txt

everything makes me want to end my life .