❛ 𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 , 𝑐𝑎𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑦 + 𝒄𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒍𝒚𝒂 …
“ good , “ she breathed the word in response to his confirmation , it wasn’t always important to her that cass said all the right things or voiced the exact same desires and hopes as her because somehow she knew it was true , that if he didn’t then he’d probably run a mile or get all freaked out like he had a habit of doing . she really did think it was good enough that he had promised , that it meant that he really did agree that he’d remember what was important . she still felt those little butterflies flutter their wings , a little squeeze in her heart , whenever he told her that he loved her in return or in general . it seemed so foreign but so perfect . it might have been the fact that she knew how difficult things were for him to voice at times that made it more special to her to know that he would do it , FOR HER . her lips moved against his as his hands moved to the tie of the robe she’d put on a few minutes earlier and she felt her lips curve into a smile as the tie came undone causing it to drop down since her arms were already free from his earlier help , the hand that had been positioned over the material of his clothing moving to slip under his shirt and slide against his torso instead . she liked the warmth , the feeling of his skin and the details of his body and at this point she was certain that she could probably describe every inch of him better than every inch of herself , whether that was inside or out . even so , cass always seemed to have more that he wasn’t showing , more things that were in his history or crushed back into his past waiting to spring out and that made cecilya desperate to know him even more intimately . the physical aspect was only one part of it but no matter how close they got , she always wanted to be closer to him and she was the type of person who always showed the cards in her deck ; she always showed how she felt , what she wanted , in her words , her actions and the way that she could ALWAYS make other people feel loved or wanted . at times it had been nothing but a projection but with cass it was real and she wanted him to always feel that , the wanting that she had for him and the care in which she delivered it , even when it was just fun . parting from the kiss she moved to press a kiss to his jaw and then whisper warm beside his ear , “ it’s definitely my turn to go first this time , “ she teases , referencing the way things normally went , the way he always tried to defer attention from himself and focus on her . for once she wasn’t asking . not because she didn’t care but because she felt that at this point , it was okay to go ahead , that it was comfortable , her hands moving to figure out the material at his waistband as she climbed off of him enough to pull the material down and off his legs without much trouble . “ look at that , i’m an expert , “ she was still teasing , her tone light as she climbed back on top of him and pulled his shirt up slightly so she could press her lips against his body , trailing downwards , one hand resting on the outer edge of his thigh as she pulled gently to press her lips against the front too and then the inside , making her way closer . her hand wrapped around him , a familiar motion , her lips still pressing against different spots as she began to move it before coming to run her tongue against him , gaze flicking up to watch his reaction .
showing things , feelings and giving back the love he desperately wanted to give back tenfold to cecilya , it wasn’t something that came easily . talking or opening up completely wasn’t something that really came all that easily either but when it came to her , he wanted to jump headfirst and try . even if his version of headfirst was a bit of a slower plummet to the ground . she was everything he wanted and more , everything he probably didn’t deserve but nothing he wanted to let go of . the way cecilya saw a future with him , saw a whole life . it was something he’d never saw for himself . a future or a life . figuring something would finally catch up to him and he’d be gone way too soon to have any real future or life to leave . but now he saw more , he saw something with cecilya . he saw a life with her . they both knew it didn’t fix him or cure him from all the demons he faced but she did still help him more than he could ever really put into words without it sounding completely cheesy . ⏤ it was crazy to think how they’d gotten here . after all this time , they managed to be where they were now . it wasn’t even the sexual position they were in but all of it . how comfortable they were with each other , how they knew each other like the back of their hands and how ridiculously in love they were with each other . that was probably the most shocking part of all of it for cassidy . not because it was cecilya but he’d never thought he’d love someone as much as he loved her . he didn’t think it was even possible , like that kind of love didn’t exist . that people that spoke of it , they were full of it . but now he knew , they weren’t . to feel such an intense connection with someone on every single level , it seemed incredibly rare . almost like you had to be lucky to catch it . that if you blinked too fast , you’d miss it .
tucking his lip underneath his top teeth , he bit at his bottom lip slightly when she began to maneuver herself . her hands trailing against his body and pulling down his clothes , pushing up the fabric of his shirt . sexual encounters were always such a weird thing for cassidy . he didn’t know if he got any real satisfaction out of it . for awhile , he thought there was something just that ticked a bit differently with him . but he came to find out he was just disconnected . that sure , it felt good in the normal , friction and motion bit of it all . but cassidy had always , even when he claimed not to be , been a very emotionally reactive person . if there was no emotional connect , he was disconnected . seemingly , that’s why it was so easy for him not to take anything seriously that happened to him . that he let things happen to him without letting it really process if he wanted it or not . but the way things had built with cecilya . the way they started with something a lot more emotionally driven , the way they built that comfort with each other . it brought everything up to an eleven . he trusted her and probably didn’t need her to ask him it was what he wanted because at this point she knew him so well , she knew when he was wanting something and when he wasn’t and she respected him . just as he did with her . cassidy did like to take the attention off himself but it was like cecilya had always slowly worked him up a point of letting some of the attention be on him . trying to let him get comfortable with the idea of it . ❛ you know me , i only like the best . pro shit only . ❜ he joked , his back straightening a bit when she started to move her lips against his skin , a rush like feeling bubbling in his chest as she moved closer and closer . pushing his palms against the mattress as her hand reached up to him and her tongue finally moved against the skin . cassidy closed his eyes for a moment at the feeling , opening them again after a moment . moving one of his hands over to hold onto her free arm as she began .














